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Hello my freaky darling! I'm slowly coming back. Im sorry for being gone so long! So much as happen that has kept my from my story,but please be a little more patient with me. The "time out" I took has been to write the rest of the chapters from Edward's P.O.V but to also do a story of my own with Twilight inferences. I would love to thank lilangelme for editing my stories. However, if anyone find anything PLEASE PM! I will not change anything if left in a review. I hope everyone enjoys.

There is a great deal of pain in life and perhaps the only pain that can be avoided is the pain that comes from trying to avoid pain. R.D. Laing

I failed. I failed her in a way that wasn't supposed to happen. I thought as I looked down at Bella's lifeless body. Her eyes didn't shift, her breathe was silent, her heart was not beating and her body was limp. I failed. She died. I'm too late to save her. I covered her body with a white sheet as I dropped to my knees.

I never thought it was going to end like this or that it was going to end at all. I was blind by mere hope that it was all going to be all right. She didn't desire this. She didn't desire to have her life cut short. She desired more than I could ever giver her in my life time.

"Rosalie?" I heard Carlisle call out. "What happen?"

"It's a girl," Rosalie purred. "Her name is Renesmee. Isn't she the most beautiful baby in the whole universe?" She asked.

"Yes. Perfect." Esme sobbed.

"The delivery went all right, then?" Carlisle questioned.

"She's out and breathing."

"Bella?" Esme asked.

Rosalie shrugged her shoulders. "I haven't heard anything."

As Carlisle headed for the stairs, I took one last look at Bella's body. I placed my ear to her chest and closed my eyes. There was nothing. No heartbeat. No sign that she was alive.

"Edward?" Carlisle whispered.

"It's too late," I muttered.

"You don't know that, Edward. Please allow me check her." He said.

"What's the point? I already told you that it's too late." I growled.

Carlisle took one step forward. "Allow me to look at her."

I slowly turned to face Carlisle, my eyes filled with hate, as I gazed at him. I placed one hand on Bella's body as I crouched down, hovering directly over her. I began pulling her back, with me, toward the back wall. I wasn't going to allow him to do anything with her.

"Edward." Carlisle spoke, slowly taking a step back, palms up. "Please. Don't do this to her and yourself. We don't know for sure what's going on."

"I know," I argued.

"I don't want to have the boys to come drag you out of here. You're not an animal."

"Ha!" I laughed. "I would love to come see them try."

"Finally some action," Emmett grinned as he entered the room with Jasper.

"Edward, please. Are you going to allow me to take a look at Bella?" Carlisle pleaded.

"No!" I sneered.

As Carlisle stepped aside, Emmett came on my left while Jasper came from my right. I snarled and hissed at them. I wrapped my right arm around Bella's waist, pulling her lifeless body to press against mine, shielding her from them. I crouched lower with every step that they made towards me. They didn't have a chance to sneak an attack on me. I saw every move, every step they made to get me away from Bella.

"One," Jasper said.

"Two," Emmett grinned.

"Three," Alice said, racing in towards me.

Alice was suddenly on top of me, her arms tightly wrapped around my throat. I threw her off, kicking her towards the floor, snarling in her face. Jasper and Emmett came running at me from both sides. I drove under them, making sure not to harm Bella. I rolled onto myself, now cradling Bella in my arms. I got to my feet, crouched once more, staring at my brothers and sister.

"I love a challenge." Emmett roared with laughter.

"Enough," Carlisle demand.

As I took my attention off of my siblings, suddenly Emmett and Jasper threw me back towards the wall. I lost control over Bella as she fell to the floor. Emmett was able to wrap his arms around my upper chest, dragging me out of the room. Jasper caught Bella before she could hit the floor and handed her to Carlisle. At that point, I lost all control and began screaming like a rabid animal. I began struggling against Emmett, pulling and kicking my way out of his gasp. Jasper came and grabbed my lower legs as the both of them carried me away from the office.

"IT'S TOO LATE!" I roared "DON'T DO THIS TO ME!"

"Edward, relax!" Jasper yelled.

"THIS IS UNJUSTIFIED!"

"Really?" Emmett chuckled.

As they dragged me towards my room, I couldn't find the strength to fight back. I stopped screaming, as I felt depression take over me. My brothers placed me on the floor. There I laid with no more meaning to my life. I was crumbling inside. Everything around me felt so dark and artificial. I felt hope no longer existed at the moment. Nothing positive ran through my mind, just darkness all around. It seemed so surreal and like a bad dream. But it was very real. I started feeling sick in the pit of my stomach as I thought back to what I saw before Carlisle came home. I wanted to withdraw. I wanted to run away for it all.

So, I thought, where do I go from here? I knew that I was to blame for the current situation because I was one who listened to everyone else. I was the one who allowed Rosalie to manipulate Bella in carrying the child. I was the one who played Jacob in to believing that it was all going to work out. Everything, at the moment, seem easier if I stayed here, crying. I no longer knew anything. I was paralyzed with terror, cold with fright, ready to shout out, ready to die. How was I going manage without Bella?

"Edward?" I heard Carlisle call out.

I ignored him. I couldn't focus my mind on his mind. My mind yearned to know what happened to Bella, but I couldn't face whatever was coming to me.

"Edward?" Emmett said, nearly panicked. "Isn't there anything you can do?" I heard him ask Jasper.

"I don't know if I should. I might just push him over his limit," Jasper muttered.

"Edward? Come on, man. I don't think it's that bad." Emmett said.

"Emmett, what would you do if you lost my sister?" I whispered. "Or you Jasper?"

They said nothing. Suddenly I heard Carlisle clear his throat.

"Thank you gentlemen," Carlisle said, standing at the base of the door. "Please join the rest of the family down stairs."

My brothers left and I was alone with Carlisle.

"Edward?" Carlisle said. "I've examined Bella-"

"I don't want to hear it." I sobbed in the floor. "I was too late."

No, you weren't my son. I believe she is still with us. Carlisle expressed.

"What?" I said, I pulled myself to up my knees. "Are you sure?"

"Oh, yes."

"I don't understand." I whispered. "There is no breath or sign that she is changing." I indicated.

"I believe she is changing. I can't explain it and whenever she comes too, we can find out how it affected her. Now, there's the matter of you daughter."

"My daughter?" I sighed.

"Yes. She's been asking for you."

"Is she okay?"

"Well more or less." Carlisle said moving his head back and forth. "She extremely intelligent and she has a unique power. Perfect in every way and like I said she's been asking for you. I think it time you spend time with her."

"I think I should focus my time on Bella."

"I don't advise that. Being with your daughter is where your focus really needs to be." Carlisle said. "So, clean up a bit and we hope to see you down stairs." Carlisle said, patting my shoulder.

Once again I was alone. I stared out the window for a second before getting to my feet. Carlisle was right. I need to see the baby that Bella was so willing to die for. I took a deep breath as I headed for the shower to clean myself.

As I walked towards the stairs, I knew that there was no turning back. I was emotionally drained. It was now or never. I exhaled when I entered the living room and there she was, nestled in Rosalie's arms. Her skin was a creamy white but her cheeks were rosy. Her hair a shimmering bronze-color, that fell around her face. In that moment it was her eyes that captivated me. I just looked at her. It didn't feel like she was my child. It didn't seem real. The truth was that she looked like a beautiful stranger.

She smiled at Rosalie and then smiled at me. Rosalie handed me my daughter and it was unbelievable. I thought I was dreaming. I had to blink and keep telling myself that it was all real. That she was here and it was not like in my mind. I looked into her eyes and I couldn't believe that I created something like this, how did something with unspoiled perfection and flawlessness come from someone like me. From a monster came something pure and innocent. It was an unimaginable moment. She was like a new born flower whose petals have touched the sun for the first time. Her warmth and adventurous spirit attracted all that's good around the whole family.

With my daughter in my arms, I felt shame running through me. I couldn't believe that I wanted to do the most unspeakable things to her. I knew in that moment that I had to apology for everything.

"I'm so sorry," I whispered. "I meant no wrong. I didn't know."

She smiled as she buried her face into my chest. I didn't "know" her instantly, but I was sure I would love her without reason and enjoy learning who she was for years to come. I closed my eyes as I hugged my daughter. There was a new found love for this creature in my arms. She heard everything that I said and yet she gave my unconditional love, which I didn't desire.

No need to thank me. Rosalie teased.

"I can't thank you for what's happening to Bella or don't know if I'll ever forgive you," I said with cruelty in my voice. "But I can thank you for her."

"What are you doing holding her?" I suddenly heard Jacob demand.

"This is my daughter," I growled, glaring at him.

"I can't trust that you can control yourself with her."

"Excuse me." I hissed.

"She is half human and you haven't hunted in weeks." Jacob pointed

"How dare you!" Rosalie hissed. "You have no say so or right to say what Edward can or

can't do with his own daughter."

"I do," Jacob firmly said. I care and love her.

"You...you imprinted." I whispered.

"He did what?" Rosalie questioned.

"He has found his soul mate...in my," I looked down at Renesmee, "in my daughter."

"What?!" Rosalie shrieked. "But she's just a baby."

"Rosalie, don't!" Jasper yelled.

Unexpectedly Rosalie leaped from my side, launching herself at Jacob. She gripped him by the throat and pinned him to the floor. Her eyes black as night and a growled ripped through her that could shatter human ears. Carlisle entered and placed himself between Rosalie and Jacob

"No! We can't have this now."

"This pervert," Rosalie snarled. "He's the one who started."

"It's not like that!" Jacob said.

I gave my daughter back to my sister, throwing a glance at Jasper, Alice and Emmett to protect her.

"I won't allow it." I growled

"It's not up you," Jacob said. "It's not up me. It just happens."

I can't live without her. She is my heart and the light that shines with in it .Jacob said. It's nothing like everyone is thinking.

"That doesn't make it okay!" I complained.

What? Rosalie said.

As Renesmee had touched Rosalie's face, Jacob was all she was displaying in her mind.

"It's not right. I don't care what they call it!" Rosalie snarled.

"What did she say?" Alice asked.

"She feels the same way about Jacob," I said.

"I thinking I'm going to be sick!" Rosalie hissed.

"Hold it!" Emmett said with a hint of laughter in his voice. "Okay. So let me get this straight, I'm lost."

Not surprised. Jasper joked.

"You love her," Emmett pointed to Jacob.

"It's a different kind of love." Jacob said, beginning to get frustrated.

"Whatever. And she cares for you," Emmett pointed from Renesmee to Jacob. "And it normal for your kind to "imprint"? Emmett said, quoting the air.

"Yea," Jacob said rolling his eyes.

"So you don't love Bella anymore, right?" Emmett said, this time grinning

"No."

"And somehow we are to understand that this is all supposed to be okay, right?" Emmett asked.

"Yea." Jacob growled.

"So, I only have one more question?" Emmett said with a huge grin on his. "Can I tell Bella when she finally comes around?"

"No!" I hissed.

"But I would LOVE too. I can bet she'll be okay with everything." Emmett chuckled. "Hundred bucks she'll be more than happy to finally have Jacob part of the family?" He said, directing his question as Jasper.

"No need too bet anything. Bella will be out of control too really notice anything." Jasper said.

"You're on!" Emmett said.

"Enough!" Rosalie huffed." Let's get serious here. What are we going to do? Edward, you're allowing this to happen?"

I couldn't see a way around the current chaos that was unfolding in front of me. My mind kept seeing Jacob in Renesmee mind.

"We have no choice." I sighed

So then can I tell Bella? Emmett asked.

I snarled at him.

I don't like it. Rosalie said

"Edward, please." Jacob said. "I love her as bright as each sparkling star. I love her as deep as the ocean. I love her as loud as a thundering sky, as tall as the mountain .I love her as steady as the moon and the sun. My 'love for her' will never change like weather of the days. It's a certain kind of love in many different ways and it will come in many different ways. She will always be the music to my dance and my song. She is my sweetie, my dear, my smile and laugh. I will be her playmate, her best friend, her protector. I will be what she wants or needs me to be. I am meant for her and she is meant for me. the one I love forevermore. Undeniably. I can't imagine life before her came along."

"That's so sweet." Esme said.

"This is not right!" Rosalie continued to argue.

Renesmee began bouncing up and down in Rosalie's arms. She reached out for me, begging me to take her.

Edward, she's too little to know what she wants. Rosalie protested.

"I know, but what would you do if someone tried to take Emmett away?"

It's different, Edward.

"No matter what it is, it's a different kind of love."

"Edward, I wouldn't allow this!" Rosalie growled.

"Rose, she's not your daughter."

"I don't care. I'm not allowing this, this grungy mongrel anywhere near her."

I didn't have the strength to do anything at this point. I was feeling overwhelmed with everything happening at once. I wasn't going to accept any relationship that involved my daughter and Jacob. Suddenly Renesmee touched my check. She showed me that there was nothing that anyone could do because she cared for Jacob as her best friend. She wanted him to be part of this family not a stranger. She wasn't going anywhere without him or her family.

"I see." I said.

"What?" Alice asked.

"Well, there's nothing we can do, even if we wanted to. She wants him here ans she won't force him away-"

"Edward?!" Rosalie yelled. "She's just a child!"

"No." I said, looking into her eyes. "She's small like a child but she understands everything that's going on."

"Thank you," Jacob said.

"It doesn't mean that I'm okay with this. Let's make that very clear," I pointed out. "I don't know if I will be very okay with this and I can't be sure that Bella will either."

"So we're telling her then?" Jasper questioned.

"No," I said.

"Because I'm going too," Emmett beamed.

"NO!" I hissed.

"Then who is?" Alice asked.

"He will," I said, pointing at Jacob. "I won't tell her. Frankly, it would be nice to see her tear you to pieces." I slightly smiled.

"Is that a promise?" Jacob asked.

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