So, I'm supposed to start my placement for uni on Monday. I say supposed because I still don't know where I'm going (and it's Thursday) because my uni is useless. They organise it for us and they are so un organised with timing.
It goes for three weeks so there may be no updates until December. Sorry but I got a bit of work to do for placement and all of my family but mum are going away so there's a bit to do life wise.
Also sorry there aren't been many updates here since my good run, I got distracted by part two of this and corrected that and then I got distracted by another twilight fanfic I've got (No not Elementals).
I'll try and get one or two more up before Monday.
Chapter 29:
Today wasn't too much like yesterday. Definitely wasn't less hectic. Jacob left to check if Leah had eaten, and hunt with her if he hadn't, much to my displeasure but I said nothing. Bella had another rib broken as the child moved inside her and it seemed she began to run a mild fever. James and Edward continued to switch in order to keep her temperature somewhat stable while Alice sat by James to numb her headaches.
Emmett and Jasper were both out of sight all day but I could hear them mumbling up on the computers in another room. They were still researching myths and legends to try and find out what to do about Bella's child, none of it was good so far but Rosalie remained positive. She'd told Bella that even human babies had been known to break ribs and I'd had to take a deep breath to calm myself. But more importantly I had to put an hand on Edward's arm to keep him from breaking Rosalie's face.
Seth left about lunchtime after taking a nap and joined Jacob to run the circuit. I knew Jacob wanted to overlap the runs for a time they were all awake. Carlisle had asked Jake about hunting trips as the Cullens needed to feed and Jacob wouldn't take the risk even if Sam was playing it close to home, he was probably running a few lines to check for the pack's scent, make sure the Cullens could leave the house and the wolves perimeter line safely.
Before Seth left however he wondered why the Cullens didn't take Bella and leave, what with Sam's pack looming over their heads. But of course Carlisle had a rather good things here, the medical access was rather well established, allowing Carlisle to bring the Xray machine, IV and other equipment in order to help Bella. The blood was another reason, Bella was going through it and it seemed as though we were going to need more, despite how much I got a few days ago.
Who'd have thought someone would drink so much blood…
The phone rang and I looked up from my game of cards with James and Alice. It really gave her a run for her money as even with her visions out of commission Alice couldn't see the outcome with the two of us playing either way.
James glanced up as Carlisle answered it before we all paused.
"Hello Charlie." James looked at me with… not quite horror but complete surprise and disagreement. I nodded and then put my finger to my lips.
"He's not allowed to know we're here." I said so quietly I was sure Bella didn't hear it. He looked at me as Carlisle carried to phone to Bella and the two began chatting.
"Why's she talking to him?" James all but breathed
"She felt bad for leaving him in the dark."
"But he can't see her."
"Which is why he can't know we're here. He thinks she's quarantined."
"How's this good for later?" James demanded as Edward glanced at us. I looked back down at our cards.
"It's not." I mumbled.
It was me who gave her all the options on whether to talk to him in the first place or not. However as I sat here now, while she was talking to him, sounding and feeling much better, she was reassuring him. I didn't see how that would help but it was probably weighing on her to be lying to him or worrying him.
Alice, James and I continued in silence as she spoke to him before James yawned.
"You should probably get some sleep before you have to go run some more." I admitted as I glanced at the clock. It was mid afternoon, Esme had already made us all lunch and I could hear her putting the now dry dishes away in the kitchen. I had a feeling that despite the circumstances she was really happy to have people to actually look after and cook for.
"Probably." James replied as he put his cards down. "Don't want Jake to think I'm slacking off." he said as he leaned against the couch beside Bella, his arm resting against her leg now. She smiled at him in thanks with the phone still to her ear before answering what ever Charlie was worrying about now.
Like Jacob and Seth, James crashed out in a few seconds. Their lack of sleep meaning they're pretty much always tired and therefore always able to crash when ever they felt like it. Edward and I shuffled James over when Bella got too warm again so he could take his place for a while.
"Bells, is it really a good idea to be consoling Charlie like that?" I asked when she eventually hung up, frowning and she looked at me before doing the same.
"No." she mumbled "But I don't like his anxiety…"
"But you're just making it harder for him later." I mumbled frowning. She didn't answer and I glanced at Edward but he turned away. I could tell he didn't like the idea either but I also knew that with Bella's condition he wasn't going to argue about it.
Looking back at Bella though she had a somewhat hopeful expression on her face and I leaned forwards to look at her, catching her attention.
"There's something else." I mumbled, noticing her expression. "What you thinking Bells?"
"Well, what if I… don't have to say goodbye?" Bella said in a small voice. Everyone looked at her as I blinked, letting that go to my head while I thought.
She didn't want to say goodbye, well that I can understand but, she's going to become a vampire that'll lust her father's blood, better she does say goodbye. Especially seeing as she doesn't age?
So she wanted to see Charlie from day one? No Bella knew that couldn't happen. So what? After a year when she could control it? But what about the ageing? And she will have changed, obviously Charlie would notice that.
I sighed as Bella avoided my gaze, everyone else looking confused and unsure.
"What would you tell him?" I asked raising an eyebrow and she peaked at me.
"I wouldn't." she mumbled
"You wouldn't?" I repeated
"Remember how Jacob told me about him? He had me guess." she said looking at her hands.
"You want to let Charlie see you, make an assumption and then… what? Just encourage it?" I asked. Obviously Charlie wouldn't guess correctly, vampire wasn't exactly the first thing a person came to. Even Bella had to do research to find the correct answer and I had to reach maximum confusion and pass out to be reminded of the stories I grew up with in LaPush, eventually allowing me to put two and two together.
Bella glanced at me before nodding.
I lowered my gaze. Was that really the right thing to do?
"You can't see him right away Bella…" I reminded her
"Yeah I know." Bella said nodding "I'm sure I can think of something for that time." she sighed "We'll see what happens." I couldn't help but glance at her stomach before turning away again.
Yeah, she may see. But she may also not… and that was the problem. We were getting to the point were she was so big that who knew when the due date could arrive. I took a breath.
"I don't think that's a good thing Bella." I admitting frowning "Though I understand why you'd hope it is possible." I assured.
She said nothing in return.
Esme began to cook Bella and I dinner as James continued to snore away, now back beside Bella as she had gotten cold again. I could smell the steak she was making up and knew she was cooking enough for Jacob, Seth and Leah as well, despite them being outside and Leah bound to refuse.
I had a book back in my hand, resting my chin currently on the coffee table as I read the words. Bella was nodding in and out but seemed to be refusing to sleep, occasionally she'd look down at James.
"I think he needs a haircut."
"Mum hasn't been able to give him one for a few weeks so probably." I replied without turning to her "Though I guarantee Jacob's will be longer."
There was silence for a minute and I turned to her to see Bella was staring at me.
"What?" I wondered
"Well, I was just wondering… you and Jake patched things up right?" she asked.
Well… I guess she still didn't know. I could feel Edward's eyes on me as I looked at her. I was going to have to tell her. Would she be happy? I bet she would be, Jacob found some happiness and she was no longer torturing him… I think?
"You could say that." I replied before turning back to my book.
"It seems like… things are going well…?" Bella said again and I could hear the hesitance in her voice. I turned back around to her. Alice glanced at me from her spot beside James.
"Bells, you're hesitating." I said "Want to tell me what you're really thinking?" I said. She smiled slightly. I had always been able to read Bella like her thoughts were on her forehead. Jacob as rather the same, just his emotions got in the way a bit and twisted some of his interpretations.
Bella opened her mouth before she closed it and thought. She must have been contemplating how to phrase her question.
"Things just seem much better, but maybe better than before, you know." She said "I didn't think you'd be able to patch things up so well…" she said
"Neither did I." I mumbled "I thought there would have been a rift caused between us. That it would take a while for it to heal." I confessed
"So how'd you work it out?" she wondered eagerly.
I pursed my lips as I looked at her. You know, I think I might have even been a little embarrassed to tell her. Not in a bad way, there didn't seem to be a down side yet, I had my best friend and he was no longer in pain or pinning for a girl he couldn't have. But I just felt like blushing and I didn't know how to put the word out from my mouth. Maybe it was because it was Bella I was telling?
"Well… it sort of worked itself out…" I mumbled and Bella looked at me curiously
"How?" she wondered
"Well after being so far apart for so long, I found all my anger just… ran away." I said honestly "I was a little worried how it was going to turn out and to say I wasn't at all… well scared to face him would be a lie."
"Scared? Of Jake?" Bella asked
"No." I said "Scared of what would happen when I saw him." I sighed "You know, cause things were so…" I mumbled.
Bella smiled at me and nodded before she chuckled slightly. I rolled my eyes at her.
"But yeah, turns out it all sort of ran away. I missed him so much I didn't want to be angry. So I apologised."
"For what?" Bella wondered confused
"Being selfish." I sighed turning back to my book, leaning my arms on the coffee table and leaning my chin on them.
Bella was silent as she tried to fathom what I was going on about.
"For being unavailable when he needed me most—"
"Lex, you were bitted by a vampire." Bella reminded me
"Saving him no less." Alice added. I shrugged. That was true, but being his best friend, I still felt bad. Plus there were all the thoughts I had while he was away, how he didn't care and wouldn't even bother to see me. Even if no one knew about that it needed to be apologised for, for how could I even think something like that? Even when Jacob hadn't spoke to me for two weeks after he phased I never thought that.
And I felt absolutely awful for doing so.
Though I did have to admit, it was sort of funny how Jake's soul mate was beside him all along, such a typical movie thing were the best friends fall for one another. The only differences are that they weren't in love with one another and there's a lot of crazy in between, such as vampires, werewolves and werecats.
And to think, if I'd been like all the others of my family, my gene exploding and turning me savage for a while, Jake would have been freed from his one way love with Bella months ago. It could have spared him so much anguish.
But even if I wanted to I couldn't apologise for that, there was no way that was my fault.
"I know." I sighed replying to the two and I guessed they shared a look behind me.
As a change of topic I glanced at the clock before getting to my feet. I moved to my brother and suddenly punched his shoulder. He jolted awake, grabbing the spot even though it wasn't a hard hit.
"What was that for?"
"Well I debated on pinching your nose but with your snoring who's to say that would work?" I shrugged "You have a duty to fulfil remember."
James rolled his eyes before he yawned and sat up properly.
"You just want Jake back." he said
"Your point?" I wondered
"Would you like some dinner before your go James?" Esme walked into the room balancing three plates, one for me, Bella and James. It was easy to tell who's was who's, James was piled a mile high and Bella's was less than mine in case her body decided to start rejecting the food again.
"Well…" he said as he looked at the plate. He sighed giving in without even a look from me or Bella. "Seeing as you made the plate for me." he smiled.
Esme beamed as she placed the plate down for him, steak and mashed potatoes with gravy and beans. She handed me and Bella ours and I closed my book to allow the plate to take it's place. We ate in silence, Rosalie and Edward watching Bella for any signs that she may throw it back up again.
