The next few chapters are going to be mainly from Jacob's POV because im having a difficult time showing the mental pain and the effects of Ness's rape. Bear with me as you here from Jacob's side mostly don't worry though, I do include some Ness in them.

Chapter Twenty Nine

"Her own Father"

Renesmee's POV

I had woken up only two hours later and continued just to lay there, relaxing in Jacobs's arms and for the first time in the past three days I felt completely safe. Jonathon was dead and Jacob wouldn't let me out of his sight again. I tried to go back to sleep but every time I closed my eyes I would see Jonathon's mocking face.

"Ness are you awake?" Jacob whispered into my hair. I nodded and he sat up, pulling me into his arms he stood and carried me quietly outside to the porch. He sat at the steps; me curled up in his arms. We sat there in silence until the sound of a car came up the drive and he stood placing me on my feet. My heart pounded and I shrank into Jacob's side. His arm wrapped protectively around my shoulder. Mom, Dad, Grandpa and Aunt Rosalie piled out and Dad let out a sigh of relief and ran towards me. I freaked, seeing Jonathon lunge for me when he had me cornered in the hall I screamed and leaped behind Jacob. Daddy stopped midstep, Jacob turned and pulled me into his arms.

"Ness sweetheart it's just your dad." He smiled and ran his fingers through my hair. I relaxed slightly as Mom made her way slowly to my side.

"Oh baby." She whispered and I flung myself into her arms. I cried into her shoulder, everything had almost healed, my lip, the bruises but between my legs still felt like fire. I pulled away from mom and stared at Dad. He gave me a weak smile. I fought with myself, this was my father, he had never laid a hand on me. He had delivered me and saved my mother. He had tucked me into bed and taught me to play the piano. Slowly I walked towards him and wrapped my arms around him stomach. I still couldn't say anything; I had barley been able to speak three words to Jacob. I let go quickly and skidded back to Jacobs's side, wrapping my arms around his stomach.

"Ness we brought Carlisle so he could check you, make sure your healing right." Mom smiled and Carlisle moved forward. I shook my head viciously and looked at Jacob. I told him, I told him that I didn't want any person but him to ever see me without my clothing ever again.

"She said no, she can't handle it mentally." Jacob said firmly, his eyes on me.

"I have to, she could be hurting herself." Grandpa tried again. Jacob's eyes snapped up.

"Have you seen her? Did you see her scream when her own father tried to touch her? She has barely spoken, she can't sleep and she has random flashbacks. She won't allow it, I won't allow it." He snapped and pushed me behind him. Was I really that affected by all this? I could barely think straight let alone realize the abnormalities of my behavior.

"Maybe I could tell you what you need to look for, and you can help her?" He asked. Jacob looked at me and I whimpered slightly but didn't object.

"We can try that." Jacob agreed and helped me back inside. Mom and Dad sat on the empty couch and Carlisle followed us to Jacob's room. He stopped at the door as Jacob laid me on the bed. Jacob turned and closed the door.

"Can you hear me well enough?" Jacob asked.

"Of course." Grandpa answered.

"Alright Ness, you trust me don't you?" he asked and I nodded. My eyes on his. He came towards me slowly and slowly pulled down the sweat pants he had dressed me in and my granny panties along with them. I whimpered and he froze, and then continued.

"I love you Renesmee." He said, over and over. He placed the clothing on the side of the bed and took a deep breath. He placed a hand on my knee and I tried to bite down the rising panic. This was Jacob; he was only there to make sure I was ok. I screamed at myself over and over. When I didn't melt to his touch as usual he placed his other hand and on my right knee and parted them gently. I suppressed a whimper as he knelt down.

"So what exactly am I looking for?" he asked.

"Anything still bleeding?" Grandpa asked.

"No." Jacob answered.

"Describe to me what you see." He ordered.

"The outer barrier is ripped, barley, just a small tear. She is really sore to the touch and it looked just plain raw." Jacob growled as his warm fingers pushed inside of me. It hurt like hell and I was crying silent tears.

"That's good, she should be healed within a day or two more." Grandpa called and then we listened as he walked away, trying to give us privacy. Jacob rested his hand over me completely.

"I am so sorry." He whispered. I sat up, my legs still spread for him. I reached out and touched his face. Showing him that it hurt to have him prodding about then showing him disappear between my legs days before I ran away.

"Ness no." He shook his head. I replayed the image, letting him know that the his tongue was all I wanted right now.

"You think it will ease the sting?" He laughed. I nodded and closed my eyes. He sighed and then very slowly I felt him lower his face and his tongue dart between my aching folds, the burning decreased as his hot tongue plunged gently deeper. This continued for only a minute more before he was suddenly gone and across the room. The bulge in his pants very… large.

"I can't do this Ness. I'll get carried away." He shook his head. I stood and wobbly made my way towards him and placed my hands on his chest. I smiled and slowly ran my hand down his stomach and into his pants.

"Renesmee." He warned but I shook my head and slowly fingered his length. Pleasuring him in the only way could right now. "You don't have to do this; I can live without this for a few days." He growled as I pushed him back towards the bed. I sent out the memory of me needing to do this. I had to, to show myself that I was still me, that Jacob still would let me. I pulled down his basketball shorts and took him with both hands. Trying to cover every place, trying to give him what he had given me. I lowered my face down and took him in my mouth, driving him insane as he fought against himself not to buck his hips against me. He released in my mouth and I cleaned every spot of it up and he grabbed my shoulders and pulled me up. My core was aching and not from the burning sensation but from wanting him so badly. We were both naked from the waist down.

"You drive me insane women." He growled as he started to pull the sweat pants over my legs again. I lowered my eyes, had I been right, was his body just reacting, but his mind wasn't? "Damn it Ness, do you know how much I want you right now?" He grinned and kissed me, hard and long. "I don't think you are ready for that though. You have to be completely ready, you have to be able to walk without aching, to speak with words. You have to be…" I cut him off by kissing his lips and nodding. I didn't know when I was going to feel better, when I was going to have the burning in my core to end. When I would be able to speak and be around other people. Would I ever be myself again, or had Jonathon taken me in more ways than he had thought, and left this aching shell of myself behind.

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