Sorry for any mistake! I have been awake since 2am so please understand it is getting hard to read. I hope you will all like the update xxx
Lilly breathed a sigh of relief, Dixie hadn't even left the front garden, she was sat on the brick wall, looking at the road. " Dix please come in" Lilly went in front of Dixie, taking her hands in her own, Dixie looked at the young girl, rain was both hammering down on them both.
"Sweetheart I can't listen to you and Jeff go on at each other" Dixie sobbed,
"We're not... We are ok I promise, I told him about me being pregnant as well" Lilly saw Dixie's head bolt up, Dixie was surprised and glad at the same time that Lilly managed to tell him.
"Darling, please promise me that you and Jeff have stopped going on. He was just worried about you, we both were"
"I know, and I'm sorry, I visited Polly while you were at work" Lilly rubbed her forehead, feeling more rain hammer down on her.
"If you would have told us you wanted to see her, we would have taken you, you shouldn't have had to go alone" Dixie jumped down from the brick wall, she got no response from Lilly, Dixie put her arm around the young girl and they both went back in the house. Jeff had gotten them both towels, hoping it would dry them off.
They each took a towel, wrapping it around themselves. Dixie then pulled Lilly in for a hug, "Sweetheart you mean everything to me, I just want to keep you safe. Jeff feels the same way" She kissed the top of Lilly's hair, Jeff stood and watched them, he knew it was best to keep his mouth shut.
That night Lilly slept in Dixie's bed, some people may have seen this as wrong, as Dixie was a lesbian, but it was nothing like that. Lilly just wanted to be held, she found that sleeping in Dixie's bed eased the nightmares. When Dixie woke up, she gently moved a sleeping Lilly from her arms.
Dixie had left Lilly upstairs sleeping, Jeff was in the kitchen with her, the events of last night had already been forgotten about. Dixie and Jeff knew better than most people, life was short, they didn't want to dwell on things. Dixie handed him his coffee. "Cheers Dixie" Jeff took it appreciatively, sipping.
"What time is the scan?" Jeff asked, Dixie had told him Lilly was having her 8 week scan today, part of him was rather excited, he was looking forward to having a baby in the house, it reminded him of how he felt when Lucy was pregnant with John then Sophia.
"Half past 10" Dixie looked at the clock, it had just gone nine, she was trying to let Lilly sleep in for as long as possible, she had noticed the young teen was becoming more tired easily. It was to be expected. After another half hour, Dixie and Jeff heard retching coming from upstairs, Dixie was about to get up from the sofa when Jeff put his hand out to stop her.
"Its fine Dix, I'll go" Dixie nodded at him, watching as he rushed off up the stairs, he found Lilly being sick in the toilet. "Who the hell was it drinking coffee?" She mumbled weakly after finishing being sick, Jeff remained silent and handed her some tissue to wipe her mouth, he also gave her a capful of mouthwash to take the taste away.
"Guessing it was you drinking the coffee then" She rubbed her head, taking the mouthwash gratefully. Jeff rubbed her back slightly, then stroked her hair, he had noticed it had grown considerably longer. He knew Dixie was thinking about getting her hair dyed again soon, he thought it would be nice if Lilly went with her. "Babe Dix is going to get her hair done soon, how would you like to go with her?"
"It's ok, I'm too much of a burden to you already" Lilly replied, she felt bad about Dixie and Jeff looking after her already.
"You are not a burden babe" He pulled her in for a hug, he had no idea she thought she was a burden to himself and Dixie. After their hug, the pair of them went down the stairs, Dixie had some toast laid out on a plate for Lilly, she knew she would need to eat something after being sick. Dixie also made sure she drank a lot of fluids.
A short while later, Dixie and Lilly found themselves in a small room. They were both sitting on a chair each, holding hands. When nurse came in, she gave them both a warm smile. "Hello love, my name is Cathy, I'm going to be your midwife throughout your pregnancy. I would like to ask you some questions if that is ok?" Lilly nodded at the woman, watching as she got out a clipboard and pen. Sitting behind the desk opposite them.
"Now, you're name is Lilly Jane Emerson, is this correct?" She asked.
"Yes it is" Lilly replied, watching as Cathy scribbled away on the clipboard.
"And your birthday is on the 16th November 1996?"
"Yep"
"Ok, can you tell me the date, when you had your last period"
"I can't remember..." Lilly closed her eyes, trying to remember the date of her last period, but her mind seemed to blank.
"That's ok, do you remember how long they used to last?"
"5 Days normally" Lilly took a deep breath, she felt Dixie squeeze her hand, giving her the support she needed.
"That's good, now have you been noticing any problems since your last period? This doesn't have to be related to the pregnancy"
"Headaches, dizzy sometimes, and I was sick this morning"
"Ok, that's quite normal at this point in the pregnancy, now it says here you were hospitalized, could you tell me a bit more about this?"
"She was having a difficult time..." Dixie saw Lilly bit her lip and begin to shake, it was beginning to bring back a lot of memories for her.
"That's alright, nobody is going to judge you here Lilly, I just need to get an understanding, that's all" The midwife smiled, encouraging Lilly to talk, she could see the fear in the young teens eyes worried about being judged.
"Well, she is an ex heroin user, she got herself into some trouble with one of the dealers. Basically he kidnapped her, and tried to take out her kidney" Dixie saw the shook on the midwifes face, she took a deep breath before replying.
"You're off the heroin now though?"
"Yes, I have been for a while, I don't want to hurt the baby" Lilly put her hand on her stomach, truth being she was so scared of doing something wrong that would endanger her child.
"As long as you remain clean, I don't see any reason why you shouldn't be able to give birth naturally to a healthy baby"
"Do you have any family members who have any illness? Heart conditions, or any other genetic problems I should be aware of?"
"No, Nothing" Lilly said, turning her head she looked at Dixie smiling.
"That's it with the questions for now then, how do you feel about popping onto the bed for me Lilly. Then we can have a look, see how the baby is doing" Lilly nodded, standing up with Dixie they were still holding hands, Cathy guided them both to the bed. Lilly laid on it, allowing the midwife to roll her top up and roll her tracksuit bottoms down a little.
"This is going to be a little cold" The midwife squirted some water based gel onto Lilly's lower stomach, Lilly shook feeling the cold gel touch her skin, her hand found its way into Dixie's and both of them were looking at the small computer screen at the side of the bed. Cathy placed the scanner on Lilly's stomach, Dixie held onto her hand, looking at the screen, she gasped seeing something so tiny growing inside her friend. "Is it ok?" Lilly asked, her grip on Dixie's hand tightening.
"Yes, everything seems to be normal. It's too early to tell if it's a boy or girl"
"As long as its healthy" Lilly interrupted, feeling her eyes water while looking at the monitor. "Could we have a picture?" Dixie asked, Cathy nodded, printing one off for her. She then turned the monitor off, and got out another smaller machine from the tray.
"Now, lets try and find the heartbeat" Lilly watched as she ran the Doppler over her stomach, Dixie was being very quiet, holding her breath, they heard nothing...
"Don't worry, it sometimes takes a while to find it" The midwife assured, continuing to roll the Doppler around Lilly's stomach, Lilly held her breath, the silence was broken by the heartbeat of her baby, it sounded like a little chew chew train. Dixie breathed a sigh of relief, kissing Lilly's hand. "There we go, see everything is perfectly normal" Cathy kept the Doppler in place, giving Dixie and Lilly some time to listen to the heart beat.
Once the scan had finished, Lilly sat up, hugging Dixie. "Alright love, see everything is fine" Dixie assured, kissing the top of Lilly's head. Cathy smiled at the couple, handing Dixie the picture, Dixie took it then thanked her. "That's ok, I will book you in for another scan in four weeks time, then call you letting you know the exact date. If there are any problems in meantime, don't hesitate to contact me" Cathy lead them both out of the room, Dixie kept hold of the photo, they left the building hand in hand.
"How's about me and you pop into town then, Jeff is going to be still watching the football game with Noel and big mac" Dixie unlocked the car,
"Ok. Dixie?"
"What is it darling?" Dixie saw a puzzled look come across Lilly's features.
"Is it ok to be scared?" She asked, she was scared of giving birth, she was scared of being a bad mum and doing something wrong during the pregnancy.
"Of course it is, but, your body will know what to do. You'll will be a great mum" Dixie hugged her, smelling Lilly's hair, that reminded her she needed to buy some more shampoo.
"Thank you" Lilly replied, Dixie moved Lilly in her arms, looking at her. "Come on then, lets go do some shopping. I have Jeff's debit card" Dixie grinned, she had a long list of things she was planning to buy them both, she thought they both deserved a treat. She knew that Mothercare had a sale on, so she was hoping to get a few baby things cheap. She also realised Lilly needed some new clothes, and Jeff needed some new jeans, something told her this was going to be a long afternoon down the town.
