Disclaimer: I wish I owned Twilight. Wish being the key word. I don't. Nor do I own any other books I mentioned, though I wish I owned them too. x
"Bella?" I could hear a wonderful, honey sweet voice in the hallways.
"Mm?" I replied. I was in his room, flicking through CDs. A second later he appeared.
"I couldn't find you for a while," He smiled, walking over to the bed. That might have had something to do with the fact I was avoiding him. Being around him made me feel so guilty for not being able to tell him what was going on, but I could never tell him, not yet. "What are you looking for?" He asked, looking at the discs I'd already sifted through.
"Something I like,"
"Oh," He smiled, tearing through me. How would he react? Hey, Edward. You know how we're vampires, and vampires can't have kids? Well, we are, and it might kill me. I couldn't even imagine his face. "Are you hiding something again?" He looked up at me, still smiling slightly, but the curiosity was burning straight through him. Oh, crap. Could he tell?
"Yep." I smiled, gathering the CDs up again, and putting them on the shelf again.
"Can I ask what?"
"No, you can't," I grinned, looking away. No doubt, he would try to dazzle the answer out of me. Two can play at that game. I decided to try and dazzle him into leaving it. To an extent, it worked. Though not exactly. He looked into my eyes for a few seconds, before leaning over and kissing me hungrily. I accepted, for a few seconds, and kissed him back, just as passionately. I couldn't let this carry on. I could see what would happen next, and I couldn't. There was no way to control my thought barrier if I got carried away with him. Or my illusions. And when I become human, I turn into full on pregnant woman, hormones and everything. I shuddered, and gently pushed him away. He looked hurt, and hard to resist. I did though; I just kept my eyes away from him.
"Bella?" He asked cautiously. "Are you alright?"
"I'm fine," I grinned, still avoiding his gaze. He put a finger under my chin and raised my head to look into his eyes.
"Are you sure?" He breathed, his wonderful scent scattered all over my face.
"Yes," I smiled, trying hard to stay on earth.
"Good," He smiled, but frowned when he let go of me.
"Coming downstairs?" I said, grabbing his hand and pulling me with him. All the family was in the main room, Alice patted the chair beside her, and I went to sit next to her. Edward watched me go, then went to sit in the space beside Jasper.
"Oh, crap." Alice groaned after a few minutes silence.
"What?" Half the family jumped up, looking at her worriedly. Personally, I was worried too, but found it funny how Alice's reactions affected us all like this.
"Charlie noticed you didn't have a car, and is coming to talk to Carlisle and Esme, then give you a lift home." She said, eyes closed. Nearly everyone relaxed. Everyone except me, Alice, Carlisle and Esme. I would need to be human...
"What's wrong with that?" Emmett laughed loudly in disbelief, "Are we suddenly afraid of Charlie?"
"No... I just... I thought it was something else at first." She said. "He'll be here in five minutes," She directed that sentence at me.
"I'm going to go make sure my illusion is alright," I mumbled, walking away to the toilets.
"And I'll help you!" Alice followed me. In the bathroom, I stood in front of the mirror, taking in deep breaths. Alice was beside me in a flash. "Bella, it'll be okay. You weren't so bad last time," She smiled encouragingly. I had been testing my humanity out with only Carlisle and Alice at those weekly sessions Carlisle had decided upon. All the mood swings and hormones would gather when I was vampire, then when they could work on me they just exploded out. It wasn't exactly pleasant to be around me, apparently. I took another deep breath and changed. "See?" She smiled. It was far too soon to judge.
"What if Charlie doesn't fall for it?" I gasped.
"One: he has before. Two: You are essentially human at the minute, how can he not believe you?"
"But, Alice!"
"What?"
"How can you be sure? I might slip," I challenged her.
"I know you, you'll be okay. Come on, we need to go back downstairs. Charlie will be here any minute."
"I don't want to go back downstairs, Alice," I sighed. "Can we just stay here? I'm so tired. I haven't slept in days."
"That's because you've been a vampire. Think of it as a sleepless vacation," She smiled encouragingly, and pulled on my hand.
"That's really patronizing, you know," I growled, and she dropped my hand.
"Do you want to go home, or not?"
"Not at all." I said simply.
"You have school tomorrow, Charlie wants you to go home." She said slowly. "You can be human as long as you want there, everything will be okay," She tried soothing me. I scowled at her, and got up to walk downstairs. Back downstairs, Alice informed everyone we only had a couple of minutes, and we had to get ready to act 'human'.
"Do we ever?" Emmett laughed. Everyone looked pointedly at the glass Rosalie had in her hand; it was full of a dark red liquid.
"Humans drink from glasses," She mumbled, chagrined, before walking into the kitchen to get rid of it.
"What was it?" I asked when she got back.
"Panther," She mumbled, still embarrassed.
"How?" As far as I knew, hunting was basically sinking your teeth in a vein and drinking the blood.
"Charlie!" Alice interjected in a singsong voice.
"Alice, I'm really thirsty," I groaned. She stared at me.
"Not vampire thirsty, right?"
"No, just thirsty. Can I have a smoothie?"
Her brow furrowed in thought, "We don't have any smoothies. Can't you get one at Charlie's when you get home?" I just stared at her. "Orange juice okay?" She said hopefully, grimacing slightly. I nodded, pouting slightly. I noticed that nearly everyone was looking at me then. Normally, Bella Swan doesn't demand things. I glared at the people in my line of sight, before going to sit down, not near any of them. Again, Edward looked hurt that I didn't go sit by him, but I couldn't.
"What's your problem?" I asked him, slight bit of sarcasm in my voice. I didn't register the words till they came out of my mouth. I instantly felt guilty, but couldn't say anything now to make it better. I heard a couple of gasps, and Edward just stared at me in shock.
"Ayy! Go Bella!" Laughed Emmett, just as Charlie rang the doorbell.
"I'll get it!" Alice chimed, running in to hand me my juice first. A second later, Charlie was walking in, handing Alice his soggy jacket, which she hung up, only for it to fall again.
"Ugh, terrible weather," He grumbled, before looking up and smiling at us all. "Hey, there."
"Hello, Mr. Swan." The rest of the family mumbled, but I just glared.
"Seriously, guys, it's Charlie." He insisted, maybe a little forcefully.
"Dad," I sighed, "I don't want to go home,"
"Bells, honey, you've got school tomorrow," He grinned, like I was an easily suppressed child. That just made me even angrier at him.
"Alice and Edward can take me to school. Actually, I don't even want to go. It's so repetitive, so boring here. When can we move?"
There, I said it blatantly. I knew Charlie would never want us to move from Forks –from him – but we would have to. And I knew I was just being petty; we can't move till I've finished high school, but I don't care. It has to be said. It is boring in Forks. Alice ushered Charlie to sit next to me, and she sat on my other side, squeezing my hand urgently. I could practically hear her telling me to give it a rest; the rest of the family were staring, again. I wasn't being the Bella Swan they knew.
"Bella," Edward said, brow furrowed in confusion. "Wha-"
"Oh, what now?" I cut him off. I don't even know why. For some reason, he's in my bad books. Whatever he did, he knows what it is. The room went silent. Alice had a vice grip on my hand.
"Perhaps it would be best if you went home for a few days, Bella," She mumbled, sounding offended for her family. I wondered if it was faked, or if she thought I'd crossed the line. Had I just upset my best friend? Had I upset Edward, and the rest of the Cullens? Warm, stinging tears sprung to my eyes.
"I'm so sorry, Alice," I shook my head, disappointed in myself. I was strong; this shouldn't get the best of me. I'd acted so mean and irrational, they probably wouldn't forgive me. "Edward, I'm sorry. Was there something you still wanted to say?" I gave him my best impression of a smile, though it felt watery and miserable.
He cleared his throat, more shocked than insulted. He looked at a space on the cream rug with wide eyes, as though it was the most important thing. "Er… no, nothing." He shook his head, but didn't seem to stop at the necessary amount. It was like his head was loose from his neck, it just kept swinging from side to side. "Nothing," He repeated to himself quietly.
I blinked, and Niagara Falls flowed down from my eyes. "Just take me home, Charlie," I whispered. Ugh, I messed everything up. "I am so sorry, everyone." I swallowed hard, but the tears kept coming. "I'll see you later, Edward…please," I whispered the 'please' but I don't know if he heard. He stopped shaking his head, but was still staring at the rug. I wonder if he was embarrassed for me, or just horrified.
I don't know quite how it happened, but I got annoyed with Charlie, he was annoyed with me, and I began walking home in the rain. I'd got rid of the illusion, to think more logically, and to feel worse for what I'd done. Esme and Alice found me, and decided to accompany me home. I cried the whole way, but they kept telling me little anecdotes and silly, useless tales, and pretending nothing had happened back at the mansion. Alice broke the carelessness first. "Bella, that was not the best of situations, I think you'll agree," She started in a business-like nature. I nodded solemnly.
"Edward will be okay; he just got a… fright, that's all. He's not used to you being powerful, or angry." Esme tried to soothe me.
"Yes, well, anyway. What I was thinking was maybe a middle ground, as in a vampire that looks just like a normal you? Of course you could do that," She smiled.
"But Alice, when will I be human, then?"
"What, after today? Not again, I should think, why?"
"Uhm…" I put a hand to my stomach. "I don't want to be pregnant for the rest of my life,"
"Oops, oh yeah. Well, let it grow on your own time, when Edward – in fact, when no one – else is around, except me, Carlisle and Esme."
"But…"
"Oh, I don't know." She sighed at last, anticipating more questions or loopholes.
Esme pulled the two of us into a hug. "You'll get through this, we'll figure something out," She said, "Now come on, Charlie will be waiting on you."
They left me when I got home. I walked by Charlie without a word, and he didn't say anything. I don't know why he's so annoyed; maybe he and Edward made better progress fishing than I thought. Maybe it was just because I'd embarrassed him, or he was worried I was making a mistake with this engagement, after seeing me argue like that. I walked straight up to my room, where Edward was sitting on my bed, tossing a once unsolved Rubik's cube between his hands idly. He didn't notice me enter the room, which was a first, but not that unlikely, since he seemed very preoccupied with his thoughts. When he looked up, I could see he knew something. The mystery was rippling behind his eyes, almost in a confused anger and anxiety. There was a long moment where we both stayed absolutely still. He stopped juggling the multi-coloured cube, and I remained by the door. Not even his eyes moved from my face, calculating; trying to guess the answers he needed. When I moved to close the door, it was like I'd just committed some terrible faux pas. He stared at it now, and I could suddenly feel a horrible tingle of fear. There was nothing to be afraid of, not from Edward, but the trickling feeling wasn't something logical. It was just the look he had on his face, that's all. Sure, I was worried about the effects the truth would have on him, but that wasn't fear. He looked back at me again, right into my eyes. That was when I understood the strange feeling of dread – it wasn't my emotions, it was his. He was scared for me.
"We need to talk." Was all he said.
AN: Okay,,,, I'm really sorry I haven't updated in MONTHS, but first I got writers block, then I started liking another story better, then the world of books got me. Seriously, I've read 8 books in the last week, and not small ones O_O Brisingr - read the Inheritance Cycle, c'est amazing :D The Gemma Doyle Trilogy - again, fantabulous, but I criedd :/ Vampire Diaries - 1st four are amazing, but I started on Nightfall, and now I'm trying to pretend that it doesn't exist :( And I'm waiting for my order of Evermore! And reading The Resistance && Stargazer!
Sorry, idk why you might want to hear all that, but I felt the need to recommend :P
Thankyouuu, so much for waiting so long, if you're reading this, or haven't bothered and just read the chapter, idm, you're great. Amazing. You're cheesy. And to me, that's a compliment :D The ultimate one xD
Rachee (:
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