Heartbreak

I woke up and looked at the clock. It was 4:00am. I kept replaying the events of last night in my head. Snape kissed me. I kissed him back. What was he playing at? Why did I kiss him back? I don't think I'm going to be able to go to Potions ever again. Fuck! I was suppose to meet Draco last night.

I flew out of bed, grabbed my invisibility cloak and ran out the door. I was rushing through the halls, not caring how much noise I was making. I felt the quicker I got there, the less mad he would be. When I passed by the Potions classroom, I noticed the light was on, and walked as quiet as possible. The last thing I needed right now was to see him.

I said the password and rushed up the stairs. I slipped inside the dorm room where all the boys were sound asleep. I took off my cloak and laid down on Draco's bed and wrapped my arms around his waist. He didn't wake, which I was grateful for. I wasn't looking forward to explaining why I didn't show when I was suppose to.

I couldn't go to sleep however. I kept trying to think of something to say when he woke up. I don't think anything I could say would make him any less mad at me. But I think the truth might make him kill me. After about two hours, I felt Draco stir. He leaned back against my chest and I let my lips fall on his neck.

"Mmm.." he moaned and I allowed my hand slip into his boxers. "Harry?"

"Who else do you let do this to you?" He sat up in an instant and stared at me. I could of sworn his eyes went right through me.

"Harry you have some nerve to come up here and just expect me to forgive you." He left the bed and went into the bathroom, I followed behind. "I don't even think I want to hear your excuse. Nothing you could say would make me feel better. You really screwed up this time. First you ruin our date by inviting the werewolf to hang out with us," I almost made a comment about him referring to Lupin as the werewolf, but thought I should just keep my mouth shut. "Then you leave me to go have a lesson with Snape, then promised to come back right away and make it up to me. I stayed up till 2:00am waiting for you, and you never showed. What could you possibly be doing that so god damn important that you would ruin our one day together for it?"

"I'm sorry."

"You're always sorry Harry. I told you when we first got together I wasn't going to be your second choice, and I meant it."

"You are my first choice. You're my everything"

"Right. You're everything, am I? Well it's funny how you can choose to spend time with two other men instead of your everything on the one day we planned on spending alone together."

"It's not like that. Remus is like an uncle to me, and S-Snape is," I wanted to kill myself for stuttering. "giving me lessons."

"Lessons you just had to do yesterday? You couldn't of done them today when there was no classes or plans to go out with your boyfriend. No, of course not."

"Draco, just listen to me please."

"I'm done listening to you. You were avoiding being alone with me, so let me make it easy for you. You won't have to spend any time alone with me anymore. You won't have to spend any time with me at all. It's over Harry."

I can't believe Draco was honestly breaking up with me. I didn't know what to do, I just knew I could not let this happen. I did the first thing that came to mind. I ran to him and held on.

"No, don't do this, I'm sorry. I need you." I was crying and let my tears soak his shirt, "Draco I love you so much."

"I love you too Harry, but I can't do this anymore, I'm sorry." Then he pulled away from me. He wasn't crying, he didn't even look angry anymore. He didn't seem to care. I couldn't stand there and watch him not care about leaving me so I walked out of the bathroom. All of his roommates were awake and looking right at me. Tears were still streaming down my face, no one said a word to me. I grabbed my cloak and ran out of there as quick as possible.

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Draco followed Harry out of the bathroom. Once Harry was out of the room, his roommates turned towards him.

"What was that about?" Zabini asked, the other guys also waiting to hear the answer.

"We broke up." He said with conviction. Zabini looked shocked.

"That's why he was crying?" Crabbe asked while laughing. Draco turned to glare at him.

"So he's available now?" Zabini said smirking.

"DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT!" Draco yelled and the other boys fell deafly silent. After a few minutes, Zabini spoke up again.

"Sorry, I was under the impression that you broke up with him."

"I did."

"Well, no offense or anything, but when you break up with someone, you can't exactly expect him to be off limits." He smiled broadly, "Besides, a boy like Potter isn't going to stay single very long, so I have to work fast."

Draco stood up and put his wand right in Zabini's face. "Unless you want to die before you reach 17, you should stay away from Harry."

For the first time in a while, the Slytherin boys were truly scared of Draco Malfoy.

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I rushed to Gryffindor tower under my clock, stormed through the common room knocking down a few first years, and unfortunately catching the attention of my friends. Ron and Hermione ran upstairs to the sixth year dormitory to find half of my bed gone as I used my invisibility cloak as a blanket. Hermione walked over to me and pulled off the cloak revealing my tear stained face.

"Oh Harry! What is it?" I tried to explain through my sobs, but they both held confused looks, letting me know they couldn't understand a word I was saying. I took a few deep breaths until I was able to spit out, "Draco broke up with me."

I could see that neither of them seemed too upset about this news, even if they tried to pretend to care.

"I thought you guys were happy, what happened?"

"I messed up. I always mess up. I let Remus interrupt our date and then I went to a lesson instead of spending the night, and I forgot to come back and make it up to him because Snape kissed me and I was so confused I just came back here instead of meeting him and when I woke up I went to see him and he told me he didn't want to deal with me anymore." I started crying again.

"Hold on, did you just say Professor Snape kissed you?" Hermione asked with a horrified look on her face. I slowly nodded my head.

"Harry you should report him." I looked over at Ron who was now sitting on his bed looking disgusted.

"No."

"Harry, I know you must be embarrassed but this is serious. He can't use his position of power to take advantage of you."

"It wasn't like that, I mean it's not like I didn't want it."

"You wanted to kiss the greasy git?" Ron asked mouth agape.

"NO! I mean, I don't know. I wasn't planning on it but it wasn't bad, it was nice, but I stopped it." Ron looked sick, Hermione looked like she felt sorry for me.

"So that's why Draco left you? Because you kissed Snape?" Hermione asked as she placed her hand on my knee.

"No, he doesn't even know about it. You guys can't tell anyone, if he finds out.."

"We won't tell anyone Harry, you can trust us." Ron nodded in the background, obviously still shocked with what I was saying. "But, you don't want to date Professor Snape, do you?"

"No Hermione, I don't! I want Draco." I fell back on the bed, "I can't live without him."

"Really?" She asked in an almost mocking tone. "Sorry, it's just you know, Malfoy."

"I love him Hermione, do you think I would put up with all the crap everyone gives me if I didn't love him?"

"No, I guess not." She looked at Ron who still sat silent and dumbfounded. "Is there anything we can do?"

"No, I just need to be alone." They protested, but eventually left after saying their goodbyes and reassuring me they were there for me.

I spent the rest of the day in bed. I was starving but refused to go to the Great Hall, because seeing Draco would be too painful. Luckily for me Ginny burst through the door around six, with a plate full of food.

"Harry, I'm so sorry, I just heard." She said while shoving the plate of food on my lap.

"Ron and Hermione told you?"

"No, the whole school is talking about it. No one knows how it happened, but a million different rumors are spreading."

"Great, that's all I need." She shrugged while sitting next to me on the bed, making it very uncomfortable, but I didn't ask her to move.

"So what's the plan?"

"What do you mean?" She put her arm around my shoulder.

"You want him back right?" I couldn't help but smile, "Well were going to need a plan."

Ginny stayed with me for a while thinking up crazy scenarios to win Draco back. I don't think I would honestly use any of them, but it did keep me from crying anymore.

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The next morning, Ron woke me to ask if I wanted to come to breakfast which I easily declined. Then he reminded me that I have double potions this morning. I decided to skive off classes for today. The last thing I need is to spend all that time with Draco and Snape. Hermione came to lecture me on how I can't ignore my responsibilities just because I'm upset. I almost got Ron to join me in skipping, but Hermione forced him to go. So I faced a very lonely day, with only a few sweets to eat.

After dinner time, I decided to pull out my cloak and head to the kitchens to get something to eat. The elves gave me a full dinner and plenty of snacks to take back with me, which I thought was a good idea in case I skip all my meals again tomorrow. I was about to head back, but ended up walking towards the dungeons. I don't know if I expected to see Draco, but I had to just go down there, just to be closer to him. I stood just outside from the common room entrance and waited. After a while, he came, with his friends. He was laughing and joking with them as if he didn't just break my heart yesterday.

I started to run away before they even left, it was just too painful. I knew I was making noise, but I didn't care. Draco didn't seem to care that we aren't together anymore. I was beginning to wonder if he ever loved me at all. I just kept running until I was standing just outside the Potions room. I walked inside, and noticed the office door ajar, light pouring from it. I walked over to it and stood in the doorway, watching Snape grading papers. I don't know why I was doing it, but I just didn't want to be alone at the moment.

"You weren't in class today." Snape said not removing his eyes from his paperwork. I hated how he always knew when I was there. I pulled off my cloak and sat at the seat in the corner of the room.

"How do you always know when I'm there?"

"Stealth is not one of your strong points." I couldn't help but mirror the smirk he held on his face. "So what brings you here tonight?"

"I don't know, I just thought.." I really had no idea what I thought. I paused for a moment, "Draco broke up with me."

"Hmm.." He finished off the one essay before looking up at me. "I did hear. I do hope that is not the reason you didn't attend my class today."

"No," I lied. I'm sure he didn't believe me, but he didn't say anything, so I was thankful. "I wasn't feeling well this morning."

"Of course." He began fumbling around the office, grabbing a few books before heading towards his private quarters. "Follow me." I did. I suddenly felt very nervous when I saw the couch where we shared a very intense kiss two nights ago. Did he invite me here to do it again? Is that why I came here? "Sit." I sat down on the chair, thinking it was best to avoid any furniture where Snape could sit next to me. Then he handed me a large book. I looked at the cover and there was no title, just a lifted image of a snake.

"What is this?" I said as opening to the first page. It wasn't in English, and I had no idea what he expected me to do with a book I couldn't even read.

"You can't read it?" He asked disbelievingly.

"Should I be able to?" He shook his head and sighed.

"Read it aloud." I looked up at him, "Sound it out." Then I heard him mumble something about grade school before rolling his eyes. I looked down at the first sentence and read it aloud.

At first it didn't make any sense and Snape just sat there watching me, but then I understood it, I wasn't sure how. I looked up at Snape who gestured for me to continue. I did, and eventually I figured out how I knew what was said. It was in parseltongue.

"I didn't even know parseltongue had a written language."

"Most people don't, because if they see it, they have no idea what it says, or how to read it. I've studied that book for years and never understood a word of it."

"What do you mean they can't read it? Can't you just sound it out like I did?"

"I don't think we see it the same way. In fact, I wasn't even sure if it would work, but I thought I would give it a try."

"So you never gave this to Voldemort?"

"Do you think I'm an idiot Potter? That book was written by Salazar Slytherin himself. It was passed down his family throughout the generations, but somehow got lost in transition. We have no idea what is written in there, and can't risk it getting into the hands of the Dark Lord."

"How did you get it then?" I said paging through the book, looking at the few illustrations. Obviously the book was mostly full of spells, but it would take me a long time to read through this considering I had to read it aloud to understand it.

"I received it as a gift from Dumbledore a few years ago. I tried many different references on how to translate it, but considering most sources consider a written parseltongue language a myth, I didn't have any success."

"Why didn't you show this to me sooner?"

"Potter.." I looked up at him, "Harry.." I couldn't help but chuckle a little. "Potter. That book is most likely filled with dark magic. I couldn't exactly hand it over to a child."

"So you don't consider me a child any longer?" He pinched the bridge of his nose.

"Recent events have made me see you in a different light." He was obviously uncomfortable spitting that little bit of information out, which I found extremely amusing.

"What events would that be?" I said in a very calm manner, which was extremely difficult.

"Watch yourself Potter."

"Harry. I like Harry better." I smiled up at him and he sat down on the couch looking exasperated. "Professor?" He looked up at me, eyebrows raised. "Do you mind if I call you Severus? Only in private of course."

"If you must." I continued to finger through the book and Snape sat drinking his tea and watching the fire. After some time he spoke up again. "Well I must get ready for bed. I'm afraid you won't be able to take the book with you, but you're welcome back to read some more. Just leave it on the chair before you go."

"Do I have to?"

"Of course you have to! If anyone were to see you in possession of that book," I closed the book and stood up, placing the book on the chair.

"No. Do I have to go? I was hoping maybe I could spend the night here." He seemed surprised and didn't answer. "It's just, I don't want to go back to my dorm. I'll stay on the couch of course."

"That won't be necessary." He opened his bedroom door, and I just stood there staring at him. "Are you coming or not Mr. Potter?" I shook my head at him and walked to him.

"Harry." I said as I brushed against him to enter his bedroom. "Call me Harry, Severus."

I turned back to see him doing what could only be described as smiling. "You better not snore Harry," were the last words he said to me that night, for it wasn't long until we both drifted off to sleep, laying next to one another.

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