Note: I do not own 'Harry Potter' but do own Neci...Hope you enjoy the story...
Severus and I went back to work after the weekend. Everyone was relieved when we showed up after a month long vacation with no word. Sirius was thrilled to hear that Rayn and I were OK. He actually seemed happy when he found out Severus and I had gotten over our fight.
When I was ready, I asked Dumbledore if I could borrow his pensieve to view the memory that my mother left for me. I poured it into the bowl and swirled it with my finger. It pulled me in.
I was standing in a room that I've seen before. It was Sirius' room at Grimmauld Place. My mother is sitting on the bed crying. When I get closer, I hear her mumbling about being pregnant. Sirius walks into the room and sits down beside her. He puts an arm around her shoulders.
"Tamara, is everything alright?"
"No. This war is stupid and it's only going to get worse. You know I love you, Sirius, but I can't keep going on like this. Every time you go out, I worry. When I go out, I wish I was here with you. I love you with all my heart but we need to be apart at least until after the war is over."
"Are you breaking up with me?"
"Yes, Sirius. At least until this is all settled."
Sirius got up and left the room. The scene changed and Mom is sitting in another room. She is writing a letter. She rolls up the parchment and taps it with her wand. Mom stands up and I saw her enlarged stomach. She appears to be around 7 months. She mutters something and her stomach disappears.
"I hope this all works out and that I can bring you home after the war is finished, my little one. I love you so much."
The scene changed again and I watched Mom approach Mom in the garden. There is a bundle of blankets in her arms.
"Tamara, don't scream. I know I look exactly like you but I desperately need to talk to you."
The scene changed again and she is kissing me goodbye. She hands the baby over to the other Tamara and smiles weakly. She says goodbye and disappears.
She is in her bedroom and wraps her arms around her self. Mom is staring at a picture of Sirius and pulls out the backing. Tucked inside is a picture of her and me. It looks like it was taken shortly after I was born.
"I love you, Sirius, but I needed to do this to protect our daughter. I know you'll understand one day. I love you too, Neci."
I was pulled out of the memories and I bottled it again. I tucked it back into the Spencer box and smiled at the memory of my mother telling me she loves me. I went back to my quarters and caught Severus reading the first book of the Harry Potter series. I tried to distract him from continuing but he wanted to know how it ended. I didn't want him to know that he was supposed to die and that it was he who killed Dumbledore. I even tried to hide it on him but he had made copies of the books.
"Fine. Read it but then destroy it. I don't want anyone else finding out what could have been. It's bad enough that I told the twins when I first got here."
He seemed eager to finish it that I ended up doing most of his marking and looking after Rayn. I know that I was the same way but I still managed to live my life while reading the books. After reading The Deathly Hallows, Severus took me to bed and held me.
"You are the reason I'm still here. You saved me twice now. If it wasn't for you, I'd be…"
"Don't even think about it. There's nothing that will take me away from you. You're stuck with me."
"If I'm stuck with you anyways, we should make it official."
"Only if you don't mind a ball and chain. Of course I'll marry you, Severus."
