It all happened very fast, Remus flipped Marlene onto her bak, moving his hands to the buttons on her shirt, he ripped it off, discarding it to the floor. She reached down and unbuckled his belt. She got it halfway off before Marlene opened her eyes wide, The Queen song had ended and she was thrust back into reality. She broke the kiss and wriggled her way out from under Remus, falling on the floor.

"What the hell are we doing?"

Remus was red in the face, he sat up and ran a hand through his hair. "I dunno, Marly."

"What the hell am I doing?" She said to herself, standing and buttoning her shirt back up. "I have to go Remus, I'm so sorry." She said, he opened his mouth to speak, but she was already gone. By the time Remus spat out the word 'wait' she was already back in Sirius' flat, practically running to the bedroom.

She pushed the door open. "Siri-" she started, but the room was empty. She walked to the bed and plopped down, sniffing slightly, for no reason at all tears were forming in her eyes. They lingered o the brink of falling, but she wiped them away impatiently. She didn't deserve to cry about Sirius, after what she had done, she didn't even deserve to be sitting on his bed. Marlene looked up briefly when she heard the lock in the door click. Sirius shuffled into the bedroom not even looking at her, he kicked off his shoes, shrugged off his leather jacket and pulled a bottle of Firewhiskey out of a brown paper sack.

"Come on."

"Where're we going?"

"To the kitchen, come on." She followed him out of the room and into the kitchen. Without a word he uncorked the bottle and took a swig straight out of the neck. He looked sullen and sad, and for a brief second Marlene saw a bit of Regulus in him, that dark brooding beauty that Sirius had never embodied. "I don't know how to tell you this, but..."

"You slept with someone else." She said, hoping beyond hope that he would say yes and she could get mad and be done with it, never having to feel bad about a simple kiss with Remus.

"No! Marlene, no," He took another swig. "I would never. It's about Remus."

She felt all the color drain out of her face, and it was everything she had to keep from collapsing to the floor. "Oh, I'm so sorry, Sirius."

"So you know? Did Prongs tell you?"

"What?"

"We think Moony is working for the other side."

"What?" She said, this time she did sink to the ground. Not only had she snogged a man that wasn't Sirius, but she had snogged a man that was possibly working against everything they were working for. Sirius bent down to face her, the bottle still in his hand. She snagged it from him and took a swig, the liquid scalding her throat. She coughed slightly, wiping her mouth, she stared into Sirius' face. "Are you sure?"

"No," He said, looking at her strangely. She imagined that he was wondering why this news had affected her so much. "It's just something James and I have been discussing and it seems likely as of now."

"B-but it's Remus. He can't be working for them, he despises them-"

"We think Dorcas dying may have sent him over the edge."

"I don't think so, I was just with-" She stopped herself, rising to her feet.

"What? You were with who?"

Oh, Merlin's Pants. "Remus, I was with Remus."

"Why?"

"Well, after we had our row I just popped out and ended up on his doorstep." Marlene was blushing, she could feel the blood rushing to her face.

"What were you so sorry about?" He said, reddening in the face as well, though she imagined for an entirely different reason. He took a swig of the bottle, never taking his eyes off of her.

"What do you mean?"

"Before, I said it's about Remus and you apologized. Why?" Marlene was silent, she opened her mouth to speak and closed it again. What could she possibly say? It's not like they had had sex, they had ALMOST had sex. There is a difference. Right? "What happened? Did he do something to you?"

Oh, silly Sirius, so valiant. "No, we just- I was mad at you and he made me tea and... it was nothing. It just happened, and then-"

He cut her off. "Did you sleep with him?" Sirius said, not yelling. His voice was low and mean like Marlene had never heard it. He was gripping the neck of the bottle so hard his knuckles were white.

"No." She said, shaking her head.

"Almost, then?"

She shook her head a second time. "Yes- well no, it was just a kiss."

"I'm going to kill that furry fucking traitor." He said, taking a swig of the bottle. Marlene reached out to stop him as soon as he apparated and found herself a block from Remus' cottage.

"Sirius, no! It was my fault, I kissed him. I was hurt and this Queen song was on- He's not a traitor, I know it! Not Remus."

Sirius turned around, his voice practically a hiss. "Go home, Marlene. I'll deal with you later."

The venom in his voice scared her half to death. James. She needed to get James. With a pop, she was in Godric's Hollow, practically running to the doorstep of James and Lily potter. She knocked frantically and it was Lily who came to the door. "Marlene, hello, come in we were jus- What's the matter?" It was starting to rain and Marlene could imagine she looked like a wreck.

"I need James. Sirius went after Remus, he's there just now doing god knows what!" Lily turned on the spot.

"James!" He came running, glasses askew, from the back of the house. His eyes rested on Marlene and he walked to the door, gently moving Lily aside.

"What happened?"

"It's Sirius, he went after Remus."

"Oh no."

"We have to go!" She practically yelled. Fat drops were falling onto her now, her hair was practically soaking wet. "Please, come on, he's going to do something stupid."

"Alright. Lily, Ill be home soon."

"Please be careful." She said, leaning forward to kiss her husband.

He smiled roguishly and was gone with a pop, Marlene followed seconds after. She landed a little ways from the cottage and could see flashes of light coming from within. James ran forward and threw the door open, Marlene just stood watching the scene unfold through shadows on the windows. The rain was falling down, soaking her from head to toe and for the first time she realized that things were going to be very different from now on. It was only June of 1980, they had been out of school for barely two years and they were falling apart. This is exactly what the death eaters wanted, for them to lose faith, turn against each other and stop caring.

James exited with Sirius five minutes after he got there. Sirius was limping slightly and hanging on James' shoulder. She could see that James was holding his wand, and that Sirius was holding a mostly empty bottle of firewhiskey.

"He's drunk, you should get him home."

"I'm not drunk and I'm not going anywhere with her."

"He's a mean drunk." James said, apologetically.

"No, she's just a jezebel. I'm done with promiscuous woman. Why don't you go inside and finish the job with ol' Moony, he's probably a WOLF in the sack."

Tears had sprung Marlene's eyes, and James was looking between the two very confused. "James," She said, her voice cracking slightly. "I'm going to sleep at Alice's tonight, do you think you could take care of him."

"Of course, Marly. I'm sure he doesn't even know what he's talking about."

"No. He does." She said, and turned to walk down the road, she would apparate there so they didn't have to see her sobbing the way she was. At least it was raining so nobody she passed could tell she was crying. Ducking behind a small shop, she apparated quickly and landed with a thud at Alice Longbottom's small cottage. The lights were on and through the window she could see a very pregnant Alice and a very happy Frank enjoying dinner. She hated to disturb them, but she was willing to be selfish and she needed her friend. She knocked three times on the door. Frank answered with a smile which fell once he laid eyes on Marlene.

She pushed past him into the house, "Hi Frank." and walked straight to Alice, wrapping her arms around her friends neck and hugging her as tight as she could over her belly. "I've done something terrible."

"Oh, honey. Come on, into the bedroom, let's get you cleaned up and then you can tell me all about it."

She nodded and watched Alice shoot a concerned look towards Frank as she led her towards the bedroom. Twenty minutes later Marlene was showered and clean, wearing a pair of Alice's old pre-pregnancy pajamas, and sitting on her bed with a pillow on her lap.

"You kissed him? Thats it?" She asked, turning her head to the side.

"Well, a little more than that."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean that there was removal of clothing and almost penetration."

She gasped slightly. "Oh, Marlene. That's not good."

"I know, and now I don't even know if Sirius will ever want to see my face again."

"I'm sure he will understand." She paused and Marlene looked at her uncertain. "Alright, probably not- but maybe he will just get over it."

"I don't know, he can be so stubborn and loyal. I betrayed him, that's how he sees it. I was disloyal to him by kissing Remus. If it was someone random he would be angry, but you would be right, he would get over it. But this, this is different. The only thing that could have been worse was if I kissed well... you know."

"Fabian."

The name stung slightly, Marlene spent more time telling herself not to think of him than she did thinking about Sirius. You never get over your first love, and Fabian was just that for her. The first boy she had ever loved. Her love for Fabian was so different from her love for Sirius, it was so innocent. She missed innocence. The war had stripped it from her life and from everyone around her. They were all so young, but so weathered. "I think I might go stay with Caleb for a while, or maybe Mark. Caleb has his fiance to deal with. Did I tell you, she's american?"

"Yeah, you did. But Marly, darling, you can't just avoid Sirius."

"Why not?"

"Because you love him."

"Yeah, but- oh well. He called me a jezebel!"

Alice gasped. "He did not!"

"Oh, he did."

"Silent treatment it is, then?" Alice asked.

"Silent treatment." Marlene said with a nod.


The last two sentences were recycled from the first time Sirius and Marlene broke up. Girls never stop handling things the same way. I know I failed miserably at keeping with the timeline by killing Fabian and Gideon before Marlene, so I might kill Marlene a little earlier than she would have died, just too keep the story going. I know, I know, I'm doing it wrong. Just call it an AU if it really bothers you.