Chapter 29:
"I'll leave as soon as I say this. Then you can throw me from your bedroom window and never see me again. Deal?" He says.
"Fine." I say sadly and quite pathetically.
"The night of your attack, Edward came to the reservation and said he had picked up on a vampire's thoughts earlier, he said he had tried to make sense of it all. All he knew was that the thoughts revolved around you. He asked me if you were at the reservation because as long as you were here, you were safe. That's when I told him you were in Port Angeles; we headed there immediately, the pack and the coven. Dr. Cullen had felt responsible that someone had gone under his radar. Edward picked up on his disgusting thoughts when we were close. It killed me but we waited for the perfect time to attack, Edward had instructed Alice to take care of you while we all took care of the leech.
"I needed to be the one to finish him, I needed to feel his bones break beneath my teeth, and shred his remains with my own paws. I needed to smell his corpse burn in the forest. There was no secret what he would want with you, I mean look at you. You are beautiful, smart and funny. You are the closest thing to perfection in the world. As I watched though, I noticed you had known him, that you had hid it from me. Finally the moment came and I snapped his neck, shredded him and smelt the smell of burning flesh.
"As soon as it was over I looked at your unconscious form and right then, something inside me broke. It wasn't all about the betrayal although that had hurt more than I could ever imagine, I wish you could have told me. No, it was worse than the betrayal and the anger," Jake's hand reaches up to caress my cheek, "I couldn't keep you safe Melaine. If I want- if I need anything in this world it is that you be safe and I couldn't do that. I couldn't protect you. What kind of boyfriend can't take care of his girlfriend, of the woman he loves? As I listened to your story I felt angry at you, angrier than I had before but it still wasn't the reason I broke up with you. I've already forgiven you for that; can't you see that would have been such a horrible reason to break up with you?
"I needed you to be safe, and I couldn't do that, so I thought to myself that maybe there was someone who could keep you safe better than I could. I fought with myself that entire week you recovered, I knew that if I saw you I wouldn't be able to do what was best for you. Then you caught me off guard that night. I wasn't expecting you, I should have but I didn't. I knew what I needed to do, you were already angry with me and broken, and you needed someone who wouldn't hurt you, who wouldn't let you get hurt. I decided to get angry with you, to blame it on the lies and betrayal. As I watched you break even more in front of my eyes I almost couldn't go through with it, but I needed to be tough because if you could be safe and happy with someone else than you needed that and I needed you to be safe and happy. Being without you and knowing that you are still out there somewhere is better than having been with you and knowing that you aren't there. When you threw the necklace that hurt the worst. I decided that I'd apologize and try to get you back but when I finally spotted you, you were with Embry and that just proved the point that I had made to myself that whole week, someone could take care of you better than I could.
"I was going to let you go. I was going to try to let you live without me, without ever seeing me again, but then Edward showed up. He saw through my façade of anger and he saw why I had really broken up with you. He told me about your decision to go to the Volturi and I worried about you the entire time you were gone. That's when I realized that I'd rather be by your side trying to protect you than worrying about someone else protecting you. Edward called me when you were close, he told me I had one shot to make things right, to tell you everything. I blew it though, I was a complete jerk and any respect you had of me left is gone. I was dumb for breaking up with you, I was dumb for trying to get you back last night after I blew it so badly before.
"I see the way you look at me Melly. I'm embarrassed to even be standing here in front of you asking you to understand. I don't deserve anything from you. I guess what I realized last night was you deserve so much better than me, you deserve the prince charming of your dreams. I'm not going to stand in your way, no more trying to punch anyone. I'm tired of hurting you Melaine. I can't stand it anymore. So I'm leaving, and I hope someday when you have a ton of babies with this unbelievably perfect guy that you'll think of me and smile because I let you go." Jake turns away and I let him walk to the windowsill.
I'm almost speechless, of all the things I thought he'd say I never imagined all of that. He jumps onto the windowsill and is about to jump down when I say, "You're an idiot." I say as I stand up. He turns to me and looks down ashamed.
"I know." He says.
"Why don't you see it?" I ask him.
He gets off the windowsill and turns to me. "See what?"
"That I love you Jake." I say and I see his face show some relief. "That I don't give a damn about a prince charming because you are the closest thing to perfection in this world. And I'm sorry I lied, and I'm sorry I was so stupid, and I'm sorry I threw the necklace back at you, and I'm sor-
I'm stopped in the middle of my rant by Jake grabbing me and his lips crashing against mine, sending me into the perfect bliss that I remember. The kiss is passionate, as if we haven't kissed in a decade.
We break away and Jake smiles to me. "Strawberries."
"Jake…" I breathe close to his lips. Jake moans slightly. Then I remember something, I pull away from him and Jake looks confused. "You said you love me." I smile to him childishly.
"I do." He smiles to me.
"You can't ever leave me again, Jake." I tell him and he nods. "I'm serious. If anyone is going to protect me, I want you to be the one. I have complete faith in you Jake. I love you." I tell him.
Jake leans down and gives me a passionate kiss. "I'm so sorry." He whispers between kisses.
"Me too. Can we just move on?" I ask him, he nods and continues to kiss me. It's not long before it gets heated between Jake and I. What can I say dogs are passionate creatures?
Jake pulls away for a moment and grabs something off my desk. He holds up the necklace and smiles to me. "This has always belonged to you. I don't want to think about it being on anyone else." He says gently. I smile to him and lift my hair from my neck.
"Will you put it on me?" I ask him.
He nods and fastens the necklace. He kisses the skin where the fasten rests just like he did the night he had given it to me. When he pulls away I turn to him and my lips hit his passionately once again. He kisses me back without any time to waste. WE continue to kiss fervently. When we are at the point where you either decide to move forward or decide to stay at the stage you are in I pull away. Jake looks into my eyes. "I want you Jake." I whisper to him. "But I need to change into something prettier, more sexy."
Jake pulls me against him and his lips go to my neck and begin toying with my sensitive spot. I moan. He stops after a few moments of messing with me. "You are perfect. But are you sure? I did just break your heart a couple of days ago."
I shake my head. "Don't. That's in the past. I don't care that some people would think this is rash. I know what's in my heart, it's you. I want… I need you." I whisper to him. "Make love to me Jake, right here, right now. And never mention breaking up with me ever again."
Jake looks me up and down, savoring me with his eyes. "I love you," he whispers just before his lips crash into mine and his hands slide underneath my pajama top. When his hands reach high he pulls away and smiles. "No bra?" He asks with his eyebrow cocked.
"I just woke up when you barged in." I smile to him playfully. "Don't act like you hadn't noticed." I smile to him but it's quickly covered by his lips. My hands go to his shirt and I fight to pull it over his head, our lips only separating to release us from the clothes that keep us from our chests touching. I throw his shirt to the ground not caring where it falls, my hands slide down his head and hair, down his neck, down his back and across his waist until I find his waistband to his jeans. I unbutton them and let them drop revealing his black boxer-briefs. I smile through the kisses and I can't think of any other place I'd rather be.
Making love to Jake was perfect. He was gentle and sensitive. The room was filled with noises of pleasure and "I love you"s. He created feelings in me I'd never felt before, I've never been more sure of how much I love him then right now. I never could have wished for anything more.
Exhausted from our previous activity I pull Jake towards me on the bed and I cuddle into his bare chest. His heart is still racing; I can hear it through his chest. I can hear his heavy breathing and feel the warmth of it against the back of my neck when he pulls my hair to my shoulder. He kisses the base of my neck softly and I smile in pure bliss.
"I love you." I whisper when he pulls his warm lips from my slightly sweaty neck.
"I love you," he whispers back and I can hear that he is exhausted. "Let's sleep Melly, you exhausted me." He says and I can hear his smile in his voice.
"I was thinking the exact same thing." I whisper to him and I kiss his chest gently. "Sweet dreams," I murmur right before exhaustion overtakes me.
A/N: Another double update! Enjoy! I think this story is coming to a close. Talk to me. (: -Courtney
