Catch Me I'm Falling
Estealla..
Chapter Twenty Seven
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
- Goo Goo Dolls
Imagine getting your teeth pulled out one by one, now multiple that by three thousand. That's not even close to what labor pain feels like. My entire body ached, I wanted this kid out of me and out of me fast, but at the same time I felt to tired to keep pushing. On one side of me was Jacob, and on the other stood Embry, both looking scared. They kept cheering me on as I squeezed there hand, which didn't do anything for the pain but it did help distract me. Carlisles head peaked up, giving me a smile. Jacob leaned his head down with the okay from me and the doctor. I clenched my teeth, trying to push her out as quickly as possible. "Relax" Carlisle said softly. "Okay, on the count of three...one, two" I started to push. "Three, next time wait though" I started to scream. "Okay, she's almost out, one big push" I pushed like I had never pushed before. There was a huge release, my entire body relaxed and I could feel tears streaming down my cheeks.
"She's beautiful" I heard Embry mummbled, his mouth open slightly with a small smile on his face. I didn't hear a cry and immediately started to panic, poking my head up around the sheet that was covering my view. No one spoke, I couldn't stop myself.
"Where's my baby? Why isn't she crying?" The doctor got up, baby still in his hand, and went into the next room. I tried to sit up but I was pushed back down by my twin. I couldn't fight him off, so I stayed laying down, my ears straining to hear for any sign of my daughter crying. "Where's my baby? WHY ISN'T SHE CRYING!" I screamed, wiggling in my bed, which was a lot more painful than it sounds. My body shook with sobs as my nails dug into his skin, but i knew it was no use. He didn't even flinch, Jacob sent him a look and they both nodded. Jakes arms covered me, I cried into his chest. I heard Embry leave the room and pushed myself away from him, stumbling out of the bed and out of the room, he wheeled as quickly as he could to catch up. I was still in one of those nightys they give you at the hospital when I held my finger up, and started to scream at everyone in the room. "WHERE IS MY DAMN BABY!" I stomped my feet on the ground. "I WANT TO SEE HER NOW!" Everyones faces twisted in shock, there mouthes hanging open as they watched me throw a fit in the middle of the room.
Emily rushed over to me, grabbing me by the shoulders, a blonde haired beautiful woman stopped her in her tracks and smiled. She took me by the arm leading me out of the room, I wasn't sure where we were going but I was hoping my daughter would be where ever it was. The room we entered was empty and cold, she motioned for me to sit. "Calm down" She handed me a bottle of water. "Carlisle is with the baby, it's okay" She rubbed my back as I chugged the water. "I'm Rosalie by the way" I nodded a thank you too her and wiped my mouth with the back of my hand, suddenly feeling very ugly. I was a chubby girl, thanks to the pregnancy, with hair that was probably a mess, sweat covering me, and crying like a big baby. "Better?"
"Yeah, thanks" My voice was raspy, my chest still shook lightly every so often. I could feel tears begin to refill my eyes. "Where my baby?"
"Carlisle is working on her, you need to calm down though, it's a little hard for him to work with you screaming so loud" I bit my lip, not wanting to cry anymore. I mentally debated with myself, I wanted to cry out of fear but if he worked better in silence then I'll do whatever it takes to keep quiet. I wiped my face again as she pulled me too her, her body was like stone. Cold and hard but I relaxed anyway. "She'll be okay" I nodded, hoping and praying she'd be okay. I wasn't sure what had happened. Was it something I did? Did I not eat health enough? Was I not drinking enough water or taking my prenatals the right way? My mind filled with unanswers questions. "Don't cry, be happy she'll be okay, I can hear her heart beat" I was filled with hope, I stopped crying and looked up.
"Do you have kids?" The way she froze made her look like a statue as she stared at the wall behind me. She snapped out of it seconds later and shook her head, she looked hurt by what I said. "I'm sorry, I - uh" The room filled with silence, I wasn't sure what to say or do. From the hall I heard a baby cry, I leaped onto my feet and followed the sound, leaving Rosalie behind. Normally I would have felt guilty but all I could think of was her, my little baby waiting for me. Carlisle came out of the room I was originally in, in his hands was a small pink blanket, my baby still hidden underneath. He held her out when I got close enough and I pulled her to me, walking to the bed to take a seat. Embry and Jacob were already sitting there, smiles on both of there faces, I took a seat, and the hovered over me looking at the little bundle of joy in my arms.
I looked at her little face for the first time; She was the most beautiful baby I had ever seen with tan skin, and dark hair, she slept peacefully in my arms. I kissed the top of her head and held her close. I looked up at my brother who was laughing, I raised an eye brow with a smile, finally content now that I knew she was okay. "She just had a little trouble taking her first breath" I bit my lip, looking at her again. I couldn't seem to take my eyes off of her. "You were like a momma bear ready to kill anything in her path to get to her cub" He should his head and he did his best impression of a momma bear. "It was crazy" I laughed, smacking him with one head. He kissed my forehead. "You did good momma bear"
"So what are we naming her?" Jacob smiled, looking at our daughter. He seems just as taken by her, if not more. He looked from me to the baby and baby again. "Can I-" He pointed to the baby and held his arms out.
"She's yours too, you don't have to ask" I laughed, handing her over. He layed her against his chest, leaning back a little and rubbed her back. She squirmed, with a goofy smile on her face which made all of us laugh. One of her eyes opened for a moment, she looked around and closed them again. "She's checkin' us out" I said, stroking the side of her face with my finger. She was so soft.
"She probably thinks were a bunch of weirdos" Embry chuckled from behind me."Probably" He leaned over and rubbed her back with a smile.
"Right Holly?" She opened her eye again. "Ha, she likes it"
"She's three minutes old, she is not agreeing with you Embry" I put my hand on my hip. "And she's still not a Holly, she doesn't even look like a Holly" Jacob shrugged.
"Sorry dude, I don't think she looks like a Holly either, and if you know whats best for you you'd let momma bear decide the name" Embry looked at me, then the baby.
"Fine" He took a seat on the side of my bed, we all sat there watching her.
"Iris, Iris Emma Marie Call" I said simply. Both guys looked at me like I was nuts. "What? I think it suits her"
"Two middle names?" My twin looked at me.
"Yup" I smiled noticing everyone at the door. They didn't come in right away, I guess waiting for premission. I waved for them to join us, Quil stood over Jake, looking at her.
"I still say Lily has my nose" He laughed.
"I already have a name Quil" I finally had her back in my arms, cuddling her to my chest. Both of her eyes opened, and she grabbed my finger. She had quite a grip for only being a few minutes old.
"Come on, we wanna hear what the new little pups name is" Sam laughed. He was never a laughing, smiling sort of guy. Not with us anyway, with Emily and his children sure, but it took a lot for him to really loosen up to smile and joke around. I smiled at my family, all surrounding me and my new daughter.
"Iris Emma Marie Call" The girls all seemed please with my choice of names, the guys all shared the same looked. I rolled my eyes. "Lily? Holly? Come on people, my name rocks compared to those" I looked down at her. "Besides I gave birth to her which means I get to pick the name" I stuck my tongue out at them, which they all gave back to me.
We spent the next hour in that room playing a game of pass the baby. Everyone wanted to hold her, and look at her. She was going to be one loved little girl that's for sure. Quil was the one holding her when I snuck out of the room. Rosalie had been standing next to the door, smiling sadly at my family as we awed over Iris. I found her in the room we spoke in just an hour earlier. I knocked lightly, knowing she heard me coming. She looked up with a smile, a large man stood next to her. He was bulky, but cute, with messy brown hair and a kid like smile. He made his was past me and shut the door as he left. I took a seat next to her, neither of us said anything for a moment.
"Would you like to hold her?" I said softly, she grinned with a nodded. "Why don't you have any children"
"I can't have kids, not after" She motioned her hands around her body. "This happened" I felt sorry for her, I felt ashamed, and I felt happy all at once. I had been selfish enough to think about giving my baby up just because I didn't think I was strong enough, and here she was unable to have children but dying for one. I fiddled with my hands until she grabbed them. "It's okay ya know, I got used to it, it's just upsetting seeing all these girl with children and here I am without one" She sighed. "I have to live forever seeing that, there will always be babys, and none will ever be mine" I didn't know what to say to her, I couldn't do anything to make her feel better. There was nothing I could say or do that could fill that spot in her heart.
"I know it's not the same, but you can come see her whenever you want, and if you want to baby sit sometime I wouldn't have a problem with that" Her mouth dropped open.
"You wouldn't mind with us being...you know" I shook my head.
"How I see it is, you guys helped me and Jacob when we needed you, why wouldn't I trust your family with her life? You helped her bring her into this world" She pulled me into a hug, I gasped for air and she realeased me with a laugh.
"Thank you" I stood up and walked with her to my room. The baby was sucking on Embrys finger. He looked up, his eyes wide.
"There clean!" He said before I could say anything.
"I believe you" I laughed taking a seat, everyone looked at Rosalie. Some looked worried, others looked uncomfortable. I lifted Iris out of Embrys arms and into hers. "We named her Iris" Rosalie took her gently in her arms, bounching lightly with a smile on her face. She looked at no one but the baby, I had never seen anyone quite as happy. The rest of the pack relaxed, watching her handle our new family memeber with such care.
Yeah, she was definitely going to be loved.
Authors Note:
Okay I won't be posting until sunday! I'm super sorry guys but I'll be in disney. I tried my best with this chapter, I hope it's okay. I had a really, really, really horrible day today but I wanted you guys to have one last chapter before my vacation so I wrote this to hold you over until I'm home again!
On with the thank yous!
jojostar: No not yet, soon though and I'm sure she'll be in future chapters! Thank you for the review as usual :)
sun-shine99: HOLY COW THATS A LONG REVIEW! I was soooo happy to see that waiting for me when I got home. Made me smile real big. There will be more jealous Bella in the future, and don't worry I can't stand her either haha. I will let you know the baby is imprinted on but I won't say by who :) you'll have to guess! I love your reviews thank you so much for them!
ourlovestory221: Thanks so much for reading and reviewing! I'm glad to hear you like the story so far! I will have Annie in the next chapter I think and there will be more of Rose so she'll probably open up to her within the next chapter or two!
S K B C: Thank you for the review! I tried to do the name thing you suggested but I couldn't find one that I really really loved, then I was listening to the song Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls and I was like yes! I love that haha, but as you know there will be more babys so that means many opportunities for those names to come up!
I know it'll be a few days until you can read more but please stick with the story! I'll get right back into posting chapters once I get home! If you'd really like to make me happy, and cheer me up you'd be the lovely reviewers that I know you are, and you'd leave me nice long reviews! :) I hope I see quite a few when I get home.
I'll make everyone a deal, if I get more reviews than usually i'll work my butt off to get at least three chapters done by monday night. Deal?
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