YumKiwiDelicious - lol! I love Silas too. I use to run a forum for him, but no one joined. lol. I'm so glad you like my story! It makes me happy. I love getting positive feedback as it helps me to write. I just haven't been inspired lately so these chapters are so short. I hope you like this chapter!! =)

BeckyS- Thank you so much for the story ideas!! I have NO idea where to take this, but I'll be sure to think about the ideas you've given me. I'm not inpired to write this story anymore even though i LOVE my characters. Mona has been a part of my life since I was 14 and now i'll be 19 this year! The last chapter needs work, so eventually I have to edit everything. Thanks for volunteering as my Beta!! =)

shalow darkness-LOL! EVERYTIME i read your review it makes me laugh. I want to use "word vomit" somewhere in this story. loll. I hope oyu like this chapter! Thank you for throwing inspiration at me.

ChristinaMuhlheim - I'm learning to deal with the saddness in my life. I've had several deaths in my family and my aunt has terminal cancer so Im dealing with that as well, but writing is an escape of sorts. I just need more inspiration. lol. I hope everything goes well with you!! =) I wish you the very best!! and WRITE!! lol. you must WRITE! =) Thank you for volunteering as my BETA! =)

NOTE: I couldn't get a hold of my BETA's (they have lives and I don't. lol) so I'm just posting the chapter as is. Thank you guys for volunteering to help! =)

Hi everyone! There has been tons of crap going on. For one, two of my friends computers have been hacked into so im worried about my computer. Two, i have a new lap top that doesnt has microsoft word so im having to send my chapters out to betas and three, my aunt has terminal cancer so the family is trying to make her life better. I have a HUGE family so there is always a death going on, but it NEVER gets any less painful. Writing has become my escape when I find the time to write, so im sorry that this story has taken so long. Im sad that it seems close to being finished since i started this story when i was about 14. I'm 18 right now. Thank you all for reviewing and if you have anything else you'd want to see in this story let me know! =)

I hope everyone is having a good day and I wish you all the best!! =)

Cheesecake

Silas and I have developed a routine of sorts over the last several days. I wake up with him next to me in troubled sleep. I hold him and gently stroke his hair until he wakes and then we spend hours like this with him lost in his thoughts. I don't mind the silence as much as I use to. I like being able to hold him and comfort him until he comes back to me.

I began playing with his hair as I thought about him. Silas took hold of my wrist, and gently lowered my hand from his hair startling me. He let out a deep breath and wrapped his arms around me. I smiled and kissed his cheek.

"Hi." I whispered. It was one of those moments when silence would have made it even more beautiful, but i had had enough of silence.

"hello" He whispered back in a sad voice.

"I still love you." I whispered against his neck. Silas stopped breathing and stiffened.

"I do Silas. You're not alone." I had had days to think this through. I wanted to tell him. I needed him to know. I had no idea what I was expecting, but all I knew was that I needed to say SOMETHING before I went crazy. I lay terrified that he would push me away from him in anger or disgust, but I could never keep my mouth shut. The words had been spoken and all I could do now was wait for his reaction.

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No woman would ever want me. I wasn't really a man, only the shadow of one. Women are liars. They are only meant to tempt and destroy. They lie and decite. They bring only pain....

"I believe you"

but not Mona.

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I kissed his cheek nuzzled his neck. He believed me.

'Why are you crying?" he asked me. I sniffled and realize I was.

"I'm happy." I sobbed against his neck.

"No you are not." I looked up at him with my crying face and nodded as the tears poured out like Niagra Falls.

"I am. I love you and you believe me. I'm happy." I sobbed and broke out into a full crying fit.

"I...spent...d..dd...daa..s....sa...d...an....yoo....beleaf....me" I was crying so hard the words wouldn't come out right. I held on tight to him and let the tears fall.

I felt so relieved now. All I wanted was to cuddle Silas and eat cheesecake.

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I held Mona as she cried against me. I couldn't understand a word she had said to me. After twenty minutes of her crying uncontrollably, Mona finally calmed down and started drifting off to sleep.

"...che...nak..."

I looked down at her and strained to hear what she was mumbling.

"....cheesecake..."

My face began to hurt. I placed my fingers besides my lips and realized I was smiling. Master use to tell me I should smile more often. He said he liked when I was happy. I looked down at Mona and watched she drooled.

"spoonfulof...sugar..helps mmmhmmm"

This girl was going to be the end of my sanity.

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ok people, I need help!! I'm probably going to keep this story going on the "romance" route and not really write any more "action" stuff. From now on it will be mostly Mona/Silas. Everyone ok with this? Any objections? I didn't think so. =)

I need people to act as my "muse" which means I need someone to listen to my ideas and tell me if they are crap or not. lol. HELP?! I need someone who at least checks they're email often or someone who could speak to me on messenger. Talking to myself doesnt work anymore. . d'oh!

Now.....


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