"I dreamt that we almost lost Harry Kate…"
"Kate," Rick whispered as he moved closer to her and moved his arms around her body, not wanting to let her go as she rested her head against his shoulder and breathed out. How was she supposed to explain it to him? He'd been so upset the first time, so angry with her because of what she'd almost done and now she had to go through that whole situation again because he was gaining the vague memory of the whole event. "Kate, we almost lost our son," he mumbled as he pressed a quick kiss into her hair before she looked up at him and ran her fingers across his cheek. "Katie."
"I was starting to show, we'd spent the whole morning practically in bed together staring at my stomach, god you never moved your hands away from this tiny bump that you practically hid when your hand was on it," Kate said quietly as they moved towards the other room again, Kate glancing across at where Harry was sleeping before they entered the office and sat down on their makeshift bed. "I was supposed to have the day off work and we planned just to stay in bed and watch television and plan things for when Harry arrived," Kate admitted as she cuddled into his arms and relaxed, not knowing what else to say. "I really don't want to talk about this Rick," she finally declared as he groaned and stared at her.
"Please," Rick begged as she shut her eyes. "We were in bed talking about Harry and our plans and then your phone started ringing," he declared, recalling the vague memories of his dream, as she nodded slowly, her fingers lacing with his as she bit into her lip. "You answered the phone, even though I didn't want you too," Rick stated, remembering how he'd pulled her back on the bed, the two of them laughing as they fought over her answering the phone.
"I answered the phone, Ryan and Esposito were working on a case and they needed my help for something," Kate admitted as Rick nodded and shut her eyes. "You were angry for a little while because we wanted to spend the whole day planning and I'd promised not to go into work but you agreed and we went into the precinct to help with the case," she stated as he nodded, his arms wrapping tightly around her body as she slowly looked up at him. "Everyone was babying me…"
"You shouted at the boys," he laughed, remembering hearing her shout at the two detectives from his place in the break room while he'd been making her drink and something to eat.
"They kept babying me, getting things for me like I couldn't walk. I was so angry and I wanted to prove that I could still be a decent detective and be pregnant, so I got cocky," she said quietly as Rick nodded, keeping her close as she bit into her lip. "We had an idea where the suspect was and I started to get ready and you told me to stay in the car and I was angry because everyone had been frustrating me since I'd arrived in the precinct, making me feel like I couldn't do my job, so I went ahead and I chased the suspect on my own," she said quietly, clearly ashamed as she buried her face into his chest again.
"Kate," he whispered, his eyes shutting as he remembered the image. Remembered following Javier and Kevin quickly into the building just as Kate had started to fall down the stairs, the suspect standing at the top of the stairs smirking. "You were pushed down the stairs," he stated as she nodded slowly, trying not to cry as he buried his face into her cherry scented hair. "I don't think I've ever been as scared as I was watching you fall down those stairs and not knowing what to do."
"I was terrified Rick," Kate admitted as she remained still. "I was terrified that I was going to lose our baby because I was being stubborn and stupid," she whispered as tears ran down her cheeks. "God I nearly lost our son," she declared as Rick tightly wrapped his arms around her body, not wanting to let her go as he took in all the emotions that were taking over. He was angry, upset, almost grieving for a child that was alive and healthy and asleep in the other room. "You were so angry and you left once I got to the hospital and we were told that everything seemed fine. You needed to calm down and Kevin just came in."
"I've always wondered what happened between you two while I was gone," Rick admitted as she bit into her lip.
"He came in and just sat down next to me. He took hold of my hand and just stared at me for a moment, he didn't say anything and he wasn't being judgemental and I felt so bad because of everything that had happened to him recently," Kate admitted as confusion covered the writer's face. "They've been trying for a baby Rick for years," Kate said quietly as Rick nodded, knowing that he'd been surprised when he'd woken up in the hospital to find that the Ryan's had no baby's yet. "They'd been trying for a baby for so long and they'd been told it was unlikely that it would happen naturally and there I was in hospital, after almost losing my baby because of my stupidity and Ryan was just sat there holding my hand, feeling sorry for me. He wasn't angry with me like I wanted him to be, he didn't even tell me that I was stupid. He just held my hand."
"Kate," Rick whispered.
"They can't have children Rick, they can't have children and I was there being stupid, risking my baby's life for a stupid case that they could have dealt with on their own. I just wanted them to be angry with me for a second, you were the only one who was angry with me and you were the one person I didn't want to be angry."
"I was scared Katie," Rick whispered as she looked up at him, not knowing what to say as he brushed a hand across his cheek. "I was scared because you were so terrified Katie and I was worried about the baby and god Kate," he blurted out before he leant down and kissed her quickly, her fingers moving through his hair as she deepened the kiss. "I love you."
"I love you so much," Kate whispered against his lips as their eyes locked. "I like having you here," she admitted, the writer smiling as he glanced down to see how she was straddling him. "Not like that," she warned when he started to smirk. "I just like having you here… with me."
"I like it too Kate."
XOXOXOXOXOOXXOO
"Stop it, I'm trying to paint," Kate warned as Rick's arms snuck around her waist and his lips began to press against her neck, a laugh leaving her lips as she continued to paint the wall in the nursery. "Go and pick up a paintbrush and help me with that, I don't need a hickey right now," she warned as she turned her head to look at him for a moment, a laugh leaving his lips when she moved away from him and began to focus on painting the walls.
"Remind me why we're painting the apartment when we could just pay someone to decorate it for us?" Rick asked as Kate glared across at him. "Just asking," he smiled as she nodded and continued to concentrate on the painting.
"Because some of the best memories I have of my childhood was decorating the apartment with my parents and I know that some of my dad's favourite memories of my mom is when they decorated their first apartment," she admitted, turning to look at her husband again to find that he was already staring at her with a small smile on his face. "I want us to have normal memories."
"So we're not normal then?" he asked as she crossed her arms, the writer taking in the paint on her face and her messily tied back hair as her smile continued to grow.
"Richard Castle you're as far from normal as possible," she smiled as he laughed. "But I love you for it anyway," she explained, turning when she heard the door open. Watching as Martha entered the room Kate smiled as she took in the look of amazement that was covering her mother in law's face. "How's Alexis?" Kate asked quickly.
"Fast asleep, she woke up for some breakfast but she went straight back to bed afterwards," the redhead explained as Kate nodded slowly.
"And Harry?" Kate asked quickly.
"Entertaining your father Kate," Martha explained as Kate beamed, knowing that Harry was making her father's life so much better even. Her father had someone else to focus on now, a grandson who he'd promised to teach baseball too. "It's looking nice in here," Martha commented as Kate turned to take in the now blue walls. "I can't believe that my son is holding onto a paintbrush and decorating his own apartment," she smirked while Kate laughed and nodded in agreement.
"Well we're making memories mother," Rick declared as Kate shook her head at him before wrapping her arms around her body. "I want to look at this apartment in twenty or thirty years when my children are all grown up with children of their own and tell them all about decorating this apartment with my wife and our family," he explained as Kate stared at him for a moment before Martha nodded and excused herself, leaving the room quickly as Kate moved to start painting again.
"Did you like my speech?" Rick asked.
"Yeah, it was really original Castle," Kate smirked, her smile growing as Rick moved to stand closer to her. "I've painted there already Rick."
"But I'm lonely in that corner of the room," he declared, her eyes rolling before she leant across to kiss him, the brunette squealing when his paint brush brushed against her arm, covering it in the blue paint. "I think you're going to need a long bath tonight Mrs Castle," he commented as his arms moved around her body, keeping her close as she stared up at him.
"Is that your way of saying you want to help?" Kate questioned as he nodded, her eyes rolling as she stared up at him. "We get in here painted and we also finish setting up Alexis' room because she just needs her furniture set up and then we can have a long, hot bath together," she whispered as he groaned, her arms sneaking up around his neck as he kept her close. "Ready to start painting again then Castle?"
"I guess if it means I get to see you in the bath again," he declared, her eyes rolling as she stepped away and began to start painting again.
"It would go quicker if you started painting as well Castle," Kate explained before Rick laughed and began to paint on the other side of the room, trying desperately to stop himself from getting distracted by his beautiful wife.
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Running down the stairs with a large smile on her face after she'd gone to see whether Alexis was okay to find the girl was asleep, Kate laughed as she entered the living room to find Rick lying on the floor, in the completely empty room, while lifting a noisy Harry into the air above him. This was the Richard Castle she'd wanted around for the last few weeks! This was the father she wanted in her son's life since he'd entered the world!
"Having fun bonding?" Kate smiled as Rick nodded, the writer sitting up quickly as he held his son in his arms, not wanting to let him go as Kate sat down beside him and ran her fingers through Harry's small amount of hair. "I love his little curls," she stated before shaking her head and laughing. "I just love every single thing about him," she admitted, leaning down to kiss Harry's head gently while Rick watched in amazement. He'd dreamt of this for years, he'd dreamt of a maternal Kate and having children with her and here they were, a family with a new born son and everything he'd dreamt of.
"I just love that he's us Kate, he's everything we fought so hard for," he admitted as she nodded, the writer staring at her paint covered face and body. "Your mom's case, all the people who got in our way especially motor cycle boy, he's just everything we fought so we could finally be together," he declared, leaning across to kiss her as she smiled against his lips.
"He's our baby Rick, we made him. This tiny little person is one hundred per cent us," Kate said quietly as Rick rested their son on his mat on the floor, the small boy moving as they watched in amazement. "I've had fun today," she admitted as he laced his fingers with hers and smiled at her.
"I never thought I would have fun painting a room," Rick admitted as Kate laughed and rested into his side. "I think we made some amazing memories today Kate," he whispered into her hair as she nodded, her eyes remaining focused on her son as she smiled to herself. This was all she wanted in her life! "Now when my mother gets back from her acting class, we are giving her Harry for an hour and we are going for that long hot bath you promised."
"Now I don't remember promising," she teased as he began to press kisses into her hair. "Do you think you're going to become more intimate every time you gain a memory?" Kate asked as he shrugged, a laugh leaving her lips as he kept her close.
"I don't know but I can't wait to find out."
Just a random reasonably happy chapter to keep the balance as I kind make every chapter an angsty chapter. Please review, you're all so amazing at commenting and it means the world to me to know your thoughts on my chapters as well as anything you might like to see more of. I also will take requests for anything you might want me to go into greater detail about as I know I haven't really focused on what's happened to Tyson since he was arrested so whether that's something you'd like me to put in is up to you.
Anyway thank you for being so amazing and well, I'm getting back on track with my updates.
