I burnt all my ex boyfriend's clothes on the front lawn this afternoon. And mum comes over and she's like "Wtf are you doing?" XXD

"My heart beat beats me senselessly.
Why's everything gotta be so tense with me.
I'm trying to handle all this unpredictability.
And all probability…"
Long Shot- Kelly Clarkson

I supposed the reason why I kissed him was to remind him that he was still wanted. Either that or it was to reassure myself that someone who wasn't an angel wanted me.
My questions were answered when Dean didn't pull back from me. He wrapped his hands in my hair to pull me closer to him. I didn't even consider pulling away.

He finally pulled away after a moment, both slightly panting. Dean's forehead rested against my own "Castiel doesn't deserve you" He mumbled to me.

That was when I came to my senses. I quickly pulled away and got out of the car. Even though there was a light drizzle of rain and it was nearing midnight "I can't…" I heard myself say as I walked towards the back of the Impala. I opened to boot and pulled out my bag "I'm sorry Dean. I shouldn't have done that" I said to him as he came over to me.
"What are you doing Hannah?" He asked as he eyed my bag.

"I can't be here Dean. Not here….With you…." Tears welled up in my eyes but I blinked them away "…. I need some time to figure things out" And I started to walk away in the opposite direction. "Hannah!" I heard him call out to me; but I refused to turn around.
The tears which were now falling freely down my cheeks as I heard the Impala start up and drive away to Dean's next hunt. Wherever that was.

The rain poured heavier and heavier when I heard the sound of wings "Hannah" the calm, smooth voice that could only belong to Castiel called to me. I slowly turned to the angel who stood there on the side of the road. The rain was barely affecting him.

"I'm a monster" I mumbled to him. Castiel looked down at the ground then nodded once.
He stepped forward so we were just less then a meter apart "You're an abomination. You were once a seal of Lucifer. But now that he has risen; you are meant to be his queen" He told me.
I shook my head; hoping that if I did so, it wouldn't be true. But I've seen the future. I know it is.

"That's why you didn't want me hidden from the angels" I stated, feeling the tears fall even more now.
Castiel went to reach forward; then pulled away "Yes. But Sam was very persistent"

I let out a short laugh then turned away; starting to walk along the highway once again "I thought he loved me" I mumbled to myself more then anyone else. But Castiel still heard me.

"I do…." He reached out for me "I want to be the one who saves you from Lucifer" He placed his hand on my cheek and wiped away my tears. I knew he wanted too, but I also knew he couldn't. After all; I've seen the future "Do all roads really lead to the same destiny Cass?" I asked as we both started to walk down the highway.

Castiel seemed to think about this for a moment "Yes. But yours may be a different case" He suddenly grabbed my hand in his own.
I looked down at my black slip on shoes "Then you can't save me can you" It wasn't a question, this was a statement.

"But I can try" Castiel's grip on my hand became tighter. And at this split second in time, I felt my whole being change. Like all the rage, hate and revenge I've wanted finally bubbled to the surface "No you won't" He seemed to have noticed this change because he let go of my hand and stepped back.

"Hannah" His voice wavered for a moment. There was still a small part of me who continued to fight; telling me that what I was about to do was wrong. But I completely ignored that part.

Castiel was the angel who wanted me banished for being an abomination. How dare he decide who gets to live and die "Oh this is too good" I smiled as I walked over to the angel. I felt my hands tighten around his neck.

I looked into the blue orbs which we called his eyes. They were genuinely terrified. And seeing my reflection in them; my own eyes were a stormy grey colour "I completely know why demons are so happy. They get everything. They feel so…..Light" I threw him backwards and he went crashing into the metal barrier.

A truck driver drove past and stopped as he saw me picking Castiel up by the throat again "You wanted me dead" I stated.
I felt something hit me in the back; I turned around to see a large man with a crow bar "That kinda hurt my feelings" I said as I grabbed the crow bar from him and swung it across the side of his head with enough impact to shatter his skull.

"So I'm the big threat everyone keeps talking about am I?" I bent down to Castiel's level. His breathing was ragged "It's a shame I c..." I could feel my head on fire as I dropped to my knees. The voices in my head had returned.
Castiel stayed where he was; just watching me. I felt the anger disappear as Castiel stood up and crawled over to me "Hannah" He whispered in my ear.

I turned to look at him, his eyes full of pain and sorrow. Then I turned to see the dead trucker "I killed him…I-I didn't even think about it Cass" The rain had now ceased for the time being.

The angel placed two fingers on my forehead and before I knew it, we were in a bedroom somewhere "Where are we?"
"Safe. For now. I'm going to go call Dean" He said as he walked downstairs. I looked at myself in the wall mirror. Blood was still splattered on my face. I tried to wipe it off but I couldn't.
Then I remembered, I almost killed Castiel tonight.

I reached over into my waistband and pulled out an old revolver. I didn't want to be the cause of Castiel going off the rails. The reason why he hated himself so much that he couldn't save me from Lucifer

I was evil. That's all there was too it. And I couldn't stop it from happening. No matter how much anyone could try.
Placing the gun to my head. I felt the tears trickle down my cheeks. I could hear Castiel in the hallway talking to Dean.
"I'm sorry" I whispered.

And that's when I pulled the trigger.

5 years later….

Castiel pulled Dean aside. His three day growth still visible on his face as he popped a few more pills.
He always said that destiny can't be changed. But he also said that Hannah was a special case.
And she was always more then special. To him anyway.

She was meant to join Lucifer. Become his queen. That was how history was supposed to pan out.
But she killed herself instead "Maybe her future could be changed Dean. But ours couldn't. Either way, we would have lost her" He stared at the picture of Hannah which was in between his fingers. Her smile was so contagious. No matter how sad everyone was, they would always smile with her.
"Her destiny was the same Cass. No one could save her" Dean pointed out.

Castiel slid down the wall. The pain and the sight of seeing her dead on the floor was still raw for him. Even after all this time. He regretted never telling her he loved her more. Being around her more "What do we do now?" He whispered to the eldest Winchester.
Dean sat next to him and twirled Hannah's thumb ring between his fingers "We do what she would have. We fight the devil"

A/N: And after all this time; I have finally finished my fic!!

Horray!

I know I'll probs get some messages saying how could I kill Hannah. But I had to think of some way to get Castiel to be the junkie in the future we all saw. XD
Without her fully turning dark side. Oh yeah.

Thanks to everyone for reading!
Xx Michelle