Chapter 28
"Why were you and Rose arguing?" I had finished reading to her and Moo an hour ago, we had sat rocking quietly for a while now.
It would have taken me less than an hour to finish reading it but Bella had a lot of questions for once, she would usually just let me read the whole book first and then ask questions.
"We weren't arguing Bella, we just had a disagreement on something."
"If you have a disagreement with someone and one person raises their voice it counts as an argument." There were a few chuckles throughout the house and Jasper's was the loudest.
"When did you get so smart?"
"Blame Pops and Jazz. Stop avoiding my question." She had stopped drawing patterns on my forearm and looked up at me.
"That was a rhetorical question." She looked at me like I was crazy and I was about to explain to her what rhetorical means but she shushed me.
"I'm not a baby anymore Edward." I could see that I had upset her and it made me feel like an idiot once again. I seem to be feeling like that quite a lot when I'm around her.
"I'm sorry, I know you're not a baby anymore but I don't think you'll fully understand yet what we were disagreeing on." I kept watching her reaction as those words left my mouth and what I saw didn't please me one bit.
"Then why don't you explain it to me? We've got all night and day if you think it will take that long." She folded her arms and glared at me. This was not going to end well.
'You're in trouble now Edward.' Was the only thing Jasper thought. Through Jasper I knew she was genuinely angry and upset with me.
How do you tell a young girl about having a mate and not scare her?
"Well you know how most of the house has mated?" I waited for some sort of response from her and when she nodded, I carried on.
"Rose thinks that you should have options, she thinks you should try living a more human life and be with someone who might be human too." How could my mind go completely blank when the only thing I really wanted to tell her was that she is destined to be with me.
Her eyebrows knitted together and she looked past me and through her window out into the early morning.
"I don't understand, there are risks of me being with a human, I know that much. Why would Rosalie think like that when she knows…..when she knows the dangers of it?" I felt like that wasn't what Bella wanted to say and it made me think back to what Rosalie said to me about Bella being in love with me already.
To an outsider she looks like a young eleven year old, but before my eyes I can see her growing. In front of me, I see a young beautiful girl who already has a mind of a grown up.
"That's what I told her. That's where our disagreement lies, no one will stop you from wanting to have your own choices but I don't want you to be with a human because they will eventually grow old and you wouldn't, they would then die and you wouldn't but if you had that sort of attachment with them, you would get hurt. The last thing I want to see is you getting hurt." I kissed her forehead but she still felt tense to me.
"If you don't want me to be with a human then who do you want me to be with?" she asked me through gritted teeth and I flinched from the way it sounded.
'Edward don't!' was Alice's warning. But I was tired of listening to everyone else, this was between Bella and I.
"Someone who's like you."
"Like me?! Edward I'm not like you or anyone else in this family! I'm not normal!" in a flash she was off my lap and jumped out from her window.
I stood by the window in an instant and saw her run into the woods in a speed I didn't know she could run. It was almost as fast as mine.
"Let her go son. She needs her space right now, she'll come back." Carlisle placed his hand on my shoulder and gave it a gentle squeeze.
'Call me when she comes back, the hospital called and I need to cover for one of the doctors. She might look like she's too young but you know that her soul is older. You did the right thing telling her, even if it wasn't the whole truth.' He left Bella's room and walked into his bedroom to say bye to Esme.
Maybe Carlisle was wrong, maybe I shouldn't have told her what I had. She would still be here if I didn't tell her what that stupid argument was about.
'The outcome would have been the same Edward, she would have still ran away because she would know you were lying to her. She knows you better than you know yourself, or any of us for that matter. You two are destined to be together, hold on to that belief big brother." I wasn't sure whether I wanted to listen to Alice but she's the only person in this house who truly knew everything. She never tells me what Bella thinks or what she sees in Bella's future but she shows me what she sees in mine. From day one she saw us together.
'Now look what you did! You made her run away and god knows where she is now!' I heard Rose drop her wrench and Emmett was trying to convince her to let Bella be alone for a while.
I knew where Bella was though. I have a very good idea where she is because it's the place I'd go to if I wanted to be alone.
I was having a very hard time just being here and not running after her. It kills me knowing that she feels different from the rest of us. Yes she's unique but that's what makes her more special than the rest of us.
Emmett simply saw it as her throwing her first tantrum and that when she hits puberty it's only going to get worse.
However, the second Jasper's thoughts turned to the wolves my mind went blank and I felt physical pain and fear.
I didn't even wait for anyone else, I was out through her window in a flash and I ran as fast as I could to the meadow. Her scent was still strong and easy to follow, but I didn't need to follow her scent to get to the one place that was special to us.
My mind went through all sort of outrageous scenarios of what I'll find when I get there. The closer I got to the meadow the more my fear kicked in.
Only then did I realise that it wasn't just my fear, it was Bella's too.
A feral growl ripped through me as I cut through the forest and into the clearing.
My dead heart felt like it was going to jump out of my chest at the sight before me.
