Chapter 29
It took Jim over a year to understand just how in love his daughter had fallen with the professor. For months he waited patiently, hoping she would move on, but Kate Beckett was stubborn. Once her heart was set on something, she would never let it go. And he knew now, Kate's heart was set on professor Alex Rogers.
Even though now, after a year and a half since he had made himself scarce from the city, Kate Beckett had finally managed to allow herself the fun a young woman her age should have., he could see she was making a conscious effort to move on, she was going out clubbing with friends, coming home with a smile on her face, her eyes didn't have dark circles around them anymore, which meant she was probably even getting sleep more often. But there was one sign Jim couldn't ignore. And that was the sadness he saw in his daughters eyes.
Yes. Kate had found a way to be her old self again, but there was a hidden part of her that lay beneath the surface that missed him. That missed Alex. And that was hoping one day he would come back. Jim and Johanna were the only two people Kate could never hide that sadness from. However much she talked and laughed at dinner with them, or kissed them good morning when she awoke, they could see she wasn't completely out of it. She was sad from the inside, but there was something holding her ashore. Keeping her from drowning.
Jim had no clue it was a certain book that Kate had paid Maddie to allow her to keep as her own, because for once she had found something she could fall as hard in love with as she had with Alex. Whoever this author Richard was, his words had captured her heart. And Kate was staying afloat because of those words.
Jim however, was feeling a weight on his shoulders every time his daughter looked at him, because the sadness in her eyes was making the weight of guilt fall hard on his shoulders. Alex had tried to reach out to her, had tried to stay in touch with her, but from the very beginning, Jim had been hiding away the letters and parcels, and now, it was a burden he was finding hard to keep, a secret he felt horrible for holding.
He realized now, that what his daughter shared with that man, was not infatuation, it wasn't plain attraction to a man elder than her, it wasn't some stupid fling, from what he'd observed of his daughter over the past year, and from what he could tell from Alex's commitment in sending a letter almost every month, he concluded now, that maybe they did share something real.
Kate had never even tried to get into another relationship after him and that told Jim that she really only ever wanted him and still does. Jim now understood, he was never right to come in-between his daughter's relationships. He had done her wrong and he will forever owe it to her to bring her happiness back. Jim felt like an idiot for bring all of that hurt upon her daughter and denying her something beautiful, clearly, the man treated her right if she was so head over heels in love with him at that time.
Jim decided, he needed to make amends, and he knew it would cause him to be the victim of his daughter's anger. He hoped in some way she would forgive him. He decided, it was time to bring the truth to light, to show Kate the letters he'd been sending for her, to tell her he had asked Alex to stay away and to tell her that he only did it cause at that time it seemed like the right thing to do.
"Oh Alex..." she moaned as he sucked her nipple into his mouth, his warm mouth wetting her hardened skin.
"Yes... like that" she fisted his hair and she felt him smile against her. He was driving her crazy, his tongue pressing flat against her over sensitive skin, his other hand fondling with her other breast, squeezing it, flicking her hardened bud there, pinching it, being as rough as she liked, and it drove her wild for him, she bucked her hips upwards, a show of need of friction there. Before she knew it, his sinful lips were moving lower down her body, taking its time to tease at her abdomen, before slowly sliding down between her legs and into her wet, glistening fold
"Oh fuck!" she swore as she felt his lips and tongue working up her clit, he sucked at her clit as two of his fingers entered her all of a sudden and she pushed her hips more eagerly towards his lips
"Come on my face Kate, let go for me... I want to taste you"
She let her hands fist in his hair, and hold him in place at her sex, and with one last flick, just a little press of his tongue… she…
She woke up from her sleep, sat up, panting hard, and with a need to come between her legs. She looked at her alarm clock, she was late for college. But how was she supposed to ignore this wanton need in her. She turned to lie on her back, she closed her eyes and envisioned him again, just like the way he thirsted for her in her dream. She let her hand wander down under her sheets, and under the waist band of her underwear, and she found herself wet and ready, and all cause of that amazing dream. She began to work her clit, needing to finish what was started in her dream.
She was so close, most of the work had been done in her dream, all she needed was a few strokes, and she came on her fingers, softly whimpering and whispering his name, pretending it was his fingers and not her own. Even as she lay there, trying to catch her breath again, she realized this was the 3rd time this week that she had dreamed of him that way, the last time it was him inside her, the time before that she was in his bed, riding him. Today, it was his mouth on her.
A tear rolled down her cheek, as she wondered if these dreams would ever stop, and then again she wondered if she even wanted them to stop, they were the only thing she had left of him. And even though this method of remembering him made her heart ache, it was a memory she would never get rid of.
Kate ran downstairs with her bag on her shoulder, and went straight to the door.
"Katie, wait a second" Jim called out to her.
"What is it dad?"
"I need to talk to you, it's really important, in fact, there's something I need to show you."
"Dad, can it wait?" she looked at her watch. She was so late. All because of Alex. And he wasn't even here to begin with. "I'm so late" she said.
"Actually…" he began
"I'm sorry dad, it'll have to wait until this evening. I can't spare another minute."
She ran out the door, but Johanna appeared from the kitchen and followed her daughter out, "honey, what about breakfast?"
"I'll pick up a coffee on my way to college" she said back to her mom
"Don't forget we have to go for Scott's daughter's wedding reception tonight"
"That's today?"
"It is, come home soon" he r mom said.
"Alright, I will"
Alex Rogers put his keys into the door to his old loft and turned it, pushed the door open and took a deep breath inhaling that beautiful fragrance of home.
"Look whose back from the Hamptons!" his mother spoke with a dramatic air as she walked towards him to welcome him with a warm smile and embrace.
She hugged him tight and said "I missed you"
"I missed you too mom"
"Are you ready for tonight?" she asked her son.
"I am, I hope she'll be as excited to see me, as I am to see her."
"I think she'll be elated to see you."
"You did check with Scott that she's coming to the reception right?"
"Yes yes, Scott told me he invited the Becketts... So yes, she'll be there"
"Yea, I just hope Mr. Beckett won't try to come between us again. This time, I will not listen to anyone. I will bring her home with me if I have to mother. I've stayed away long enough. I can't go another day without seeing her. And things are different now, I'm no longer her teacher."
Alex had been planning this day for months now. he's decided a few months ago, he would surprise her at the reception, he'd kiss her like he'd described to her in his letters, he'd show her through that kiss just how much he missed her, how sorry he was for leaving that night, how bad he felt for staying away and how eagerly he wrote every word for her In those letters cause really that was his only connection to her. His plan was to never let go of her again.
AN: See, I told you things will get better. stay with me please. just a little more angst, and then it'll all be okay again.
I'm gonna go ahead to work on the next few chapters. how about you write me a review telling me what you think :)
