When I see your smile

Tears roll down my face I can't replace

And now that I'm strong I have figured out

How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul

And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven


Gemma walked into the hospital room holding a beautiful vase of flowers before she was startled by an unexpected visitor sitting in the corner of the hospital room. "Shit, baby, you scared the shit out of me! What are you doing here so early?" Gemma spoke softly, looking at Kozik before looking back at the man sitting in the corner.

Juice stood up from his chair and shrugged his shoulders. "I honestly don't know, I just thought I'd pay my brother a visit. Haven't been in here much and that's not fair to him."

"Yeah, I agree… Ya gotta visit him and let him know what's going on or when he gets up, he'll be completely out of the loop." Gemma smiled as she sat down on the opposite side of Juice.

"Have you seen Hanna and the girls lately? I think she's mad at me…" Juice adjusted himself in the uncomfortable chair, throwing all his attention into Gemma's hands.

"She's just been busy with them, started that shop is taking a lot of her time too. She's real excited about it, though. Go by the house later and see her. I'm sure she's not mad at you, baby." Gemma reassured him, noticing the glimmer of excitement that flashed over his face as she mentioned Hanna not being mad at him. "What's on your mind, baby? Everything ok?"

Juice quickly nodded his head, trying to hide the look on his face; the one that could tell the entire world exactly what he was feeling."I might do that… Yeah, everything's fine, Ma… I promise."

"I know that look." Gemma pointed at the mohawked biker and his eyes widened at her. "You better tell them, keep it straight forward or Hap will kill you when he finally finds out. You know that's going to fuck shit up but baby, you gotta stay straight forward with him…"

Juice just nodded his head. After a few minutes, he got up out of his chair, patted Kozik's arm, kissed Gemma's cheek and left the room.


Two weeks and three days had passed since Happy and Juice had their little tiff in the lot but of course neither of them spoke a word of it to Hanna so when she invited the mohawked biker into her house that afternoon, the hug she received from him should've been enough to throw her off a little bit but she didn't say anything about it. She kissed him on the cheek and led him into the garage, where Happy was working on a PanHead.

"Baby? Juice is here, wants to help you…" Hanna spoke softly, noticing the annoyed look on her husband's face. Offering him a small smile, she walked back into the kitchen and toward the play room where she knew her daughters were playing with their cousins. "Hey, you guys hungry?" Hanna stood in the doorway of the playroom, seeing the kids all playing with different toys. Seeing Ellie look up at her with big blue eyes, shaking her head, Hanna smiled and left the room.

She walked back into the living where her sister-in-law was sitting, drinking a glass of tea. "What are they doing?" Donna looked up as Hanna sat down beside her.

"They're just playing, they're not hungry and to answer your next question, I have no idea what's going on with Juice and Hap." Hanna smirked at Donna as she gave her a confused look. "Happy was fine until I told him Juice was here… I don't know, Don… maybe they're having a marital spat." She started laughing along with Donna until she heard crashing noises in the garage. Jumping up and racing to the garage, Hanna swung the door opened… she heard Donna gasp before she could fully take in the scene before her.

Happy had Juice on the ground, punching him. "You stupid piece of shit! I should've fuckin' known this much!" Happy's raspy voice came to life, making Hanna gasp too.

"What the fuck? Hap! HAP! HAPPY, STOP—STOP!" Hanna belted out, racing toward the men. Looking over Happy's shoulder, she saw Juice's bloody face and gasped. Happy slowly stood up and walked into the house; leaving Juice lying on the ground, Hanna and Donna standing there with shocked looks on their faces. "Would you help me, patch him up and shit?" Hanna whispered to Donna as she walked past her to follow after her husband.

Seeing him walking up the stairs, her next words stopped him completely. "You stupid son of a bitch!" Hanna shouted across the room, crossing her arms under her boobs, pushing her cleavage together more. She knew insulting him would make him stop moving, insulting him would put his attention on her. "Talk to me…"

Hearing her final protest, he continued up the stairs and to their bedroom. Aiming to clean up and change his clothes, he simply didn't want to talk to her about what happened in the garage. Even though the scene kept replaying in his mind, he couldn't find the words to explain a thing to the blonde beauty so he simply decided against it.

*Flashback*

Watching Hanna close the door to the garage, Juice turned to face his brother. The nervous waves washing through him were driving him crazy but he knew this had to be done before Happy got called back to Tacoma.

Happy stopped what he was doing to glare at Juice. "What do you want? Come to tell me how my kids more? Well let me save you the trouble: that little girl eats her damn breakfast from then on and she even second guesses her actions before she send her tiny ass foot into my ankle again."

Juice chuckled. Not necessarily at Happy but at the fact that someone was bold enough to go against the Killer. "Tough girl, don't ya think?" Juice smirked as he watched a smile spread across Happy's face. "I'm sorry about that shit man… I just get so protective over her, I forget who is actually allowed to have a say-so in her life."

"Yeah I guess so… you didn't say anything to Hanna about that shit, did you?" Happy put down the tool in his hand and looked up at Juice. Seeing the look on Juice's face concerned Hap and he wanted to know what was really going on. "What's up, kid? What else is on your mind?"

Juice ran a hand over his tired face, almost trying to find a way out of having this conversation. He shrugged his shoulders and looked around the garage, seeing Hanna's Lexus behind Happy. The garage was very clean… there were tools and motorcycle parts neatly placed on one side of the garage. He smiled at the cleanliness of the room, knowing a mixture of Hanna's neatness and Happy's neatness was at play here. "You're going to fuckin' hate me so much, brotha."

"Out with it, kid… NOW." Happy shifted his weight, crossing his arms over his chest.

Juice rubbed the back of his neck, looking down at the ground. "I love her, man…"

"What are you talking about, Juice?" Happy cocked an eyebrow.

The mohawked fool cracked his knuckles and cleared his through. "Hanna… I don't know how it happened but I love her. Can't get her out of my damn mind.. I've tried so hard to forget about it and it's been working but Gemma… She found out and told me that it was best to tell you guys." Juice felt the tension rise in the room. "Nothing's going to happen, I promise. I won't try anything, ever… I know what you two have, I know it's real and I'd never fuck with that. You guys are too important to me for me to fuck with your relationship! Man, I swear."

"You're such a stupid little prick! You fuckin' idiot, I've put every ounce of my trust into you to watch over my fuckin' family and all the while, you're going behind my back and fallin' for the bitch! Jesus fuckin' Christ…. You fuckin' dumbass!" Happy was livid, furious and down right annoyed. He felt so betrayed. Over the years, he and Juice had formed such a close friendship, they were closer than anyone could ever imagine and it was because of Hanna. Once she got back together with Happy, her friendship with Juice fell into Hap's lap and he decided to be just a little nicer to the Intelligence Officer. He'd come to know that Juice wasn't that bad of a person, he was actually a good kid and he damn sure took good care of Hap's daughters. But now, Hap was seething with anger as he listened to the kid talk about his feelings for his wife.

Before Hap could really even stop himself, it was beating the ever living shit out of Juice. Punch after punch, hits were flying everywhere until Happy heard the distinct voice of his wife begging him to stop, demanding him to stop.

*End Flashback*

He was pulling on a new t-shirt when the bedroom door slammed open and in marched the living beauty herself. "Talk to me! Tell me what happened out there, Hap…" Hanna sat down on the edge of the bed, boring her baby blue eyes into him.

"Won't do ya any fuckin' good, baby… Just leave it alone. It was just some brotherly love…" Happy walked toward her, holding his hands out for her to grab.

Hanna raised an eyebrow and cocked her head to the side, "If that's brotherly love, I'd hate to see what hatred looks like." She took Hap's hands and let him pull her up against him. "Did you and Veronica fix your little problem?"

"Yeah, it's a lot prettier." Happy backed away from his wife, knowing he was gonna get smacked for his next words. "Nah, she's a stubborn little brat like her momma!"

Hanna advanced toward Hap, ready to slap him upside his head and she did just that when she got close to him again. "You goad her! She doesn't just act like this for no reason, you egg her on, Happy! You know damn good and well she is JUST like you. Egg her on and she's bound to get stirred up one way or another. Leave the baby girl alone, find a new hobby…" Hanna hit him on his arm once more before his big strong arms wrapped themselves around her tiny waist and hoisted her up in the air.

"You are gonna stop abusing the shit out of before I kick your ass all over this room, woman! Come on, let's go kick the guests out of the house and put them little cock blockin' spawns to sleep so I can have some have fun with your fine ass!"

Hanna started laughing, shaking her head. "Would you stop verbally abusing my kids? You're such a bully, ya know that?"

"No the fuck I'm not… they know I kind of like 'em, they're stupid as hell if they don't." Happy started laughing as Hanna smacked his head for his comment. They both walked down the stairs, Happy going to the playroom while Hanna went to the kitchen.

"How's the cuts, Juice?" Hanna sat down beside him, patting him forearm. She watched as Donna cleaned up the cuts on his face, trying her best not to hurt him.

"I'm fine, don't worry about me… I just crossed a line with Hap, it's all good though." Juice spoke softly as Donna finished patching him up.

Donna backed away from the Son and smiled. "You're all patched up, Juice. You'll be ok, I promise."

"Thanks Donna, I better get to the clubhouse. Gotta finish some shit with Tig. Hey Don, you want me to follow you home or are you going to the clubhouse too?" Juice pulled his cut back on and looked between the women.

"I do need to talk to Gemma… yeah we'll go to the clubhouse, thanks kid." Donna smiled at the man retreating to the front door. "So what the hell happened out there?"

"He wouldn't tell me shit but I'll get it out of him sooner or later. Thanks for coming over today… I've missed you a lot!" Hanna pulled her sister-in-law in for a hug. "You know you can call me anytime and we can set something up, the kids love playing together and well I love having you around!"

Donna laughed, "Yeah I know… how's the shop coming along? Good, I hope?"

"Oh yeah, everything's looking so great. I'm glad everything's coming together so well!" Hanna nodded her head eagerly as they both walked out of the kitchen and down the hall to the play room. Hanna started laughing as soon as she walked into the room, seeing the girls attacking Happy as he was lying on the floor, tossing Kenny into the air.

"I'll sell him to ya for Victoria! What do you say?" Donna laughed as she stood beside Hanna, crossing her arms.

"How about you take Roni and Vee and I'll just keep him?" Happy smirked at his wife as her mouth fell open. "Close your mouth, baby, nothing's going in there…. Yet." Happy chuckled as she tossed a barbie doll at him.

"That is so my que to leave, oh my goodness!" Donna laughed as she moved further into the room to grab Kenny's diaper bag. Right as Donna moved back to Hanna, Happy was standing up, picking up Vee and handing Kenny off to Donna. Happy looked back at Roni and took note of the sad look on her face. Instantly feeling like an ass, he scooped her up and kissed her head. "I'll see you guys at the dinner tomorrow night, right?"

Hanna nodded her head, both women leaving the room after Hanna took Vee from Happy. "We'll be there unless Happy has any other martial spats with his brothers that he's yet to work out… I'll see you later, babe!" Hanna pulled Donna in for another hug as they both walked out the front door.

Hanna watched Donna put her kids in the car and leave before she walked back in the house to see Happy and Roni already asleep on the couch.


Long steady road

Oh travel, be kind

I'm searching for some peace of mind

The home that you know

A home left behind

Oh trouble, don't trouble this time.

And baby don't look back,

Odds don't stack

They just crumble down around you.

Oh, you gotta go away if you wanna come back

I won't crack I can't make a sound without you.

And even if it sounds crazy darling I won't let you go

And even if it don't stop raining darling I won't let you go

And even if the world's burning darling I won't let you go

Even if it sounds crazy darling I won't let you go


"Alright, Lowman! Fess the hell up, what are you keeping from me now?" Hanna turned her head to look at her husband as he continued to run his hands up and down her thighs. They were sitting in their bathtub, she was sitting up against him, her back to his chest. Bubbles surrounded them and he was feathering her neck with soft kisses.

Hanna felt him laugh as he shook against her and she cocked an eyebrow as her. "Alright, alright… calm down, woman. It's nothing major but I promise you're not gonna like it."

"Spit it out, asshole… get it going." Hanna turned back around to face away from him and got comfortable again.

"Lee wants me to transfer to Tacoma for a while… I told him the idea wasn't set in stone because of you guys but I'd think about it and talk to you about it." Happy spoke calmly, impatiently awaiting the blowback.

"But why? Is everything ok up there?" Hanna ghosted her hands over his, stopping him from rubbing her any longer.

Happy smirked at her, even though she couldn't see his face. "Yeah, Old Man just misses his best men… He was going to come down here and talk to Kozik about it too before that hit landed on him. So now he's waiting until Kozik wakes up to discuss it. What do ya say, baby?"

She laughed, she had to. "Can I have some time to think about it? I have to think about my girls, too, Hap… This is home for them… Just taking them away from everything and everyone they know is going to be tough on them, baby. I have to do what's right for them, Hap… They are the biggest factor here, baby, you know that."

"Whoa whoa whoa, who said anything about you coming with me, woman? My girlfriend up there ain't gonna like that one bit, ya know." Happy started laughing harder as he watched her turn around and eye him suspiciously.

"Tell that bitch to kiss my ass!" Hanna raised an eyebrow as the man and he shook his head. "Be serious, baby… this is a serious matter. When does Lee want an answer?"

Happy leaned forward to kiss her but she pulled away from him. "Tuesday, so you got two days." He watched her nod her head and he smiled. "Give it some real consideration, woman, please…"

"I will, I will… calm yourself." Hanna pressed a soft kiss to his cheek before making herself comfortable against him again.


AN: Ok, ok, two cats are out of the bag. Next chapter may include a bit more Kozik… To answer some questions: Gemma will be back in the next chapter. Hanna wasn't too upset with Happy about Roni and Hap's disagreement, but she was upset with her daughter. Juice isn't going to die, however, I can't give you anything else about Kozik.

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