Disclaimer- I don't own Kingdom Hearts.

Author's Note- It is so cold where I live, my teeth are chattering and I'm inside. Canada is cold. Tea is my savior during winter. It warms me up from the inside. Enjoy this, it's a bit of a better length than last time.


Two years ago

December 7th, 2009

Dear Riku,

Kairi keeps telling me that I need to get out more. That I need to be with people my age more often and have conversations with people other than her. I go out with her shopping, or over to her house when she asks me to, but I guess it isn't enough for her. My mother has been telling me to go out too. I don't think anyone understands that I don't want to go out, that I don't want to go hang out with people. I just... want to be alone with my thoughts, with my memories.

I'm becoming fairly introverted, a little like you always had been with anyone other than me or Kairi. You never were the most friendly or open person, were you? I can tell that she's worried, sometimes it'll show in the set of her features, or the stiffness in her shoulders. She'll be tense, and her smile will look strained, like it's too much of an effort to make it look really sincere.

My mother is worrying too. I don't think that she or my dad know what to do with me anymore. My dad's given up on making me go out and be social, and my mother is getting closer to giving up every day that I don't change.

I almost wish I wasn't here anymore, I almost wish I wasn't on Destiny Islands, that I was off world somewhere, searching for you.

It... doesn't feel much like home anymore.

I hate that.

I want to go search for you. I want that, but then I think how awful it would be for Kairi and my parents if I disappeared again. I only need to think of your parents, and their expressions on Thanksgiving, how sad they were that you were gome.

I couldn't do that to them, even though sometimes it's very tempting.

Kairi wanted me to go to another party with her this weekend. I'm not sure where in her little world this seems like a good idea, considering how the last one ended. I haven't gone to any parties with her since Halloween, I don't want to see Kairi like that ever again. It scared me.

I don't want her to kiss me again.

Right now, I'm content to just sit in your paopu tree and just write these letters. Even though no one understands that, this is the only thing I want to do right now.

I miss you.

Your friend,

Sora


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