Okay I promised that I wouldn't forget you and I keep to my word, but thanks for hanging in there with me anyway. I decided to start moving the story along now that we have all the basics out of the way. And sadly, yes I am almost done with this story. So without further ado…chapter 29.
In my own head
Well working out didn't really work like it was suppose to considering that I left the gym more stressed out than I was when I came in. And who else was I going to talk to about the fact that not only did Dimitri tell me that he still loved me but that I had stupidly told him that I still loved him too. All of this was muddled up in my head on top of how I was going to get us to victor's trial and how I was supposed to balance being with Christian and guarding him. Breathe Rose just breathe everything will work itself out, I repeated to myself even though I was not a firm believer in that bullshit. If you wanted, something done you had to go after it and do it yourself.
I was so caught up in my head that I hadn't realized I was about an inch from running into someone. I stopped abruptly only to find that the sudden stop would cause me to fall backwards before I even hit him, how ironic that I would happen to be the clumsiest guardian in the history of the world.
"Sorry, I wasn't watching where I was…" before I was able to finish that sentence, purely out of courtesy because hell I was the one who fell, I noticed the person never moved an inch. I had almost collided with him and he didn't even try to get out of the way. What was scarier was that I recognized him. This person looked eerily familiar but for some reason I wasn't able to put my finger on who he was but I did know that I was not staring at a completely opaque person, you would think that would be the first thing that I noticed but nope, I'm such a slut that I look at his face first. Then it hit me, the reason that he looked familiar was because he was. I was staring into the eyes of mason. Part of me just wished that my mind didn't recognize him, damn me and my intuitiveness. Just as I was about to asked the stupidly uncreative question that most dense people would ask in this situation, you know the whole how are you here your suppose to be dead bit., he was gone.
I should have been flipping out but I didn't see the need in doing so. I mean there were two explanations as to why I was seeing mason, an extremely dead boyfriend. The first being that I am extremely stressed out over everything going on right now and the second being that I was just that damn crazy. Neither of which would surprise me considering that I can get into my best friend's head. (When I wanted to).
After standing there looking like an idiot for what seemed like five minutes I decided that it was reason number one. It was no coincidence that I would start to go all sixth sense after everything I have been through, I'm just surprised that it hadn't happened sooner.
"Rose?" I heard someone call to me.
"Uh…yeah?" I said half listening to my to the footsteps approach.
"Are you okay I mean your aura is completely black and solid." He said standing directly behind me.
"Uh…yeah I'm fine, why does it matter to you anyway?" I said trying and failing to regain my previous snarkiness. Great I can't be completely sarcastic with things like my mental health but can't manage it with someone who bugs the hell out of me.
"Yeah, I believe that about as much as I believe you and fireboy are a happy couple."
"don't bring Christian- I mean I don't need your opinion of anything in my life, so if you want something please just let me know what it is so that I can be on my way."
"You know what I want Rose. But it's a matter of will you give it to me?"
"Oh well that is a really easy question to answer." I said rolling my eyes.
"No it's not, trust me there will be a time and place where you need someone to listen to you and hold you and make you feel special and when fireboy and cradle robber are to occupied to do so I'll be here and I'll be waiting."
"Goody" I said sarcastically as I began to walk again hoping that he would get the point and leave me alone.
"That and I know you need my help."
Nope he certainly can't take a hint. However, if he wanted my attention he had just gotten the most of it because he was right I did need his help but how had he even…
"You…you…you stalked my dreams again didn't you?"
"I have a better question, can you name one time that you know I didn't?" he asked lighting up a clove smelling cancer stick.
This struck me because I had honestly thought that I had been in my head alone while I was dreaming. Squinting my eyes, I tried to think of a dream where I saw him, and quite naturally, I couldn't think of one thing. Nevertheless, it still didn't keep me from being angry over it.
"You sorry asshole you don't have a life of your own so you spy on my dreams even after we break up?"
"oh I have plenty of life, just ask the rest of the royals, I mean I am a real party animal but you call to me so loudly that…well I still have a soft spot for you, even though you 'dumped' me on my ass."
"Wow, between telling me my relationship will fail and blatantly stating that you have been with other girls you are so winning my love Adrian."
"Yeah well it's a gift, but do you want my help or not?"
"What will it cost me?"
"A hug."
"Just a hug?"
"Come on I am not that big of an asshole am I?"
"I already answered that question but, you promise that you only want a hug?"
"yes little dhampir, as much as I would love to call you my rose again, but if I only get as far as calling you my friend again I'd be happy."
I knew he wasn't compelling me but I could feel a strong urge to believe him, as much as I hated showing the softer side of me but I was to tired to argue against it. I really did miss the closeness of our group. I missed meeting in the library and swatting Adrian off like a fly and having lissa so extremely happy. Don't get me wrong I don't miss every thing about my pre Dimitri days but I missed enough to want it all back. Things were complicated but a whole lot simpler than this.
"So…?" he prompted.
"I haven't even told Lissa yet so let me think about it okay, but since you are a round about spirit; ask her and Eddie to meet us in the library." I said automatically hoping for the best.
"Alright. But I really am sorry for all of this"
"Don't tell me that, because I know you enough to know your not, and you shouldn't be because I am not sorry for anything that happened I have too much else to be sorry about than friends and boyfriend."
"Now who is the insane one?" he asked smiling.
For a minute, I was confused then I understood that I had just gone on one of those tirades that he was so famous for. "I could quite possibly be on my way there" I responded thinking of why I had said something like that and of my run in with mason earlier. "Or I could already be there." I said more to myself as I left him standing there in the rising sun.
So what did you think? No she and Adrian aren't making up, just yet. She's just tired of fighting with him. Yes, she is still with Christian. And yes, she was in the gym all day. Any other questions just PM me or put it in a review and I will get your answer back to you ASAP. Unless it is like two in the morning in which case, the answer can wait. I have tried to talk and write while half asleep and trust me, no good ever comes out of it, if you can read it. Lol
