Harrys POV
I was tired. So bone weary and tired. Tired of everything that was happening in my life. Maybe I was wrong to comeback to Hogwarts. Draco had been in with Hydra for a long time. It must be okay, because theres no shouting and I cant hear her crying anymore. Hopefully hes acting like the father he should have been. The father I know he is. I sat down heavily on the couch and closed my eyes as I laid my head on the back of the sofa. I just sat thinking. Draco and I need to talk. About Hydra. About us and about what happened. I hope he wont leave me again before I get to explain. I hope hell understand once he knows. I need him more than im willing to admit to anyone. I heard the gentle opening and closing of a door as I sighed.
I heard Dracos soft footsteps as he approached me. I could tell he was standing infront of me.
'Harry, i..'
'Sit down Draco' I said quietly. He sat down gently on the edge of the couch and I grabbed his shirt and pulled it so he was sat comfortably. This would be a long conversation, he needed to get comfortable.
'Im sorry I ran out on you before you could explain Harry, I should've heard you out' Draco said quietly.
'Im tired Draco. So tired of you hating me and our daughter. I want you back in my life. But you have to listen to why I left in the first place. You cant just stomp out because you don't like something you hear. Theres always going to be at least something you don't like in every situation, you just have to put up with it. And you will put up with it if you care enough. Question is, do you care enough?'
'Of course I do Harry! Do you think im proud of what I did when I ran out? Because im not. I was a coward. I was scared. I still am, but im willing to listen.' Draco said to me. I opened my eyes and looked at him. He looked sincere. Maybe it was going to be okay after all. The silence went by for a few minutes. I was gathering the courage to tell the story. I took a deep breath and turned to him.
'Remember just before I left, when you found me in the Hospital Wing? That's when I knew, id found out just before you came in that we were to be parents. Then you came in and told me Pansy was going to ruin her life by having a child at that age'
'And you panicked, thinking that was the way I felt about anyone having a child?'
'Yes, Draco, I didn't know about Theo hurting her. I thought they were in love. So with hearing your views, I knew I couldn't tell you about the miracle I had growing inside me. I made the decision alone and I left. Only Poppy really knew where I was. And when the time came, Poppy was by my side as I gave birth to our little girl'
'What about Granger and Weasley? Werent they there?' Draco asked quietly. He looked guilty and upset for not being there. Oh Dray, if only you knew. It gets worse.
'They knew where I was but I didn't see them much during the pregnancy. The time I found out I was pregnant, was also the time they found out that even with the help of potions, its impossible for them to have any children of their own. I didn't want to upset them'
'They cant? Poor Hermione. That's all she wanted' Draco knew this, having got to know Ron and Hermione in the time we were dating. Then his face changed into a look of concern.
'What?' I asked him.
'Hydra said that Hermione told her you were poorly in the head when you had her. What does that mean?'
'I was. I couldn't even bear to look at her. That's why Hermione and Ron lived with me for a while. For Three weeks, I never even looked at her or acknowledged her. She was too close of a link to you and I couldn't bear it. I didn't even name her you know? That was Hermiones choice. They looked after her until Hermione got angry and left me alone with her. Then I guessed I kind of had to look after her.' I was shaking now. Id never told anyone else this story, least not the one it was mostly about. This was my biggest failure. I was a failure to my daughter back then. I saw Draco was crying lightly and I gave him a small smile.
'But its okay. Im okay. Shes what kept me sane. When I eventually did look at her, she was the closest link to you I could possibly get, and for that I was thankful' I finished as i looked at him.
'But why didn't you tell me? When she was born? I could have helped out, financially or just in general'
'I didn't want your money Dray, I had my own. And I couldn't face telling you. I knew youd be upset with me for leaving'
'Well then why didn't you tell me when you came back with her? When we started spending time together?
'You never asked Draco' I answered simply. We both sighed at the same time. Im glad ive told him now. Hopefully it can go back to how it was between us. I absentmindedly laid my head on his shoulder and he put his arm around me.
'She really is beautiful though Harry. You've done a great job raising her so far' He mumbled sleepily to me.
'Hopefully we can do the rest together my Dray' I whispered back. He didn't reply, but the squeezing of my shoulders and his head coming to rest on top of mine told me that hed heard me and I was right. Wed do it all together from now on. We fell asleep, unaware of the little girl that had witnessed the exchange and was now drifting back to sleep with a smile on her features, dreaming of her reunited although slightly dysfunctional family.
