Forgiveness HikaHaruKao Style

A loud banging and equally loud music began playing. Which is what startled me awake. I forgot in that moment that I was healed but soon remembered because I sat up so fast that if had done it yesterday I would have screamed in pain.

I breathed out in relief when it registered in my sleepy brain that I could easily get up and see what the hell was going on. So carefully, I kicked off the covers and climbed out of bed.

A bed that I was alone in for that matter. Apparently Tamaki didn't stay with me all night after all.

I found a night robe draped over the foot of the bed. Someone must have thought I would need it and they were right. It was kind of cold. For all I knew it might still be raining outside. I slid my feet into some slippers that were near by the side of my bed as well.

I ignored the coincidence and left my room to find the source of the chaotic noise. The closer I got to the kitchen, the louder it became. Standing in the door way, my mouth fell open as I observed the disaster.

Hikaru was sitting at the bar counter with his head down and his arms grasping his head. He looked like he was suffering which I completely understood because on the other side of the counter was Kaoru banging pans together while he cooked.

I mean it, he was cooking. With pans on the stove and everything. Cracked eggs all over the counter, and who know what else. Such a mess.

He was also singing along to music. The really loud music, and he wasn't even trying to be on key.

"Slowly out of line and drifting closer in your sights. So play it out, I'm wide awake. It's a scene about me" He was poking the eggs in the pan with a spatula before placing them on plates, not even pausing to take a breath he sang. "There's something in your way and now someone is gonna pay. And if you can't get what you want. Well it's all because of me"

Bang, he tossed a no longer needed pan into the sink and spun around to face his brother. Dancing the entire time. The music hit a few strong beats and Kao put his face near his brothers head.

"Now dance, fucker, dance. Man, he never had a chance And no one even knew. It was really only you!"

I leaned against the wall and watched in horror at what Kao was doing to his brother. I was still not fully awake enough to react and put an end to it.

Kao drummed on the counter with his hands and continued singing. "And now you'll lead the way. Show the light of day" He raised his voice, "Nice work you did You're gonna go far, kid! TRUST DECEIVED!"

I moved closer to the scene. Listening to Kao's off tone singing. Unable to stop the torture, not sure what I was really doing for that matter. The song had gone on for a couple minutes more and now Kao was bopping Hika on the head with his palm at strategic moments of the song.

"Now dance, fucker, dance. Man, he never had a chance And no one even knew. It was really only you! So dance, fucker, dance I never had a chance It was really only you"

Smack smack smack.

"Kaoru!" I finally was able snap out of my shock to shout at him.

Kao stopped beating on his brother and looking surprised to see me, his face contorted into one of regret and embarrassment. He reached around to the counter and picked up a remote shutting off the stereo before the song had ended.

"Sorry. Sorry." He said quickly abandoning Hika and hurrying over to my side. "I didn't mean to wake you." He paused a moment to look at me. Then realization his him. "Haruhi, you're walking?"

I rolled my eyes. "I thought they told you."

He fidgeted, "well, yeah. But I didn't believe them."

I shook my head and moved around him to place my hand on Hika's back. His head was still on the counter though his arms were now draped over it instead of his head. He groaned.

"Kao, what were you doing to him?" I asked while I petted Hika's hair and caressed the back of his neck. He moaned in response to my touch.

"He deserved it." Was the simple answer.

"No, he doesn't." I snapped and bent down to Hika who was still wallowing in the pain of his hang over.

"But-" Kao started but he was cut off by Hika.

"He's right." He mumbled. "I deserve it."

"Hika." I said softly.

Kaoru came around the counter and up to the other side of Hikaru then leaned back while resting his elbows on the tile. "So what? You're gonna forgive him that easily?" He scoffed. I could see in his face that he was irritated and angry. Not an expression he wears that often and it surprised me. But I can't be mad at him. Just like I can't be mad at Hikaru, poor guy.

"As far as I see it, there is nothing to forgive." I said as I continued to pet Hika's hair. He turned his face to look at me. His eyes were watery but I couldn't tell if it was from sadness or pain.

"I'm sorry." He muttered soundlessly.

I looked at the healthy twin standing up with that annoyed look on his face. "Aren't you supposed to be Kaoru?" I asked sternly.

He bit his lip and looked down sighing. He shook his head slightly.

"You're right." He pushed himself up and headed to the fridge. "Bananas and orange juice.. coming right up. Be glad she is on your side, Hikaru."

I threw another glare at Kaoru and he held his hands up in surrender when he saw me. Then turned back to the fridge and started muttering the lyrics to the song he was singing previously.

"Come on, Hika. Time to lay down." I helped the staggering boy up and lead him to my room. At least he wasn't drunk anymore.

Once we got there, he flopped down on the bed faced down and groaned. I sat down beside him. He slowly inched his way up till his face was on the pillows.

What I didn't understand, is what he drank last night. The three of us are no strangers to the drinking game. We did the bar hopping thing when we came of age... though at the time I was reluctant. I was still intending to become a lawyer and I had no intention to find myself in the hangover state.

Of course, Hikaru and Kaoru didn't care about how I felt at the time. And I was grateful. Life would have been all work and no play without them.

Looking back now, I wish that I wasn't so quick to reject their suggestions. But even so, our drinking binges resulted in very few hangovers. Kao and I preferred our drinks to be mixed up. Hika on the other hand liked it straight.

That's probably what caused this.

"How's your head?" I asked.

He didn't respond at first, his breathing was harsh and uneven. I didn't move, I just waited. Eventually he said, "Fucking kill me before I do that again."

"It would be easier if you didn't run away from me every time we had a fight." I brushed the hair on the back of his head again. It's the only comfort I could offer him in this state. Honestly, what else could I do?

"I didn't run away from you. I was avoiding you." He protested into my blankets, "There's a difference"'

I smiled at him. My stupid Hikaru. "Then stop avoiding me, you idiot." I teased him.

"Seriously, Hikaru. You're such a dumb ass sometimes." His brother said from the doorway. Kaoru had a tray in his hands, a humorous sight knowing him as well as I do. That pampered boy wouldn't carry a food tray for just anyone.

He had not only the hangover cure smoothy that their mother showed us the first time we came home faded practically to oblivion, but he also had food on it. Our breakfast most likely. I smirked at Kao, he threw me a 'shut-up' look.

"Sit up," I patted Hikaru's shoulder gently. Slowly, he rolled over and propped himself up on his elbows before sitting up, his face was in a grimace the entire time. Not to mention he moaned liked a big baby.

Kao brought the tray closer to me and I took it from him, placing it on the bedside table. I took the glass with the "cure" handing it to Hikaru. Kaoru had gone to the other side of the bed to sit beside his brother. His face showed his internal struggle, to be mad at his twin... or to embrace him.

I suppressed the urge to smirk at him again. I knew he couldn't stay mad at Hikaru for very long. We've been through enough fights over the years that it wasn't too hard to believe that one moment they could be at each others throats.. and the next being all lovey dovey. It was sweet in it's own way.

"I put in a few of those pain killers while I blended it." He said to his twin. "Drink and don't ever do this again.. or I am gonna put something else in there instead."

The moron rolled his eyes at Kao, not at all taking the threat seriously. I pursed my lips and frowned slightly.

"Like what?" Hika said sarcastically when he took a swig of the drink.

"Like frog guts and mom's toe nails." Hika choked a little. Kaoru laughed, and I shook my head.


Not even ten minutes later, the three of us were in my large bed. I was on the right side, Kao was on the left and Hika.. well... he was snoring in between us. We were propped up on our elbows, leaning our heads in our hands while we faced each other over lump between us.

My free hand was toying with a strand of Hika's hair. I was happy to have him back in my life, glad that he was no longer avoiding me and relieved to know he still had love for me, even if it was just enough to find comfort on my couch after a drunken binge.

"You didn't put pain killers in the cure, did you?" I asked.

"Nope." Kaoru said, his free hand came up to caress his brothers cheek. "I dropped in a couple of ambiens. I was tempted to toss in a couple of pain killers but figured that would be going over board."

"Yeah, you're right." I glanced down at Hika watching his sleeping face wince every now and then. "What the hell were you thinking this morning anyway? Hitting him in the head like that? Are you serious?"

Kao smiled at me, slightly ashamed and overly bemused. "I told him bourbon was a bad idea."

"Bourbon? Since when?"

"Since the last circle meeting. This morning he told me he graduated to whisky and sheri last night." Kao was trying to keep the sarcasm out of his voice but failed miserably. "I didn't go all out right away with the noise. I started with just talking loud... then I said I would make breakfast and figured mini omelets would make enough noise. He started making rude comments again and then I started the music."

"But why that song? Why that much noise... and why the hitting? It was unfair, if you ask me."

"He told me he's been here everyday since you woke up. That he was fixing up the house. He told me off for keeping him from you. Then he started talking crap again about how unfair it was that you were just screwing around." Kao frowned a moment then bit his lip. "The loud noise was for what he said after I asked him about the last time he screwed around. I only asked because I wanted to prove how unfair we had been to you."

"I really don't care who you guys are sleeping with anymore." I said rolling my eyes.

"Yeah, I know, but he really pissed me off." Kaoru rolled over onto his back pressing his hands to his face and groaning. "Why is he such a fucking moron!?"

"Shh." I frowned at him. "You're gonna wake the moron up. Besides... who could it have been if it made you so mad?"

He struggled with the words. I could tell it was bothering him. Eventually, he couldn't hold it back anymore.

"Fucking, Kanoya." He snapped.

I sat up then and glanced down on Hikaru. "The model?"

"Yeah. Now you see why I hit him?" Kaoru muttered also sitting up.

I looked up into Kaoru's face. The guy looked worried. I wasn't angry with him for telling me. Hell, I wasn't even angry at Hikaru for sleeping with my look-a-like. I should be, I know but in a way... it find it more disturbing than anything.

"You still shouldn't have hit him." I wrinkled my nose.

"Yeah, well. He's my brother." Kaoru fell back down next to Hikaru and wrapped his brother into his arm. He snuggled up against him and closed his eyes. I couldn't help but smile at the endearing sight of the Hitachiin brothers.

"True." I said as I leaned down to kiss them both on the cheek before sliding off the bed. I wrapped the robe around me tighter, not once taking my eyes off the twins.

"It's good to see you standing." Kaoru said. "I almost thought I lost your for a while."

"Remind me never to fight with anyone at the top of the stairs again." I muttered. "Sorry for scaring you."

"Don't be sorry. Just be safe. That creepy goth chick was right. I wasn't able to protect you." He sighed and snuggled closer to Hikaru. "But she and that scary guy really fixed you up. How do you feel?"

I shrugged. "Stiff still. No pain but I am still a bit limited. I can go back to work but, after last night... I think I might avoid rough encounters."

"Last night?" He grinned. "Did the boss get to you? What a pervert. I knew he was bad.. but taking advantage of a girl afraid of thunderstorms, and one who just healed after a fall down the stairs..." he trailed off.

"Don't start." I said simply. I picked up the tray with our empty plates and headed to the door. "He's gonna be out for a while. I'm gonna go take a shower."

Then I walked out, leaving the two boys alone.

Water rushing down my body felt so good. I was finally able to shower by myself, without people helping me. Normally, I wouldn't mind sharing a shower but not being able to take care of myself was kind of irritating.

I closed my eyes while I washed my hair with the strawberry shampoo I loved so much. The smell of it no longer reminded me of just myself... it reminded me of a sweet man with sandy blond hair and brown eyes. A man who's lips tasted of sweets and touches were so gentle it made my toes curl just thinking about it.

My thoughts were lost and I almost didn't hear the door to my bathroom open. Almost.

"Kaoru?" I asked while I rinsed the soap from my hair.

"As usual. You are correct." He teased. "I didn't even make a sound this time."

"Yeah, you did. You opened the door." I could see his shape through the blurry foggy glass door. This bathroom was different from my last. The shower and bath were no longer one and the same. There was a free standing bath at the other side of the room and the shower looked like a long closet with a glass door.

I watched him shrug off my last comment before he stripped his clothing off. While he did that I put in my conditioner and had enough time to rinse it out. Soon enough he opened the door and joined me.

His hands came to my sides and pulled me close to him. My back to his chest, Kaoru reached around and grabbed the soap from it's place in the wall niche. He lathered his hands then caressed my body, pretending to be washing me.

"Kao?" I asked softly.

"Shh." He said in my ear which caused me to shiver. "I missed this. Please let me."

I smiled and melted back into his embrace. His lips nipped at the tip of my ear, placing kisses along the rim till he used his soapy hand to guide my neck to turn so he could repeat it with my other ear.

"You really shouldn't." I gave him my usual protest.

"I really don't care." He replied into my ear. His hands were traveling lower till he was able to slide his hands between my thighs. He kissed down my neck and bite my shoulder.

"Kao.." I moaned while I pressed backwards into him. I felt him twitch and harden against my lower back. He didn't relent in the touching, which traveled from my thighs to my hips up my torso and finally resting on my breasts.

"Haru." He whispered. "I want you."

I felt my face flush warm and my heart quicken. I loved hearing that from him. Though I won't admit it out loud. I twisted in his arms facing him and soaping him up along with me.

He grinned at me and I nodded my acceptance. Not even a second and he had lifted my up and pressed me against the wall. My legs wrapping around him for support as he quickly entered me.

"Don't... slip." I said, not really caring how unsexy that sounded. Kaoru only chuckled at that and began thrusting.

If I wasn't blushing before.. I was now. And I knew it wasn't just in my face because if felt the warmth travel down my neck.

Amidst groans and moans and cries of pleasure, we forgot that there was another presence in my house. It wasn't like he could hear us anyway with what Kao gave him.

I felt myself tighten up inside and moaned for him to move faster, which he did. He was holding back I could see it but just as he could no longer hold back, I found I couldn't hold back any longer as well.

I bit my lip as I came down from my high, sighing and closing my eyes. I relished the last few moments before he carefully slide out and helped me down.

He kissed me, with his hands on either side of my face, brushing away the wet hair that was sticking to my face.

"Was that too rough?" he whispered. "I didn't hurt you did I?"

I shook my head. "It was fine." I said softly. "Better than fine." I let myself admit. "Thank you."

Kaoru grinned happily and wrapped me up into his arms again.

"Umm... Kao..?"

"Hmm?"

"Soap." I said simply.

"Right, sorry." He let me go so I could rinse off. He too followed suit and cleaned off.

"Where have you two been?" Hikaru said. He was pressing a hand against his forehead as he walked into the living room where Kao and I decided to snuggle up and watch a movie or two.

"Hikaru!" Kaoru said happily. "Join us."

I smirked a little at Kao's change in attitude. Our little shower excursion must have fixed all his frustration.

"Hi, Hika." I said carefully. "How are you feeling?"

He shrugged and wiped his face with both hands before coming towards us and flopping down upon the sofa. I glanced at Kao and he nodded at me. "Go to him." He mouthed to me.

I slid out of Kaoru's embrace and did something I normally would save for private moments. I climbed over to Hikaru and straddled his hips, then I leaned down and kissed him hard on the lips.

He held his breath for a moment and stiffened. I didn't let go. I pushed for a deeper kiss by licking his lips. Of course he didn't resist but allowed me to kiss him.

A moment more had passed before Hikaru.. my Hikaru returned and wrapped his arms around me returning my kiss. His body relaxed, pulling me close, not wanting to ever let go. His hunger was evident when one of his hands came to the back of my head and held me in place so he could press even closer. Which I was surprised was even possible.

It was almost as if he had been dying of thirst and was taking in the first glass of water in months. Like he would stop breathing if he stopped. A kiss like this one was rare.. breathless.

Broken only when Kao cleared his throat.

Snapping back to reality we pulled apart. Staring disbelieving into each other.

We were a trio again.

I smiled at Hikaru who finally let me go enough to pull back. "I'm really sorry."

"Shut up." I said and pecked his lips again before sliding off of him and back into my place on the sofa.. right in between the two men.

We fell into a comfortable silence and watched the rest of the movie. The rest of the day was just like it used to be. Hika picking on me. Kao picking on me. The two of them close as ever and there I sat between the two being tugged into both directions.

It felt good to be whole again.

Later that night. And I do mean late. Hika slept most of the day away and wasn't bout to fall back asleep. This meant that non of us were allowed to go to bed.

When eventually we were tired, all three of us were back into my large bed. This time, I was in the middle. Rolled onto my side facing Hikaru. Kaoru was already knocked out and spooning up against me.

"I missed you." I said softly.

"Yeah, Same." He said brilliantly. I could see a slight blush on his cheeks.

"Thank you for coming back." I tried again. I just wanted to hear him talk to me. Yeah, I know it was selfish but months of being away from him made me want to be near him even more.

He touched my face, brushing a bang way. "I was just kidding myself thinking I could stay away from you."

I bit the bottom lip again.

"Haruhi." He said. "I'm over it. Sorry, it took me so long"

A tug lifted the corner of my lips just before he pecked my lips again. I stared into his face for a few silent moments.

I broke the silence with my spoken thought. "I thought I dreamed about you in the hospital."

He grinned. "They really drugged you good. Those weren't dreams."

I nodded feeling my heart beat faster at this revelation.

"I wanted to be by you so badly." He said.

"You're here now."

His eyes looked away from me for a brief second before returning. I could see his face flush again. "So.. um.. Are you gonna go back to.. to work?" He struggled with it.

"Soon." I said. "But I don't want to think about it right now. I'm enjoying the HikaHaru time." I teased easily falling into our casual nicknames.

"HikaHaru?" He smirked devilishly. "No Kao?"

I rolled my eyes. "He's kind of asleep, if you haven't noticed."

"Oh, I noticed." He continued to give me that evil look. He reached over to grasp Kaoru's hand and gently pried it away from me, allowing me to wiggle free without waking the sleeping twin. Kao groaned and rolled over, no once waking up.

"Victory." Hikaru purred.

"You're evil."

"No." he said. "I'm selfish."

Hikaru tugged at me and pulled me to lay on top of him while we continued to remain under the blankets. I felt a giggle escape my throat at this. Silly possessive Hika, kissed me softly letting his hands trail down to my hips then under my shirt.

I knew what he wanted. No way was I going to deny it. Not after all this time. Though, one thought popped into my mind. "Hikaru, are you sure you want to do this.. with Kaoru in bed with us?"

"Why not? You've done it before with him. Let's just call this revenge." He grinned and tugged my top off of me.

I probably should have mentioned I went back to my normal pajama's. Pants and tank shirt. Hika was struggling to get them both off and carefully kicking his own pants off.

"This isn't right." I teased.

"Shut up, Haru." He said as he rolled me onto my back. I glanced to Kao who was still sleeping and was startled by Hikaru's quick intrusion. I bit back a groan, letting him take control.

I sighed and closed my eyes, enjoying for the second time that day, the feeling of pleasure that I lived my life for.

Minutes passed, careful slow minutes. Soft panting escaping our lips, the motion not begin too much... but it was just enough... because I heard him stir.

Kao was waking up. My eyes flew open but Hikaru didn't stop. He grinned evilly.

"Wh..what?" Kao stammered when he turned around. His eyes were wide and pissed looking. "What the fuck! One day and you two are already going at it like fucking rabbits!" He snapped and picked up a pillow to beat down on Hikaru.

The boy rolled off of me, not even phased and was laughing like crazy. He wasn't even putting up a fight.

"Guys!" I shouted, trying not to smile. But not really doing anything to stop the pillow fight... or even bother getting dressed.

A/N:

Song: The Offspring - You're gonna go far, Kid

The song was chosen ages ago due to it's horribly loud beat... and brilliant lyrics.