Opposites Attract – Chapter 29 – Two Weeks Later
BPOV
Two Weeks Later
So I still haven't picked up my truck from Alice's house. I just can't bring myself to go there and possibly run into him. Alice and I talked when she came back to the dorm. She was crying and pleading with me to not "Break up with her". I explained to her that it was just as much my fault as it was his. I knew what I was getting into. I wasn't drunk or on drugs. I don't regret sleeping with Edward Cullen; I just wish that we could be friends. I wish that I didn't have to see him revert back to his old ways. If he didn't like me or want to be with me I could have handled that. But to go from one minute "I need her" to ushering me out with his family so he can go fuck some girl. I just couldn't understand it. I mean it's not like I am in love with him. I hardly know him. But I thought that we were going to be friends. And in my book friends don't do that to one another.
Of course I was entirely new to the sex thing and maybe that is what people do. But if that is the way it's done then I don't want to have casual sex and go from one person to the next in a matter of a week. I want a relationship and someone to love. Edward Cullen is not capable of giving me the things that I want.
So Alice and I are better than ever. She is upset with her brother but I told her to just forgive him and let it go. I didn't want to come between family. I certainly wasn't ready to see him yet but eventually I would be brave enough to go. Alice and Jasper were stronger than ever and he was so sweet to her. I wanted to find someone who would treat me like that.
Mike had been texting me he was worried if I got back ok and how everything went. I wasn't sure how I felt about him or if I should tell him about what happened. But I eventually responded and we were going on a double date with Jasper and Alice this weekend. Jacob, my best friend from back home of course knew everything down to the tiniest of details. He threatened to jump on a plane and come kick Edward's ass. He was still in high school and I told him that he could wait until spring break to do that. So now I had a REAL date and my best friend was coming to visit over spring break. I finally got a steady position at the Barnes and Noble in Charles Village which is near where else but JHU. I always feared that I would run into Edward at work but it never happened. School was good and I was caught up on the work I had missed, my teachers were very understanding. I had stopped crying every night and things were almost back to normal. I just needed my truck.
Alice promised that she would pack up all of my stuff and put it in my truck so all I had to do was pick it up. She had offered to do it but she didn't know how to drive a stick. Of course Edward was the only Cullen kid that knew how to drive a stick and I wasn't going to let him near my truck.
So here I was walking down the street with my keys in my hand ready to jump in my truck and leave. I turned the corner and there he was sitting on the steps talking to some girl that was wearing way too tight close. I stopped and leaned against the side of the building peeking around the corner at them. He was pointing down the street in the other direction like he was telling her where to go. She walked away backwards clearly ogling him and almost tripped. Then she turned around and picked up her pace and disappeared around the other corner. He was just sitting there drinking a mountain dew and listening to his i-pod. Shit what was he waiting for me? Did Alice tell him I was coming today?
YOU CAN DO THIS, YOU HAVE TO DO THIS, ACT LIKE NOTHING IS WRONG; DON'T LET HIM KNOW HE GOT TO YOU!
I chanted these words in my head over and over again as I plugged in my i-pod and marched over there to my truck.
EPOV
Finally there she was swaying her hips walking to her truck. I had been sitting out here all day since Alice packed up all of Bella's stuff and put it in the back of her truck. I told myself I was guarding her truck to make sure no one stole her crap out of the back. I knew it wasn't true but I tried to tell myself anyway. I didn't expect her to get THAT upset when I got back from my GIFT. But I also didn't expect her to be up waiting for me or spying on me. I certainly didn't expect the sweet innocent Bella Swan to slap me in the face and knee me in the groin. Don't get me wrong I had been slapped and kneed before. But it had never heart my heart just my balls. I would have had Kendra drop me off down at the end of the driveway. I definitely would have taken my appearance into consideration. But I thought they were all asleep. It was late and I knew everyone had to be up early for the plane back to school.
I felt like a piece of shit. I know I shouldn't have gone with her. Hell I shouldn't have even read the note. But it didn't matter. Once I saw the woman hand me the note my decision was already made. I listened to the DVD and I had watched it every day since we got back to school. None of it made sense. I couldn't love anyone. Not right now. I was in too much pain from losing my pop to give my heart to someone. I didn't want to hurt Bella but I couldn't love her. I could see myself loving her but not now. I wasn't going to go around sleeping with girls like I used to. I just needed one last FUCK to get it out of my system. I would have gone to Bella and made love to her sweet and gentle like we had been. But that wasn't what I needed or wanted.
I knew if I went back to the house with her that I would fall in love with her. She would hold me and be there for me. She would kiss me and rub my back. She was too sweet to me I didn't deserve it. I couldn't risk hurting her like that. Falling in love with her right now was not a good idea. But right now I wanted to be her friend. I wanted to show her that I cared about her. I knew I had some apologizing to do and had to find a way to dig myself out of this hole I was in. But after she saw me with Kendra the hole just got deeper. I picked up the phone 5 or 6 times a day but I never got the courage to call or text her. This was something that had to be done face to face. This was my chance.
"Bella can we talk." I asked walking over to her truck. She just ignored me.
"Bella please I need to talk to you. I want to apologize." I was leaning against her truck blocking her now. She looked pissed. I could see the steam coming off of her beautiful face. Her face was beet red but it wasn't from blushing. She still looked beautiful.
"Bella talk to me, I know you're mad but please will just give me a chance to explain." Fuck did I just say that I couldn't explain what I did. I just wanted her to say something. Then she just looked at me gesturing me to go on with her hand.
"Ah fuck Bella I don't know why I did it. But you have to forgive me please. I miss you." Honesty was always good right. Girls always said 'if you are honest I won't be mad' that's a load of crap. Because they definitely would still be mad at you.
"Bella please don't be like this, I'm begging you here please I just want to be your friend. Remember you said we should have been friends all along. Well you were right. I was wrong and I'm sorry please can we get passed this please can we try and be friends." I was literally on my knees now holding on to her hand and I was almost on the verge of tears but I wouldn't admit it if anyone asked me.
She was tapping her little foot looking down at me with those gorgeous big brown eyes. They were filled with pain and hurt. Crap I didn't realize that what I did would hurt her so much. I didn't know she cared about me that much. So I did the most low down despicable thing I could think of. I cried, I sat there on the ground clutching her hand begging her and crying. I mean it wasn't like she had never seen me cry before. So what was the big deal I just added a little extra sobs and whimpers to put it over the edge.
"Fine Alright Fine stop crying." She spoke and pulled her hand away crossing them across her chest while she glared at me.
"Really?" I looked up at her while I stood up and wiped my eyes. I was a little shocked I wasn't sure if she was going to say yes or not. But she did.
"Edward we can TRY and be friends but in my book friends don't treat friends the way you did. If you didn't want to have sex with me anymore then you could have just told me and you didn't have to throw her in my face like you did. Or you could have apologized as soon as you came in the door instead of being an ass about it." She was screaming at me and punching me with her little fists on my arm and chest. I immediately crossed my legs and covered my groin to protect my jewels. I remember too clearly how it felt the last time she got mad at me.
She was gritting her teeth together and breathing hard. She almost looked like she did when she was having an orgasm. And then it hit me. I had royally fucked up. Even if we were friends she wasn't going to have sex with me anymore. And then what was I going to do. I needed it. It was like a drug to me. I at least needed to get laid before finals or there was no way I was going to pass.
So I came up with a new philosophy on my sex life. I would not have sex with anyone until Bella. Now blowjobs were a different story. And I definitely would not bring anyone home where she could find out about it. I smiled at the thought of having sex with her again her cute little nose wrinkling when she reached her orgasm and her breasts bouncing back and forth underneath of me.
"What is soooo funny Edward?" Crap we weren't done yet. Were we still apologizing and being mad?
"You are absolutely adorable when you are mad." I went with honesty again it seemed to work the first time.
"Shut up Edward. I have to go to class. Move." She said while she put her hands on my shoulder and pushed with all of her might to move me. She couldn't do it so I stumbled a bit to make her happy. And she smiled. She looked triumphant. I didn't have the heart to tell her that I had moved on my own. She looked too pleased with herself.
"Bella?"
"What Edward." She was being sarcastic now with a little smile on her face. Things were looking up.
"Will you please come to dinner this Sunday?" I said in my sweetest most innocent voice I could while looking at her through my eyelashes hoping it would work.
"Fine, But I'm not cooking and I'm not staying long." YES triumphant. I have won. I have my Bella back and now I can concentrate on school.
"That works for me. Do you want to hang out Saturday night and watch a movie or something?" I was grasping at straws but I was on a roll.
"I can't I'm going out with Jasper and Alice." Wait that was Valentine's day, wouldn't they want to be alone?
"Um Bella it's Valentine's day don't you think they would want to go on a date or something?" Duh I thought all girls knew when Valentine's Day was.
"Yes Edward I know what day it is we're going on a double date." WHAT with who? Who is she dating? How can she be made at me for Kendra when she is the one who is actually DATING someone? At least I didn't' use my emotions I just used my dick.
"With who?" God this honesty shit was going to get me into trouble. I couldn't lie around her. At least not like I did around other girls.
"None of your business." She said with a smirk on her face as she drove off leaving me sucking on her exhaust.
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