"Of course! Yes! Please!" I cringed at my over enthusiastic answer, "I'm ready now if you are?"
Lexa nodded her head in a single motion and moved back, giving my space to leave through the front door.
"Raven is driving by the way.. We're not alone." I turned around and locked the door, heaving my bag back onto my shoulder.
"I figured as such, that's why I'm here." I spun around to question her but left her to continue speaking, "I need to speak to both of you."
She surprised me, but I was barely in a position to question her, if that's what she wanted, what she needed, then of course I'd deliver.
"Okay then." I mumbled, mainly to myself as we made our way back to the car.
No words were spoken along the way, I guessed Lexa was saving all her words for the both of us, the thought made me nervous.
We soon found ourselves outside Raven's car, I could see the confusion written all over Raven's face as she stared at me through the windscreen. I opened up a back passenger door for Lexa, hoping chivalry might make the talk slightly easier, but from the cold shoulder she gave me as she brushed past, it wasn't likely.
I closed the door behind her once she was settled in and opened mine, climbing in I looked to Raven, "So Lexa is travelling with us, if you hadn't figured that out."
"Yeh! I can see!" She exclaimed, she turned around and smiled at Lexa, "how's it going? You all packed and ready?"
I watched through her wordlessly nod her head at Raven through the mirror. Raven turned around awkwardly and started the engine, looking at me as she spoke, "right, well, let's go I suppose."
It was a silent ride, save for the few directions spouting from Raven's GPS, we were only a few roads from our destination before Lexa spoke up, "can you please pull the car over?"
"What? Is something wrong? Are you okay?" Raven panicked. I turned around in my seat to look over her, she wasn't bleeding, nothing sticking out where it didn't belong, she still looked sun kissed and her eyes still sparkled.
"Finished staring at me, Clarke? I am fine, now, please stop the car." I flushed at Lexa's words and turned around in my seat, Raven looked over at me whilst she pulled the car over to the side of the road, her face was full of worry matching mine.
"Okay, so we've stopped, now what?" Raven asked as she turned off the engine.
"Now we talk about how you two lied to me." Lexa wasn't holding anything back.
"We didn't lie!" Raven spoke, "we just merely held back the truth."
I looked at Raven incredulously, "are you trying to help or make things worse?"
I turned round in my seat a second time to look at Lexa, "I'm sorry, I wanted to tell you so many times, but we were bound my contract not to say anything."
"But you told Octavia." I glared at Raven before turning back to Lexa.
"Yeh, but that was due to loudmouth over there speaking before noticing the company, it was simply bad timing." Raven smacked my arm in jest.
"Okay. So if you wanted to tell me, why didn't you?" I gulped as Lexa swung one leg over the other, settling herself in.
"I wanted to," I started, I was scared of how the discussion was going to do, "but I was scared. I didn't know you, or what you would do when you found out."
"You didn't trust me." She was hurt, that much was obvious.
"I'm sorry." I watched as she dropped her head at my admission, my heart dropping with it. This wasn't going well.
"So you let me trust you, trust you enough to tell you who I am, who my family are, yet that wasn't enough for you?" Her voice broke halfway through.
I hear a door open, Raven was getting out the car, "I'm just gonna give you some space.. "
I turned back to Lexa, "it was!"
"Clearly it wasn't!" It was the first time she raised her voice to me, "I'm sorry."
"No, I'm sorry. I don't have an excuse, I don't have a reason. I could have tried harder, I should have tried harder." I sat back in the seat, unable to see the broken look Lexa continued to wear. I knew I fucked up, I just wasn't sure how I could fix it.
"What's done is done. Would you like to call Raven back to the car?" I reached across the console and popped the door open, signalling for Raven to return.
She gave me a questioning look as she did, clearly she wanted to know if I was okay. I politely smiled at her and buckled my seat belt, "right then, let's get going."
It turned out we were closer to the house than we originally thought. Raven whistled as she pulled into the driveway, "Kane really went all out on this! Could we even afford this house without Kane's help?"
"Maybe not you guys.." I smiled at Lexa's sly response, we both knew she could afford to buy it many, many times over.
The comment seems to fly over Ravens head as she parked the car next to Octavias who came flying out the front door, "have you seen the size of this thing? What took you guys so long!"
"We were just packing everything up, took longer than expected," Raven covered for us, I thanked her with a smile as I climbed out of the car, dragging my bag behind me.
"Well you're here now, I've already sorted my room out, there's two rooms left, both the same size. One for the happy couple, and one for Lexa." Raven, Lexa and I paled at Octavia's words, we hadn't even thought about sleeping arrangements.
"O!" I called out, noticing Lexa's discomfort, "Lexa knows."
"Oh! Okay then, so one for the happy couple, and one for Raven?" I burst out laughing at her words.
"Slow down there, I'll just bunk with you if you don't mind." I didn't want to put Lexa is an even worse situation than she already was. I noticed Lexa straighten at my words as she brushed past again walking through the front door.
Octavia seemed to cotton onto my words, surprised I wasn't jumping at the opportunity to sleep in the same bed as Lexa. "Yeh! Course!" She waited until Lexa was out of ear shot, "what's that about?"
I sighed, it was obvious Lexa and I weren't on speaking terms, we needed to sort this out before the camera's turned up tomorrow morning. "She's not happy with me, with the fact I kept the whole 'fake relationship' a secret from her."
Octavia took my bag from me and led me to her room, Raven trailed along beside us, "so this week is either going to make or break you?"
I nodded, sighing once more, "pretty much, and considering this week I need to pretend to be pathetically in love with loudmouth over there, I'm not hopeful."
She threw her arm over my shoulder, "don't be like that, you've got me and Raven helping you, we will figure it out!" She stopped outside a door, "so this is us."
I pushed down the handle and swung it open, "very nice!" I heard the door behind us open, I swung around and found myself face to face with Lexa.
"Clarke. Octavia." I felt oddly formal.
"Lexa." Octavia and I spoke in time, I felt O look back and forth between Lexa and I before taking a step into our joint room and closing the door behind her.
"Do I need to be worried about Octavia too? Have you slept with her as well?" She asked as she leant against the door frame.
My gaze dropped to the floor, "no, I haven't slept with O. She's a friend, nothing more."
"You say 'friend' as if it's a reason why you would never sleep with someone, which is clearly not the case." I guess I deserved that, but it didn't hurt any less.
"Are you angry at me not telling you about Raven, or me sleeping with Raven?" I watched as her jaw tensed at my reply, she pushed herself off the door frame and took a step towards me.
"Does it matter?" She asked, "Does it change anything?" She took another step closer to me, "Does it finally make you trust me?"
It was a dig, a sly remark, and it stung like a bitch. She took one last look at me before retreating back into her room, "goodnight, Clarke."
