This Chapter, I can't even. Continuing from the Last one, just..gah.


NPOV

She stood on her tiptoes brushing her lips nervously against mine, As soon as I felt her kiss me fully I kissed back. Her hands went to my hair and I found myself pulling her in closer. Even though the last couple of months I hadn't even been in touching distance of her but that didn't stop me from thinking about her, I occasionally found myself touching myself awkwardly under the bed covers at night over the thought of her. Our kisses were becoming more frantic now; we weren't even stopping to catch out breath. Her hands were in my hair gently tugging at it causing a moan to escape from my throat. One of my own hands was lingering at the small of her back not having enough courage to move it any lower.

I had somehow managed to end up pressing her against the hallway wall now; my lips made my way down her throat causing a small moan to escape her every time I would came in contact with a sensitive area of flesh.

"You know it's my birthday right?" She asked breathlessly.

I spoke into her skin. "I know."

"I think I know what I want. And I have to give your present for last week."

I was a little confused now. I moved myself so my arms were placed either side of her. "What?" she licked her lip and pulled a face at me then it suddenly clicked in my own brain. "What you mean…that?"

She had a worried look on her face. "Yeah…unless you don't want to Neville. I know you wanted it to perfect. But to be honest wherever I am with you. It will be."

Suddenly I felt myself become terrified. Yes I wanted that, she had no idea how much but going through with it was a whole other story. What if I was rubbish? What if I just couldn't do it?

"Neville?"

"Yeah….yeah…I….I do."

"Right now?"

I swiftly nodded and she smiled. "You don't have to be scared Neville."

"I can't help it." I gulped.

She smiled and started to kiss the side of my neck as I stood there completely stunned. I couldn't believe this was about to happen.

"I'll meet you in your room in a second. Ok?"

I nodded and she smiled wandering off to her room giving me a final glance and I shot into my own.

I stood there contemplating what to do. Do I undress? Do I wait? Oh Merlin I think I might pass out. I pulled my top off throwing it on the floor. I then yanked off my trousers almost falling over in the process but managed to remain in one piece. I sat on the edge of my bed trembling and waited. I couldn't Believe I was about to do this. I, Neville Longbottom, was going to….have sex. If they guys at school knew this was about to happen they would probably die of shock, or laugh themselves into a coma.

The door opened suddenly and she appeared just wearing a t-shirt that came down about mid thigh that I couldn't stop starring at. "Someone's eager."
"huh?"

"Your clothes."

"Oh right. Yeah. Well…I dunno...i just…didn't want to be." I waved my arms around trying to demonstrate taking off clothes and she giggled. "It's ok Neville. I know what you mean." she walked over stopping right in front of me but reached down grabbing one of my hands giving it a reassuring squeeze. "You know we don't have to do this Neville. I love you." She laughed a little "would you believe me if I said right now I was extremely nervous?"

"Not in the slightest." I answered.

"Well, I am. I'm terrified right now, but it's ok. Its good terrified you know?

Good terrified. I knew exactly what she meant.

"I want to do this. I want to do this with you." I whispered causing her to smile. She took a step back and started to play with the hem of her shirt. I could see her hands trembling so I stood up replacing her hands with my own but doing anything. I was too terrified too.

I felt myself start to tremble as her hand went to the waistband of my boxers, I looked down at myself, I couldn't help but think that she might laugh when she saw me, or even quite possibly run away? No she wouldn't do that. Laughing though I could definitely see happening.

"Do you want help Neville?"

I was shaking so much I didn't even think I would be able to move let alone take off my boxers so I quickly nodded. She gave me a quick kiss before tugging them down freeing myself for her to see.

I automatically went to cover myself with my hands but she stopped me grabbing my hands with hers and entwining our fingers as she started to kiss me again. Her body was pressed against mine hard and as every kiss became more heated I could feel myself getting harder against her. My Hands reached for her shirt and I swallowed hard as she slowly lifted her hands above her head. I had never been so nervous in my entire life. I pulled the t-shirt up and over her head realising she wasn't wearing anything underneath.

I thought my heart was going to explode.

She was now starring at me her bottom lip trembling. I was trying to focus entirely on her face but my eyes kept slipping down to her body and I mentally punched myself.

"Neville. I'm kind of cold."

I wasn't. I actually felt like my skin was on fire right now.

I leaned down and continued to kiss her needing something to focus on or I thought I might pass out. I could feel every curve of her pressed up against me as her hands went to the back of my neck my own slipping around her waist.

"Bed?" I asked.

She nodded in agreement. "Bed."

She pulled me over to the bed and we both climbed in under the covers. I let my hands gently touch and caress different parts of her body; I was trying to take everything in. I didn't want to forget a single thing about right now. I was sure I wouldn't.

Every time we kissed or my hands touched apart of her body I felt myself becoming more and more confident. It didn't stop me being terrified for what was about to happen. I moved myself over her between my legs; it was pretty much now or at some later time when it would still be horribly awkward.

As she pulled me down for another kiss I felt my hips involuntarily grind against hers causing contact and causing both of us to moan. "Please Neville. I can't take it. Please." She begged me; I couldn't say no at this point .I didn't want to.

I positioned myself at her entrance and looked right at her waiting for approval. She quickly nodded and I pushed myself into her causing her to gasp. I couldn't actually believe how this felt. She was really tight and I thought I might just go then.

The look on her face said otherwise. I knew she was in pain and all the nerves came flooding back. "Do...do you want me to stop?"

She scrunched her face "its ok Neville. I'm ok. Just. Wait a second. Please."

I nodded trying hard not to move the lower part of my body and placed small kisses on her face and neck. "Ok…ok Longbottom." She grinned up at me and I felt completely relaxed as I smiled back down at her. Right then in that moment I didn't feel scared anymore.

I slowly started to move back and forth inside her. I felt her legs wrap around my waist and her hands grip onto my shoulders causing me to move faster. I felt like any second I would explode but I was trying to hold it back. I wanted this to be as good for as it was for me. Eventually I couldn't take it anymore. Hearing her underneath me, feeling her like this, it was too much and I felt myself release, collapsing on top of her.

"I'm sorry. I couldn't" She cut me off. "It's ok." I looked at her face but she was just smiling at me. "You were great Neville."

I still felt bad.

"But you didn't, you know."

She shrugged. "It's ok. I wasn't going to happen. It stung too much. How did it feel for you? "

"You felt...It was….Amazing."


Let me know what you think, I re wrote it about a zillion times because I wasn't sure.