Unwritten
Chapter 29
(Listen to I'll be good by
Jaymes Young.)
I'll be a better man today
The lamp in the bedroom lit up the entire room. Brooke had stopped steching awhile ago. Her mind hadn't been focused on creating designs. Being alone with Lucas now. In any compacity even if they weren't speaking made her feel vunerable.
She had her the door to his bedroom shut. Which meant he had went to sleep. Brooke gazed over at her door. She scanned the bottom of it. Surprised to find an envelope.
Brooke got off her bed and walked over picking up the envelope. She walked back over to her bed. Reading her name on the front of it. Seeing it was addressed to her from Lucas.
She opened the envelope unfolded the paper and began to read.
Dear Brooke,
It took me longer than i'm willing to admit. For me to truly begin to understand how and why our relationship had fallen apart. I had foolishly thrown in your face that day in the back rooom of Haley and Nathan's wedding reception. The night you spent with Chris Keller while we were together. Then in the next breath i said you were trying to find reasons for us not to work. I accused you of pushing me away. You shot back at me through. With raw pain and honesty. I couldn't see it. In that moment that you were devestated. Then fast forward to us dancing together. You asked questions i answered. You confessed that there was so much going on with you. And that admission had taken me off guard. But clearly it only clarified how far apart we had become. Because i didn't know what you dealing with. As much as we loved each other.
Nothing would undo the damage that had been caused by my indecision. And unwilingness to fight for you. Which is why we are in this uncertain unsteady place. So let me re ask and answer theat question.
(Why you.?) I choose you Brooke. Because you keep me grounded. You make any aspect of life full of sun and color just by being apart of it. Your heart is is big and forgiving to me and others. Your smile, warmth, compassion, strength. Your beautiful. You are the other half of who i am. You inspire and motivate me to be the kind of man deserving of your love, respect, and loyalty. Being a partner with you on this journey of parenthood has been the most humbling unforgettable experience of my life. Every day is a new adeventure. Watching you support, guide, and uncoditionally love our children is a gift to me.
You were and are everything i could ever want or need in a woman. I want to spend the remainder of our life together.
Love Lucas
PS: This is just the start of my letters. You asked me once why couldn't i let you all the way in. I'm letting you in. Now it's your turn.
Brooke wiped her eyes and clutched the letter close to her.
She put it back inside the envelope. Got off her bed and placed the envelope on her desk. Brooke got out a spare sheet of paper. And a pen. Took a breath and started to write.
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