WARNING: Contant is graphical lemon (sexual content) I know many of you were waiting for it with the warning in the first chapter. So for all of the perverts...no, I am not a pervert, I will pretend that I didn't write this, you finally get what you were waiting for ;P

For those of you who don't want to read that part just read the first 'Misaki POV' and then the last 'Misaki POV' that is followed by an 'Usagi POV'

SONG: Loved me back to life - Celine Dion


CHAPTER 28

LOVE ME TO LIFE

Misaki's POV

Once his lips touched mine I melted into them. I couldn't think anymore. Everything that was on my mind a moment ago disappeared. I could only concentrate at how his hand felt against my scalp as he lightly tugged on my hair to pull me closer; how his soft lips felt against mine; or even how his tongue felt as it slid against mine, exploring my mouth and running against the top of my mouth, causing shivers to run across my spine.

I leaned closer, if that was even possible, and my hand just kept their hold on him, not letting go for a second, even when he pulled away to breathe, whispering against my lips before pressing those lips of his against mine once more. He eventually pulled away, his hand moving from the back of my head to caress a few strands away from my eyes.

That moment I realized something. All I wanted for the past few days was to forget about everything, and the first time that actually happened was when Usagi-san kissed me on the couch and also when we were kissing just now. The one that could make me forget… even if for a moment was him…

"Usagi-san…" I wanted to forget so bad that I didn't care anymore, didn't even think about it twice as I said "Make me forget…" He looked at me with confused eyes for a second, but then I leaned in and kissed him on his lips and to my relief, he returned it. My hand moved until I was holding the back of his neck and held his lips against mine as I turned onto my back and he was on top of me.

His hands ran against my sides, tracing up and down. One of his hands snuck underneath my shirt and it made me shiver as his cold fingers brushed against my bare skin. He suddenly stopped, his hand still resting against my waist as his lips pulled away from mine so he was able to stare down into my eyes. We were both breathing heavily trying to catch our breath.

"Are you sure about this…?" he asked me and I was a bit taken aback as normally he would jump at the chance, but he seemed reluctant this time. I think that he was worried about me again.

I nodded before saying "I need this… I need you…" It was something that I normally would never say. I felt my cheeks burn and saw Usagi-san's eyes grow wide at my unexpected words. Even I thought that those words would never escape my lips, but I truly did need him right now and I couldn't help it.


Usagi's POV

The look in his eyes was desperate as he spoke. I wouldn't deny him, not when he was the one asking me to do it. Especially with the way he said it. 'Make me forget.' He had been telling me how much he wanted to forget for so long and if he thought that this would help, then I will gladly help him.

I leaned close, my lips hovering so close to his. "Misaki…" I whispered against them before I brought my lips down to his, capturing them once again in another kiss that took his breath away. My tongue explored his mouth, tasting every inch of it. I made sure to pull away though, so that he would be able to breathe. But just as fast I kissed him again. I couldn't part from him anymore.

My hands started roaming his body, while his hands on my back slowly moved upwards to wrap around my neck tightly. I moved the hand that was still underneath his shirt upwards, caressing his lean body until I captured one of his nipples between my fingers, teasing it and casing him to whimper into my mouth.

I nibbled on his lower lip for a while as he arched his back into the hand that was touching his skin. I gave his now wet, swollen lower lip a couple of dragged licks before I kissed my way to his neck. He tilted his head upwards giving me access to the soft flesh of it. I nibbled, kissed, and licked at the skin of his neck, loving how his body responded to every touch, every caress from me.

This was for him, I reminded myself. I will take this as slowly and as tenderly as I could. If this will make him forget… or at least feel better… I will make him feel so good that it would stay in his mind for a long while…

I grabbed his shirt and tore it off before I latched onto his neck once more, sucking on his sensitive skin. I slowly made my way down to his collarbone with feather like kisses before I started licking my way to his left nipple. I nuzzled against it, making him arch his back once more, one of his hands getting lost in my hair as he grabbed onto my head. I licked the nipple before I blew on it, causing him to shiver in my arms. I then grabbed the hardening nipple between my teeth and gently rolled it a few times, flicking my tongue over it every once in a while.

"U-Usagi-san…" His voice was breathless as he called my name. My left hand found its way to the other nipple, teasing it as well. With one final lick, I let go of the one in my mouth then moved to the other one, giving it as much attention as I did the left nipple, which I was now using my fingers to caress.

My left hand trailed down his stomach, my fingers ghosting over the heated skin as they made their way to the waist band of his pajama pants. I glanced up at him, seeing his eyes half lidded and filled with lust. His face flamed up even more as I traced my finger tips along the hem of the loose pants. I could already see the tent that was forming. Instead of dipping my hand into them or taking them off, I decided to cup him through them casing him to gasp. I pulled away from his chest and moved upwards to his lips, plunging my tongue into the open, inviting mouth.

His breath was hot against my face as I breathed him in. My hand kneaded his hard-on, making him gasp and whimper from the friction of the material of his cloths against his sensitive flesh, his lips still attached to mine. I leaned back, kissing the tip of his nose and then staring into his gorgeous, emerald eyes that were glazed over. I absolutely loved the crimson that shaded his cheeks all the way to the tip of his ears.

I grabbed him through the fabric of his pants again. He gasped, tilting his head to the side. I brought my lips to his ear, running my tongue along his earlobe, making him shiver again, before I whispered into his ear "I love you…" My voice was huskier than usual with the lust I felt as I watched him wither underneath me. His beautiful whimpers and heavy pants of air and moans filled my ear, making my pants feel constricted.

I kissed a trail from his ear to his cheek, finally reaching his lips. My hand made its way back to the hem of his pants. This time, I dipped into them, underneath Misaki's boxers, taking him in my hand. A loud moan escaped his lips, sending the blood straight to my groin.

I kissed the corner of his lips and then his chin. I kept kissing my way down his neck, chest, and stomach until I reached his navel. I traced my tongue around it before dipping into it and withdrawing a few times, wiggling my tongue when I dipped in, making him moan loudly as his body trembled. My hand pumped up and down, fingers encircling his erection, tightening and loosening every now and then.

I kissed lower until I reached the edge of his pants and licked a trail against it. I pulled my hand out, causing him to whimper at the loss, before I pulled his pants along with his boxers down and threw them somewhere to the side along with my shirt. My lips kept trailing kisses all over his thighs and lower abdomen. He whimpered as I gave attention to his body, but ignored his throbbing hard on, causing it to twitch with need.

"U-Usa… ahh… Usa-gi…" he moaned, his voice full of need. I didn't hesitate to take him into my right hand while I held his hip down with the other before engulfing him with my mouth. "NNNNGH!" he groaned out loud, throwing his head back. His voice resonated in my ear as I trailed my tongue around his hot, throbbing member. His left hand found its way to my head, his fingers wrapping around my hair, but I didn't mind in one bit. I nibbled gently on the tip then flicked my tongue against the slit before dipping my head down and sucking him harder, causing him to moan.

I could feel that he was getting close to reaching his climax, so I started to bob my head faster. Not long after did he release into my mouth. I swallowed it all, his bitter-sweet taste engulfing my taste-buds. I sat on my knees as I stared down at him. I trailed my fingers along my lips, capturing anything that had escaped them before flicking my tongue against them.

Misaki's eyes were half lidded as he looked up at me, breathing heavily. I couldn't help but think of how sexy he looked with his hair tousled, his face and chest covered in a tint of red, sweat trickling from his forehead. He reached his arms out and wrapped them around my neck as he pulled me down for another kiss. His arms tightened around my neck when I started to nibble on his swollen, rosy lips. I broke the kiss, nuzzling against his face, placing kisses all over it.


Misaki's POV

I felt hot all over. With every touch from him, every kiss he placed against my skin, his plump lips against mine as they moved in sync, his wet tongue in my mouth, the warmth of his mouth surrounding me, the feel of his tongue touching my skin as it slide along it creating wet trails, his hoarse voice echoing around me, his breath tickling my skin as he whispered against it.

My breath came in pants and I couldn't keep my voice back as I choked over the moans that made their way out of my lips and into his. I could feel his body heat radiating against my already heated skin. Our bodies intertwined as he kissed me deeply. He placed sweet kisses all over my face. I felt his throbbing member through his pants as he leaned closer, pressing our bodies together, making me harden once more. He finally took off his pants along with his underwear, tossing them next to the other clothes that were on the floor, before lying between my legs.

My hips bucked and we both hissed in pleasure at the feeling of out lower parts meeting. We started to grind against each other as our tongues continued to dance alongside one another. He leaned away as he reached over into the nightstand drawer, pulling out a bottle of lube. My heart raced with anticipation, making me lick my bottom lip.

He popped the cap open and poured some onto his fingers, coating them before leaning in to capture my lips. His large, cold hands were running against my waist until they reached my hips and then lowered until they were at my thighs. He spread my legs further apart; his wet cold fingers trailing my inner thighs, making me shiver, until he reached my entrance.

I sucked in a sharp breath as he circled his fingers around my entrance before pushing one of them in. I bit my lip to keep my voice down as he pushed in another not long after. It wasn't so painful. It just stung slightly, but that quickly disappeared as he kept thrusting them into me, scissoring them every now and then as he prepared me. After he pushed in a third finger, I couldn't keep the moans in any longer, especially when he brushed against that one spot that made my head swirl with the pleasure that spread through my whole body.

I started melting into his touch, my heart pounding so heavy in my chest that it started to hurt, but I ignored it. I was so close to reaching my peak when he pulled his fingers out, causing me to whine at the loss. He chuckled at that, causing me to blush more. He leaned over, propping himself up on his forearms. His face was so close to mine that I could feel his breath mingle with mine.

His lips brushed mine lightly. My eyes stayed locked with his. It was impossible to look away. My heart swelled with the amount of love I felt for him. I loved him so much that it actually hurt: something that didn't make sense to me before when I heard it, but now I know what they meant by it.

"I love you…" I whispered against his lips. This time there were no maybes; no second guessing those three simple words as I spoke them. I meant each and every single syllable. I saw his eyes flicker with several emotions before one hand intertwined with mine, our fingers laced with each other next to my head. His other hand held onto my hip as I felt his tip at my entrance, making me hold my breath.

He was still staring into my eyes as he pushed into me. I threw my head back and closed my eyes, my mouth open in a silent scream at the feeling of him entering my body, gasping at his size. No matter how many times we did this, I don't think that my body will ever get used to it. He pushed further into me, gently, slowly, taking his time as he filled me to the hilt. He kept going until I felt his thighs against my hips.

I was breathing heavily, wincing at the slight discomfort. My fingers held on tightly to his hand, my nails digging into the back of it, my other hand twisted into the sheets. He stayed still, moving his hand to caress my side, running circles against my thigh, as he tilted his head closer to me. He kissed me deeply, his tongue running against the inside of my mouth, reaching further into it, coaxing my tongue out to suck on it.

I moved slightly, wincing a little. It wasn't so bad though so I bucked against him, whimpering into his mouth. He didn't hesitate as he, just as gently, pulled himself out so only his tip was in me, before pushing back in just as slowly. He kept going in that slow pace for the longest time, placing one kiss after another against my lips, driving me crazy. My legs wrapped around his waist, my hips meeting his thrusts.

"U-Us… Usag-iii… nngh… ahhh… f-faster…" I begged when our lips finally parted, giving me a chance to breathe. My lungs were burning, and my heart wasn't doing any better, as I breathed deeply trying to fill my starved lungs with much needed air.

He smirked at me the same way he always did, making my heart skip a beat. He pulled back out, but this time, plunged into me much faster as he picked up the pace. I moaned and whimpered, his thrusts powerful, but gentle at the same time, as he continued to make love to me. He slowed down when we were almost at our peaks, just to go faster not too long after as he dragged it on.

I lost track of how long it was. Everything around me disappeared until nothing remained but him. His hand wrapped around my shaft, pumping in time with his thrusts, not slowing down this time. I felt my lower stomach start to tighten and my shaft was swollen painfully at this point. His fingers wrapped around it, tracing up and down, causing me to reach my climax, his name escaping my lips as I did.


Usagi's POV

I wanted this to last. I didn't want to forget that look he had on his face or the way his eyes stared up at me with lust. I could feel his heart pounding fast against my chest. I missed that look on his face. I tried to drag it on, but I couldn't hold back anymore with that look on his face. I wrapped my hand around his shaft and not long after his eyes shut tightly and his head lulled backwards as he came all over my hand and our chests.

Just hearing him call my name in ecstasy the way he did made me reach my limit. His muscles tightened around me and with a final thrust I came as well, filling him with my essence. I leaned in giving him a sloppy kiss before I slowly pulled out of him. He whimpered as I did so, but his eyes were already closed, his breathing still labored. I lay next to him pulling him into my arms. His head against my shoulder, my hand running through his hair, and the other one wrapped around his waist.

I regained my breath not long after, but he was still breathing heavily. I kissed his temple before calling him. "Misaki…" He was slightly wheezing now. "Love…?"

"J-just… a sec…" he said between pants, his brows slightly frowned. I cursed myself mentally when I remembered that he shouldn't be doing anything that would strain his heart. I tilted his head upwards to look at his face, but his eyes were still closed.

"Are you okay?" I asked him. He nodded in response, but I wasn't convinced. I slowly lowered his head onto the pillow before reaching over to his side of the bed to grab his pain meds.

"…I'm alright," he breathed, his voice not convincing at all, his eyes opened but were lidded into small slits as he stared up at me. I grabbed the water glass that was placed there as well and brought them with me. I placed an arm underneath his shoulders and moved him so he was leaning against me, his head back against my shoulder, one of my arms wrapped around his back holding him still.

"Just in case," I told him when he frowned at the pills I held against his lips. He finally swallowed them, taking a sip of the water afterwards before I placed the glass on the nightstand behind me. I pulled him closer as I laid us both down into the bed, pulling the covers over us as I did so. I kissed his lips again before cradling his head against my chest. His hands were in fists against his chest as he cuddled closer to me. I nuzzled his hair, kissing the top of his head before finally closing my eyes when I heard his breathing finally steady as he fell asleep.


Misaki's POV

I slowly opened my eyes to see Usagi-san's naked chest in front of me. I blushed at that and slowly moved to get out of his grip, making sure not to wake him in the process. I felt a dull pain in my lower back causing me to groan lightly. My chest ached as well, but I ignored my body's protest to stay in bed as I made my way to my room to pick up a few things I would need for a shower.

I went into the bathroom after that, turning on the warm water and letting it relax my muscles. I sighed as the water from the shower head hit my skin. I started to wash up, at the same time thinking about what I was going to make for breakfast.

What would Usagi-san want…?

I hummed as I thought about it before finally turning off the water and stepping out to dry myself off. I felt slightly refreshed and light for some reason as I dressed in my white hooded sweatshirt and blue jeans before I made it out of the bathroom and downstairs into the kitchen.

I opened the fridge to see what we had, but was shocked at the amount of takeout bags that filled it. I frowned slightly, but then went to turn on the coffee maker before I started clearing the fridge of the food that seemed to be there for a long time. As I was throwing everything out, I hated myself for how much food was wasted.

I then grabbed a frying pan from one of the cupboards, placing it on the stove, and left the oil to heat. I went back to the fridge to grab a few eggs to make an omelet, as eggs were almost the only edible things in there.

I reached in to take out an egg, but before I did anything else my mind suddenly filled with everything that had happened the past few days. I lost my grip on the egg, causing it to fall onto the ground, but my mind wasn't so concerned about breakfast anymore.

"I forgot…" My eyes widened in realization. How could I have forgotten…? How could I have completely and utterly forgotten that my brother was dead…?

My hand started to tremble; my whole body trembled as I turned around and ran as fast as I could through the living room and up the stairs straight to the bedroom. I threw the door open, my hand on the latch as I stared at a startled Usagi who had just finished putting on some loose pajama pants.

He stared at me wide eyed for a second before asking in confusion "Misaki? What's wrong?"

He took a cautious step forward before I said "I forgot…" He seemed confused still as he stared back at me, but then he seemed to understand what I meant. "I-I… f-forgot…" I repeated.

"Misaki…?" He stepped closer and cupped my face in his hands, his thumbs running against my cheeks. "Why are you crying? I thought that was what you wanted?" I didn't even realize that my tears had started falling until he asked me that. It was getting harder to breathe as I stared at him.


Usagi's POV

He startled me when he barged into the room, but when I saw the look on his face I got worried. He looked as if he had seen a ghost before he mumbled that he forgot. I didn't understand at first, but then I realized that he was talking about everything that had happened.

I thought that was what he had wanted, but when suddenly tears started to fall over his cheeks I got confused. "Why are you crying? I thought that was what you wanted?" I asked him after I had stepped closer to him.

He stared up at me before he opened his mouth to speak. "I… but… f-forgot… I didn't …. W-why… U-Usagi-san…" Nothing he said was making sense as he tried to speak, but then he started to take short deep breaths as if struggling to breathe.

"Hey, hey, Misaki, it's alright. Calm down." He was on the verge of having a panic attack and struggling to breathe. I pulled him to the bed and sat him down. "Shhh… Misaki, take deep breaths, alright?" I cooed as I held one of his hands in mine, the other one brushing his hair away and caressing his face after I had knelt in front of him. He struggled to calm his breathing down, but then he started to sob. "Misaki…"

"I didn't want this… I just wanted to forget what happened… Usagi-san…. I just wanted to forget what happened." He started to cry harder, his head bowed down as his hand squeezed around mine.

"I know, Misaki… Believe me, I know…" I kept stroking his cheek gently, brushing my knuckles against it, and tucking his hair behind his ear.

He choked on a sob before he said, "I'm so scared… U-Usagi-san." He started to tremble. "So scared…" His voice was smaller, like a child's.

"Misaki… Love, what is it? What are you scared of?" I asked him slowly as I continued to wiped his tears away.

"I forgot… I wanted to forget, but not him… I forgot him…" He sobbed even more as he explained. "I don't want to forget nii-chan… I never wanna forget him…" He looked at me with desperate, tearful eyes.

"Misaki, you will never forget him," I told him, but he started to shake his head.

"W-What if I-I do…" he said hastily. "What if I forgot? Oh god… What if in a year or two I don't even remember what he looked like…? No, no… Oh god, no… I don't want to forget him…" His voice was trembling just like he was. His eyes were wide with fear as he kept babbling, looking frantic.

"Misaki, look at me…" I spoke firmly, but he didn't as he kept his eyes on his lap. I grabbed both his hands in mine and said again "Look at me!" This time he did, and when his eyes met mine I started "Love, you will never forget…" I spoke gently.

"B-but…" I placed a finger on his trembling lips to stop him from going on and shook my head.

"No. No buts. You will never forget. Takahiro will always be in your heart and mind. And if you did start to forget, I will always be here to remind you, okay?" I said slowly to him, my eyes looking into his. I saw new tears gather at his waterline and threaten to spill. "If you think you're starting to forget what he looked like, then we will open up albums and look at his pictures together. I won't let you forget him. Never. I promise you that." I said firmly.

His shoulders slummed before his head fell forward and onto left my shoulder, his tears starting to wet my bare skin. I placed a hand at the nape of his neck, my fingers playing with the short hair there, my other one still on his lap, surrounded by both of his.

"T-thank you, Usagi-san…" he whispered.

"Anytime," I replied as I leaned my head against his. He tilted his head, kissing my neck before nuzzling it. We stayed like that for a while longer, enjoying each other's warmth and comfort.

He suddenly shot up, sitting on the bed. "Shit!" he said, surprising me.

"What is it?" I asked him with frowned brows as he raised his hand to wipe his tears with the back of his hand quickly.

"I think I broke an egg on the kitchen floor," he mumbled, making me chuckle at that, but then he shot up to his feet. "SHIT!" he yelled louder as he turned around and started running out of the room, causing me to be alarmed and head to the door.

"What?" I called after him.

"I forgot that the stove was on!" he yelled over his shoulder as he ran downstairs and into the kitchen, where a pan was spewing black smoke into the apartment. I went after him to make sure that he didn't get hurt. He picked up the pan, dumping it underneath the running water in the sink, cursing all the way.

I stood there for a while before I started laughing at how he was running around, freaking out about everything, grabbing a kitchen towel to clean the mess on the floor and running back and forth to the sink.

"Baka Usagi! It's not funny!" he yelled at me as he was heading back to the sink.

I stepped in front of him, blocking his way, and grabbed him by the shoulders as I brought my face to his, whispering against his lips. "I think it is," I said while smirking. I saw his surprised face start to relax as his brow twitched in what seemed like annoyance. It all disappeared though when I attached my lips to his. He gasped in surprise, giving me the chance to deepen the kiss.

The towel he had in his hand fell to the ground as he melted into my arms not a second later. His arms found their way around my neck, holding me close as I kept on kissing him.

I pulled away just long enough to say "I love you…"

His eyes looked dazed and the corner of his lips turned up into a small smile as he whispered "I love you too…"

My heart skipped a beat and swelled in my chest as I wrapped my arms around his waist, pulling him so close to me, my lips once again attacking his. I didn't think that I would ever see that smile of his again. Even if it was so small that I almost missed it, I was still so happy that I could not describe it.

Oh god… I love him so much…


TBC

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