Chapter 29

She was hesitating about it. So I'm right, Elizabeth is actually my daughter.
Jude: I know you won't believe a word Tommy, but I….I don't know.
Tommy: what? …You don't know who Elizabeth's dad is??!!
Jude sighed and then looked at me. She was being honest; there was no doubt about t.
Jude: at first I thought it was your kid, but then I got the doubt. She's just like you, but Michael was just like you too and…I don't know.
Tommy: but the dates…
Jude: Tommy, I had sex with you just minutes before I married Michael! Trust me, if I knew I would tell you. But I don't know. These years have been like hell for me, looking at Elizabeth, finding your eyes and then looking again and finding Michael's. It's hard for me Tommy; do you think that I'm right with this? I don't know who my kid's father is!!
She was about to cry again so I tried to calm myself before say something, after all, I was shocked too. I might have a daughter, with the woman I always loved.
Tommy: what if we do a DNA test? Then we'll know if I'm…
Jude: why don't we leave things just like that?
Tommy: what's wrong with you Jude! Why do you want to keep things as they're?
Jude: because…Michael is not here anymore! I want to keep things just as they were when he was here. Don't you see Tommy? Our love is destroying people!
I was about to protest when we heard a familiar voice.
…: I totally agree.
We looked at Sadie, who was standing at the door, looking at us, her eyes red and swollen.
Jude: Sadie, what are you doing here?
Sadie: I came for some stuff. Michael's stuff, I want some things to remember him.
But Sadie wasn't here for that. I knew her; after all I shared 19 years of my life with her. She looked at me and then at Jude in a suspicious way.
Jude: sure, you can take whatever you want.
But Sadie didn't move.
Sadie: Karma told me you're going to stay here...aren't you happy that Michael is dead, are you?

Jude: what?!, how can you say that!?

Sadie: well, just think about it...now you can be together...
Tommy: stop it Sadie!
Sadie what?! I'm just telling you the truth. What about Karma? She's still your wife. Are you going to kill her too?
Jude: Sadie, I know that you're mad but…
Sadie: mad? Why should I be mad? I'm happy you didn't kill me. Because that's what you do with the people that get between you two
Tommy: Sadie!
Jude: leave her Tommy. She's right, I killed Michael! But I was scared and Elizabeth…
Sadie: Elizabeth…she's the only good thing you could give to Michael…
I turned pale in no time and Jude looked down. Sadie's face expression changed in a split second. She was shocked, looking at me and then at Tommy, waiting for an explanation.
Sadie: oh God…she's not Michael's!!! I always suspected it, but this is…
Jude: Elizabeth is my daughter and that's all that matters. Stop blaming me! I know that I killed him!
Tommy: Jude, you need to calm down, you're not fine...
Sadie: and that's why you are going to stay here, with your daughter and your son's widow. Great, just great!
She shouted and then ran out of the room, looking us for a last time
Jude: now everybody will know that Elizabeth might not be Michael's
She said in a whisper and then started to cry silently. She sat down and looked at me.
Tommy: who do you want to be her father?
I asked suddenly. She wiped her tears off her face and thought for a moment.
Jude: I told you things are going to stay like they are. Michael is her father and he'll always be.
I sighed. At first I was going to protest, but then I saw her, so sad and confused. I just couldn't do this to her. For now.
Tommy: ok, everything is going to be like you want it, but I'm going to stay here.
Jude: please Tommy, I told you I don't want to be with you again so, just leave.
Tommy: I won't go anywhere Jude. If you don't want to be with me, then we'll be friends, I don't care. I can stand that, for you and my dau…grand…Elizabeth.
She just nodded as I kissed her forehead. Then she stood up and walked towards the door.
Jude: most of the time I wish Elizabeth was yours...she's amazing, just like you.
I smiled weakly and then looked as she walked out of the room.
Friends? How can I be just friend with the woman that drives me crazy? She never said what kind of friends we will be. Maybe we can be friends with benefits…