"So why are you older?" Ban asks curiously. Strangely, Meliodas still hasn't commented on anything yet.
"Human form." I sigh, releasing it.
"It's not really flattering to say the least."
"I don't really care. It's helpful to me."
"Don't all females want large tits?"
"I don't really care."
"Pushing that point aside, when were you going to tell us?"
"When the time came I guess."
"And why were you talking to Nobuyuki from a direct connection?" The thought of that just makes me want to ram my head against a tree.
"Cause the idiot managed to let himself be kidnapped." I grumble.
"By?"
"Dreydi-fus. Dreyfus." I quickly correct myself.
"So he's here."
"...unfortunately." Why, why, why! The idiot just had to let himself get kidnapped by the fricking Grand Master. Although it was a kidnapping, he's still here! And that's going to be really bad.
"Why unfortunately?" Meliodas finally asked something.
"I feel like he's going to slip up." I murmur. He hasn't watched enough time travel animes or read enough fanfictions that are oc inserts, huh, this is could be considered one of those. I don't think anyone heard that. "He's going to get himself killed, that's why." I say louder.
"Why is this of any concern to you?" He asks.
"Because he's still my friend." I couldn't really meet anyone's gazes. "Look, can we please just head back to the tavern now? Please?" A desperate plea entered my voice. I need to brood about this alone. King senses my discomfort.
"Fine. Don't forget you still need to answer my questions from earlier."
"Everything will answer itself." It all happens in this arc anyway. I flew back ahead of them and entered my place. I summoned a large whiteboard and started creating a timeline of events, possible occurrences, and possible endings. The changes of me being there with selfish desires were on top, and the ones prioritizing the decrease in life loss on the bottom.
"Okay… Helbram's death is an inevitable. I can and probably should save the Dawn Roar because Yuki will have probably formed bonds with them." I placed those on the timeline. "If I were to go on that route, should I draw Fraudrin- or was it Fraudin, out? Or should I let him go?" I sit cross legged on the ground. "Okay, letting him go will most likely result in the beginning of what was-well I guess will be- considered the second holy war. At the very least the resurrection of the demon clan. Fighting him will most likely result in a loss on my end but should I be able to win then I don't know what will happen." I rub my head. Gah, too many variables to consider. "If he were to leave then I suppose I could try to bargain with the Demon King to give them a separate landmass to rule over and everything would be separate and since he's immortal he would be able to ensure that law until the ends of time. The island would probably have to be warded against angels because god, that archangel was mean. Maybe then, Zeldoris will drop whatever issue he has with Elizabeth, Meliodas avoids purgatory, and everything will follow a lighter path with less death. I can still ask Dolors and Gloxinia to train King and Diane, bringing them up to what was their new power level, Gowther's problem can still be resolved, and Merlin- never mind I forgot what her character arc was. Escanor's just going to do himself I guess. Was there anything else important? Right, this all hinges on the fact of actually being able to negotiate this out." I walk over and begin bashing my head against the wall. "WHY MUST TIME BE SO COMPLICATED. Why…"
"Ugh. Why am I brooding over something as trivial as this?"
"Lily are you okay?"
"Hmm? What do you think Sung?" I reply sarcastically, walking over to the mirror.
"No?"
"Damn straight. Unfortunately."
"You know you shouldn't think so much about life." He chastises.
"I know, you mentioned it multiple times before." I hear a song playing in the background. "Is that what I think it is?"
"No, it's not." He says quickly, a tad too quickly.
"I'm not stupid you know. Luke's watching Moana again."
"No." He protests. I raise my eyebrow. "Okay, fine maybe he is." A few moments passed. "You know, it's never a good idea to keep it all bottled up like that."
"Keep what?"
"Your emotions, you dummy. Don't deny, I saw you acting like this when Nobu started dating Alice."
"Blame Yuki, he somehow got his ass landed here. Now I'm stressing tf out of it. Knowing his goddamn charisma, he's going to get attached to someone and get himself killed!"
"... Lil, you're over thinking this way too much."
"Over thinking doesn't exist."
"I think you've read too many fanfictions about this stuff."
"Probably. But they are all very realistic possibilities."
"You really should take a break once in awhile."
"What are you talking about? This is a break."
"You and I both know that's not what I mean."
"I'm not stressed Sung. I'm perfectly fine, my brain isn't going to break down anytime soon, so chill."
"How about maybe, you chill?" I couldn't help it but I started laughing.
"Wow. That's really ironic…. I've caused and received two jokes related to the history of japan video today. Thanks for lifting my mood." He smirks.
"What can I say except you're welcome? For the wonderful world you know. So anyway let me say you're welcome~" He sings.
"I should've expected that." I roll my eyes. A muffled voice came from his end.
"And come to think of it, I gotta go! Your welcome! And bye!"
"Bye Sung. Good luck with being Maui." The connection cuts. I guess that was a short conversation. Well, it did lift my spirits a bit. I sigh. "Back to planning for hopefully the best outcome. I still don't know what to prioritize though..." Lives or friends? With everything I knew, I started drawing out all the possible timelines and outcomes that could occur based off what I do and change and what I don't. I wrote most of it in French because I'm pretty sure that most people on this continent wouldn't know it. Merlin and Gowther might but not anyone else.
"What are you doing?" I glance over at the doorway. It's King and Meliodas.
"Not much." I reply, flipping the whiteboard over and beginning to pushing it away. King grabs it first.
"Then what's this?"
"Stress relieving myself." I answer. He tries reading it.
"...This isn't in the common tongue."
"I know it isn't." This catches Meliodas's attention.
"Then what language is it written in?"
"I don't know what you would call it, but I know it as French."
"French?" He echoes.
"Yeah, I don't think you know it. Let's see… this is Britannia so maybe… I dunno, Gallican? Gaul's over the English channel." I muse. I've forgotten most things from socials. "Yeah, probably if an Asian dude can come up in the next year or so from like the other side of the globe."
"Besides the point." King interjects. "You are going to answer my questions. Now." He demands.
"Maybe I will, maybe I won't. Ask away." I invite.
"Explain what you meant by 'demon then the future is fucked.'"
"Isn't that obvious? If the Roars of Dawn, or was it Dawn Roar? Anyway if they're having trouble against that dude, then the future is screwed in case certain things occur."
"How so-"
"Speaking of, you picked up on how to dismantle one of those demons right?"
"Well, yes but-"
"Then the next month should be fine for the most part."
"Will you actually explain?!" I don't meet his gaze.
"I told you, everything will explain itself in the next month or so. You find out most of it on one day. I can't- no, I shouldn't tell you."
"Why?!"
"It's just! It's complicated okay? Things can change for better or worse." I pushed by bangs up with a hand. "It should be the safest route right now."
"Why can't you just tell me what you mean?!!" King shouts.
"I just can't!" I wail. He huffs angrily.
"Fine then." He growls before abruptly leaving. Meliodas paused a moment, narrowing his eyes at me before leaving with King.
"You really should've just told us." He leaves without another word. There's a song for this… I turn Lunalight into a keyboard and started playing an instrumental. Ah yes… I was obsessed with this for a few months.
"I wanna be like you, I wanna say that I can. I want to be the person that you think that I am. But even if I had it all come true like a dream, is the person I came to be the really real me?
"So young and simple, wishing like things would come true. Now as I am I understand it's best I die and soon.
"Just by living I'm hurting them another day, hundreds cry, all I do is ruin everything. Nobody wanted me, no one there to need, if only I could live in that kind of world I dreamed. Just by leaving, I'm helping them another day, hundreds smile, all they do is laugh at everything. Nobody there to scream, no more being mean but see things like that would never happen for me." I hum along for the next few verses skipping to the next chorus.
"Just by living, I'm nothing for another day, hundred lives, never knowing me or anything. Nobody wanted me, no one there to need, why would I wanna live in the kind of world I see? Just by leaving, I'm no one for another day, hundred lives, never changing them or anything, nobody there to scream, no more being mean to me, then could I have it all back in one piece?"
"Lily, you really shouldn't be depressed."
"Heya Sung. Sup? Dinner's over?"
"I know that song isn't a good sign. It's about suicide. And you were singing it to yourself too much five years ago." I gave a dry chuckle.
"Ha… I probably just done fucked myself."
"How?"
"I pushed away the person that I've been with for the past few years. He probably hates me now."
"No one could ever really hate you. You're too damn nice sometimes."
"Thanks but tell that to Rina and Rose. Plus, I was dick to Sachi. And Alice."
"Uh… They don't count?"
"You don't have to sugarcoat it, I know I'm a manipulative jackass."
"You're not. You can manipulative sometimes to steer us toward the best outcome, but that's it. The best outcome."
"I still don't know… Did you need help with your calculus homework?"
"Erm, yes actually. What the fuck is a domain?"
"...That's graphing. And you probably had to use it in grade ten."
"I forgot. Help please." I sigh. This is going to take a while.
Third person POV.
A few hours passed and Lillian is now on autopilot for answering questions. Which basically means that she's nearly asleep. Sung studies her for a minute.
"Do you like Nobuyuki?" He asked as an example question.
"No." Came her quiet reply.
"What are you worried about?"
"I can't decide."
"Decide between what?"
"To save lives or give my friends chance at more happiness."
"How so?"
"I can stop and basically delay the arc that takes place after kingdom infiltration one. I would just need to get rid of the demon in Dreyfus or make sure Hendrickson actually dies and then go after Dreyfus. If I let everything run it's natural course, Elaine gets revived eventually, and everyone grows stronger. Happy, except a lot of people die. I don't know."
"Sleep Lil. God do you need to actually relax one of these days." She truly nods off and Sung closes the connection. "Why do you push yourself so hard to make sure everyone's okay?"
SO heya! Merry Christmas folks! Hope you don't mind the short length, couldn't really thing of much to put. Oh yea, the following Christmas special was done in half an hour so sorry if it's basically shit. As you can see, Lillian is indecisive about what she wants to do. So people, do you want to see the ten commandments arc, like the whole thing or would you rather have it skipped over to a straight happy ending, or only do some of it but not all? I'm asking you this now because the things that can be changed for these outcomes come in the next arc and I don't really know where I'm going with this anymore. I know what I need to set up for the sequel with the kid and hetalia because I absolutely love it but I don't want to post until this is done. SO yea, feel free to give opinions. Also, thanks for all the reviews, favs and follows! Reviews are a writer's fuel so please, tell me what I'm fucking up on. On that note, here's a small pointless one shot. I hope you all have a great holiday this year! I wish you a Merry Christmas and a Happy new year!
I look outside. I guess it's time for my first Christmas with the sins. I mean like a Christmas has passed but there wasn't any time to actually celebrate it. I yawn and start pacing. Maybe Christmas doesn't exist here? It was a Christian holiday. I head to the forge, quickly working to make something for everybody. A small charm. A pair of wings for Meliodas and Elizabeth. Fairy wings for Ban. A stone golem for Diane. A tree for King. A book for Merlin. A heart for Gowther. Once all the charms were done and cooling, I started to the cords. They generally looked the same but they each had a different colour. I strung them all up and headed in search of each person, leaving the gift somewhere they would find it but not outright giving it to them. I took a small walk a small distance away. I start playing with my magic in a field. Creating a tree, I start decorating small orbs with my magic to make ornaments, as well as creating miniature lights. My final touch was a silver star for the top. That was fun! Studying it for a moment, I let it dissipate. As I walk back to the tavern I run into Gowther. With no way to go around him, I greet him.
"Hi Gowther! How are you doing?" He holds up the heart charm.
"Why did you place this into my pocket?" He deadpans.
"It was a gift."
"And why did you gift me a heart?"
"It was random."
"I see." He didn't say anything after that so I took it as a cue that I could leave. I was idly playing with a pebble in my hand , sanding the edges into a specific shape. It ended up turning into a star. Huh… I never really paid much attention to Christmas before since I usually spent it alone. I sigh.
"Merry Christmas guys. Hope you all are having fun and shit. One of you couples better walk under a mistletoe." I snicker at the thought. "Not that you don't PDA enough." I think I'm going crazy if I'm talking to myself. Well, whatever. I climbed to the top of a nearby tree, dropping off the pebble on the top. Well, time to treat it like a regular day.
