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Twilight is not mines. never was and never will. Dammit.
Chapter Twenty-Nine:
You're the only one for me
Bella's POV
I had a cold.
My nose was stuffy, my head was pounding and the coughing was driving me insane. Today me and alice were going to the doctors to see if I was pregnant. I was too afraid to go alone and I wanted to make sure. The first time I had jari I was alone and scared but I know I have edward, but I wonder if he is ready to become a father.
And that scares me.
I wonder if he would still want to marry me while I was pregnant. I wonder if he would still love me the same way he loves me. will he love me and the baby if I was pregnant? All these things came to my mind and I just couldn't help but wonder if this was the right time. I sighed and blew my nose. Annoyed at the whole situation. "Honey? Are you ready? alice is here" edward didn't know. He just thought I was going to go checked up. I nodded and stood up walking hand in hand with him as alice smiled widely. "Bella!" she greeted me cheerfully "You look.." she paused for a moment then frowned "Are you sick?" I simply nodded and turned to face edward. "I love you" he smiled down at me and gave me a kiss "I love you too" I smiled "if you get sick it's your fault" he chuckled but nodded. Giving me another kiss before me and alice were out and driving away.
"Are you going to tell him when you find out?" I shook my head "No. I'm not. I think I would need sometime if I want this to work out. Besides I have to figure out what am going to say. "hey honey, you got me pregnant welcome to fatherhood" I cant do that alice" she nodded and rubbed her belly. "you know, I find it weird to have a human being inside me" she giggled as she stopped at a red light "you know they can hear you right? They must think you are a bad mommy" she gasped loudly and looked down to her belly mumbling her apologies.
We parked at the clinic and got out. "Alice? what if I'm not pregnant? What if its just me being sick? I mean the weather changed from warm to cold and I get sick easily" she wrapped her arm around my shoulder and gave me a hug "Don't worry. If you aren't there is always next time" I nodded as we walked into the clinic I sat down and waited as alice began to talk to the woman who was at her desk. I looked around and thought about the first time I came here. I was frighten and ran away, afraid what I knew was true. "Isabella Swan" a woman called. My heart raced but I stood up. I looked over to alice who nodded for me to go. Taking in a deep breath I followed the woman into a small room "please change into this and the doctor will be right with you" I nodded as I changed into the hospital clothes. "Hello? Mrs. Swan my name is"
"Carlisle?!" I shrieked. This was not good. "Um yes how do you know my name?" he watched me curiously. I wonder if he knows who I am. I waited for a moment. I just stared at him someone else knocked and I saw Edward's mother standing "Oh Bella! How are you" she rushed over and hugged me tightly. "Alice called me and told me to come over" I smiled at her as she sat down next to me. Carlisle still looked lost and confused. "Carlisle, I'm Edward's fiancé" he stood there. Shocked. A smile came over his lips and he chuckled.
"Nice to meet you. now how can I help you?" I swallowed. "I've been feeling sick. Throwing up and all that. But I have a cold, well soon to be cold I can feel it" he nodded taking down notes. "I felt the same way when I was pregnant with jari but not the cold part" he nodded and wrote something else down. He handed me a pregnancy test and smiled "go to the bathroom" I nodded and headed to the bathroom. I sat there waiting for five minutes. Tears swelled in my eyes as I watched the stupid thing sitting in the counter of the sink. I finally decided to stand up and walk out. Alice, esme and Carlisle were standing their. Waiting for my verdict. "I-I…" I looked back down and sighed "I'm going to be a mommy" I let out a laugh/sob as alice shrieked and came to hug me. "just to make sure, we have someone who is going to do an ultra sound. We want to make sure" I nodded as I laid on the bed waiting for the woman to come.
"Hello, can you please lift up your gown" I did as she asked. The gel she put was cold, the feeling was so weird but so natural in a way. The monitor was facing alice and Carlisle not letting me see anything. "awww" alice cooed. I tried getting up to see but the woman glared at me. I waited and waited until she finally spoke "Well their seems to be one in there. Come back in about two months and we will do another check up" wait…did she just say.. "Excuse me, but you said their seems to be one?" she nodded and showed me the monitor "I can see two. But just to make sure I have to wait until they develop more. Oh and take care of yourself. You cant risk to get sick now" I nodded as she wiped the gel away.
I laid there. Silently wondering what in the world I was going to do. Carlisle stepped inside and sat on the end of the hospital bed. "Are you alright?" I looked over to him, tears swelled in my eyes. I looked away and sighed. "Bella you can talk to me" I turned to him again and let the tears fall "what if he doesn't want this baby? I already went through that with my first daughter, I don't want this to happen to this baby" he sighed "he would love this child. It's his own blood." I nodded as the tears still fell. "please don't tell him. I want to tell him when I am ready" he nodded and headed out. Leaving me to my own thoughts.
My phone buzzed as I took it from the bed. "Hey honey" I smiled. "Hey, how you feeling? What the doctor say?" I took in a deep breath and thought for a moment. "they said it's a cold. I just…have to take care of myself" he chuckled onto the phone, letting out a breath "I miss you" and if on cue I let out a sob escape my lips. I didn't understand why I couldn't tell him. "I miss you too" my voice cracked a little as I sniffed trying to gain composure "Bella? Why are you crying? Baby, is everything alright?" I nodded. "yeah, just..emotional that's all. I'll see you in a few" we said out goodbyes and I got dressed. I walked out to find alice smiling widely at me. we walked to the car silently. As I sat down quietly watching the trees move I lifted my shirt up. For sure, I had a bump it wasn't so big you could notice it but it was still noticeable. I sighed and kept my hand there as I watched the trees go. "Bella, don't think so much about it. you should be happy" I glanced over to her and gave her a sad smile "I know" was all I said. We parked the car to notice jari running around with edward. I smiled at them both. They were running around chasing each other, just having fun. Alice came to stand next to me as we both walked into the house. "Mommy!" jari screamed as she ran towards me. I bent down to pick her up and smiled at her. "Hey baby, having fun with daddy I see" she nodded furiously then stopped to eye me curiously. Sometimes I wonder if her and alice sense things.
"Mommy, you can tell me later" she whispered into my ear as she gave me a sloppy wet kiss on my cheek before jumping off to go to alice. "Honey? You alright? you zoned out" I shook my head and smiled "I'm fine just..puzzled that's all" he smiled as we walked into the house. Alice was cooking something while jari was dancing around with a bag of flour. The phone rang but I was too into the moment to even pick it up "I'll get it" edward whispered. I watched him go pick up the phone. I looked to see jari still dancing but letting the flour fall to the ground. I looked back to edward and his face was pale white. I mean white like whiteout. As if you just seen a ghost. He mumbled his thanks and glanced over to me.
"Edward? are you alright?" he stood frozen looking at the phone as if something bad had happened. My heart was racing and I was afraid to know what had happened. I walked over to him and placed my hand on his back rubbing it gently "Edward, say something please" he took deep breaths in and out trying to hold his composure.
"Bella, I think you need to sit down for this"
My heart stopped. "what? Edward tell me now please" I pleaded. He shook his head and lead me to the living room. "you have to sit down, please" I sat down quietly. Wondering what was going on. he paced back and forth running his hand through his hair, pulling on it slightly.
He sighed and glanced over to me. his eyes full of sorrow and sadness.
My mind went into overdrive. My heart was racing and my blood was rushing through my body. I knew this wasn't good and I had to prepare myself for it
