Chapter 28

I was so fucking confused.

After seeing Dom today my mind went swirling in a million different directions. I missed him terribly but, I loved Leon; I'm having his baby. One half of me wanted to hate Dominic so bad and the other half just wanted one more night in him arms. I guess you could say I wanted to have my cake and eat it too. Why couldn't life be as simple as it was when we were kids? When I was little my family would tell me to enjoy my youth because I was only young once; I couldn't wait to grow up... now I wish I would've listened to them more. I'd kill to be young and innocent again; with no problems like the ones I've got now.

I pulled into the driveway and got out of my car, quick to regain my composure because Leon was home from work already. We decided that for now, I wouldn't work and luckily we had some money saved we were going to use for the baby but, it paid for our rent instead. It was okay though, we'd make it. Walking into the house, I threw my keys on the table and sighed, going into the kitchen and getting a bottle of water. Leon was in the living room was a game on TV.

"Hey baby." He said with a mouth full of chips. I plopped down on the couch next to him and put my feet up on the table; not being able to hold in the sigh that so desperately wanted to leave my lungs. "What's wrong?" Leon looked over at me.

"Where can I start?" I chuckled grimly. "I ran into Dom at the store today, he knows about the baby..." Only because he knows my body so well. "Then he threw a bitch fit and stormed off so I went to the house, everyone is glad we're back by the way, anyways, yeah, we talked and it just didn't go very well." I growled lowly.

I could tell by the look on Leon's face that he was starting to panic. It was understandable because I was trying to talk to Dom; I could see how Leon would feel like I'm trying to get close to him again. I really couldn't say just yet what I was doing but, I know that I just want things to be normal again. It's wishful thinking of course but, we're all adults and we all should be able to get along.

Leon just nodded slowly and looked back towards the TV. I kicked off my shoes and pulled my feet up under me before leaning into Leon. He welcomed me happily; that I was thankful for. I closed my eyes as my mind wandered. I felt like those people you see in movies when they have an angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other. Only with me, it was Leon on one side and Dom on the other; and they were both smiling at me.

Dom was a big part of my life, it's natural that I can't stop thinking about what would have been. He and I will always share this unexplainable bond just because we know each other that well.

Then there was Leon. I'd fallen so hard for him while in Mexico and I really couldn't imagine my life without him. He was so sweet and generous and well, he was everything that Dom wasn't. Dom was just Dom and that's what I loved about him but, what I experienced since I've been with Leon is just so different and...amazing.

That Sunday morning, I was out of bed early on my way to the garage. I knew Dominic would be there because he always went to the garage on his day off. I never understood why but I did understand that he loved doing it and I never questioned that. Of course, I was quiet so I wouldn't wake Leon. I felt so guilty doing this but, I couldn't stay away. I needed closure or maybe answers; I just needed to be around him. When I pulled up, like clockwork, his car was in the parking lot sitting alone. The music could be heard from outside. A soft smile appeared on my face as I opened the car door and exited. When I walked in I found him bent over the hood of some random car. God he looked so good, I had to force myself not to drool.

Slowly, I walked over to the radio without being seen; flicking it off, I crossed my arms as he turned around. He was pretty shocked none the less to see me yet, he didn't instantly get angry or glare at me; he knows my body language well and I came in peace.

"What are you doing here?"