They had not spoken since they had gotten on the plane in Texas, they just held hands, Eli was awake the whole trip and kept them from really talking. He texted Abby and told her he would be there on Friday, just text him and tell him where to go.

When there plane landed in Chicago he checked his phone he showed it to her, it was from Abby and it said to be at the children's hospital for one. He was glad that they could sleep late tomorrow, they needed to talk about everything that had happened, he needed to tell her what had happened when he got back to KC.

When the got to the hotel, Eli was sleeping, when Emmett had the crib done they put him down for the night. It was midnight " would you like to take a bath with me", he had tears in his eyes, "thank you". She went to the bathroom it had a jacuzzi, she ran water and put bubbles.

He walked into the bathroom and she was in the tub, he got undressed and sat across from her. "I need to tell you something, I can't believe that you will marry me with what Abby told me, I really don't know how you can love me ". She looked at him confused " what happened in the past needs to stay in the past, nothing you can say will make me love you less".

" When she left I couldn't believe what I had done, it was like Simone all over again,I had already packed up the apartment so I went to bed".

"Travis flew in to get the u-hall and help me drive back, he had to call a cab because I was not answering my phone, the lights blinked for so long before I got up and let him in".

"He knew something was wrong, he tried to make me feel better, we packed it up and were leaving in the morning".

"I slept the whole way home, there was no reason to be awake, I would just think about what I did to you" he wiped the tears, " when we got home I took my clothes and a few bags out of the back and he drove the truck to go meet your dad and put it all in storage".

"I did not even unpack,I went to bed, but it was are bed where we had made love so many times" he held her hand " I had brought your pain pills with me there were five left, I did not want to be in a world where I had broken your heart, so I took them".

She was crying," I woke up the next day on suicide watch at the hospital, the one person who made me realize what an ass I was , Travis".

"I was taking the easy way out, you were all alone having my baby, with all of the health problems I had to be there for you whether you wanted me or not".

" So when I was released my mom told me when your appointments were, I started working and made sure that I could see you walking in, you were so beautiful". She sat on his lap and hugged him, " I don't think i could have made it with out you, when we got to my first appointment after you got back I saw you, I would look forward to it every time".

They hugged for a while, "the waters cold ", he said. She got off of his lap and put the hot water on, when they were done they went to bed. He laid down first and she was in front she grabbed his arm and put it around her, " I love you so much, we are forever ".

Eli woke her up at eight and he was hungry, she fixed him a bottle and called room service. At nine he woke up, she was so understanding last night , she didn't speak until he was done and told him what he needed to hear.

He goes into the living room, she smiles at him, puts Eli down and he walks to his dad. Wow his son was growing up too fast, he saw the breakfast " im starving". He kissed her, they were going to get through today fine.

Eli was laying on the floor watching TV, " are you ready for today", she signed. " I have to be, I know she had a baby but I was too shocked to ask if it was a boy or a girl, but I don't think it matters to her Chance is its dad".

" I think that's its your choice, you just found out about it, no one can keep you from your child".

" But for four months he has been there, how would I feel taking his baby away from him".

" Well just see what they have to say, I will drop you off and take Eli to are other park" she signed. He had tears in his eyes ," I can't go in there with out you, I can't meet my child with out you, I need you".

She laughed "you you you really , baby I will go with you there with you but I really shouldn't be , you need to grow really need the to grow some balls".