Sans Serifa

Knowing what you have to do doesn't mean you are ready for it. Sans wasn't. He needed to quit; that was clear. Yet, it was one of the hardest things he had to do in his life. He had been repeating the same day over and over for months to reach a single goal, and now he had to completely give up on everything.

He didn't even know what to do. Should he tell her? Should he just let her live her final moments in blissful ignorance? Should he try to avoid her death for as long as possible before she actually dies?

He looked at her. She was so, so beautiful. She was right there with him, but he was missing her already. He wanted to be with her. To enjoy some time with her for once more before...before she had to go.

He hugged her and held her tight into his arms, as if protecting her. He could barely keep himself from breaking into tears. His whole body was shaking. He breathed quietly and her lovely smell filled him, making his heart race. He slowly caressed her head, waking her.

-Hey, sweetie... Wake up...

If he talked more, he knew his voice would break. Serifa didn't say anything. She just moaned and rubbed her face onto his chest, happily as usual. Sans's heart was melting. He couldn't stay there.

-I-I'll go make you some breakfast till you wake up properly.

He left the room really fast, as if he was running away. He entered the kitchen and just stood there, at a loss. His breathing had gotten heavy. He knew what was going to happen, but he felt stressed out anyway.

-Get a grip, Sans... These are your last moments with her... Make sure you both enjoy them! he tried to calm himself down.

He quickly prepared breakfast with whatever they had in the kitchen and rushed back. It was funny. A few minutes ago, he was so eager to run away, but now all he wanted was to see her again, even if his heart was about to break.

He found her still asleep on his bed.

-Breakfast! Get up, get up! he was trying to be as cheerful as possible, for both of them.

-Good morning... Serifa yawned and reluctantly sat up. Why the special treatment...?

-Cause you're special, sweetheart! Sans smiled.

He sat on the bed with her and started feeding her. She chuckled and fed him back.

-Hey...do you know any french, Serifa?

-Wow, that was random! I don't know any...why do you ask?

-My name...means something in french.

-What does it mean?

-It means...''without''.

Sans looked down for a bit. What was he saying? What was the point of all that? He was letting his sadness in again. No, these were their last moments together. He had all the time in the world to mourn her after she...she...

-So, are you missing something?

-Yes...your lips!

Sans laughed and grabbed her, kissing her passionately. She quickly kissed him back, wrapping her arms around him. Sans lifted her up and started twirling her around the room while she laughed happily.

-Sans, you have something on your face!

-Where?

-There! she laughed and playfully kissed him again.

Sans was laughing with her too. Just for a bit, he had managed to relax. Her laughter was bringing peace into his mind. All that, until she started getting ready to head out. In her mind, they still had to get the ingredients for the cake after all.

As she was heading out, Sans panicked. He instinctively grabbed her hand, holding her back.

-What is it...?

-I...um...let's not go yet.

-Why is that...?

-I...I wanna dance with you.

-We danced yesterday night! Serifa chuckled.

-B-But it wasn't just the two of us!

-Aww! Serifa smiled. What a romantic! Alright, what music do you have?

-I...don't have any music.

-Then how are we gonna dance, silly?

-Can't you dance...acapella?

-You sing acapella, you don't dance! Serifa laughed.

-Well, then you can sing while we dance.

-W-W-What? Serifa blushed. I haven't sang in ages!

-So what, you hadn't done any ice-skating in ages either.

-Alright, I'll try...I guess. Oh, the things you make me do!

-I know, your life with me is tragic, isn't it? Sans chuckled just a bit.

-Oh, shut up! she laughed.

Sans put his hands around her waist and Serifa wrapped her arms around his shoulders.

-Do you even know how to do this?

-I'll just follow you.

-Wow, what a man!

-Shut up.

Serifa began humming a nostalgic rhythm as they slowly started dancing together, looking into each other's eyes. Sans was breaking apart with every step they were taking. He felt like the whole world was ending as the two of them danced together for their last time. He loved dancing with her, yet it was scorching his heart at the same time.

The bell rang. It was time. Sans stopped moving.

-Sans? Can you hear us? Sans?

-Someone's at the door! Let's-

-Stay close.

-But...someone has come to visit...

-Please... Stay with me...

-Sans, we can hear talking! Open, in the name of the King!

Sans panicked. He still wasn't ready for this. Without thinking much, he grabbed Serifa's hand.

-Follow me.

He quickly opened the door on the Guard's face and started running towards the Waterfall. He didn't know why or where he was going. He just ran, with Serifa following. Magical attacks were coming their way. Sans summoned his Gaster Blasters and canceled them out one by one. He knew it was futile but, at that moment, he couldn't think straight.

Suddenly, he felt Serifa's hand leaving his. He looked back. She had fallen down, probably because he was running too fast. Two magical attacks were headed her way. Sans immediately paused time.

He ran to her. She was still, frozen in time. The attacks were too close to her. The moment he would unpause time, they would hit and kill her at once. Unless he managed to move her fast enough. But, what was the point in trying? The inevitable end was getting closer and closer, he could feel it. Maybe he should...

No. He wasn't letting her go, not without trying his best. He grabbed her, ready to pull her away from the attacks.

-Three...two...one.

He unpaused time and quickly moved her away. The first attack hit the ground, throwing snow everywhere. The second one was targeting her head, but thanks to Sans, it hit her belly instead, making her scream.

Sans was still in panic. He paused time again and, with the wounded Serifa in his arms, he started running aimlessly once more. Serifa's stomach was bleeding badly.

-I see...white...

Sans teared up and kept running.

-Mom...? Is that you...?

Serifa was struggling to speak. She started coughing blood. Sans held her more tightly.

-Sans...I see...you did so much...I can see it all now...

Sans stopped running and looked at her in shock.

-W-What...?

-I see...things I lived...things I don't remember...It was all you, wasn't it...?

-Yes...it was me.

Serifa opened her eyes a little. They were teary.

-You suffered...so much... I'm sorry you had to-

-Stop talking, please! I'll find a way to treat you! Don't lose more blood till then!

-I...don't think so...that's...the end of the line...for me... she smiled.

-N-No, don't say that! I'll...I'll-

-We both know it...don't we...?

Sans couldn't hold his tears back any longer. He fell on his knees, holding her tight.

-I'm not ready for this... he cried.

-Heh...me neither...it was all going so...well...I was happy...with you...

Serifa's mouth was full of blood. Her tears were falling.

-I...I'll fix this!

Sans's eye started glowing blue. Gathering all her strength, Serifa weakly lifted her arm and covered his eye with her hand.

-No...you know...you can't...

Sans's eye stopped glowing. He moved her hand a bit and kissed it, then held it close to his cheek. Serifa was able to caress him just a bit.

-Sans...I want you to...to live on...to be happy...

-How can you say that? I...I can't live without you!

-You can...promise me, Sans...please...

Sans's body was shaking as he nodded in agreement.

-Alright... I promise... he cried.

-One last thing...

-Tell me...

-This...this hurts...and I know...I'll die soon...so...

-No, no, no, no, no, stop! You AREN'T asking me this! You CAN'T be asking me this!

-Please, Sans...just make it quicker...for both of us...

-There's NO WAY I'm killing you! NO WAY!

-Listen, Sans...if you are to move on...you have to...do this yourself...

Sans was sobbing uncontrollably.

-I...I can't do this...YOU CAN'T MAKE ME DO THIS! Please, Serifa...

-Do it...move on, Sans...please, move on...take that step...

Sans could barely speak due to his tears.

-Sans...?

-Alright... Alright... I'll...I'll do it. I'll fulfil your wish.

Serifa smiled, letting more blood fall from her mouth. Her whole body had been soaked in red by now.

-Thank you.

-I SO want to come with you right now...

-No...you can't do that...you promised...

-I know I did... But hell, I'll miss you so, so much...

-It'll be hard...but...you can do it...I believe in...you...

-Heh...easy for you to say...

Sans's tears were falling on Serifa's face and getting mixed up with hers.

-Sans...I...I love you.

-I love you too, sweetheart...

Sans lifted her head a bit and kissed her lips. She kissed him back, closing her eyes. The taste of her blood was everywhere. While kissing her, Sans summoned his magical bones. Shutting his eyes as well, he ordered the bones to emerge from the ground. They pierced right through her.

That was it. She was dead forever now. Sans looked at her for a second and immediately held her as tightly as he could.

-Goodbye...sweetheart...

He burst into even more tears than before.

Time had been paused for way too long. Sans hadn't realised how much energy he had been using. He couldn't last anymore. He fainted and fell down, still holding her tight. Time continued.