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Twilight = NOT MINE!Chapter 31
Rose was fast asleep curled into Emmett's pillow, so I crawled over the bed and slid in behind her.
I wanted to sleep and really needed to sleep but my mind was going a mile a minute. I had just done to Edward exactly what I didn't want to. He needed sometime to just be him and enjoy life, I hated that my past was constantly casting a shadow over our happiness, and I hated the fear that Jacob could provoke in me with just the mere mention of his name.
"You okay hun?" I hear Rose ask from beside me and I turned to her.
"Yeah, and you?" I smiled hoping that I could leave at least one person unaffected by what has happened.
"Yes I am good, considering you left me out of the loop and all" she said sitting up.
"What are you talking about?" I said trying to act all innocent.
"Don't give me that shit Bella. I heard you talking to Emmett last night"
"Look Rose, I didn't even want to tell Emmett I just want to put all this crap with Jacob out of my head. I wanted someone to know and ease my worries, there really is nothing to worry about" I lied
"Sure" she said.
The door creaked open and Alice popped her head in.
"Is there place of one more?" she asked still half asleep but at least she was dressed in nice pajamas. I wanted my fluffy pj's!
"Always" Rose smiled and patted the bed next to her.
"So what is going on?" She asked but her worried look gave away to the fact that she already knew.
"Rose wanted some girl on girl action" I smiled
"Yeah?" Alice said smiling.
"Hmmmmm, nothing like getting your pussy licked by your best friend!" Rose moaned just as Emmett came into the room!
"ROSIE!" he said stamping his foot. "Please tell me you got some pictures!" he moaned
"Yes Emmett, Bella was on the brink of bringing me to an orgasm but I had time to grab the camera and snap a shot!" Rose laughed.
"If you all will excuse us" Edward said coming into the room and scooping me into his arms.
"Edward, you can't take her now!" Emmett said pouting.
"Why?" Edward asked perplexed as I put my arms around his neck.
"She was busy!" He smiled
"With what?" Edward asked looking between me and Emmett.
"Giving Rose head" Emmett said falling down on the bed laughing.
"Screw you!" Edward moaned as he carried me out of the room.
"Edward?" I questioned very gently.
"Yes?" he asked and I could hear he was pissed at me.
"Are you mad at me?" I asked like a stupid idiot.
"Yes" he said as we entered our room.
He put me down on my feet and then he went over to the kitchenette and got the coffee and tea started.
I was standing around like some idiot just waiting for him to acknowledge me but he didn't he kept his back to me, completely ignoring me.
I went into the bathroom and took one hell of a long relaxing shower, I cried into the streaming water hoping it could muffle the sound of my sobs and when I couldn't cry anymore I just allowed the water to run over me.
I finally found the strength to get out of the shower and took my time drying my hair and moisturizing my body.
When I could no longer avoid leaving the bathroom I stepped out but to my relief Edward wasn't in the room. My tea was placed on the table along with some eggs, bacon, toast and fruit.
I didn't fell hungry in fact I think that if I ate I might have just heaved anyway so I took my time dressing and applying make up.
I left the room with my tea in search of Edward and found him fully dressed and freshly showered. Knowing he used the guest room shower to avoid me really stung like a bitch. What had I done so wrong? Did wanting to protect him really make me a bad person? I asked myself as I ran my hand over my very fucken large belly. I must admit I could not start feeling more and more of their movements and it was an amazing experience knowing that I have two beating hearts inside my belly.
The bigger pants were so much more comfortable and I was wearing a maternity top which tied just under your breast and actually highlighted your belly. And for the first time I had to admit to myself that I liked my rounded belly sticking out, it seemed to be getting bigger by the hour but at least I was getting comfortable with it.
"Edward?" I asked trying to get his attention away from his laptop.
"Yes?" he said not even bothering to look up.
"Are you going to leave me?" I asked before I was able to stop myself.
"Is that what you want?" he said raising his eyebrows at me, and my heart sank.
"NO! I love you Edward." I cried
"Really? Because judging by the amount of trust and faith you have in my it is kind of hard to imagine" he snapped. This was the first time Edward had ever raised his voice at me. And it wasn't even raised it just seemed to echo off the walls and pounce on me.
"I do trust you and I do have faith in you! I was just trying to protect you!" I yelled much louder than was necessary.
"I didn't want to have this" I said motioning between us "to effect your career, you have to concentrate on your games and you have so much going on, I didn't want to be the reason that your head wasn't in the game!"
"You are my life! I fucken get up and breath because I do it for you! You not telling me about your fear that hurts! I don't care about anything other than you and our babies! I love you Bella YOU! And I need you to realize I am not going to go running at the first sign of doom, you promised me we would talk and not hide things! You broke your promise to me" he said almost deflated.
"I didn't mean to honest" I cried
"But you did" he said getting up off the couch and leaving the room.
I wanted to follow him, but I couldn't make myself move so I stood there rooted to the spot crying.
He stayed in the room and I thought that maybe if I gave him some space he would be okay?
So I took my bag and l left the room. I knew that the only person who I could turn to now was Jasper so I made my way over to his room and knocked on the door.
Alice opened the door bag in hand.
"Hi Bella" She smiled
"Hi Ali, you guys on your way out?" I asked
"Nope, I am going….out" she smiled and opened the door for me to reveal a very wary looking Jasper sitting on the couch.
"Jazz?" I asked as I stepped into this lounge and Alice left shutting the door behind her.
"Come here" he said opening his arms for me like he always did when I was a little girl, and I crawled onto his lap and curled into him.
"He is so mad at me" I sobbed
"He will cool down" he said as he ran a very soothing hand over my hair.
"I am so sorry"
"Tinkerbelle look at me!" he said raising my head off his chest.
"We all care for you and love you deeply. You just need to realize this, you are not alone! We want to help you just like you want to help us."
"Jasper I am so tired of having everyone be full alert around me, it is like we are all just waiting for something bad to happen, I am no good for Edward!" I sobbed onto his chest.
"Bella, he loves you so very, very much. This is just a stumbling stone to your future, he wants to keep you safe and does not love you any less because you have a haunted past"
"I just want to be good for him, I just don't measure up" I cried louder.
"Did you not hear the man last night at supper? It is impossible for him to love you anymore than he already does, and wallowing in self pity isn't going to fix this." He said sternly.
"You are supposed to be on my side" I said hitting his shoulder.
"Exactly, which is why I am telling you this!" he said rolling his eyes.
"I know" I said as I allowed the last of my tears to roll down my cheek.
"Can you just hold me a little while longer?" I asked and snuggled into his embrace.
"For as long as you need Tinkerbelle" he laughed.
The door opened and a very stressed out Emmett and Edward appeared.
"It is a good thing you are married to him" Emmett pointed over his shoulder to Edward "and related to him" he said pointing to Jasper.
I just looked at him confused.
"Cause you would come across as a whore." He deadpanned and Edward was getting ready to kill him.
"Hey!" Emmett yelled with his hands in the air "I was just saying she has been in many arms of late!" he laughed as he came and sat down next to me and Jasper on the couch. Edward stayed close to the door.
"I love you baby Whit" Emmett said scooping me from Jaspers lap onto his. But his intentions were to purely rub my protruding belly.
"Good Morning younglings!" he said as he rubbed my belly.
"This is uncle Emmett again" he continued "Just checking in guys!" he smiled, but all I could focus on was the pained look on Edwards face, and how he was trying to look anywhere but at me.
"We are meeting with Yorkie in an hour" Edward said then left the room slamming the door behind him.
"What am I going to do?" I asked looking at my hands.
"You are going to march into the room, and tell him you love him and your sorry" Emmett smiled proudly.
"He wont listen" I pleaded
"He wont walk away from you Baby Whit he loves you to much" Emmett smiled and I got off his lap and headed out.
Edward was pacing the floor of our lounge.
"Hi" I said softly but before I could even take anther step Edward had me in his arms and his lips crashed down on mine.
His kiss was rough and urgent and fueled by passion. I opened my mouth to him allowing him entry as our tongues began tasting each other.
I stood rooted as he lifted me up into his arms and carried me off towards the room, his hands were roaming my body as his lips trailed from my mouth over my neck and down my collar bone.
I really wanted him to make love to me but he was still mad.
"Edward" I sighed
He rested his forehead against mine and closed his eyes while he fought to control his breathing.
"I know" he finally said.
I ran my hand lovingly up his back as his eyes locked with mine and I got lost in haze of intense green.
I softly pressed my lips to his and he returned my kiss, I pushed him back so he was lying on his back and I was straddling his waist, and I took my time placing soft lingering kisses down his neck and chest.
I leaned down and removed his pants and my own along with my bra while his gaze looked like it could consume me.
"You are so beautiful" Edward said and a dark red blush spread along my whole body.
I took my time running my hands over his sculpted body and savoring the sight of him.
"I love you Edward, so very much" I finally managed.
"I love you too Bella" he smiled
I took his erect shaft into my mount and hearing his breathing accelerate fueled me on. I felt the head of his shaft throb as I gently grazed it with my teeth. I worked the bottom half of his shaft with my hand and the top with my mouth. Edward had his hand in my hand and gently stroked my head.
"I need to be inside of you" he said out of breath and I popped him from my mouth and moved to straddle his waist while I rode him into oblivion.
We made sweet and passionate live two more time before Edward felt his need to be sated.
We never spoke during this time unless we declared our love.
"I am sorry you know" I finally managed as I was sprawled over Edward's chest.
"I know" he said sadly.
"Can you forgive me?"
"Love, I forgave you while we were still fighting" he half laughed but I knew it wasn't true.
"Why did you walk away?" I questioned
"I needed to clear my mind and I was trying to not get you naked. You looked so beautiful that all I could think about was making love to you over and over" he declared.
"Really?"
"Why is it so hard for you to believe that you are my world?"
"I don't know Edward, the only love I have ever really had was from Jasper and it was different. And then this Jacobs thing happened and it kind of fucked with my brain" I tried to explain.
"I need you to be honest and open with me at all times! We are a team. Marriage is a commitment to each other. A promise, you are mine and I will kill to protect what is mine" he said as he kissed the top of my head.
"That is why I didn't say anything" I confessed
"Why?"
"Edward, don't you see? You are a hot head when it comes to my safety. You will act first and deal with the consequences later. I needed Emmett to help me so we approach the situation right. Not go in all guns blazing!"
"It hurt that you didn't come to me first. I am supposed to be your knight in shining armor and you went to Emmett. I felt rejected" he explained and I hated myself for making him feel lesser in any form.
"I wanted to protect you." I sobbed
"I understand" he said as he lifted my chin to kiss me again.
And just like that I was once again wrapped in the security blanked called Edward Cullen in the hopes that Jacob would not pursue his wish to see me and ruin my life all over again.
Our little love fest was halted when the guys had to leave for practice and I went in search of Rose and Alice. Fuck I hope they would let this shit slide it really didn't want to surfer the third degree all over again.
I found them lounging outside on some tanning beds on Jasper balcony.
"Hey Ladies" I smiled as I took my seat next to Rose.
"Is everything okay now?" a very concerned Alice asked while I could see Rose biting her lip from tearing me apart inch by inch.
"Yes, could we talk about something else?" I pleaded.
"Sure me, and Rose were just discussing birth options." Alice explained
"Oh? But I thought that you were both going to have a normal delivery?"
"Yes, that was until Alice here started debating weather or not her vagina is going to stay as big as the grand canyon after she pushes that there baby out" Rose explained.
"But doesn't it just shrink back to normal?"
"Bella seriously how am I supposed to know?" Alice said all irritated
"Well your dad is a doctor one would think you would pick up a few things over the years." I laughed
"Yes that would make good dinner conversation don't you think?" Alice laughed
"Maybe we should go and buy some self help books?" I asked hoping they would agree because I really needed to get some more information on what lies ahead for me.
"Let's go now seeing as we have some free time" Rose said as she started making her way inside to dress.
"Thank fuck I have to have a c-section" I said half to myself.
"You can say that again, you look like a fucken midget next to Edward and carrying two giants cannot be easy" Alice laughed
"Shut up!" I yelled.
I sure hope that these babies are healthy little midgets like me!
We made it down to Barns and Noble and back without being detected witch was a fete on its own seriously!
And then we settled down to an afternoon of interesting reading.
It would appear that the vagina does go back to it's actual size once the baby has been born. It would also appear that they would cut you in some cases and then stitch you right back up….now I was thrilled about having a c-section honestly.
I would rather have two hundred stitches in my belly than have one in my cooter.
But all this size stuff had me thinking that I now that my cooter has adjusted to Edward's massive male member does that mean sex isn't as gratifying for him as it once was?
"Hallooo Ladies" Emmett said as he sauntered onto the balcony.
"Hey Em" I said hastily covering my bikini clad body.
I should never have allowed the girls to let me get into it in the first place but I just wanted to be lazy in the sun and not worry about my bulging belly just like them.
"Good afternoon" Edward said taking a seat on my tanning bed.
"Hi" I said as I leaned forward to kiss him eagerly.
"What are you ladies up to?" Jasper asked looking at each of us reading self help books.
"Reading up on weather Alice's vagina will go back to normal after the baby is born" Rose stated firmly.
"WHAT!" Emmett yelled.
"You know will the v-a-g-i-n-a shrink again after the birth" I said very slowly.
"I got that but fuck what does the book say?" he asked grabbing the book from Rose and scanning the page.
"Here" Rose said skipping to the page with detailed photo's of the birth procedure.
"Rose! I don't want my yum yum to be tortured like this" he said like a heartbroken kid.
"Emmett please!" Rose scolded and tried to grab the book from him.
"You are getting a c-section" Emmett said tossing the book aside and walking away and looked like someone just took a crap in his mouth from the sour look on his face.
I burst out laughing.
"I would have thought you'd have a c-section anyway carrying Emmett's baby I mean just the head alone would be enough to do some permanent damage!" I joked but in all honesty Emmett was very big!
"Not Funny!" Emmett yelled from inside
"Yeah it is!" Jasper yelled back.
"So you girls should get ready for an early supper" Edward said as his eyes roamed over my body and I was hoping he was tired because my cooter is killing me right now!
"Why?" I asked knowing full well our little getaway was coming to an end.
"My parents have come down for tomorrow's game" Edward smiled.
"What's this book all about?" Edward asked once he was dressed and I was busy applying my make up.
"I just had some questions that needed answering."
"Is everything okay?" he asked concerned.
"Yes, and no."
"What is it love?"
"Edward this is embarrassing." I started
"Please tell me you know you can talk to me about everything." He said as he pulled me onto his lap.
"Is the sex still good for you?" I asked not looking up.
"Yes it is beyond fantastic, but why?"
"Well, I know this is going to sound insane but. I don't want it to be like dropping a pebble into the Grand Canyon"
"What?" he said laughing?
"This is serious" I said smacking him on his shoulder and trying to wiggle out of his embrace.
"I still don't get it though? Are you saying my penis is too small?" he laughed
"No I am saying my vagina might be too big for you to actually enjoy sex"
He was laughing so hard that I wanted to knee him in the groin.
"Why on earth would you even think such rubbish?" he asked
"You know with giving birth and your cooter stretching so big you could stick a football helmet up there, I just don't want that" I tried explaining.
"Love, firstly once you give birth the muscle tighten back up and the vagina shrinks back to the normal size, secondly I am sure that your vagina…" he said when I cut him off
"Don't say Vagina! It sounds nasty!" I laughed
"Your beautiful cooter will only adjust to my size and wont go bigger, unless you engage in sexual activities with someone else who has a bigger member than mine" he explained
"That is never going to happen" I said spinning around and kissing him.
"Good Answer" he laughed once I allowed him to get some air.
"Come on Crazy People it is time to get our freak on!" Emmett yelled as he pounded on the door.
"Oh Joy!" I said rolling my eyes.
"Rose could you try and keep the freak on a leash?" I laughed as we opened the door.
"Sure but only if you keep the bitch on a leash!" Rose said and I wanted to pummel her ass.
"Bring it the fuck on!" I laughed and walked away. Don't you just love pregnant woman? They are so fucken temperamental and pissing Rose off is fucken fabulous!
We reached the dining area and Rose was still shooting daggers at me while I just smiled sweetly.
"Look can't kill so you might want to stop torturing yourself!" I whispered when I passed her.
"Fuck you Bella!" she moaned but I saw the hint of a smile on her lips!
"My Babies" Esme smiled once she saw us. She took her time kissing us and then the babies. All eyes in the restaurant were on us but it made her happy so I was just keeping my mouth shut.
"Hi Carlisle" I smiled as I purposefully took my seat next to him.
"Bella" he said kissing me.
"We need to talk" I stated firmly while Edward watched me with apt interest.
"OH? What about in particular?" He asked
"Loss of control to the bladder" I smiled sweetly.
"Are you experiencing this?" He asked almost breaking into a laugh.
"NO! But apparently it happens?" I asked
"To some woman, but not all, it could be something minor like a sneeze or loud laugh, for others just a bit of pressure. But for most pregnant woman it doesn't happen at all." He smiled.
"Okay so no sneezing or laughing!" I said mostly to myself.
"So Bella have there been any cravings?" Esme asked
"Yes actually I have had this one craving in particular"
"Yeah?" Edward asked intrigued
"Yes I have been having this insatiable craving for you to carry the babies" I laughed.
"Yes the real comedian aren't you" he said as he leaned over and kissed me.
"Mom, I wanted to ask you something" Emmett said fidgeting.
"Sure honey?"
"Does childbirth hurt?" he asked like a fucking doofus.
"Yes" Esme said expecting more of a question
"How bad?" he asked
"Well it is hard to describe" Esme smiled
"Try!" Emmett said seriously.
"Okay grab your upper lip and pull it out a little" Esme instructed and Emmett followed
"Like this?" he asked
"A little more"
"Like this he said" Pulling his lip even further
"A little more" Esme smiled
"Like this" he said as he pulled his upper lip so far it looked like it was going be permanently removed from his face.
"Does that hurt?" Esme asked sweetly.
"A little bit" Emmett smiled triumphantly.
'No pull it over your head" Esme dead panned and his whole face did a 360 degree about face as he paled.
"Fuck me" he breathed.
"oh hell no!" Rose moaned as she spilled some water on her breasts.
"Well I don't understand, I mean everything is getting bigger my breast, my feet, my rear! Does anything get smaller?" Rose asked looking at Carlisle.
"Yes, your bladder" He said causing Rose to spit water all over the show.
"Not Funny Dad!" Edward scolded.
"Well I was thinking" Alice started with stars in her eyes.
"Both me and Jasper are very attractive so chances are we are going to have an attractive baby, he would probably need an agent or something if he is going to be going into tv" Alice explained and we all looked at her dumbstruck "So who should I call about this?" she asked
"Umm, your therapist?" I answered and was rewarded with a round of laughter.
"Oh really?" Alice moaned
"Yes, that is a bit of overkill don't you think?" I asked
"Not really a person has to start planning this early on!" Alice sulked while a laughing Jasper tried as best he could to placate her.
"Like getting to know the most effective way to determine the sex of our baby, so we can be assured to be ready for him or her." Alice smiled at her dad
"Well I am no genius on this but I would assume the most effective way to determine the sex would be childbirth?" I said.
They all laughed and I even got a high five from Emmett I was on a fucken Roll!
"Okay everyone that is enough" Edward smiled
"Lets eat!" Emmett boomed and the whole place fell silent.
"Fucksakes Emmett" Carlisle moaned
"Sorry Dad!' Emmett pouted
We ordered food and tried to keep the bitchy banter down to a minimum which wasn't an easy fete, seeing as Emmett was a fucking mouthing disaster.
So we order soup as starters and the drama ensues.
"What the fuck?" Emmett asks but we all just look at him blankly while he get the attention of the server.
"Taste the soup" he commands.
"Why?" Enquires the surprise server
"Taste the soup" Emmett replies
"We have never received any complaints about our soup sir!" The flushed server replies.
"Taste the soup!" Emmett booms again while we all look on.
"What's wrong? The Matzo Balls aren't fluffy enough for you?" The server replies clearly irritated with Emmett.
"Taste the fucken soup" Emmett yells
"Fine where is the spoon?" the server asks.
"AH-HA!" Emmett yells finally.
Realization dawns on the waiters face and he leaves to go and fetch a spoon.
"You couldn't just ask for the spoon?" I asked highly annoyed
"No!" Emmett said triumphantly.
The chef came over with the server tossed a spoon on the table and yelled
"TASTE THE SOUP!" before he stormed off into the kitchen
Emmett slurped some soup into his mouth loudly before tossing the spoon into the bowl.
"This soup is shit!" he moaned.
"You are such a fucken retard!" I declared and Edward threw Emmett with one of the buns on the table.
"Really? Well tell me genius what do you get if you divide the circumference of a pumpkin by its diameter?" he asked
"What type of question is that?" Carlisle answered for me.
"See only a true genius would know the answer is pumpkin pi." He beamed.
The evening seemed to pass fast in a haze of funny chatter until I felt a wave of uneasiness hit me out of nowhere.
I cannot explain the feeling it was odd but filled with dread.
"Mr Cullen?" one of the security guard said next to Edward
"Yes?" Edward snapped
"There is a situation and we need you all to leave" the guard said looking around nervously.
"NO!" I almost yelled
"Bella?" Edward called
"We need to stay right here please?" I pleaded
"I am afraid that isn't possible, I need to clear you all out" the guard explained but for some reason I had this punch in the gut feeling that we needed to stay put.
"Please Edward, I know you think I am crazy but please just stay. Something is wrong and I just know it's bad" I cried
"Bella love, I will always protect you okay?"
"Edward please lets just stay right here please" I tried again.
"Go and check things out and come back with a full report" Edward said to the guard
"But sir…." He started
"My wife wants to stay, you need to make sure it is safe for her to do so, NOW GO!" Edward barked as he took my hand in his.
