Chapter 29: Depression Hurts
When the two arrived back at the village they were staying at, they saw Sango and Miroku thinking about something deeply to themselves with mournful looks on their face.
Inuyasha jumped and stopped right in front of them and put Kagome back on the earths soil. "Where's the baby?" Inuyasha asked.
Miroku looked up at Inuyasha, "We never touched her. She's still in the room."
Inuyasha took Kagome's hand and pulled her with him in the room and shut the door behind him. There on the bedding where Kagome slept was the still figure of the child. Kagome began to cry again as she rushed towards her child and picked her up gracefully. "Oh Emi! I'm so sorry! Please forgive me; I didn't know what to do! It was my entire fault!" Her impatient sobbing crashed into the walls of the room.
Inuyasha just watched her without sudden action. Pain slipped into his heart and tears formed in his eyes. He wiped his eyes without letting Kagome see and held the rest in.
"Kagome," Sango slid the door open and peeked her head in. "May I come in?" Sango said politely, not wanting to disturb them.
Inuyasha turned to her, "Yeah."
Sango walked in and rushed over to Kagome side. "Kagome, Miroku's ready to perform the ceremony…" Sango's raspy voice said.
Kagome nodded and stood up, still holding the child. They all walked outside, Inuyasha by Kagome's side and Sango in front of them. They walked down the steps and Miroku was at the bottom with a small hole by a tree. Kagome looked at the hole and held her close, without handing her over t him. "No," her voice was still sore from sobbing. "Not here… I want her where I can see her everyday."
Miroku put his hands down, "Well I suppose we could do it near the well or the sacred tree."
Kagome smiled slightly, "Yeah that would be wonderful," a tear streamed down her cheek. "Thanks Miroku."
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The group was almost back to Kaede's villages, just a few more miles and then they were there. It was almost to sunset, and the group was hungry. Once they reached Kaede's they can perform the ceremony and then eat some food.
They reached over the hill and saw the village; in about 5 minuets they reached their destination.
5 MIN. LATER
Kagome decided she wanted her next to the tree, that way when she's home she would be able to put flowers there.
Miroku had dug the hole and now it was time to hand her over to him. Inuyasha was standing next to her with sadden eyes and drooping ears. Kagome was bawling at this point, it was hard handing her to Miroku and watching him burry her. Kagome couldn't bare looking at her being buried so she turned to Inuyasha and embraced him tightly as she bawled some more in his kimono.
Inuyasha wrapped his arm around her and watched Miroku cover the dirt on the infant. Sango was in tears as well, but not as much as Kagome. Inuyasha has never seen Kagome cry like this before, it was worse than the night she reviled to him that she'd been raped.
Miroku blocked out the sound of mourning from the people he loved and tried not to slip out some tears as well, he only concentrated on his prayers.
'Kagome…' Inuyasha was worried about her; he's never been so worried for her in his life. Until now…
When the burial was over, everyone was relieved for the sadness to be over. Kagome was the only one left crying still and didn't really have enough strength to walk the rest of the way back to the hut, so Inuyasha offered to carry her.
When they got to the hut, Kaede was standing outside waiting for their return. Inuyasha set Kagome to her feet carefully for her to walk. "Come in everyone, I made some stew," she put her hand on Kagome's back leading her into the hut and also comforting her.
They all sat around the fire, Kagome was leaning against Inuyasha's shoulder as she stared at the fire, waiting to be served. When everyone was handed their food, they all began eating, except for Kagome. She just stared at it, disgusted by the smell. "Kagome, are ye going to eat your food?" Kaede noticed her odd behavior.
Kagome set it down on the hard floor, "I'm not hungry at the moment…" Her voice was soft and dry.
Inuyasha stopped eating and looked at her, "Kagome, you haven't eaten for a day," he picked up her bowl and placed it back in her hands. "You need to eat it."
"I said I'm not hungry!" Her voiced raised and then placed it back down on the floor.
Everyone looked at her. They didn't mind. They all knew what kind of condition she was in, they knew she needed to eat, but they also knew she was suffering from a loss and was still in process in recovering.
Inuyasha put his bowl down and picked up hers, "don't make me shove this in your mouth!" he raised his voice as well.
Everyone was shaking their head. That was the stupidest move he could have done at a time like this. Yelling at her. After saying that, he knew it was coming to him, and he felt a stab of guilt in his chest.
Kagome smacked the bowl out of his hand, making the bowl falling on the floor with the stew all over the place. "Inuyasha you're the biggest jerk!" She stood up and walked out of the hut.
Miroku took his staff and hit Inuyasha in the head, giving him a large lump. "Inuyasha you need to control your mouth!" Miroku was upset, he didn't like to see Kagome like this, and Inuyasha just made it worse.
Kagome walked up the hill holding herself to keep her warm. It was night by this time and it was cold. Her pants protected her legs and her heavy sweatshirt embraced her skin. She looked forward and saw the path leading to the sacred tree. She stared in that direction and then walked through it.
There, she had found the tiny spot with a mound or dirt and flowers placed on top. She ran over and dropped on her knees and hugged the ground as if it were her daughter. After a while of embracing, she began to weep softly.
"Inuyasha you better go find her. It's cold outside and you don't want her getting—" Before Miroku could finish his sentence, Inuyasha was already out the door.
Inuyasha had a feeling where she would be, since she wasn't outside the hut. He walked up the same hill and through the same path she was at. And then he saw her on the cold floor, miserable as ever. Inuyasha went to her side and knelt down to put his hand on her shoulder. "I'm sorry, Kagome."
Kagome sat up and wiped her eyes, "no, I'm the one who should be apologizing. You were only worrying about my health and I just yelled at you."
They looked at each other for a while. Her eyes were red and puffy and her beautiful brown eyes were now into a black. His eyes were soft and soothing with compassion and a little watery like he was going to cry. He slowly moved into a kiss on the lips.
She kissed back and held pulled her in for a tighter hold of her. She opened her eyes and pushed him off. Looking the other way. "Not… Not now…" She wasn't in the mood for anything. She was too tired and drained.
She then looked back at Inuyasha's emotionless face and rested her head on his shoulder. Inuyasha put a hand on her back, "Common, it's getting cold out here…" He picked her up and carried her back to the hut.
To Be Continued…
Author's Note: Well I hope you guys like this chapter. And for the person who said that she seems like she's getting over it fast. Believe me, she's now. There are going to be several chapters before she's in such a miserable stage. Anyways, I hope lot's of you review. And Lauren, I'm not going to update again until you update your story
-Katai
