Title: Lost In Bella and Edward

Author: Arc Morpheus ~

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Rating: M – For sexy moments and well...

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Chapter 29 ~ Spider Monkey

EPOV

Sometimes, only for a fleeting time, almost just a little moment, it all implodes and Bella sinks into the recesses of her mind where no one can reach her. I try and reason with her, tell her this isn't everything she is, that there is nothing that she cannot share with me. This is not you Bella, breathe deep my love, I plea in the silence of our room, no sound or moves come from Bella and I sit frozen, watching her as it is all I can do. I just have to wait till she comes back to me, my Bella, my love, my reason for existing.

"Bella?"

"Hey," she finally responds.

"What happened, where did you go to in that mind of yours?"

"Nowhere Edward, I was just…thinking. About all the people I've lost…all the people I could lose. It gets to me sometimes. The pain. Actually all the time, but I don't let it take control. I'm so scared of losing the people I love… I don't want to lose anybody else. I can't lose anybody else."

"I swear I will do everything in my power not to let that happen. You have my word. Do you trust me?"

"Yes. I do. But… What about you?"

"What about me?"

"I can't lose you, Edward."

"You are never going to lose me, my love, that's a promise. So, where have you been? You were gone, locked in your mind for hours." My hand swept across and caressed her face.

"I wasn't gone as such...I was just...well, I am not sure exactly what I was during that time. But I know now what has to be done. My mind is made up Edward and cannot be swayed from what I must do and I know I have to do it alone."

"Why, Bella...why would you think that you have to be alone in this?"

"Why? Edward, well, that is a question that I cannot answer, or can't answer yet, as I don't understand this fully myself let alone explain it to you. I just have a feeling that I am the key to the survival of many others and I just can't drag you and Jacob and everything I have left into this mess."

"Are you trying to tell me in your roundabout way that you're wanting to leave here without me, Bella?" I asked my voice was shaking with held in anger.

"Why would I leave here or you Edward? Suddenly I have got all I ever desired and dreamed of. I've got you, my best friend Jacob and well, whatever you would call this eclectic band of instant family that I have acquired or adopted overnight. I have never been so surrounded by people who need me in my whole life, it's rather overwhelming."

"I don't know Bella; I just sense a vibe coming from you. It feels like you're saying trying to say goodbye to me but you have had your mind blocked from me since Alexandrei and Aurelia shared their past, so maybe...?"

"Maybe what Edward?" Bella turned away from me and crossed her arms across her body tightly, lowering her head, staring at an imaginary spot on the floor as she tried to reign in her temper.

I look over to where she is battling to control her emotions and something else, I can smell her scent getting stronger in the cool night air. I try to reason with her to soothe her troubled mind.

"Stop being like this Bella, stop please, love. I am only trying to work out what's best for you and me, for everyone involved in whatever this is, I merely..." but Bella did not let me finish my words as she spun around so fast, her eyes blazing like golden fire embers.

"No, you stop being like this. Don't you dare lay that humanity speech I can hear in your mind on me all over again! I already know it by heart, and this situation is different…very...very different, Edward," Bella seethed through gritted teeth.

I sighed and raked my hands through my hair. Damn, she was frustrating the hell out of me, yet at this moment she looked so desirable. Then my mind started to catch glimpses, carnal images of Bella writhing above me, moaning in pleasure and my name escaping her lips. I shake my head to try and concentrate on the conversation again as the images stop as abruptly as they started. So, her block does falter under...ummm, stressful situations. I filed that away for future use.

"You leave me no choice then, love."

"What do you mean, 'no choice,' Edward? You have always had choices when it came to everything that involved me...I am the one who never had any choices…I am the one who had to sit by and suffer the consequences of yours and other people's choices. I am the one who has been kept in the dark until a few hours ago. I thought I was losing my mind but now it comes to light that I am not and maybe, just maybe, it might be me who has the choice for a change...me who might be the answer to their hopes and prayers for peace in a land I have yet to see. Yet, I feel it in my very soul, growing and seeping into my bones until it consumes my every waking thought...and then there is the part of my mind and heart that is totally consumed by you and everything that you are to me...and everything that I want to be with you. I love you, Edward, but I find my heart and mind is torn between what I want to do and what I should be doing. Do you not see these choices are mine, and mine alone, to make?"

Bella turned and looked into my eyes. I could feel her mind probing mine to see what I was about to do. Not this time Bella, this time, my love, we are going to be on equal footing. No mind reading, just me and her in our natural forms; damn it, I would make her feel the love and desire I have had burning in my soul since the day I first laid eyes on her. Then she would know and feel why I could not let her face this without me.

Then she would understand, Why!

"You're right Bella, I was the one who made all the choices where we were concerned...and look what a mess I made of them. But I have never ever taken the easy path of choices in over a century of existing Bella, because if I had chosen anything differently, I would never have met you. I did so many stupid things to hurt you...and I have apologized for those mistakes but I cannot stand by and let you make this choice without even trying to make you understand that you do not have to be alone anymore...if you let me, I will show you why I can't, my love?"

Stalking over to her, my eyes black with lust and want, darkening further as her warm scent of arousal wafts towards me, I feel my world shift violently as the thoughts of what I am about to do invade my mind and senses and sends me straight to horny hell.

I pray on all that is sacred that Bella is feeling the same way or this could be the last night of my existence. Her scent and arousal are flooding my mind with every dark desire I have ever known. Before I know it, I am across the room, moving like the predator I truly am, not caring that my vampire nature was in full control. Every time I inhaled her sweetness it torched my throat and ignited the heat and hunger I had been battling to hold at bay.

My years of depriving myself of Bella, is all for nothing. Her scent is burning through my resolve, slaughtering every reason in its wake as to why I should stop. My mind was growing weary of my musings and a cold reckoning took over my body, a certain fact emerged…in this single moment, I would do anything she asked to be with her. The monster in me growled with pleasure at this thought.

As I looked down onto her pale beautiful face, her head falls to one side exposing more of her delectable pale skin. Never has she looked so beautiful or more of a tempting siren calling me. Tonight I would not deny my monster anything. I had waited a century for Bella; tonight we would finally become one.

"I am glad you can't Edward, it's one of the best parts of you." Her eyes were hooded and she licked her lips slowly as her eyes raked over my aroused body.

"Seriously, Bella, this is your last chance to back away my love," I whispered as my lips curled into a lopsided smirk.

"I would never ever back away from you, my Edward," she smiled mischievously.

"Sometimes, I don't know what you want or need from me anymore, Bella. I have been to hell and back for you, for us, and still I feel you want to just leave us behind...I am going to prove, my love, my desire to be with you and that you will need me by your side as I need you by mine. I know this is not the best time for declarations but I will show you tonight that you want me in your world, as I want you in mine, my love."

"But I never said I didn't want you, Edward," Bella almost purred the word want.

"Oh, I know. I know your eyes don't lie Bella, they give you away every time."

I held up my index finger and moved it in a 'come hither' motion. Bella bit her bottom lip to stifle the moans she was suppressing. She shook her head at me, and stared at my mouth whilst she slowly walked to me.

Bella stopped inches from my body and I slowly and purposely took her hands and guided her backwards to the chair beside the fire, I lowered her back slowly as she graciously took her seat. I fell to my knees in front of her and placed my hands cautiously on her knees, my eyes never leaving hers. I began caressing and kneading her thighs slowly, inching higher as I rubbed small circles with my thumbs into her soft skin. I was rewarded with a deep, guttural moan and Bella's head rolled back, resting on the back of the chair. I shifted my body up, moving closer to hers till I could feel the heat from her. Her hands flew to my hips and gripped tight, the joy of her hands on me was indescribable so I allowed them to stay put…for now.

I shook my head slowly, and tutted under my breath, leaning forward till my cool lips brushed against her ear, whilst my desire ground and crushed against her thigh.

"Tsk...tsk...No touching yet, my love." I gently nibbled her earlobe, I could feel her hands curl and tighten around my hips, her nails digging into my skin. A rumble and growl escaped my lips.

"Edward...I can't even...unggg…" the rest of her sentence was unspoken.

I chuckled quietly into her ear, then started to lavish her neck and perfect skin with my cool tongue. My venom mixed with the salty sweat of her skin was exquisite.

Bella's acceptance of what I wanted to do to her was elevating the confidence I never knew I had within myself. I had somehow managed to unlock my sexual prowess, I needed her; I needed this release; I needed to claim her as mine and mine alone, but first, I was going to play with her desires and make her want this to the point of utter compulsion.

"Hmmm Isabella...touching me, before I say you can, will get you punished my love. Do you want to be punished?" I whispered sensually into her ear, my cool breath making her shiver and react even more.

She responded with a deeper moan and opened her eyes which were almost as black as mine with lust.

"Yes...No...I mean...I don't know what I mean anymore, Edward. Just don't stop…"

I ran my hands from her thighs slowly up to the edge of her very moist and hot lips - just at the edge I ran my thumb slowly over her; she thrust into my hand and moaned louder. I smiled, I knew I was driving her wild and it made my heart swell with pride. I let my hand play over her growing heat and held back the sudden desire to suck on her there.

With my free hand, I ran my cold fingers from her thighs up to her hardening nipples which were struggling to free themselves from the confines of her flimsy dark blue silk blouse. My fingers glided over them as they responded by becoming increasingly harder and Bella thrust her chest forward into my hand. I pinched one nipple gently and watched her lips fall into a perfect 'O' shape whilst taking a sharp intake of breath, I leaned in and huskily spoke into her other ear again.

"Hmmm…you like that, my Isabella, but that kind of punishment comes much, much later my love. If you touch me without my permission again, I will stop." My hand reached up and held her hair, pulling her head to a more accessible angle. I grazed my teeth, tongue and lips over her neck again, her sweet scent mixed with her heightened arousal overtaking my senses. I pulled back from Bella's neck and spoke again.

"Do you understand me, my love?"

Bella's chest was rising and falling and her reply came in short, hot pants.

"Yes, Edward," she replied very breathlessly.

"Good, very good…" I said, flicking the tip of my cold tongue into her ear and sucking on her earlobe. I could feel the shivers of desire running up her spine and covering her delicious skin in goose bumps in response to my tongue and body.

I leaned back and slowly, I started to rock my hips against where my hand was still teasing her moist heat. The friction was heavenly and I had to stifle the growl building in my chest again from the sexual frustration I was bringing upon myself. This time we both started moaning at the connection of our hips. I watched as Bella's amber eyes rolled back in her head, and closed.

"Edward...please...I...I...can't…unghhh...you're..." when her eyes flew open they were filled with hunger, a hunger for me.

"I am what, Isabella?" I rolled her name off my tongue reverently, never stopping the grinding of my hips into hers.

"Unff...Just kiss me, Edward. Really kiss me..." she challenged me, knowing this was the point of no return and she had decided to fall with me.

My face was too easy for her to read. She knew I wanted her just as badly. She had me; I'd do anything to hear what she was thinking in that mind of hers at this moment.

My lips brushed against Bella's, the kiss starting warm and lingering as my tongue shot out and swept across her bottom lip, silently requesting entrance. She gave it to me willingly, her eagerness building, every part of my body was screaming at me in excitement and arousal. Her lips were perfect against mine, our tongues were caressing rather than dominating each other and I couldn't help but grind myself harder and faster against her body. We both gasped and groaned into each other's mouths.

"Edward...please ...I need...you-"

I grabbed her hands and wrapped them around my neck and in one split second move I had lifted Bella into my arms and wrapped her legs around my waist. My back was against the wall with my hands holding her in place and the second her skin touched mine, both our eyes grew darker.

Holding her in place, I rubbed and ground my erection into her moist centre; back and forth I rocked her over my erection, making me impossibly harder with every rock. I threw my head back against the wall and growled deep in my chest, unleashing my vampire instinct felt animistic and wild.

We were both still fully dressed and I realized that this had to change…and quickly. I grabbed the hem of her blouse and shredded it to nothing in one swift manoeuvre, hastily throwing the remains to the floor. I worked my lips and tongue over every inch of pale skin I could reach, from her neck to her collarbone to her shoulders, leaving wet, sensual kisses dripping with venom.

I slipped the bra from her shoulders; I wanted to taste those nipples in my mouth. In frustration, I bit through the bra with my teeth before discarding it with the blouse. Bella's breath hitched at this and I realized it was turning her on more and more.

I kissed and moved my mouth over her left breast as Bella's fingers flew to the back of my head, gripping my hair so hard a mortal man would have screamed in pain. Her back arched and this pushed her nipple deeper into my mouth forcing me to suck harder and graze my teeth against her. I moved to her right nipple and I could feel her body trembling with excitement. I flicked my cold tongue across her nipple bringing it to attention. I continued to move between both breasts, giving them both the devotion they desperately needed whilst I continued to rock Bella against me harder and faster. Repeating my assault on her breasts, over and over, I sucked, nibbled and licked her wherever I could reach with my mouth all while my hips maintained their grinding motion.

My grinding, with the continued attention to her breasts, was creating just the right amount of friction and pressure Bella needed as I could smell and feel her arousal dripping out of her onto me and it was driving my senses crazy. I felt a strange tightness beginning deep inside the pit of my stomach and my balls began to feel tighter and tighter. The sensation was becoming stronger with each grind until Bella suddenly grabbed my hair even harder and screamed out my name over and over. Her body was shaking; her chest heaving and she struggled to catch her breath. The smell of her juices combined with my venom was sublime.

I held her nipple between my teeth as she rode out her first ever orgasm, I kept it there as she stilled and then nuzzled her gently, until I released it and gently reached up to give her a slow and tender kiss of gratitude.

But Bella was having none of this slow and tender stuff. The moment my lips pulled away it was as if she couldn't bear the separation and despite me pulling back, she grabbed my face with her hands, lifted my lips to hers, and smashed hungrily into my mouth, devouring my lips. Her tongue forced its way in and I found myself groaning at the sensations it was evoking in me again.

BPOV

With my legs wrapped around his waist and my hands clawing at his perfect chiselled cheeks, my tongue battled for superiority over his. His venom tasted like nectar of the most intense kind, pure ambrosia. It actually left a tingling feeling on my body wherever his tongue touched like it was leaving venomous ice blue trails of flames wherever it met my skin.

He had one hand around my waist holding me to him. I clawed at his face, trying desperately to get us closer and closer, until there was not even room for air to pass between our bodies.

Feeling my desperation and arousal building again, Edward gripped my waist and whispered raggedly.

" Hold on my little sexy spider monkey…"

His movements were so fast that if I had blinked in that moment I would have missed it. His desire was fuelling his behaviour and his vampire instincts were bubbling to the surface. I had never seen Edward so carefree, happy and unburdened. He moved us from the wall he was leaning against to the bed in a blur of motions.

He started to move his lips up my throat then to my ear where he nibbled my lobe before cooling it with his breath. I started to make mewling noises, noises I never ever thought would come from my body, but they were and Edward loved every sound that left my lips. I could feel it in his mind and his body's reactions.

"Grab hold of the headboard, Isabella," he whispered.

I raised my hands from his neck up to the wrought iron headboard and held on as tight as I could, biting down on my lip as I anticipated Edward's next move. With his mind blocked, it was simply me reading his eyes and body to gage what he was going to do next to me.

As he knelt between my thighs, he looked up at me and smiled that lopsided smile that melted me. His eyes fell to my lip that I was nervously biting and he reached forward and brushed his thumb across my lip, releasing it from its prison.

"If you want me to stop Isabella, at any time, just say so, my love."

His eyes were filled with concern and love. It made my heart stutter at the concern I saw reflected in them. I merely nodded slowly as all words and coherent thoughts where failing me rapidly as he looked at me in that way.

I had all kinds of depraved thoughts flying through my mind of what I wanted Edward to do to me, and here he was, being a gentleman when I wanted him to unleash his inner beast, again. But I could see by his eyes that he genuinely would go no further until I spoke.

"Please, don't stop Edward...don't ever stop," my voice was laced with lust.

At my words he smiled and crashed his cold lips to mine. He then worked his way down my neck, sucking and tasting my skin as if it were an exotic fruit. He went lower and lower with his lips until I felt his cool hands under my burning legs. Holding my thighs, he pushed them aside and moved his lips to my stomach. My eyes were locked onto his as he knelt between my legs, then his lips skimmed over my panties and I could feel his finger at the top, his eyes conveying his wishes. He was asking my permission one final time. I nodded, and his fingers ripped them from my body.

I was bare before him, our eyes still locked, so I could see him battling with the pure need to claim me then and there, and yet his voice was calm and velvety as he spoke.

"You are so beautiful, Isabella...so beautiful."

Then he kissed and licked my juices that had run down my thighs from our previous foreplay, making his way up to my outer lips while his cool tongue gently flicked and lapped. As soon as I felt his tongue, I started moaning. He then flattened his tongue and licked me from my centre all the way across my stomach, lavishing each nipple before crashing his lips back to mine. The combination of his venom and my arousal made me ache for him even more.

As his lips devoured mine I could feel his hard tip at my entrance, I drew in a deep breath and waited.

Edward slowly slipped into me, so gently and cautiously, until he was fully sheathed inside me. We moaned in unison at the combination of fire and ice, yet we fit perfectly, as if he was made for me…and me for him. Everything before this point had been animistic and passionate and fast, but this was slow and gentle. He slowly worked himself in and out until he was fully inside me.

When I felt his hips flush with mine, I let out the breath I had been holding and moaned his name into his skin as I bit down and sucked on his collarbone, making Edward moan and growl into my skin with me. I felt my muscles start to relax and accept him and as I started to shift, Edward moved with me and once again we were flush with each other.

He kissed me, our tongues dancing with each other. I could have kissed him for an eternity and that would not have been enough. As his hips started to move at an increased pace, he held onto me tighter as he slid out of me all the way before sliding back in faster and harder, all the time increasing the pressure.

I knew I would not last long.

I was feeling so sensual and needy of release again. He lowered his lips to my nipple and gently bit down and sucked hard as he thrust deep and hard into me. That was all it took for me to completely go over the edge and come all over him again.

My muscles tightened and clenched down around him and I could feel him speed up, his body tense as he pushed impossibly deeper into me, crushing me with his body as he spilled his ice cold venom into me.

Edward roared as he pulsed deep inside me, causing my body to climax again from the vibrations. His body reacted to mine as we fell into each other's arms, still connected by groin and tongues as we greedily sought more and more from this moment.

As we laid there in each other's arms, I could feel Isabella's mind begin to analyse every touch, thought and emotion we had just shared and I could feel her body tensing and shivering from the thought of being separated from me and from what we had discovered within the tangled mess of our bodies.

I gently lifted myself up onto one arm and held my weight off of her body; I let my fingers gently push back the strands of hair from her eyes and tucked it behind her ear. Bella sighed and held me tighter and closer as if we weren't close enough.

"Tired, my love?" my lips brushing her forehead lightly.

"Hmmmmm, if I admit it, even let the thought in for just a second...what does that say about me?" Her words slightly slurred and mumbled.

I chuckled against her skin and replied, "Well, it says your human Bella."

I could hear her heart slow it's pace before I heard the first gentle snore escape her lips, my mind replayed our love making in detail through my mind, I shook my head and brought it back to the present and the fact that I was not looking forward to the dawn and facing Bella's decisions as to what the future holds for all of us.

I pushed those thoughts to the back of my mind and savoured the memories we had created this night, as least we had this, we had tonight and this moment. I pulled Bella's hand into mine and wrapped my arms around her protectively and snuggled her into my chest and hummed her lullaby until the darkness began to fade and the first hints of dawn crept into the night sky.

But as the dawn began to awaken, I knew that I and Bella could no longer behave like what we had was nothing. I knew that we where one piece of the same heart, our love is a love our bodies can no longer deny each other. There is a love and longing in our bodies and I was certain it was this that held us together all these months.

I felt Bella stir and snuggle impossibly closer to my cold skin and my name slipped from her lips breathlessly...Edward...If my heart still beat it would have shuddered at her words.

I pressed my lips to her forehead and closed my eyes and in my mind I vowed to protect her with my body, my mind and my life...

Bella, my love there is a drumming noise inside my head that starts whenever you are around, I swear that you could hear it, it makes an almighty sound. Louder than sirens, louder than church bells, it is sweeter than heaven and hotter than hell; that is how my love feels for you, my love, my life, my Bella, you have made your way into this Vampires heart, my love, and that's how I know that we will survive anything the dawn of the new day will bring us.

A/N: Well my darlings...let me know how you feel about the turn of events...love and smooches everyone...Arc.

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