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Quick update. I have been busier this past month then I ever have been. I've had no time to write, which makes me sad, but no worries, that doesn't mean I'm done forever.
I'm deleting my chapter a day story, because like I said, I'm too busy even for that. I will try to start writing again, but no promises as I am half way through my semester and thing will only get crazier from here.
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Prompt: 7X01 end scene continuation.
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"We'll find our way home." Castle whispered, pulling Kate farther into his side.
Kate wiped at her eyes again, the sheer magnitude of what those two months put her through finally coming to the surface. And the fact that he was actually here and he was okay was enough to shock just about anyone.
The two sat in silence a moment longer before she spoke. "You were gone for so long, Castle." She choked on her words, the tears starting again. "I never thought I was going to see you again."
"Hey, hey, I'm here. I'm okay, we're okay." He lifted her chin to look her in the eyes. "Kate." He breathed out. Her eyes were so sad, something he hoped he'd never have to see. "I promise you I'm not going anywhere." He pulled her into his lap and she willingly swung her legs over him and settled near his chest.
Kate let out a quiet sob. "I'm sorry."
"For what?"
"For how mad I was at you when you woke up. I should have believed in you and I didn't. I could have never seen you again and I didn't believe you." Any type of self-control left was gone. She let herself fall apart in his arms, each sob shaking her body. She tried to swipe at her face, but it was of no use. She was powerless to her own emotions. She had locked them up so tight for two longs months and the dam couldn't hold it back any longer.
Somehow, though, she continued. "I would sit in the precinct, well after everyone had left, and I would call and call and call. I would sift through any possible lead we had until I couldn't keep my eyes open. Then I would get up the next day and do it all again. We had nothing. And some days I really didn't know if I could do it anymore. I didn't know how long I would have to look." She stopped and found his eyes, sad and tired, but strong. "And now you're here and I realize I would have never stopped looking for you."
"I know you wouldn't have. That's what makes you so incredible. You're drive is something like I've never seen. I know you would have never given up. And if roles were reversed, I would have never stopped if it would have been you."
Kate carded through her hair and thumbed at the lining of Castle's robe. I just wish you remembered where you've been. It would make this so much easier to understand."
"I know, I wish I could remember. But at the same time, I'm glad my last memories were of my drive straight to you. All I was thinking about was seeing you walk down that aisle. How beautiful you must have looked. I can't apologize enough for missing it." He cradled her in his arms, feeling her heartbeat pound straight through her skin. He felt so helpless as she laid so vulnerable in his arms. No amount of apologies or answers could take back what she had felt for two whole months. It was bad enough that he couldn't remember, but the fact that she could was even worse.
A fresh round of tears surfaced, and Kate buried her head in his neck once more. "I so wish you could have been there, Rick. It would have been our perfect day."
Castle let out a long, sad breath, unable to find the words to justify it. You can't justify missing your wedding and going missing for two months. All you can do is try to heal. "We're going to get through this, Kate. And I promise, when we do, we will have our perfect day." He shifted and made her look at him once more. "We deserve it." He nodded and kissed her on the forehead, letting his lips linger there.
"Yeah, we do." She offered something of a grin, but quickly closed her eyes. She breathed in deeply and let it out slowly. A moment passed before she spoke again. "I missed your smell."
"My cologne is right."
She cut him off. "No not that smell. Your smell. The one that is so you that it's no one else. It's not the house, it's not the bed. It's you. It's silly, really."
"I don't think it is." He let himself run his fingers through her hair. He let silence fall, something they were good at by now, before he found his voice. "Why did you cut your hair?"
"It was in the way. Any time I would get anxious I would start messing with it and I'd pull too hard and give myself a headache. It was maddening. So one day I cut it all off."
"I like it short." He offered.
Kate breathed out in response. They sat in silence again, no amount of time in the world long enough for them to do anything but sit in each other's arms.
Finally, the silence was broken when Kate yawned and ran a slow hand through her hair again.
"We both need sleep." He let her go and made his way to his side of the bed. He folded down the comforter and slid in. Kate did the same, and immediately made her way to Castle's side, letting their bodies mold together as if he had never been gone.
In all honesty, she hadn't gotten a good night's sleep since he disappeared. She would wake up throughout the night, whether it be a nightmare or lack of physical contact, and she would be met with the cold, empty right half that only belonged to one person.
Now, she was right back to where she wanted to be. She could already feel her eyelids becoming heavy as she listened to Rick's steady heartbeat under her head. "I love you. And I missed you."
He tightened his grip around her. He didn't remember being gone, but he was so glad that he was home. "I love you too, Kate, so much. Sleep, I'll be right here."
And with that, they fell into unconsciousness with no other thought than of how grateful they were to be together.
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