Chapter 29: Realizing every mistake
Eddie
As I was almost at Loren's house I started to look at what surrounded me. Thinking back I used to be in such a different place than I am today. I always used too just want to be in love, this made me blinded not to see their true self. For example, Chloe was one of those people that made me blinded with love. I never once paid attention to how she always stumbled upon her words; I always just brushed it off and actually believed what she told me. Even though I made the mistake of falling in love despite everything that told me not to it paid off in the end. It helped me grow as a person, and make sure to keep my guard up when falling in love again. This feeling I overcame though after realizing Loren was not even remotely like Chloe. She was sweet, tenderhearted, caring, generous; beautiful the list just keeps on going on and on every single day. I now started to fog my mind up with memories of Loren and me, but I soon jumped back into reality when I heard a car honk behind me. Apparently I was at the stop sign just before Loren's house and the car behind me was getting annoyed at me just sitting there, and not moving the slightest inch. When the car honked though I then drove about a few feet and parked right in front of Loren's house. I then got off of my car and then closed the driver side's door. At first I was a little taken back that Loren's car wasn't there, but I didn't pay too much attention to it. I now was walking up to Loren's door, and I was about to knock until I noticed that the door was unlocked. I then left myself in only to see Nora sitting on the sofa. She looked pretty upset, almost as if she just lost a close family member.
Eddie: "Hey Nora are you alright you look grief stricken."
Nora: "Yeah I'm fine so where have you been, it's been quite a while since you left."
Eddie: "Oh I was just checking on my Dad, I went to the beach bungalow because I sort of knew he would be there."
Nora: "So all this time you knew where he was, and you could have just called him I'm sure he would have picked up." Nora said this like she was angry that I went to go check on my Dad, and her face only showed the expression of disappointment.
Eddie: "Well I wasn't hundred percent positive that he was there, so I just went to make sure my thought was right." I now took a step out of the living room because the situation took an awkward turn. I decided to go into Loren's room just to see her, considering the fact I felt like I haven't seen her forever.
Nora: {yelling} "Eddie it's really not a good idea to go in there." I now heard Nora yell, but still went into Loren's room either way. When I walked into her room though she was no were in sight, when I slightly walked into the room some more I saw that most of her stuff was gone. The only thing that I had seen that was still there was the poster she had of me.
Eddie: I now walked back into the living room with an abundance of questions for Nora. "Umm Nora where's Loren at, and why is hardly any of her stuff here?"
Nora: "Eddie I don't know how you are going to take this, then again though I'm not sure you'll even care considering the fact you didn't even give any thought to my daughter's feelings several hours ago." I was a little taken back by this at first, but I still replied to Nora's feisty remark.
Eddie: "What are you talking about Nora you know I love and care for you daughter deeply."
Nora: "Maybe you actually do Eddie, but don't you remember how just a few hours ago you walked out on her not even paying the slightest attention to her just like her father did when she was little."
Eddie: I now thought that what I did caused Loren to just run off, and I was thinking that she might of went up to our spot to think about it. At the same time though I was thinking of what an idiot I was for walking out on Loren like that. The thing that hurt the most though was even being compared to Loren's father for a second. I then said to Nora "I think I know where she might have ran off too, stay here in case she comes back while I g….. "I was then interrupted by Nora speaking.
Nora: "Eddie listen what you did to Loren not only hurt her, but it made her feel like you didn't care for her and her feelings anymore. And while you were gone, she made the decision with the help of others to leave. Since you weren't here to object to her decision she decided to leave today."
Eddie: "What do you mean she made the decision to leave?" I now asked Nora this with regret and sorrow in my voice.
Nora: "Loren left here for good; apparently she got offered a record deal in New York. Kelly told her as soon as she made her decision on if she wanted to leave to come down to the studio, and then off they go to New York. What I'm trying to say is Loren left to New York this took place several hours ago, which is when you were gone."
Eddie thoughts: I now suddenly realize that the urge pushing me too just go back to Loren's house was right. I should have listened to my gut and instinct as soon as I had any doubts about what I was doing. I started to shed a tear or two at the fact that Loren was gone, and it was my entire fault for making one of the most idiotic mistakes.
Eddie: "You mean she's gone, why would she just leave without calling me or anything."
Nora: "At least she had the decency to leave a note for you, so I really don't think you should be saying that considering you just left her without calling or anything."
Eddie: "She left a note for me where is it?"
Nora: Nora then pulled out a small folded piece of line paper from her back pocket. "Here she told me to give this to you when or if you got back." I then took the note from her hand a little hesitantly afraid that Loren would only show aggression in the note, if this did happen though I would understand why. I really couldn't imagine how she felt about my stupidity, but she probably felt miserable right now. When I opened the note all I noticed was Loren speaking in a calm mono tone, I smiled at this because this is one of the many things I love about her.
From: Loren
To: Eddie
Dear Eddie,
If you are reading this right now I hope you understand why I had to leave. The opportunity that came upon me was a once in a lifetime opportunity, and after all the pain I have endured it think I deserve some beneficial things in life. Anyways I know you are probably thinking of how much of an idiot you are for leaving me like my father, and now you suddenly realize your mistake after thinking clearly. I know people do this accidentally sometimes, but the way you did made it seem like you no longer cared for me. Truthfully I usually don't say things like this, but you are an idiot for breaking my heart like that, after how much we have been through you decide to put me in more pain. This is one of the many mistakes you have made that has caused my heart pain. Let's not forget what happened with Chloe right before I got into a car accident. I love you Eddie I truly do that's why it hurts to say what I am going to say next, we've been through a lot and I'm not sure I could endure anymore of your shenanigans so I decided that we should call it quits. Although I love and care for you deeply I don't think my heart can take in anymore pain. Don't bother showing up to where I am, because you will probably never find out where I live now. I hate to end what we had, but things happen for a reason, and this just had to happen I guess. So this is goodbye Eddie Duran it was honestly nice to be in a relationship with you, but all good things come to an end. I have to admit though its funny how we ended up together it's like we were meant to be. Now I know though it was too good to be true still though it was nice being able to love to love you.
Sincerely Loren Tate,
A.k.a. love to love you
The note that Loren had left for me made me feel lost for words. I can't believe that she broke up with me, but then again I understood under the circumstances she has been put through. Loren obviously wanted nothing to do with me anymore, but still that wouldn't make me stop caring for her. I wouldn't give up on Loren not today not ever. I knew she was the one after all that we have been through we should have been broken apart long ago, but we weren't and that's what made me believe we were truly meant to be. I now decided even though it was against Loren wishes to go to New York I would still go. I needed to make this up to her no matter how long that took days, months; years I really didn't care anymore I could not let her end things like this. I now made the decision to catch the next available flight to New York. I now got up from the couch abruptly which startled Nora. I was heading to the door while Nora was trying to stop me from exiting the house. I believe she knew where I was going and what I was going to do.
Nora: "Eddie you can't go chasing after her it's only going to make things worse."
Eddie: "Nora I really don't care I at least need to try I need to attempt to win her back." I said this in the most confident way, and yet I still stumbled upon my words as I was speaking impatiently.
Nora: "You know what Eddie fine go to New York, but don't come back here when Loren send you right back to L.A.
Eddie: "Alright Nora I won't anyways goodbye." I then walked out the door only to sprint over to my car. I needed to get to New York, and most importantly I needed to get Loren to forgive me. What I didn't know though was that this would only make matters worse in my part, just as things were beginning to seem fine and dandy everything turned to dust in a matter of seconds.
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