A/N: Hey guys! I own absolutely nothing which, if you've been reading this story for a while, you should already know. I wanted to apologize for the wait…I really need to bone up on my updating, don't I? Well, I like this chapter and hopefully you will too. Oh, I also wanted to correct something. In the last chapter I said I was a high school JUNIOR. I lied. Hahaha, I'm only a SOPHOMORE. I know, I know, I can't count. How hard can it be to figure out what grade you're in? Sorry! Enjoy it please!
Chapter 29: We Could Be
Sirius closed his eyes. Drusella's silence was more painful than her plainly telling him that she didn't love him. The suspense was killing him. It took every last bit of control in his body not to scream, and as his fists clenched at his sides for the second time that evening, Sirius knew he was close to tears.
Drusella stared at the ground, her eyes wet. Sirius had told her those three words that every woman in their right mind, and perhaps even insane, wanted to hear. He loved her. Sirius Orion Black was in love with her, Drusella Cammolie. All the other girls, every one of his fan girls…all of those beautiful girls too choose from…and he told her that he loved her.
Looking up at him, finally allowing the tears to fall from her eyes she almost choked on a sob.
"I love you, Sirius."
Sirius' head jolted up and he stared at her. Drusella was looking at him; her face etched in some mixture of pure bliss and pain. He could tell she was crying her heart out. But…she had said 'I love you' and he could no longer fight back the tears or the smile.
Reaching out, he pulled her into a tight hug, his arms wrapped around her waist as he pulled her up. Drusella clutched his shoulders obsessively.
Pulling away from her slightly, Sirius leaned down and kissed her. It was a short kiss, but spoke exactly what had been said not seconds ago. Drusella smiled happily and pulled Sirius back to her, their lips meeting again. This time, she stood on her tip toes and kissed him back. This kiss was more passionate, and Sirius' hands flew to the small of her back and the other cradled her head. Drusella's arms snaked around his neck as they continued.
Sirius pressed Drusella closer to him, causing her to moan into his mouth, giving him perfect access to sneak his tongue in. He ran it across the top of hers, and they began a fiery dance in their kiss. They pulled away briefly to catch their breath, and than Sirius pulled her back to him with all force in tow.
This was pure bliss.
Pulling away and breathing heavily, Drusella looked up at him and laughed when she saw the lust and love in his brown eyes.
"I really, really love you." He said huskily. She grinned and touched his cheek. They were still wet, and Drusella smiled at the thought of her tears mixed with his.
"I know." She said, and she kissed him again.
"Honestly, James, you're Head Boy! You should be paying attention!" Lily snapped. The two of them were in Professor Flitwick's classroom and the Professor was giving a very vital, yet boring lecture on charms from the Middle Ages.
James grimaced and continued to sketch out the plans for the final Quidditch game.
"Like I give a damn." He muttered. Lily sighed and rolled her eyes.
"You're not setting a very good example, you know."
"Lily, stop talking in class. You should be paying attention. You're Head Girl after all." James mimicked, glaring at her irritated. Lily stared at him in disbelief before scoffing and turning back her attention to the professor.
James grinned when he heard her mutter 'arse' under her breath.
Annoying Lily was one of his greatest pastimes. Though he loved more than anything to see her happy, the look on her face when he did something annoying was priceless. She looked absolutely beautiful when she was turned around scrawling and muttering things like, 'annoying little berk' and 'stupid Potter.'
The best part was that latter comment. It could now go both ways. As if reading his mind, Lily began to fiddle with the ring on her right hand. She looked down at it, as if admiring it for the millionth time, and smiled. Lily looked over at James fondly and touched his hand gently.
James shook his head and laughed. Was she PMS-ing or something?
"And basically, this charm was used for protection during the many bloody crusades of this era. It is said that Merlin cast many a spell on King Arthur during his reign, which is why he was so seldom wounded."
James rolled his eyes. He didn't need to know this information. Sure, he wanted to be an Auror but half those spells or charms were out of date, and Aurors needed the most up-to-date protection spells they could find.
When Professor Flitwick dismissed the class, James couldn't get out of there fast enough. Charms may have been Lily's favorite subject, but the young Quidditch heartthrob couldn't stand it.
"Oi, Prongs…slow down!" Sirius called after him. James stopped and waited as the three other Marauders made their way towards him. Remus had a book open and was briefly leafing through it. Sirius threw an arm around James' shoulders and grinned.
"Absolutely lovely lesson today, wouldn't you agree, Prongsie?" Sirius drawled. James snorted and wrenched the dog-boy's arm from his shoulder.
"Talk about slow and unusual punishments. Really, what idiot decided that we should give a damn about King Arthur's charms?" James asked, groaning. Remus rolled his eyes and shut his book.
"Those were Merlin's spells. Arthur was a muggle. And it's those very spells that you're complaining about that are the bases for what Aurors are being trained for in now. Besides, we have to study this history-"
"Oh for the life of Merlin, Moony, you beat a dead horse with that mindless banter. No body gives a damn!" Sirius muttered, rolling his eyes. Remus sighed in defeat and crossed his arms.
"It's beyond me how you two pass all your classes with those attitudes about our studies." He said gravely. Peter snorted.
"It's beyond me how you can stay awake in Professor Flitwick's class!" He said seriously. Remus frowned.
"Oh come on, it's not like he's Professor Hibbins!"
"Damn, I don't even show up for that class. It's like…a snoozing period…or nap time." Sirius said dramatically.
"Speaking of nap times, have either of you lot gotten laid?" James asked abruptly. Remus almost choked and Peter stopped in his tracks. Sirius shoved his hands in his pockets.
"Mate, Dru and I just mended our relationship. I'm not in any shape to push her into things just yet." Sirius said, rather seriously.
"Prongs, that's disgusting and degrading. Why would I be interested in sleeping with Sapphira? She's not only not married to me, but engaged to Sirius!" Remus said harshly. Sirius grinned lazily.
"Not exactly." He said.
"Pardon?" James asked, raising a brow.
"Sapphira and I were betrothed, guys, and my folks have disowned me so…technically it breaks off our engagement."
"Wait a minute now…what?" Peter asked, running a hand through his blonde locks. Remus just stood in silence.
"Well, my mum and dad have officially disowned me; I got the lovely news from my dear brother just a few days ago. Therefore, their responsibility in finding me a wife is no longer theirs. And now, our engagement is officially denied."
"Does Sapphira know about this?" Remus asked, a smile starting to form on his face. Sirius grinned again.
"Well, yeah…her parents weren't too thrilled about it, but they also didn't want some 'blood-traitor' marrying their daughter."
"Oh, and Sapphira isn't a blood traitor?" James asked. Sirius shrugged lazily and than smirked at Remus.
"She's all yours, buddy. And whaddya know, maybe you'll get lucky tonight when you celebrate it or something." Remus scoffed in disgust, but he continued to smile.
James grinned and gave Sirius a nookie.
"Padfoot, maybe you'll get lucky and score tonight. I'm sure Dru would be happy to celebrate the un-engagement of her lover boy and friend." Sirius laughed and shoved him off him. Shoving his hands in his pockets once again Sirius smirked haughtily.
"Hn. We'll see." And with that he walked off.
"ARSE!" James screamed loudly.
"Mr. Potter!" McGonagall shouted, gasping at the Head Boy. James just grinned sheepishly at her and walked off to find Lily.
Lily was walking with Alisha, Rini and Marquisha. Between boyfriends, school work and new buddies, the four girls hardly ever hung out outside of classes. Rini was busy with Lance, and Alisha busied herself with a quiet Hufflepuff named Nick-something, who hardly said a word to Lily, Rini and Marquisha. Of course, Marquisha still had her male fan club. This time, she was dating a tall, skinny boy who was obsessed with Quidditch. Naturally, he wouldn't shut up.
"So, when's the wedding going to be?" Al asked, brushing a strand of her blonde hair from her face. Lily sighed. She and James hadn't really thought about that yet. With all the chaos from the murders, and Sirius and Drusella, and their head duties, the wedding hadn't really been discussed. Besides, Lily liked just being engaged. It was nice.
"Well…we haven't got a date. It defiantly won't be anytime soon." Lily said. Rini smirked.
"Trying to avoid the wedding deals?" She asked. Lily furrowed a brow.
"Wedding deals?"
"Yeah…you know the one where you make the deal not to have sex until after the wedding night!"
"What?!"
Marquisha laughed.
"Oh come on, like Potter's really gonna agree to something like that."
"Like I'm going to agree to something like that!" Lily shouted. Her friends stared at her in shock. Alisha began laughing.
"Ah, can't keep your hands off of lover-boy, I see."
"It's not that, I swear! It's just…I never thought of those types of deals…Um…they're not mandatory, are they?" She asked.
"No. They're not. Stop worrying Lily, guys." Rini chuckled, rubbing her friend's shoulders reassuringly. Lily sighed and picked up her pace.
"Good." She said, spinning around and walking backwards. "Good, because I don't dare deprive James Potter of such things." And without another word, she walked off, smirking proudly.
James had just shut his Arithmancy book when Lily flew through the doors that separated her room from his. He smiled and got up, walking over to greet his fiancé.
"I'm hoping class went well." He said. Lily rolled her eyes and brushed a few strands of red hair from her face before plopping down on his bed.
"It's only three ten and already I'm tired. Honestly, and we have duty tonight!" She muttered. James shrugged and sat behind her on the bed, gently rubbing her shoulders.
"Get one of the prefects to do it."
"Oh, no-no, I can't back out of my own duties. That wouldn't be setting a good example, now would it?" James snorted.
"Okay, fine...It's not like they care though, just to clue you in. I can do the watch tonight by myself."
Lily turned to face him.
"Oh, but it'd be so lonely-" James laughed loudly.
"Lily, if you're tired, take a nap than. Afterwards, you may feel awake enough to help me with duty." She smiled tiredly and pulled off her shoes.
"Fine! I'm taking your bed though. It's much more comfortable than mine." James grinned, throwing his hands up in the air.
"Oi, I'm not complaining." He watched Lily snuggle into his bed, shutting her eyes and trying to fall asleep. He ran a hand through her fire red hair; remember when he dreamed of running his fingers through it, taking in the scent of her shampoo. It only seemed like yesterday that he followed the aspiring Head Girl around, flirting with her any chance he got. Now, not only was he dating the girl of his dreams, but he was engaged to her. Sure, it seemed like a quick jump to everyone else. After all James and Lily had only been dating for five or six months when he asked her to marry him-but it seemed like so much longer in his head. Lily obviously hadn't objected to the short amount of time they'd been dating.
It felt good to have Lily in his life, really in his life. It felt good to have the one girl he knew he wanted to spend the rest of his life with, lying next to him, trusting him with her own life. It felt good to have that power- the power which made that beautiful woman surrender herself to him, give herself to him. Lily herself had such a power of him. She could make him do insane things, things he wouldn't normally have done, had she been any other girl. She made his days brighten and yet, make everything around him turn dark and lifeless. Lily could make him surrender himself completely to her. He'd give his life for her anytime she asked. If she was hurt, he was in just as much pain. She could even make him hate himself…
James shook his head subconsciously. Lily had nothing to do with him hurting himself. It was his problem due to his stupidity and need for attention. Lily hadn't done anything wrong. Sure, she hurt him once, but he was quite sure he'd hurt her enough in the short amount of time they had been together to last a life time. Lily did not hold the blade to his wrist. It wasn't Lily who needed the blood.
Still, what was done was done, and James knew he shouldn't be lingering on such dark thoughts. Everything might not have been fine, but he knew he had to get over it, for Lily's sake as well as his own. Lily trusted him not to hurt himself and he'd already failed her once, he wasn't about to go and do it again. It was hard, though. It was hard to fight the urge to relieve his mental and emotional pain. If Lily hadn't meant so much to him, he was sure he would have started up drinking by now. So many things had gone wrong that he could barely go a day without remember how the cold metal on his skin felt-how the sting from the blade cutting through his wrist sent a tingle of pain and pleasure through his body.
Over and over he practiced 'cancellation', as Lily called it. He replaced the painful memories of all that had gone wrong in his life with the good things: Lily as his future bride, Sirius, Remus and Peter being by his side and being happy, making Head Boy, making new friends, and finally knowing what it would like to be on top. Life was good; he just needed to realize that.
After a couple minutes, James stood up and went back to his desk, finishing up any unfinished homework. An hour and a half had gone by when James was finally completed, and he glanced at his watch. He frowned. It was only about another hour till dinner, and than he and Lily had patrol duty until late. James glanced out the window and sighed inwardly. It was only one or two more nights until the full moon. James had been racking his brain for a better excuse to give Lily about the patrolling issues and where he'd be on those nights. It seemed she was getting a bit suspicious. She had asked him the day after the last full moon where he'd been al night. Apparently, she had some urgent news and needed to inform him immediately. James shook his head, grinning at the memory. The news was hardly that important. She had just had a nightmare and wanted to seek shelter in his room. Sure, he felt bad for abandoning her, but he had prior commitments, ones he knew he could not break.
"Hey, Lily, wake up." James said, shaking her awake. She turned over and moaned tiredly before opening one eye.
"Hm…do I have to?" She asked grumpily. James laughed and nodded.
"Dinner starts in about forty minutes and than we're on patrol duty." Lily grumbled and rolled over.
"Oh screw dinner; I'm much too tired to eat." James raised a brow.
"What about the patrolling? I certainly can't do it alone." She waved her hand dismissively.
"Get some Prefects to do it!" This made James grin and he gave her a contemplative look.
"I thought you said that you only wanted us two to do them so late at night, due to the issues with Voldemort and the questioned student Death Eaters." Lily lay silent for a few fleeting seconds before sitting up in bed.
"I suppose you're right. I don't want to in danger the younger students. Still, I see no reason why you can't fly solo tonight."
"Oh, so, it's wrong to put the lives of other students in dangers, some Prefects who might be Death Eaters themselves, but its perfectly fine to put the love of your life in danger? Gee, thanks…"
Lily laughed and hugged him, despite the fact that she was ready to fall over.
"Aw, you're a much too strong wizard for any sleazy student Death Eater to kill." She pulled back from him, yawned and stretched. "Plus, you're far too arrogant. I doubt you'll go down without a fight."
James smirked at her and suddenly tackled her onto the bed. She gasped in surprise and he just continued to grin back down at her.
"So, I am the strongest wizard you know."
"You're high on the list." Lily answered, a serious expression fixed on her face. James frowned and pinned her arms above her head.
"I don't think I like that answer."
"Well, am I the strongest witch you know?" She asked.
"Yes. If you can handle James Potter even for a month than you must be a pretty strong person."
"Well, than that would make every female at Hogwarts a strong woman. They pine for you and that buddy of yours everywhere you go."
James shrugged. "Do I annoy them half as much as I annoy you, though? I think not!"
Lily laughed and touched his cheek gently.
"I give in. You are the strongest, most powerful wizard I've ever known, James Potter."
James grinned and leaned down so that his mouth was beside her ear. "And you, Lily Evans Potter, are the strongest, sexiest most amazing witch I will ever know." She blushed at his complement, but more at their close proximity. Lily couldn't help it. They had done everything together, things she'd rather not tell her mother about, but she still got nervous and embarrassed whenever he got real close to her. She figured it was just weird because she'd never let a boy have his way with her. It just seemed so right with James. Having him hold her felt right. His lips on hers felt right. His body with hers just felt right.
They pulled back from a heart melting kiss and James leaned his forehead against hers.
"I wish things could stay like this." She whispered. James looked at her, his eyes boring questioningly into hers.
"It's so peaceful. You-me-together, absolutely no worries. I just wish life could stay like this. No pain. No Voldemort." James looked at her intently. It angered him that Voldemort had somehow rendered this beautiful, strong woman to such a fearful child.
"Life is not going to get any easier for us, you know that. But we've got to stick together if we want this work-and trust me, I'll do anything to make it work. I want to marry you, have babies with you, fight with you and die with you." He said seriously. Lily bit back tears, looking at him, eyes full of sorrow.
"Yeah-I know." She choked on her own words.
"You can't get rid of me that quickly. Remember, I'm the arrogant one who won't go down without a fight." Lily chuckled and ran her hand through his dark hair. It felt good just to lie there together. She could spend hours just staring into James' eyes, and had her stomach not rumble loudly, reminding her that she hadn't eaten lunch, or the lingering reminder that they had patrol duty and as Head Girl she could not dismiss that idea, she would have stayed beneath him all night.
"I don't want to get up." She whispered, voicing her thoughts. James nodded in agreement and kissed her gently again. Her hands moved around his shoulders and she smiled at him contently. This was absolutely perfect. Right now, everything was perfect.
I know, I know…it took forever for me to post this up. I apologize, really I do. Anyways, I decided-since it was Christmas-to post this up! I'm rewriting the first few chapters, so…please be patient. This chapter is nice and long-just about seven chapters. Happy Holidays-Merry Christmas-Maligyang Pasco, and a Happy New Year, everyone!
Oh yeah, can you believe the title of the new book? Harry Potter and the Deathy Hallows. (Is the 'the' in there? I don't recall.) It makes me wonder…Haha, well, hope the year 2007 is nice and exciting for you!
