Warnings: TRIGGERS IN THIS CHAPTER!TRIGGER WARNING! TRIGGER WARNING! TRIGGER WARNING! CONTAINS SCENES OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, RAPE, AND MURDER.Chapter contains a homosexual incestual relationship and sexual content between two women. If you don't like it, don't read it.
Rating: M
Summary: What happens when she gets her wish and Tegan finds herself in an alternate reality where Sara is her girlfriend, and not her sister? Will be a LONG fic, updated often.
A/N: Busted my bottom to get this one up. Enjoy.
Disclaimer: COMPLETELY FICTIONAL!
In case you missed it: TRIGGER WARNING! CONTAINS SCENES OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, RAPE, AND MURDER.
Chapter 29 – Moments Like This.
Sara's POV
I looked out at the lake from my spot on the dock. Emy, Lindsey, and Tegan were all hard at work taking and recording measurements. They wouldn't let me help. Tegan bundled me up and sat me on the dock with my book. I hate feeling so useless, but I was sore. I really can't wait to finally give birth. I close my book, unable to concentrate on it and watch Tegan. It's been one of my favourite pastimes since we were little: just to watch her move, and her facial expressions, and all the little things she did that were just Tegan. Boy was it cold out here. I pulled the blanket around me a little snugger and sighed. The fall nip in the air was really setting in. Thanksgiving is coming up. So's the baby shower. I sigh. I've always wanted to be pregnant for Halloween though. I always thought that was cute. Yup, my December due date was fast approaching.
I look out across the lake, running my hands over Dani who was now kicking like a champ. I close my eyes and try and picture what she's going to look like. All I know is that Mum got her some super cute jumpers. Tegan's even more anxious to meet her than I am. I guess I do have a one up, she IS growing inside of me. I look across the lake. We can have hockey parties for her birthday.
My mind sits on that for a minute. I can't wait for the lake to freeze. We're far enough into the mountains that it should happen not far into winter. Wait…
I gasp.
"GUYS!" I yell out.
The boat starts coming back to shore. Before they dock, Tegan jumps onto the dock in a panic
"No, no I'm fine. But the lake. It's going to freeze!" I tell them.
Tegan rolls her eyes "Well yeah, but not until mid-December. "
"I'm due in Mid-December!" I exclaim.
"Sara, I'd do many things for you, but I can't make it freeze over faster."
"NO! You're not getting it. It's going to Freeze! It's going to go from a liquid state to a solid state right around when Dani's born" I explain.
Tegan's eyes go wide and Emy and Lindsey roll their eyes "Holy shit, I feel like a moron. pH levels? What the fuck were we thinking?" Emy exclaimed.
Tegan shook her head at me "Oh you. You were right. It was simpler than we thought."
I smiled at her "What was that?"
She chuckled "You were right."
I nodded and took the hug from her, letting her lift me to my feet in the embrace.
"Lets go eat that pizza now" I tell her.
We nod and I turn to Lindsey and Emy "Don't kill yourselves over this guys, lets just be happy we have a timeline now. We can all relax for the time being."
They nodded "Of course YOU figure it out!" Lindsey exclaims
"What's that supposed to mean?" I ask as we start to walk towards the house.
I don't get an answer, everyone just laughs.
We ate and watched a movie before Lindsey and Emy left. When the door closed, I turned to Tegan and sighed, walking right into her arms and putting my head on her chest.
"I'm exhausted" I tell her.
"Do you want a bath?" she asks.
I moan at the idea. Baths are my best friend right now. I nod and she smiles. I feel her lean down. What is she doing? I'm lifted into her arms and I smile.
"I love that you can do this" I tell her.
"Me too, love" she responds along with a kiss on the tip of my nose.
I giggle and she starts to carry me to our bedroom. She lays me down on our bed, and goes to draw the bath. I sigh and look at the ceiling, enjoying the soft bed beneath my achy back.
"Babe, what are we doing for Thanksgiving?" I call out.
"I dunno. I was guessing Mum, Dallas, and Leah were gonna come here" she calls back.
"Maybe we should actually invite them. We should do that tomorrow" I respond back.
"Alright Sare. Do we wanna do something for Halloween? It's not like we're gonna get trick or treaters here."
I sighed and thought about it. She was right. We were really secluded "I dunno. We really should do something for the fans though. I bet they're getting restless."
"I tweeted out a picture of you a week ago. They're still ooing and awing over it" she calls back.
"You did not! What was the picture of?" I ask
"Remember when I came home and found you balancing a glass of orange juice on your belly while you were reading?" She responds.
"TEGAN!" I call back, appalled.
"What? It was cute. They all thought so too" she responded, then walked back into our room.
"I'm here to escort you to your bath, m'lady" she says in her best English accent.
I laugh at her "Oh, really? You're such a dork."
She smiles and scoops me up "But I'm YOUR dork"
"That you are" I purr and let her undress me, then carry me to the tub. I see the bath thermometer in the form of a ducky bobbing in the water.
I sigh and let her ease me into the tub. I immediately feel my belly lighten and moan.
"I tossed in some Epsom salts to help your achiness" she mentions as she pulls her shirt over her head.
"Oh fuck Tegan, this is heaven" I rub my legs together as they are finally back to feeling like normal legs.
She smiles "I'm glad you can relax. You deserve it." She strips off her jeans, then underwear before joining me in the tub. I let her slip in behind me and wrap her arms around me. I lean back into her and sigh. One of my favourite places to be. My hand traces the 'I love you' and 'Sara' tattoos before she reaches for the body wash and starts to wash my back. I lean forward and moan.
"I could fall asleep right here" I whisper.
"Don't, you'll faceplant into the water. Come here, lean back and I'll wash your front. You can fall asleep against me."
And I did. As soon as my head hit her chest.
Tegan must have dried and dressed me, because I woke up the next morning tucked snugly into bed with my arms around her.
I smiled and reached out, petting the back of her head before looking at the alarm clock. It was only 4am. Why am I up?
Just then, Dani kicked me and I groaned. That's why. I really have to pee. I went to the bathroom, then headed back to bed. She kicked me again. I sighed and rubbed my tummy.
"C'mon baby girl. Mama's gotta sleep" I whispered to her.
I was answered by a harder kick and deflated onto my back on the bed, rolling my eyes. I looked over at Tegan who was fast asleep. There's no way I'm gonna get back to sleep. After knowing this, I rolled onto my side and using all my strength got out of bed. I headed out into the living room, and down stairs.
I got to the studio and grabbed my acoustic. It was soundproof down here, so I didn't have to worry about waking Tegan up. I strummed a chord and Dani quieted down, stopping the kick. I smiled.
"You like that, eh little one?"
I bet she can feel the vibrations of the wood through my tummy. I smiled and started playing Back In Your Head. Halfway through I yawned. I played for a bit, but got bored and headed into the controls room, firing up the computer. Tegan usually does the stuff with the fans. Maybe I should try. I wonder if any of them are up at 5am? I checked the twitter to see the cry out of the picture. I laughed. It really was a sweet picture. I started typing out a Facebook post.
Greetings. It's the other Quin this time. I know, I'm not really the tweeter in the family, but here I am. I couldn't sleep and Tegan's a lazy motherfucker who's sleeping like a log right now and I'm bored. What do you when you're bored at 5am?As soon as I posted it, notifications came pouring in. I clicked the first one and got a link to a cat video. I stayed up all night replying to posts and watching random videos people sent me. Then, I was sent a link to a story about Tegan and I. They call them fanfics. I giggled. This felt naughty. I wonder how many of them write about our sex life. That was answered very quickly. I was down there until 9am when Tegan started yelling my name.
"DOWNSTAIRS!" I called out.
She came barrelling down the stairs and swung open the French doors as I shut down the computer and swiveled the chair to face her.
"Good morning, darling" I tell her innocently.
"You scared the shit out of me" she said while exhaling a held in breath.
"Dani woke me up and I couldn't get back to sleep. Didn't want to wake you up so I came down here. It seems like most of our fans are awake at 4am too" I joke.
She chuckles "Oh, I'm sure they love you now. Want to go out for breakfast?"
I nod "That sounds great. Just let me get dressed."
An hour later, we find ourselves in a mom and pop style diner. I'm looking the menu over and I feel Tegan snake her foot up my calf. I smile. She always wants to be touching me. Not that I mind. It's just cute. Taking a drink of my water, I sit back in the booth.
"I've gotta stop at the hardware store after this. Pick up some tools for the weekend. I'm going on a build." Tegan tells me, not looking up from her menu.
"Yeah. I should probably get some bigger clothes too. Our kid's gonna be huge. I've almost outgrown my maternity stuff. I'm thinking about just giving up and living in sweats."
"Why not? We can hit Zellers and you can get a bunch of 'em" She tells me.
"You wouldn't mind me wearing sweats for two months?" I ask.
"Why would I mind. It' not like I only like you for your clothes, dummy!" she responds, never looking up from the menu. "Know what you're getting?"
I nod "Bacon, Eggs, and a tall glass of you"
She giggles "Later."
I smile and the waitress comes over so we order. I look back at Tegan "Remember our first date?"
She laughs "When I didn't tell you we were on a date and ordered the duck?"
I chuckle "Yeah. I never thought we'd be here. That seems like so long ago."
"Yeah. Oh man I wanted you so bad that night, then I just woke up and…" she blushed.
"Honey, you're adorable when you blush."
That made her blush deeper.
"Is there anywhere else you want to go while we're in the city?" I ask
She shakes her head "I wanna get home to watch the game with you. Oh, don't forget, we've gotta call the family today."
I nod. "Yes, Tegan. Maybe we should stop by that baby store on 14th and have a look around. I know mum got us almost everything we could possibly ever need, but I'd like to have a look for myself."
"Alright. Sounds like fun."
"She's been super active today" I note, rubbing my tummy as Dani kicked me.
"I bet it's getting cramped in there" Tegan notes.
"Yeah, well, she should be happy she didn't have to share it with someone" I jab.
I can see Tegan retreat at the comment "Oh, babe, I didn't mean it like that. I'm sure we were snuggly in there, I was just making a joke. I wouldn't have wanted to share a womb with anyone else."
I see her gulp and nod. Ouch struck a nerve there. Note to self: no more womb jokes.
We got home in the afternoon and I went to nap while Tegan put away the stuff we bought. The store had a baby sling, I thought it was cool and made her buy it. I laid down and closed my eyes. Not sleeping the night before had taken a lot out on me. I grabbed my pregnancy pillow and curled up to it, moaning as it smelt like Tegan. My back and feet hurt from walking. This pregnancy thing was cool the first few months, and now it's just annoying. I drift off quickly.
Tegan's POV
We ended up grocery shopping so Sara could get more cookies, and left with half the store. She was exhausted and fell asleep in the truck, so I sent her to nap while I put it away. I hate that she's not sleeping. Tonight I'm going to make sure she sleeps well. She needs it.
Once everything's put away, I sigh and collapse on the couch with a coke. I could really use some weed right about now. I'm feeling pretty tired too, but am going to enjoy some me time. With Sara being so sore lately, it's been all about her…sexually. She wants to lend me a hand, but she's so tired all the time and her back hurts. I don't mind at all, but right now I'm going to explode. I take a sip of my coke and turn the TV on. I scroll through the Pay Per Views and find some porn. I undo the button of my jeans and slip them off, letting my hand slip into my underwear and rub myself as the movie starts playing. I take a deep breath and find my clit, rubbing it in circles. Wow, I'm really wet.
I arch my back and focus on the screen, moving my fingers to enter myself. I'm really tight. It's been a while. I haven't had to masturbate in a long time. I wonder if I can still…oh yeah. I feel my fingers find a familiar spot that sends shocks through my body. I smile and roll my hips into my movements. I feel everything tighten and then let my orgasm take over. It's short and non-climactic. Nothing like with Sara. Nothing at all, but it'll do. I sigh and close my eyes.
Sara's POV
I slowly come into consciousness and smile. I feel good. I stretch and relax into the bed. I needed that nap. But now I want Tegan snuggles. I can hear the TV on in the other room, and I slowly make my way to my feet. I take another moment to stretch, then walk down the hallway. When I see her, I muffle a giggle. She fell asleep with her hand in her underwear, watching porn. Oh this is too cute. I walk around and sit on the couch, moving her legs onto my lap. I slowly moved her hand aside and replaced it with my own. I rubbed her clit gently and was rewarded with a moan and her back arching.
"Good morning gorgeous" I teased.
Her eyes shot open and she huffed, putting her hand over her eyes.
"That feels fucking good" she moaned.
I smiled and slipped two fingers into her, forcing her to buck her hips. I crawled up her body, supporting myself on my one hand and having just enough room between us for my belly. I kissed her passionately and curled my fingers again. Instead of wrapping her arms around me, she put her palms out and supported my shoulders.
"Let go, I've got you" she whispered
I let go of holding myself up, and let her as I moved inside of her. She moaned and I missed her again, needing to feel that moan vibrate in my mouth. I felt her tilt her pelvis into the couch and added more pressure. Suddenly, something felt wrong. I gently pulled out and wiped my fingers on my pants, then sat back and pulled her into my arms. Here come the water works. The only person I've ever been with who can well up with emotions just before they come.
I feel the tears on my neck as she curls into me and I kiss the top of her head. There are two reasons why Tegan cries out of the blue: her mind's just clued her into some fear, or something hit her deep and made her happy. One required talking, the other didn't.
"Do you wanna talk?" I whispered.
She shook her head. She's happy. I kiss her temple and feel Dani kick. Tegan must have felt her too, because her hand goes to my belly before she lifts my shirt off of it and kisses it. I feel the tears falling on my skin and my heart is swelling form such a touching moment. I wonder if Dani will get emotional like Tegan.
I run my hands through her hair and she rests her cheek on my tummy.
"I'm sorry" she whispers.
"Don't be. I love that you share your emotions with me like this. I never want you to hide this from me. This Tegan, this is way more intimate than sex. And is that more important" I whisper back and lean my head down to lay on hers.
Fingertips dance across my bare skin and she looks up at me, kissing me softly.
"You're perfect" she whispers.
I nod "I know. I'm glad you see it too"
She smiles.
"I'm only perfect when I'm with you" I remind her. "You bring it out in me."
I get a sigh in response.
"How do you always know when I want to stop and just need to cry into you?" she asks while drawing lazy circles on my tummy.
"I just…get this feeling. Something inside me tells me to stop and hold you, and I listen" I tell her.
"It's perfect. Everytime. Yous top just before I realize that I want you to. I don't even know it's going to happen until you pull me into you, and it all just floods my senses" she mumbles as she puts her face into my chest.
"Did you know that your tits are the BEST pillows?" she asks
I chuckle "Enjoy it while you can, soon they'll be leaky. Wet pillows aren't fun."
I see her grimace.
"Her, someone's gotta feed this kid" I remind her.
She laughs and moves away from me to look into my eyes. Moments like these are perfect.
