A/N: I cannot believe how long it's been since I've updated. I am extremely sorry for the wait, but the good news is....one of my friends had her baby last Thursday and I went and held him at the hospital and he's so cute. Anyways, my whole weekend was jammed packed and work has not let me seen much of my CPU. LOL. However, things are settling down, (I just found out TWO more friends of mine are pregnant!), and I have more time on my hands. However this song here gave me a run for my money, and I'm still not that happy with the outcome, so bare with me. LOL.

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Song: Lost

Artist(s): Faith Hill


Is it obvious to you
When you walk into a room
Your face is all I see
And my heart races so fast
I never knew a rush to feel like that
Everytime you're touching me

I never did believe in anything
I couldn't hold between my fingers
But the way you make me feel
It's just so real the way it lingers

The crime scene.

That's what she should be focusing on. However, she couldn't seem to take her eyes off of Patrick Jane. He stood in the corner of the room, looking at a mantel of pictures. What was going on in that head of his, she didn't know. All she did know was that he was all she could think about in the past few weeks. He took up her dreams and he consumed her through out the day. When he walked into a room and she saw his face, her heart would start to race, her thoughts went to places she didn't think possible.

She was a realist. Not a dreamer. What he was doing to her was inconceivable to her. She couldn't wrap her fingers around it, and that's what scared her the most. The way he made her feel, just felt so good, even if she couldn't understand it.

The touch of his hand on her arm brought her back to the current time and place.

"Lisbon?" Jane was looking into her eyes with concern. "You OK?"

Lisbon nodded her head with confidence as if nothing was bothering her. "Yeah."

Jane tilted his head to the side and bent his head down a bit so he could catch her gaze that was trailing off to the side. "Are you sure? You seemed to be out of place just now."

"I'm fine." Lisbon shook her head. "Let's tell CSU we are done here. You ready?"

Jane nodded his head slowly. She was completely obvious, and they both knew it. She could try and hide it all she wanted, but when it came down to it, she was bad at lying, and he was too good at finding out the truth. It was a hopeless situation.

I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you're not there
And everything I have
Doesn't mean a thing if it's without you
If it's a dream
Don't wake me up
I'll scream if this isn't love
If bein' lost means never knowin' how it feels without you
I wanna stay lost forever
I wanna stay lost forever.. with you

She was back at the CBI headquarters, safely tucked away in her office. She had told her agents that she didn't want to be bothered, unless there was a break in the case. She needed time and space away from that man. The man who called himself a friend, the man who said he'd always be there for her, the man she wanted so badly.

Being around him for too long made her mind go insane. And even when he wasn't around she was going crazy. She had hopelessly fallen for him. She did everything and anything to try and prevent that from happening, but there was not stopping it. It was fate. At least that's what she had decided.

At times, she felt she was just dreaming that she had finally found a man who was loyal, trustworthy, and would love her back as much as she loved him. And if she was dreaming she didn't want to come back to reality.

No this feelin' doesn't end
It's with me everywhere I am
Hope it never goes away
It's like defying gravity
I'm losing all control in bein' free
And I always wanna stay

I never thought that I'd let go long enough
To fall for someone deeply
Who had the power to erase my fears
And find me so completely

She snuck out of the office early in the evening and successfully dodged Jane. There was no movement on the case and she was going home, in hopes to get some much needed rest. It didn't matter where she went he followed her everywhere. He didn't need to be physically there, he was always finding his way into her head. Especially, when she was at home, all alone.

She didn't fight it though, she knew she didn't really want to stop thinking about him. If time allowed, she would spend every moment thinking about him. Just thinking about him made her feel like she was floating away, and being such a grounded person, it was a feeling she loved. A feeling she was getting used to.

She once feared of losing control of anything in her life. She once feared to love someone too much. But those fears along with any others, disappeared when she fell in love with him. She was filled completely with love, that there was no room for anything else.

I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you're not there
And everything I have
Doesn't mean a thing if it's without you
If it's a dream
Don't wake me up
I'll scream if this isn't love
If bein' lost means never knowin' how it feels without you
I wanna stay lost

The music was on as she washed the dishes from her dinner. She had finally found a moment to reflect on the case, when a knock at the door brought a halt to her thoughts. She dried her hands and walked over to the door and opened it. For the first time that day, a smile spread across her face as she laid eyes on Jane.

Standing there with his hands in his pocket, he had his innocent look on, bringing her to the fact that he did something wrong. He looked so sweet with his childlike grin and she knew whatever he did wrong, she probably wouldn't even get mad.

"I lost my key." Jane said shyly.

Lisbon rolled her eyes and turned around and walked back into the kitchen as Jane shut the door to the house. She placed the towel she had been holding on the counter and turned around to meet Jane who had made his way into the kitchen.

"You lost your key?" Lisbon said with a quizzical face.

"Yeah." Jane nodded his head as he took a couple steps closer to Lisbon, making her uneasy. "You're not mad, are you? I'll pay for the new one, promise." He held up his hand with his fingers in the pose of the scouts honor.

Lisbon gave him a questionable look, before putting her hand to his chest to stop him from coming any closer to her body. She wanted him closer, they both wanted to be closer.

"Come on, Lisbon." Jane bent his knees so his face was level with hers. "We're not in the office. We're home. You can put down your barrier."

"I don't have a barrier. You lost your key. There are consequences for that." Lisbon turned around to the sink and turned the water on and began doing the dishes, with a smile on her face. Jane stood at the counter looking around quietly, waiting for Lisbon to say something else.

Lisbon continued to do the dishes, silently enjoying the pain she was causing him. Suddenly, she felt his arms around her waist and his face nuzzled into her neck, causing her to drop the plate that she was holding.

"Jane!" Lisbon yelled out at the sudden touch of him.

"Would you please stop calling me by my last name outside of work?" He moved a piece of her hair that was in his way and pushed it back so he could kiss her neck softly. The feel of his lips against her skin was making her lose control of her posture. Her legs started to go limp as she tilted her head to the left so that he could have full access to her neck.

"Please, stop." Lisbon whimpered softly.

"Only if you really want me too." Jane replied as he brought one of his hands up to her shoulder and pushed the strap to her cami down while placing small kisses from her shoulder all the way up to her neckline. He stopped at her jaw and turned her face to his.

"I don't." Lisbon murmured.

Jane brought his lips to hers and his hand found the side of her face and he stroked her cheek as they let go of everything but each other. Lisbon brought her hand up to his hair and ran her fingers through his curls. She had been thinking about this all day, and she was finally able to breath without holding anything back. She wasn't dreaming, this was real.

Don't tell me where we're goin'
I don't wanna know
I like the mystery
I can't believe we've come this far
So far away from where we started off
You found me when I wasn't lookin'
You found me

Before she knew it she found herself being swept up into Jane's arms and being carried. Where he was taking her she didn't know. She didn't care to know. As long as he was going with her, it really didn't matter the destination. She kept her lips on his, her eyes closed reveling in these precious moments that they shared. She had come so far in her life to where she is now, and looking back it felt surreal to her. He found her when she had least expected it. She had been lost inside a frenzy of emotions and he pulled her out.

And now I'm lost inside your stare
Lost when you're not there
And everything I have
Doesn't mean a thing if it's without you
Without you..
If it's a dream
Don't wake me up
I'll scream if this isn't love
If bein' lost means never knowin' how it feels without you
If bein' lost means that I'm never gonna be without you
I wanna stay lost forever
With you

He stroked her hair as they lay in bed after they made love. The warmth of his body against her skin, was a reminder that this wasn't a dream, and when she woke up in the morning he would still be there. She was never going to know the feeling of living without him ever again.

"Where were you today?" Jane asked breaking the silence.

"What do you mean?" Lisbon looked up at him.

"You were hiding in your office. You barely looked at me all day. And you snuck out of the office without saying goodbye."

"I-I-", she tried to form words but she had no way of getting around it.

Jane smiled at let out a little laugh. "I'm distracting you, aren't I?"

"Don't get cocky." Lisbon let a smile brush across her face. "It's just the woes of being a newlywed. It'll pass."

"Really?" Jane said with surprise.

"OK, maybe not, but eventually I'll have more control over my emotions."

She leaned up and planted a soft kiss on his lips and he responded by pulling her up, closer, to him. She let her hand find the side of his face, and she broke the kiss and placed her fingers over his lips. She traced his lips before bringing her hand down to his chest.

"I'm lost in you, and I wouldn't have it any other way."


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- Kai