Song 29: Jensen Ackles and Steve Carlson- Angeles...

(This song was a request... I hope you like it. I did try to write one based on the song Hurricane by 30 seconds to mars and I'm so sorry I couldn't do it. The song beat me. I really want to thank you all for still reading, I had no idea this idea of writing fanfics based on songs would go on for or be this long and I defently couldn't have done it without you guys so thank you, I love all.)

Meeting Castiel was one of the best things that could have ever happened to me; I don't know how I ever managed without him and what I would do if he just popped out one day and never came back. No matter what he does or what I do, I know we will somehow work it out because we always do and if one day I did something and he couldn't forgive me, I don't know what I'd do. Before I meet Cas, I was gambling, having random one night stands with random chicks. The relationship I have with Cas, is hard to explain, so don't as me to even try and explain it to you. Sometimes he seems more like a brother, other times a friend, sometimes a lost puppy but I always care about him and I do worry about him too. He doesn't know that I do and he doesn't need to know I do either, but I do. Let's keep that a secret between us, ok?

I remember when he healed Sam, he took on his hallucinations and there are no words to describe how grateful I am, that he would do that. I felt bad for not visiting him while he was in that mental hospital and I'm glad to know Meg looked after him, I'm glad she did, otherwise, god only knows what could have become of him. But Castiel is back now. It is good have Cas back. I've missed him. Again let's keep that between us! Now, Castiel may have fallen from heaven, he might have no grace left at all but he is still family. Angel or human he still matters to me. He always has. I think it's cute the way Castiel will just suddenly start talking about random things, it can get frustrating especially if me and Sam are talking about something important and then Castiel just mention something about birds or whatever, but I do still think it's cute. (Keep that between us too. If anyone beside you knew I don't what I do. So I'm trusting you!)

Castiel making that deal with Crowley, I forgive him and I understand that he couldn't come to me for help after all I did give up hunting for a while and I forgive him for that. I forgive him for breaking Sam's wall, I forgive him for everything he has ever done because - that's what family does. They forgive each other for what they do no matter how bad. Does it bother me that Castiel is human now? Not really, I think it might good for him, as weird as it sounds. Now the poor bastard can finally get laid and understand human needs, like eating, sleeping, keeping clean. Emotions too, I'm more than happy to help him deal with those after all the guy has seen me break down so many times I'm beginning to lose count. It means a lot that he sticks with me, after everything I've done.

Castiel has become very important to me, and I'm not sure if I trust you enough to tell you anymore... I might as well, I've told you most of it already anyway. It all stays between us! ...I love him, or at least I think I do. I don't mean like you would love a friend or a brother, I love him like he was my boyfriend or my husband.

Now I'm sitting here, on the bed, Castiel sitting in the corner feeling sorry for himself, can't say I blame him, the poor dude lost his angel mojo. The stuff he used for everything is now gone. I wish there was something I could do to make him feel better. I got up, Sam, (that's my little brother) looked at me and followed me with his eyes as I crossed the room. I sat on the floor in front of Cas and moved his hands away from his face.

"You know we don't blame you, right?" I whispered holding his hands on the floor.

"I know but -" I never let the blue eyes man finish. I felt like I was possessed or something when I kissed him. Like I was in some kind of trance but it was more than that. It actually felt rather, nice.

Remember everything I told you to keep between us? You might as well just tell him now. Why does the son-of-a-bitch have to be so adorable?

"Cas" I said pulling away to breath, "I'm so glad I met you."

"I'm glad I met you too, Dean" Castiel layed his head on my shoulder as he drew in breaths. That kiss, was and still is the best kiss I have ever had.