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Chapter 29
Jessica went home that night and was totally confused about how she felt. Had she liked Ryan all along and not noticed what was right in front of her. Had she spent too long trying to get with Elliot that she never even considered that maybe she would be better with Ryan.
Jessica really wanted to speak to someone but she had no one to talk to about this and this left her even more confused as she has no one to give her advice.
"Hey Jessica what are you doing still up at this time on a school night?" Jake asked as he walked into Jessica's room after noticing that her light was on.
"Nothing I couldn't sleep," Jessica sighed.
"Are you sure that's all?" Jake asked making sure his sister was ok
"Yeah that I'm fine" Jessica smiled. She did consider telling Jake about her situation but she knew he would tell Sarah so she decided not to.
"Well I'm away back to bed because I am tired and I've got a math test tomorrow," Jake said as he left Jessica's room.
Morning came and Jessica really didn't want to face school because she knew she was going to see both Ryan and Elliot and she wasn't sure what she was going to do.
"Are you ready?" Kim asked Jessica to see if she was ready to leave to go to school.
"Yeah just coming," Jessica replied.
"Have you finished your biology project?" Kim asked.
"Yeah," Jessica replied, "Oh no actually just got a little bit more to do," Jessica said as she remembered that she had invited Ryan round on Wednesday night.
"I finished mine yesterday," Kim replied, "Good thing that that is over. But on the bad side though that means that Ryan won't be round at our house again".
"Yeah unlucky for you," Jessica felt so awkward because she knew that Kim really did like Ryan.
Jessica and Kim had Biology first period and Jessica knew that this was going to be awkward. When she walked into class Ryan smiled at her and kept looking over at her the whole lesson. Jessica could tell that Ryan really did like her and she just wished that things weren't so awkward. As Jessica was walking out of class Ryan shouted on her and said he wanted to speak to her about their project.
"Yeah what about the project?" Jessica asked.
"I don't actually want to speak about the project but when you invited me round on Wednesday we are telling everyone I'm there to study so I was just keep the cover story going," Ryan explained.
"Oh right," Jessica smiled.
"Look I know you are confused but I just want to let you know that if it's time that you want then I'll wait because I know that you have stuff going on with Elliot," Ryan said as he could tell by how Jessica was being off with him today that she was confused.
"Thanks for being so understanding," Jessica smiled, "And I'll see you tomorrow night then".
"Yeah I can't wait," Ryan replied.
"What did Ryan want?" Kim asked as Jessica caught up with her.
"Oh was just asking what time to come round tomorrow night for finishing our biology project," Jessica replied.
When break came Jessica and Kim sat in the canteen but Jessica was really quite.
"What is wrong with you today?" Kim asked.
"Nothing I couldn't sleep last night and now I am really tired today," Jessica replied.
"I don't know if you have noticed but Elliot has been staring over at you for the last five minutes," Kim said as Jessica looked up over towards Elliot who was sitting with Sarah and Jake.
Elliot looked away as he noticed that Kim and Jessica had noticed him looking over. Jessica felt really upset seeing Elliot and she still hadn't spoken to him since he told her that they would never get together.
"You know I think I might go home I just feel really tired and feel a bit ill as well," Jessica said to Kim as she was finding it too hard to decide whether it was Elliot or Ryan that she really liked.
"Do you want me to walk you home?" Kim asked.
"No I'll be fine," Jessica replied. Kim was concerned for Jessica as she could tell that there was something wrong.
As Jessica was walking home she heard a voice shout on her and when she turned round she seen that it was Elliot.
"What do you want?" Jessica asked as she continued to walk home.
"Well first of all where are you going?" Elliot asked.
"Home because I'm not feeling very well," Jessica replied.
"Could you slow down you're walking a bit fast," Elliot said as he basically had to run to keep up with her .
"Why are you following me home anyway?" Jessica said as they arrived outside the Baker's house.
"I want to speak to you but you are making that a little bit difficult by practically running home," Elliot said.
"Well come on in then," Jessica said as she unlocked the door into her house.
"About what I said to you on Friday, well I didn't mean it," Elliot said as he tried to take back what he said.
"What part didn't you mean because you said quite a lot," Jessica replied.
"All of it. I don't want us not to be friends and I can't ignore my feelings that I have for you. I have tired and that is why I tried to end everything between us even our friendship but I was just too difficult for me. I couldn't go on just trying to pretend that everything was ok when really I really missed you and it's only Tuesday," Elliot said.
"You can't just do this to me. First you kiss me at the lake and tell me how much you like me and then you move here and try to forget that ever happened and say we are just friends, and then you tell me we can't even be friends. So what exactly are you trying to say to now?" Jessica asked. She was fed up of being mucked about by Elliot.
Elliot stalled to reply."See this is what I mean. You don't even know what you want and today you are going to tell me something else and then tomorrow you will be saying it's best that we aren't friends again!"
"Jessica all I know is that I am crazy about you. You are the first person I think about in the morning and the last person I think about at night and I know I have been really selfish and only been thinking about myself lately. I've decided that I want to be with you and now that Sarah is moving on I will tell her about how I feel about you," Elliot said sounding convinced about how he felt.
"Yeah you're right you have been selfish about all of this. But this is what you are saying today but when it comes to tomorrow you will have some excuse why you are not going to tell Sarah," Jessica knew Elliot too well and knew that he would change his mind by tomorrow.
"No I'm going to wait until she gets home from school and I will tell her right here today. I've had enough of mucking you about and lying to everyone. I am just going to be honest and live with the consequences so if it means that Sarah hates me then she hates me. Simple," Elliot replied. Jessica could tell that he was being quite serious about telling Sarah today.
Jessica knew that she couldn't let Elliot tell Sarah today especially when she wasn't even sure if it was Elliot who she wanted to be with. Last night she thought things between her and Elliot were over and she could seriously see herself with Ryan but now that Elliot had announced this she was even more confused than she was this morning.
"Don't tell Sarah today!" Jessica said.
Elliot looked surprised that Jessica had said that considering that she had been dying for her and Elliot to get together.
"Why?" Elliot asked.
"Because I feel this is too rushed and sudden. You change your mind everyday like you just said and you will have to live with the consequences well I want you to be sure that it will be worth it. You say that now but maybe this time next week you will be wishing that you never said anything to Sarah. I just think that you have to be sure like really sure about this," Jessica said as she bought herself more time to think about what she really wanted. Elliot or Ryan?
"Jessica I can honestly tell you that I will not change my mind. You mean everything to me and I've been too stupid to realise it. I've been scared of hurting Sarah but all I was doing while trying not to hurt Sarah was that I was hurting you," Elliot said.
"Do you really mean all this?" Jessica asked.
Elliot put his hands round Jessica's waist and pulled her closer towards him, "I do and I want to be with you," Elliot said before he kissed Jessica on the lips and she kissed him back.
"You have no idea how long I have wanted to do that for," Elliot smiled.
"Me too I have been waiting for that since the last time we kissed at the lake," Jessica replied.
"Well we have a lot of time to make up for as I wasted all this time that we could have been together to busy worrying about Sarah. I just want you to know that you mean a lot to me," Elliot said before he kissed Jessica again.
"What's wrong?" Elliot said as he noticed the smile on Jessica's face disappear.
"I'm just worried about telling Sarah because I don't want to hurt her but we have to because we have spent to long hiding out feelings," Jessica said. Jessica was also really worried about who it was that she really wanted to be with. Jessica hadn't had guys chase after her before and now she has two at once and she felt awful because she knew that she was going to end up hurting either Ryan or Elliot.
"I know it will be difficult at first but you never know Sarah seem to be happy with this Ethan guy so maybe she will understand," Elliot said trying to be positive.
"Yeah maybe," Jessica said.
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