Chapter Twenty-Nine
I once again am yelling at Matt for trying to get up. I think he justs blocks me out at this point.
"Just stay on the couch," I rant, "That's all I ask. You can't even do that. If you weren't one of the best shows out there I would be cursing you out right now!"
Matt retorts, "You already curse me out. You curse everyone out. There has not been one day where I haven't heard you curse."
"Shut up, Murdock." Just then, Banner came in from his lab of science, looking slightly worried.
"Have you guys seen Sara?" he asks us, "I was checking her gamma radiation when it suddenly skyrocketed. We need to find her before-" He gets cut off when the ground shakes and a giant BOOM rings across the tower coming from the training room. Bruce looks at me with wide eyes.
"Fuck. SARA!" I yell, running to the training room, Kurt and Bruce following. We run through the door to see Sara laughing.
"Hooolllly shit that was awesome!" she exclaims, "I just exploded!"
"You EXPLODED!?" Bruce and I scream at once.
She continues to laugh, "Yeah, and it was fucking cool! I burned the punching bag!"
"Sara, do you know how insanely dangerous that was?!" I shriek.
She mutters, not looking to happy anymore, "I was just testing my limits..."
"Yeah, well, you're limits could have killed you and all of New York!" Bruce reminds her. I REALLY hope he doesn't turn into the Hulk.
"God, I'm still alive, and and so is New York, so I'm not really seeing the problem," Sara grumbles, crossing her arms.
"The problem is you could have died!" I am slowly losing my patience with her.
"But I didn't! I just blew up a punching bag!"
"Next time it might not be a punching bag! Next time it could be you, me or Seanna! It could be Bruce, Tony, or Steve! It could be anyone!"
"OH WELL THEN!" She yells, "EXCUSE ME FOR TRYING TO FIND OUT THE LIMITS OF MY POWERS!"
"That's not what this is about and you know it!"
"THEN WHAT IS IT ABOUT?! HUH!? IT'S NOT LIKE YOU HAVE ANY POWERS OF YOUR OWN! YOU'RE USELESS!" That last comment gets to me. I stand back, amazed, then what she said finally sinks in. She just rushes past all of us, ignoring the hurt look on my face.
Bruce puts a hand on my shoulder, "Amanda, are you okay?" I just shake my head, tears starting to come out. I run out, ignoring anyone who saw me. I find myself on the roof, then I break down. I curl up into a ball, and start letting the tears flow. Sara was right, I am useless. I was useless in my old world, and even here, when everyone got cool powers, I was stuck with nothing. I was avoiding those thoughts for a while now, but now Sara has stirred them up, and they won't leave. I feel Kurt teleport right beside me.
"I'm not in the mood Kurt," I sniff, turning away from him.
"I know, but a few friends are concerned," he comments, which makes me turn around. I see Tony, Steve, Pietro, Peter, and Wasp.
"What are you guys doing here?" I sigh.
Tony steps up, "We saw you running through the tower, crying. Kinda worried us a bit, especially after hearing that 'earthquake'."
"So, we went to Bruce, and he told us everything that happened," Pietro continued.
Peter speaks up, "Kurt was still there, too afraid to leave in case Sara was outside the door, and we asked him to take us where you were."
Jan asks, "You don't really think you're useless, do you?" I just nod my head, unable to answer.
"There are no such things as useless people," Steve tells me sternly, "Everyone is useful in they're own way."
"Well, thanks, Steve," I say sarcastically, "But I was useless back in my own world. Even here, I'm useless. I don't even have a power."
"So?" Pietro scoffs, "Who needs powers to be useful? You were trained by two of the strongest people in the world, and they don't have powers."
"I'm pretty sure having powers in a team of superheroes definitely helps, though," I grumble bitterly.
Tony mentions, "You got us Matt Murdock during a time when I was willing to give up and giving the mission back to SHEILD. That's not useless, that's incredible."
"It's only because I know a lot about Marvel," I look down, "If I didn't we'd all be lost as fuck."
"You know, you are really making this whole 'helping self-esteem' thing incredibly difficult."
"I know."
Peter steps up, "Listen, I know that you feel useless. But you're not. You are one of the most important members on this team. Same goes for Sara and Seanna. Anyone who was made a part of the Avengers is useful, and don't you forget that."
"Don't you forget you only wanted us because we had no idea what was going on, and that made us dangerous. You didn't even believe us at first when we told our story," I remind him.
"That's true, but I believe you now. You've proved you are worthy enough to be a part of this team. We know you're not useless, and Sara was wrong to tell you that," Peter continues.
"What's wrong with her, anyway?" Stark wonders, "She's been pissy ever since the Loki thing."
"Oh, I don't know, maybe it was the fact that you didn't trust her?"I grumble, "Or maybe it was the fact I attacked her without letting her explain herself?"
Tony nods, "Yeah, that would do it. Listen, there are going to be people everywhere that try to put you down. You gotta prove them wrong an get back up. I'm speaking from personal experience here. No matter what Sara or anyone else says, you are important. We wouldn't be helping you out if you weren't. Now, cheer up and go back to being the sarcastic little shit I know you are."
I smile, "Thanks, Tony. I really needed that. Now, if you could get off your lazy ass and get Matt that SHEILD agent, that'd be great."
He claps his hands, "And she's back! I'll get on the phone right now!" He starts to leave.
"You gonna fi those windows while you're at it?" I call after him.
"I'll do it later!"
"Those windows are never getting fixed," I chuckle, then turn to the others, "Thank you, guys, for trying to make me feel better."
"No problem," Pietro shrugs, "You needed help. We help people. Besides, you are our friend. No friend of ours should feel bad."
I sigh, "We need to help Sara. She's going out of control. Something's up, and I don't like it."
"We'll figure it out," Peter promised, "It'll all be okay. Sara will calm down, we'll beat the Masters of Evil, and then we'll find a way to get you guys back home." For some reason, that last statement did not make me all that happy. Did I not want to go back home as much I thought I did? One thing's for sure: the more time we stay here, the more we change. And I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing.
I SAW AGE OF ULTRON AND IT WAS GLORIOUS. PIETRO, BAE, LET ME LOVE YOU! YOU SASSY LITTLE CANDY LOVING SHIT. I LOVE YOU, COME BACK. Seriously, if you haven't seen the movie yet, I highly recommend you do. It is easily my favorite MCU movie of all time. If you ship Clintasha though, don't get too excited. That ship is sunk and it ain't ever coming back.
Justin: She didn't ship it, so she wasn't to upset about it.
Me: No shipping for me! I like canon, thank you very much. But I also like the idea of Nat not needing anyone.
Justin: Ultron was a great villain.
Me: DAMN RIGHT HE WAS! I WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE HIM LIVE ACTION!
Both: Don't forget to review!
