Hey guys sorry it took so long let me tell you fulltime work and fulltime school is tough and I don't recommend it to anyone. I can't say that I am thrilled with this chapter I feel like it is lacking something and had a hard time writing it but I really wanted to get something up. The next few chapters will come from a few different POV to you can see how everything happened. I hope I don't disappoint you all to much with this chapter.

Characters are owned by Richelle Mead.

The darkness consumed me, swallowed me whole. No matter how hard I tried to fight it I couldn't find the light to reality. I needed to find the light before it was to late. It all happened so fast the baby was finally here, I didn't even know if it was a boy or girl yet. Or if it would still be alive when I found my way out of the darkness if I ever did. I roamed around desperate to get out, my mind was swarming with the image of Dimitri holding Adrian and my baby with blood on his mouth.

Oh my gosh Adrian what if I was to late what if Dimitri kills the baby before I can get out of my head my own personal hell, what if I am already dead. I would rather die with my child than be in a world that she or he no longer existed in.

The darkness shifted slowly lifting until it was completely gone. I stood in the middle of a fully decorated nursery. The walls were painted a pale pink, and there was boarder around the room. A dark brown crib was slanted into the far corner with light pink material cascading down the wall behind it from a crown. I turned my attention back to the room and noticed a matching changing table that was the same color as the crib and the sliding rocking chair had been placed next to window that was being covered by heavy brown curtains. I glanced around trying to figure out what was going on when I heard a baby cry. It immediately pulled my attention back to the crib. I stood there staring at the crib then glanced down at my stomach expecting to see the bulge that I had gotten so use to, but it was no longer there. Hearing the cry again I ran over to the crib quickly. Once I reached it I took a minute before I looked down.

Nestled in a pink blanket laid the cutest baby I have ever seen, her green eyes took my breath away, she had brown hair that was a bit lighter than mine and she was well on her way to having Adrian's nose. I gasped looking down at my baby before reaching forward to lift her.

"Hey sweetheart mommy has you, it is ok" I cooed at her rocking her back and forth attempting to get her to stop crying. Once I spoke she calmed down immediately her eyes focusing on my face. I smiled down at my beautiful healthy baby. My heart thudded at those words my beautiful healthy baby, she was here and she was safe. But then a sudden feeling on panic rippled through my body. I knew she was mine but I could not recall having her, bringing her home, I felt like this was the first time I had held her in my arms.

"I told you she would love you, this is why you should never doubt me" a voice that owned my heart said. My body reacted spinning around to face the man that I loved with my whole heart that stood behind me a smirk on his face that turned into a look of confusion when I wrapped my free arm around him pulling him closer to me sobbing into his chest. I wasn't sure what was happening but I felt the need to be closer to him.

"Adrian" I sobbed even harder breathing his scent in and basking in the warmth that radiated from his chest.

"Shhh baby it is ok, I am here" he said wrapping his arms around me the best he could without injuring the baby. "Are you ok?" he asked without loosening his hold on me.

"Yeah I just missed you so much" I said trying to calm my voice down before I scared the baby.

His laughing caused his chest to rumble under my head, "I love you, and I miss you whenever you are not near me too" he said running his hand up and down my back in a calming movement.

"Everyone is here to see the baby" he said unwrapping one of his arms to pull me toward the door to leave the nursery.

"Can I have a minute?" I asked hesitating when he attempted to lead me out to the living room.

"Sure, whenever you two are ready we are in the living room" he said kissing the baby's head and then my lips lightly.

I watched him walk out closing the door when he left. I walked to the sliding rocking chair that I had spent so much time sitting in before the baby came trying to picture what our baby would look like. Now I was finally going to sit in it holding the baby that had consumed so many of my thoughts back then. I stared down at her watching her eyes flutter shut as I rocked us back and forth humming a nursery rhyme that I couldn't remember all the words to so I stuck to humming. I ran my fingers through the little bit of hair she had, picked up both hands counting all ten fingers, moving next to her tiny feet after slipping her socks off I counted all ten toes before putting the socks back on. She was perfect.

I glanced around the room that had been finished since I had been in here last, but I didn't recall doing any of it. There were balloons in the corner that were huge congratulating us on it being a girl, there was also a huge teddy bear in the corner. I couldn't help but laugh trying to picture who had bought it. I assumed it was Lissa and was sure if she did that she made Christian carry it. I laughed again thinking how annoyed he probably was carrying it out of the store.

After fifteen minutes I stood up walked to the closest that was completely full of clothes. I was shocked at all the dresses, pants, shirts, there were even four bathing suits filling it. I pulled out a little pink dress and a pair of leggings since it was still cold out and walked to the changing table. I wasn't sure were it came from since I had never been around children but I was finding that holding the baby and changing her was all coming so naturally as I went. I laid her down when it dawned on me that I didn't even know her name, I had no clue what my own child's name was.

I shook the thoughts from my head focusing on getting her out of the snap on pajamas into the dress. I changed her diaper as I went trying to be as gentle as I could so she didn't wake up. Once she was fully dressed I picked her back up pulling the blanket from the side of the crib were I had laid it and wrapped it around her body before walking to the door.

"Oh my gosh let me see her, it feels like I haven't seen her since I don't know when" Lissa said launching out of her seat running towards the baby and I. I immediately took a step back from her which stopped her in her tracks.

"Are you ok Rose?" She asked putting her hands up to show she was not a threat.

"She has been acting a little off all morning, I think it might just be the lack of sleep" Adrian said getting up out of a chair walking toward me. He smiled at me and walked closer to me until he could lean forward to successfully whisper into my ear.

"I can ask them to leave if you are uncomfortable, they can always come back when you have had more sleep and it is not all so new" he said moving his hand to my chin tilting it up until I was looking at him.

"No I don't want them to leave" I said smiling up at him. I glanced past him and was met with nine sets of eyes that seemed to have a good amount of worry in them. I warily smiled at them noticing my mom sitting particularly close to my dad. Adrian's parents were sitting next to mine on the couch which seemed to small to hold four grown adults. Oksana and Mark were sitting on the loveseat. I smiled at Eddy and then Emily who was sitting in his lap then moved to Christian next. He had a concerned look on his face but when my eyes meet his he smiled and winked before looking down at the ground.

I returned my attention to Adrian and Lissa that were standing to my side. "I swear I am ok" I said moving forward to take one of the seats that had been brought in from the dinning room so that everyone would have a seat.

"You should be sitting in a more comfortable chair than one of those" Mark said standing up from the loveseat and gesturing for me to take his place.

"Thank you" I said moving around him holding the baby closer to my chest as I passed him. I figured I would be a little antsy once the baby came. But the emotions I was feeling now were uncontrollable I didn't anyone looking at her let alone touching her. Oksana stood from her spot and proceeded to tell Adrian to take her spot as she sat down in one of the other chairs next to Mark and Christian.

Adrian took the seat next to me sliding his arm through mine to link us together without disrupting the baby's sleep. He was the only one I felt comfortable touching me or our baby. He leaned over and kissed my shoulder. "It is good seeing you with her" he smiled at me before turning his attention to our guest.

I sat there staring down at our beautiful baby wondering what he meant I couldn't remember the last couple of days and it felt like today was the first time seeing her but she looked at least a week old, but the past week was a mystery to me. I would occasionally look up and try to focus on what everyone was talking about but I found my eyes being pulled down to the tiny baby that I cradled in my arms that I had no clue what her name was. The sudden thought that I had no clue what we had named our own child hit me with so many emotions that I didn't know how to filter through them. I was angry that I couldn't remember, I was embarrassed, annoyed, and the amount of disgust I felt for myself was unbearable.

I shifted my body forward pulling my arm from Adrian's and stood up. The conversation died quickly and everyone's eyes turned to focus on me.

"She will want to eat soon I was going to make a bottle" I said when I noticed everyone was waiting for me to say or do something. Adrian smiled up at me and nodded his head. Once I was sure everyone believed me I walked out of the living room quickly. The kitchen seemed to be exactly the same as I remembered it but I had no clue when that was. Except now there were small bottles sitting in a drainer next to the sink.

I grabbed one of the bottles from the drainer flipping it over and sitting it on the counter before opening the cabinet where I assumed we would have placed the formula. Unfortunately it was not in there so I proceed to look through the next one, five minutes later I had looked through every cabinet and even pulled the drawers open. I scanned the fridge without any luck. I pushed the door closed and felt the tears welling up in my eyes. I was so frustrated and confused and those emotions were slowly turning to anger. I was angry at myself for not remembering anything and was clearly displaying what an awful mother I was. What kind of mom doesn't know her baby's name, doesn't remember having her or the first few days of her life no matter how tired you are that is not normal and now the straw that was going to break the camels back. I had absolutely nothing to feed her.

I felt her shift slightly in my arms. I glanced down to see those beautiful green eyes shining up at me and a small smile on her face. The tears fell from my eyes realizing how perfect she was and she got stuck with me for a mother. She blinked her eyes a few times, yawned and then started crying. I shifted her so she was resting on my shoulder and tried to bounce her lightly hoping she would stop crying and had no success.

"Shh baby it will be ok, mommy is here" I said knowing that the words meant little because I might be there but she would be better off it I wasn't. I knew if Adrian had known we were out of formula he would have went to the store and bought some or at least sent someone else out. But here I was rocking a crying baby hoping my voice would calm her, but she was clearly unhappy and hungry. I shifted her body again so she was cradled in my arms.

"I am so sorry, you deserve so much more" I cried sliding my back down the counter until I was seated on the floor. And I just sat there and cried with the baby.

"How is lunch going?" Adrian asked walking into the kitchen clearly not seeing us on the floor.

"Rose baby what is wrong?" he asked once he came around the counter and saw us planted on the floor.

"You both deserve so much more than me. I am an awful mother and I am sure I will be an awful wife. You should get out before you are stuck with me" I sobbed holding the baby out to him. He gentle took her from me and then moved until his back was against the counter next to me. He pulled out a binki and placed it in the baby's mouth which caused her cries to end immediately.

"If anyone here doesn't deserve all of this" he gestured out to us and around the room "it is me. You are the best mother I have ever seen Rose and I couldn't imagine anyone else being a better wife nor would I want to. I love you and the day you say I do will be the only day that will compete with the happiness I felt when you had this little girl right here" he said pulling my hand into his.

"I don't know what is wrong with me" I sobbed brining my forehead down to his shoulder. Just being closer to him seemed to calm me. "I can't remember having her, I don't even know her name, and I can't find her freaking formula" I said my face still buried into his neck and shoulder where it was going to stay. I couldn't bare to see the disappointment in his eyes when I made my admission.

"Maybe we should call Dr. Olendzki and see if she can come by. But lets feed this little girl first" he said standing up and offering me his free hand.

"I think we are out of formula or you hid it well" I said gesturing to the empty bottle. Adrian turned to follow my hand.

"Rose we don't use formula."

"What?" I asked I knew it was to soon for her to be drinking regular milk.

"We decided for you to breast feed after Dr. Olendzki told us the health benefits that the baby gets from breast milk" he said walking toward the fridge. "Don't worry we have some milk you pumped yesterday, we will use that until you see the doctor" he said opening the fridge and pulling out a small baggie of milk.

I watched him work around the kitchen to heat the milk up before emptying it into the bottle all while holding the baby in his arms. I couldn't help but smile seeing how well he was with our daughter but that smile quickly faded when I realized how bad I was with her.

"How old is she?" I asked breaking the silence.

Adrian looked up from the baby to look at me his face full of concern.

"She is two weeks old. Babe I think we need to call the doctor, I am not sure what is going on maybe it has something to do with what happened a couple of weeks ago" he said walking towards me.

"What happened a couple of weeks ago besides me having a baby?" I asked clearly confused what could cause the symptoms I was experiencing.

"You don't recall what happened with Dimitri?" he asked.

His name pulled me from the dream that had consumed my brain.

My eyes fluttered open but quickly shut from the harsh lighting that was filling the room. I could hear a steady beeping that was quickly getting on my nerves.

I slowly opened my eyes again allowing them to flutter shut again in an attempt to adjust them to the light. Once I could see somewhat clearly I scanned the room quickly realizing I was no longer at the house that Dimitri had keep me at. There were monitors surrounding the head of the bed and I quickly realized that the beeping was coming from the monitor that was registering my heart rate.

I shifted my hand down to my stomach realizing immediately that my stomach was no longer there. The memory of Dimitri holding my baby with blood on his face flashed through my head. Not realizing what I was doing my body shifted forward until I was sitting up. I flung my legs over the side of the bed ignoring the pain that was radiating through my body. I needed to find our baby.

I went to take a step off the bed when the iv in my hand pulled me back. Not thinking about it I pulled the needle out of my hand wincing slightly from the pain. I yanked the blood pressure cuff of my arm and pulled the monitor off of my finger before attempting to move off of the bed. The monitors were going crazy, the slow steady beep that had been filling the room moments ago were beeping quickly and loudly.

My feet touched the ground, but as soon as the rest of my weight shifted onto them my knees buckled and my body started to crumble to the ground. Before I made contact with the cold hard floor two warm hands wrapped around my body pulling me towards them. My face was buried in his chest, his smell consumed me and my heart fluttered realizing that I was in the arms of the man I thought I would never see again let alone touch.

"Adrian" I mumbled in his chest as he pulled my body into his lifting me into his arms cradling my body to his chest.

"I am here" he said shifting his body forward to lay me back down on the bed.

"No I want to stay with you" I protested clinging to him and refusing to let go.

"Rose you were injured you need to be hooked up to those machines to get your pain medication and to keep a record of your vital signs" he said trying to put me down again.

"Please don't let me go" I sobbed into his chest my body being consumed with emotions.

"Ok" he said walking away from the bed and sitting down on the small couch that was against the wall.

"I missed you so much, I never thought I was going to see you" I said wrapping my arms around him even tighter not wanting to ever be separated from him again.

"You have no idea how much I have been praying for you to wake up so I could hold you in my arms again. I love you so much" he said kissing the top of my head before shifting my body so he could see my face.

His face was beautiful even with the dark circles that surrounded his eyes and the red puffiness that was quite noticeable from crying.

"I missed those eyes" he said bringing his hand up to wipe the tears from my cheeks. I cradled his face in my hands bringing his lips closer to mine but before they could make contact his eyes flickered to the side and he pulled back.

"Rose I need to call the doctor your hand is bleeding from where you pulled the iv out" he said. I turned my head and realized the blood running down my arm. Seeing the bright red blood snapped my mind back to why I was getting out of the bed.

"Oh my gosh Adrian where is the baby" I screamed my heart racing and I realized I was getting hysterical, but there was nothing that could stop me. I tried to pull myself out of his arms to get up, but he quickly wrapped his arms around me pulling my body back to his.

"Little Dhampir please calm down she is fine" he said bringing his hand up to my face to stroke the hair out of my eyes.

"She? We had a girl?" I asked tears streaming down my cheeks.

"Yes, she is beautiful and healthy and safe" he said the biggest smile covering his face.

"Where is she? I want to see her" I said attempting to get free from his arms again.

"Rose let the doctor check you out and then we will go see her. I promise" he said standing up from the chair walking me back to the bed. "Sit here while I grab the doctor, as soon as she gets your hand cleaned up and gives you the ok we will go" he said turning toward the door. I nodded and watched him exit the room.

I sat there staring at the door trying to recall anything that had happened. The last thing I remember is going into labor and Dimitri holding the baby. I couldn't figure out how we got from there to here and my mind was running through scenarios but none that came to mind would lead to me being in a hospital with Adrian and a healthy baby.

Before I could think anymore about it the door swung open Adrian walked in followed by Dr. Olendzki and a nurse that I hadn't ever meet.

"I am so glad to finally see you awake Rose" Dr. Olendzki said walking toward the bed. "Lets get that hand cleaned up and then I will give you a once over, Adrian told me you are very eager to meet that little princess down the hall" she said smiling up at me while wrapping my hand in gaze to stop the bleeding.

"I have been waiting for nine months to meet her so yes I suppose you could say I was eager" I said smiling at her the best I could because I was tempted to shove her out of the way and go find my baby on my own.

The nurse moved to my other arm and placed the blood pressure cuff back on, I felt it tighten and then loosen after a few seconds. She grabbed my hand and checked my pulse, before putting a thermometer in my mouth. I was about to protest but when I saw Adrian and how worried he looked I shut my mouth. Dr. Olendzki did a few more test and then told me I was clear. I was about to jump off the bed when she stopped me.

"Rose you have been comatose for over four days it would be best if you went in a wheel chair" she said patting my arm. I nodded and was glad the nurse came back with one quickly.

Adrian helped me into the chair.

"Are you ready to meet our daughter?" he asked pushing me through the door that was being held open by the nurse.

"You have no idea."

"Rose" Dr. Olendzki called before we headed down the hall.

"Yeah" I snapped at her, could they not see how anxious I was to get to my daughter. I had already missed days with her, I didn't want to waste anymore time.

"Congratulations" she said smiling at me.

"Thanks" I said grabbing the side wheels of the chair and started wheeling myself down the hall.

"Calm down before you hurt yourself" Adrian said grabbing the chair pushing me forward. "Plus you don't even know where we are going" he said laughing lightly. Hearing him laugh make my heart soar. I felt my eyes fill with tears from happiness but held them back.

"Alright are you ready for this?" Adrian asked stopping outside a door.

"Adrian Ivashkov if you don't open that door it will be a lot longer than six weeks for you to have sex" I said glancing up at him. He smiled and threw his hands up in surrender. He pushed the door open and pushed me through. There was a small bassinet sitting in the room a monitor was next to it similar to the one in my room.

"Oh my gosh Rose your awake" I heard my father's voice say but my eyes were so focused on the bassinet that I did not bother looking over where his voice had come from.

Adrian stopped the chair a few feet away, I was about to protest when he stepped in front of me bending down. He pivoted his body around to face me, the look on his face was radiating so much love that it took my breath away. I glanced away from his face to the little bundle that he held in his hands.

"Rose I want to introduce you to the our daughter Abigail Rose Ivashkov" he said smiling down at me before slowly bending down to place her into my arms.

"Abigail" I said looking down at the most beautiful baby I had ever saw. Some may call my bias since she was my child but I knew if they saw her they could have to agree. She was even prettier than the dream. Her eyes were closed so I couldn't see the color but I prayed she would have Adrian's gorgeous eyes. I pulled the little cap off of her head and had to hold back a small laugh when I realized she was practically bald. The little bit of hair she did have was dark brown like mine, but it would be a while before I would be able to put any clips or bows in it. I ran my fingers across her head and smiled when she crinkled up her forehead.

"Hi my little angel" I cooed at her lightly not wanting her to wake up but feeling the need to let her know I was there. Her lips curled up in a tiny smile. Like the dream I pulled her little hands out of the small gloves she was wearing counting her tiny fingers and smiling when I reached ten, I moved to her tiny toes next.

"Like I said she is perfect. Just like her mother" Adrian said kneeling down next to us.

"How, how did we get here? How did you find us? Dimitri he, he bite her how is she alive?" I asked a million questions flooding my brain trying to figure out how it was possible that we were alive.

"We will have plenty of time to talk about that when you are feeling better, right now lets focus on getting you better and taking Abigail home" he said kissing her head then moving his lips to mine.

"Ok. How did you know that I loved that name?" I asked looking at our perfect daughter before returning my attention to my perfect fiancée.

"I found it scribbled all over a notebook. You had it matched with a bunch of middle names so I assumed you like it. We can change it if you don't like it, I didn't let them put it down on the birth certificate because I wanted to make sure you were ok with it" he said his face filled with concern.

"I love it, I am not sure about the middle name though" I said.

"Oh no the middle name stays, if I can't name her after you completely then you have to agree to give me the middle name" he protested.

"Fine" I said since I was just joking with him.

"Good" he said smiling at my.

Bringing my free hand up to his face I ran my fingers across the dark circles under his eyes. "You look tired babe" I said smiling when he leaned his face into my hand.

"I am fine, now that I know you are safe I am fine" he said closing his eyes resting his head in my palm.

I heard the door open and from the excitement that filled me that was not my own I knew Lissa was here.