Chapter 28

"There from demetri" his body tensed, he was angry.

"Bella, do you love him or have any kind of feelings for him?" he said through clenched teeth. "I used to, but not anymore" I couldn't believe he was asking me that. I felt the tears run down my cheeks. I wanted to be alone; Edward wiped away my tears and kissed my cheek "I'm sorry, I never meant to upset you. I was just trying to think why that animal would do something like this" he said gesturing to the room.

" I think I need to tell you some things" I said as sat on my bed brushing the roses on to the floor, Edward followed and sat beside me taking one of my hands in both of his.

"When I went to Italy, I was determined to distract myself, and hopefully move on from my feelings for you. I thought you weren't interested in me like I was with you. While I was there I met demetri, and we got on, I was so flattered that he was interested in me, and caught up in the moment that he wanted me. I thought I was in love him, and so did he and aro. I loved you but I knew that we were never going to be together so why not try with someone else. When I saw you that night I knew I couldn't truly love demetri, I still loved you and wanted to be with you. After we spent the day together, I was so confused, I loved you, yet I had some feelings for demetri, that's why you caught us in that embarrassing situation. When I saw your face, it broke my heart, I knew that I was cruel and didn't deserve anybody. I couldn't marry demetri, I cared for him but it wasn't enough and I explained that to him." I turned away from his beautiful face and looked at his hands.

"Bella my love you could never be cruel. How did he respond to your rejection?"

"well, he was angry, and said that you were the reason I rejected him, and that you weren't good enough for me, he said he will always love me" I heard Edward take a few deep breaths before he spoke again "at least we agree on one thing, I'm not good enough for you, I don't deserve you, but you choose to be with me so I will enjoy every moment I have. At least I now know some of what was going on in your head, it's nice to know." He smiled. I was still worried though that he would kill demetri.

"Edward you won't go to Italy and kill demetri will you?" he shook his head

"Of course not my love, but if he comes anywhere near you then I will not be held responsible for my actions." I was glad that we had talked, there were no more secrets between us, well apart from the reason Alice and rose had been avoiding me. "Edward why are rose and Alice avoiding me and what were you busy with this morning?" he started stroking my face as he spoke "there not avoiding you, Alice has been spending time shopping and hanging out with callum and I was out hunting with jasper and Emmett this morning." He sounded so confident, like what he was saying was true, but I knew him well enough, I was glad callum and Alice were getting on, and I also knew that he wasn't going to tell me so I try to push it to the back of my mind, I wanted to carry on doing what Charlie had walked in on us doing the other day and I knew Charlie was going to be out all day so there would be no interruptions.

So I teased Edward with little kisses, pulling away after each kiss, till he moaned and held me to him, his perfect cold lips pressed against my warm imperfect lips, his tongue tracing my lips until I opened my mouth and it slid in. He starting kissing me with more force. My hands slid down his chest and soon his shirt was on my floor closely followed by mine. We both took our jeans off without our lips breaking apart. He gently laid me down, as he lay above me. I breathed in his delicious scent as kissed along my jaw, down my neck. His finger tracing a line down my body, His lips then started to follow that same line until he reached my belly button, and then he kissed that same line but back up towards my lips. As I was about to undo my bra, he pulled away.

Suddenly he was standing the other side my room; I sat up and pulled my knees close to me wrapping my arms around them. " I'm so sorry Bella, you know we can't go any farther, I may have some control, but if we were to go any farther then I would completely lose control and could hurt you" he sounded like he was choking on the last two words. I nodded and we both got dressed again. I was hungry so I went and made myself something to eat while Edward watched, neither of us speaking. I had never wanted somebody physically as much as I wanted Edward. He was like a drug to me, I could never get enough. When I was done we went to the living room to watch TV, there wasn't anything I wanted to watch on, so I flicked through the channels while Edward kissed my neck, every time he tried to kiss my lips I turned away.

I decided that if I couldn't have every part of him then there would be no kissing. He knew what I was doing but never said anything out loud. Soon Charlie was home, he had a good catch today so I did us fish for dinner. Edward declined when Charlie asked if he would like to join us, and went home. Charlie cleared away the dishes tonight saying that I did far too much, so I headed for the shower, I needed to clear my head and stop thinking about Edward for ten minutes. Charlie was still busy downstairs when I headed to my room in just a towel. Edward had been in my room waiting for me, when he saw me enter he let out a loan moan and was over to me in a heartbeat, his lips pressed against mine, I felt the passion behind them and was about to get caught up in the moment when I remembered that I had agreed to myself that I wouldn't kiss Edward because I couldn't have every part of him. I pulled away and chuckled to myself "why do you torture me" he moaned.