9:33 Justinian 28th
"Look! We're reaching the gallows!" Merrill cried out. Kirkwall, the city of chains loomed over us. I smiled as another gale swept over my face. It was warm but it felt good. I did a passing look over Fenris. I felt that familiar sensation in my stomach when he noticed me. I quickly looked away and bit the inside of my cheek to stop from blushing.
Shit.
It wasn't like those romance mangas or anything where you suddenly realize your feelings. No I've known for a really long time but I don't remember when it started.
When did it start when I tried looking for Fenris, to catch his gaze, to see his smile, or to make him laugh? I stared at him when I thought he wasn't looking. I liked it when he leaned in the doorway watching me cook. I would watch his face as he read. It was amazing how the books would cause his reactions to change. I tried to stop it. I tried to suppress it. It wasn't working.
Shit. This was bad. This was really, really bad. I shouldn't be feeling this way, not when I have this ring on my finger. I needed someone to talk to about this. Someone that would have the same experience as me.
As soon as we touched down over at the docks, I ran for Hightown, Ser Pounce-a-lot hanging on for dear life. It wasn't like I didn't want to spend more time with Fenris. In fact, I wouldn't mind spending days with him in our mansion-my mansion not ours!
I panted as I put down all my things in my room, near heaving at my sudden sprint. Ser Pounce-a-lot meowed in annoyance. Sorry kitty. It felt nice for a minute but I remembered what I was going to do. I got out and went over to the Viscount Keep. The keep was busy just like how I left it almost a month ago. I went into the barracks and into Aveline's office. I think I surprised her because she jumped in her seat.
"Nia? Welcome back." Aveline nodded.
"Aveline I have a problem and I need you to help me!" I stated, closing the door. She got up from her chair, a serious expression on her face.
"What happened?" She commanded. I felt my face flush. My stomach did flips but this was past the point of feeling ashamed.
"I…I…" I took a deep breath. "I'm in love with Fenris." I confessed. It stung to realize it. Aveline gave me a blank look and then sighed.
"I thought you said this was serious." She rubbed her face and sat down.
"This is serious! I'm married! Don't you get it!? I'm emotionally cheating on my husband right now." I whined. I felt my hands shake. Aveline gave me an understanding look. She got up, led me to the chair opposite of her own, and I sat down.
"I had hoped not to bring this out but…you are right. This is serious." She took out a bottle of rum from underneath her desk.
"Where did you-?"
"You never saw it. Now…tell me all about it." Aveline interrupted, pouring me a cup. I knew Aveline would understand. We were the only ones that were married.
I told her about my growing feelings over the past months. I told her about the excuses and the gestures that I kept on doing to somehow touch Fenris, even slightly. I told her how I snuggled into Fenris without realizing it on the way back.
I told her everything while my hands shook the cup.
The darkness receded but instead the guilt filled up the hole.
I didn't want this to happen. I loved my husband, I loved my kids, and I wanted to go home. This…this was something unexpected that I couldn't control. I wanted to remain faithful but here I am falling in love with another man.
I hated myself.
Aveline listened to me and even sent away reports throughout my explanation. At the end the bottle was a quarter empty and I was on my third cup.
"…I'm a horrible person aren't I?" I did a near head-desk. Instead, I put my face in my hands. Aveline chuckled.
"No you are not. Sometimes we can't help our feelings. I had the same problem when Wesley died and…well let's just say there is someone I can't get out of my head as well. It's different though between you and I. My husband is gone and he won't come back. Yours is still out there. Whether he's waiting for you or not is the question." Aveline explained.
"It's been six years…" I looked at the rum in my cup. "I don't know. I know…he's probably been intimate with others. He's like that. He needs that physical part of a relationship." I mumbled.
"And you're not angry?" Aveline wondered.
"No. It's six years, that's a long time to wait for someone. It's fine if he goes and sees someone else for that." I shrugged.
"…And it's not fine for you?" She scoffed.
"No." I stated.
"Sounds like a shitty double standard if you ask me." She took another sip from her cup.
"I can wait it out. I have. There was only that one time between Zevran, Isabella, and I in six years. Just that one time and I wasn't in the right mental state at the time since I was drunk so I don't count it. He can't wait so he could go ahead if he wanted to but…the heart is something different. The love I have for my husband has never left me. Whenever I look at this ring I think of the promise we made to each other but…I don't know when and I don't know why or how…I started to think of Fenris. I started to watch him and wanted more. Gah! I hate this! What should I do Aveline? I have no idea what I should do!" I moaned and hit my head on the desk. It hurt.
"That's easy." Aveline chuckled. "Nothing."
"…What?" I looked up at her.
"You can't force yourself to stop what you're feeling. That's actually the worst thing you can do. There's no way you'll do something like kiss him right?" Aveline smirked.
"NO!" I shouted.
"Then? Why are you worried? All you have to do is wait it out. You don't have to act on those emotions. Accept them instead and do nothing." Aveline smiled. It hit me like a ton of frigging bricks.
"That's…surprisingly simple." I laughed.
"Love in a matter of speaking is surprisingly simple when you lay it out." Aveline chuckled. I thought about it and I accept what she said.
"Yeah. You're right. It's bad that I have these feelings but it's not like anyone is forcing me to act on them. Ok, I see now! Thank you Aveline. Also, don't do this with the guy you're after. I won't do anything but you can go for it all you want!" I said, giving her a thumbs up. Aveline laughed at me.
"I…I don't know." She bashfully smiled.
"Oh come on Aveline! So who's the lucky guy, huh, huhhh?" Of course I already knew. The door opened.
"Excuse me Guard Captain but I-" I saw Donnic come in as I was poking Aveline's cheek. She grew red and I smirked. "Am I interrupting?"
"No I'm done here. Thank you Aveline for your wonderful advice. When you need me to conquer and slay your next victim, I'll be there." I laughed.
"Oh stay here Donnic, Nia!" Aveline got red but I stopped. "One more thing. You will need to talk to the Ferelden refugees at one point. When you were gone there have been various skirmishes between them and the city Alienage. Nothing too bad, only a few fights but I would rather you look into it yourself. It does have to do with you." Aveline explained. I frowned but nodded. I took one look at Donnic though and smirked. "Nia!" I laughed and I got out of there before Donnic was able to figure out the symbolism behind what I did.
I felt less stressed after talking Aveline but I was worried about what she told me. Refugees and the City Elves fighting because of me? That was weird. I passed and went over to the stairs to get to Lowtown. I passed by the merchants and found Lirene's Imports. I entered and there were still many refugees in there. A few gave me some passing hellos and a few shook my hand. I went passed them and saw Lirene doing a few handouts near the bunkers in the other room.
"Lirene." I said. She looked over to me before handing out her duties to another volunteer.
"Welcome your highness. Is there anything I can do for you? I'm surprised you went off without a word for nearly a month." Lirene stared down at me. She wasn't too happy either.
"I had responsibilities to take care of. There is a reason why I'm here besides to announce that I came back." I crossed my arms. Lirene gave out a sharp exhale.
"You mean the fights that the refugees have been getting right? Many have heard what the elves did to you during the fire. Not many refugees took kindly to that. As much as I tried to explain to them that you would have none of it, they still continued. Some got taken by the Guard but they don't listen to me at all." Lirene scowled. I shook my head. It was stupid. I wasn't asking for revenge or anything. I went back out and did the only whistle I could make to get the refugees attention.
"Can you please all listen to what I'm about to say?" They looked at me expectantly. "Please stop fighting with the city elves."
"But your highness they attacked you!"
"They blamed you for the attacks when you had no fault in it!"
"They should be begging you for your mercy!" There were various more shouts before I whistled again.
"What happened in the Alienage was a tragedy. Maybe they were wrong in hurting, maybe they weren't but violence is never the answer." I bowed low. Many gasped and told me lift my head. "Please, I don't want anymore people getting hurt." When I looked up, a few looked ashamed.
"Those knife-ears got what was coming to them!" A few men glared at me before getting out. I sighed. I knew I couldn't convince everyone but I was going to see if I can get Aveline to keep an eye on the Alienage for me. Once the ones that stayed agreed they wouldn't be getting into more trouble, I decided to go back to Hightown. I was tired and I was glad to come back.
I went down toward my mansion and opened the door. Fenris was in the main hall with his sword, his hair tied back. I needed to get someone to cut that. I watched him before he turned to me and smiled.
"Welcome home."
My stomach flipped again. Curse these feelings but...they didn't feel too bad at least. I smiled softly.
"I'm home."
9:33 Justinian 29th
"Who's a cute, adorable, little kitty? You are! That's right, you are!" Anders cooed. We were sitting in one of the readings room, the light streaming in through the windows, and Ser Pounce-a-lot on top of the table between us. I laughed as Ser Pounce-a-lot rubbed against him. "I can't believe you brought him back! You didn't just go and wander around Vigil's Keep during all of this time did you?"
"No I went to go and try to find my brother. It didn't work out. I did visit Vigil's Keep though. I got back through the docks in Amaranthine." I explained, patting Ser Pounce-a-lot's head.
"Here I thought Ser Pounce-a-lot would never return to me. I can't keep him in Darktown though. Refugees have been known to kill and eat cats." Anders pouted.
"He stays here with me then." I chuckled.
"How are you holding up?" Anders asked. I leaned against the tabe and laid my head in my arms.
"…He left me." I heard Anders stand up and patted my head. "I was hoping…it doesn't matter anymore. I'm alone." Ser Pounce-a-lot got off and headed out the room.
"You aren't alone Nia. You know I'll never abandon you. I will always be there for you." Anders consoled me.
"Heh, you promised that last time and you broke it." I mumbled. Besides he didn't understand why it hurt so much. No one did. Eren was the only one who knew about what I knew. He didn't know everything about the future but he knew enough and now he was gone. Even Fenris who I told that I saw a few things in my nightmares, doesn't know.
I can't rely on anyone anymore. I'm alone.
"I'm sorry." Anders sighed. I got up and rested my head on Anders' chest. I always grew calmer as long as I was around him. I didn't want the same thing to happen again between us.
"Swear…" I whispered.
"What?"
"Swear Anders. Swear to me that you won't ever leave me alone." I stared up at him, grabbing his robes. I wanted to cry but I already shed all the tears I could back on the ship with Fenris. Anders wrapped his arms around me and put his head on top of mine.
"I swear Nia, I won't ever leave you alone." Anders chuckled. We stayed like that for a minute. He rubbed circles on my back. I was able to relax as long as I was with Anders.
"What are you two doing?" Fenris growled from the doorway. I hugged Anders.
"He's comforting me." I stated. Fenris glared at us before going away.
"I don't feel like you are safe here." Anders let me go and scowled at the doorway.
"Anders shut up. I'm staying here. That won't change." I flicked him on the nose.
"What about him?" Anders glared. I rolled my eyes.
"You know you guys really have to stop being to antagonistic around each other. I would hate to separate you two if you guys start fighting." I crossed my arms.
"Pray that it won't come to that. I will try to stop by more often to see Ser Pounce-a-lot and make sure he has his food. Also, don't be afraid to come to my clinic if you need time away from here. My doors will always be open to you Nia." Anders smiled.
"I know. At least I have somewhere to go in case Fenris and I ever get into a fight. Not that we will. So far he's been very nice to me. It's actually kinda weird." I rubbed my face to try to hide my minor blush. I really hated that feeling in my stomach, stop flying you stupid butterflies!
"Fenris, nice? Are you sure you aren't hallucinating? You have been eating any Deep Mushrooms have you?" Anders laughed as he pinched both my cheeks. I swatted his hands away.
"No." I laughed. I sat back down again and leaned back. Anders sat down and looked pensive. "Sometimes I catch him looking at me and he seems...softer. There was always this wall between us even as we got closer as friends. Even though he told me that he trusted me and confided in me, he still hasn't told me a lot about himself. When we came back from meeting my brother, he comforted me and that wall seems to be gone. He's natural around me now I guess." I shrugged, trying my best to explain it.
"He comforted you? That is a little unbelievable." Anders scoffed.
"He did in his Fenris way." I chuckled. Then I remembered how I hugged him and quickly changed the subject. "So how's your clinic so far?"
"A few problems with the heat but nothing too bad although I have heard the hostility between the refugees and elves." Anders said. I groaned.
"Yeah, yeah I know. I tried to dissuade them but a few are still creating a few problems. I might need to track them down myself. The refugees might not like that but I'm not one for extreme measures, unless I get pissed off then I'll topple a city." I chuckled.
"Or an Archdemon." Anders snorted. We laughed at that. Anders eventually tracked down Ser Pounce-a-lot to get his kitty cuddles while I was left with a few of my thoughts in the reading room.
No one knows. I'm stuck with the knowledge of the future of which I'm already changing. Even so, I was hoping that Eren would be able to help me if that time would come but now...The burden has increased. Will I be able to carry it?
I'm not sure. I guess I say I know everything...but in reality I'm still scared.
9:33 Solace 6th
"I swear Isabella if you miss-!"
"I won't kitten, don't you trust me?" She purred with a knife in her hand.
"I-"
"Don't answer that." She giggled. I was at the Hanged Man playing cards with Hawke, Isabela, Sebastian, and Varric. I had a tankard full of beer on my head due to losing at cards for once. We didn't bet money but we bet situations. I had to be careful when Sebastian played cards. He had the same moves I had when shifting the cards. Probably from his old ways of debauchery.
"Are you sure this is wise?" Sebastian asked. Hawke took a long swig of her drink.
"Ah Sebastian just let it happen." Hawke laughed.
"Rivaini if you managed to hit that, you're cleaning my floor." Varric huffed, shuffling the cards.
"Are you expecting her to miss!?" I squeaked.
"Kitten calm down and take a deep breath. This will only take a second." Isabela squinted one eye and was aiming for the tankard. I need to remind myself not to play when Sebastian is in the game.
"Jesus Christ, I'd rather have Sebastian do it. At least he has good eyes." I mumbled. Then Isabela threw her knife and it missed me by a few inches.
"Hm, I don't normally miss." Isabela sauntered her way toward me and I pressed myself against the wall. She grabbed on the dagger that was embedded on the wall next to my head. I turned away but she breathed into my ear. My face grew hot as she stared at me, pulling out the dagger. "Why are you turning red kitten?"
"I swear it's like watching sex with clothes on with them." Hawke giggled.
"Hawke!" Sebastian said, his face in his hands. She laughed at him and I cleared my throat.
"Can you throw the knife and get this over with?" I grumbled. Isabela kissed my cheek. "Hey!"
"Stay still kitten, you don't want me to miss, do you?" Isabela laughed while going back to her spot. I had to remain stock still for the damn tankard not to fall.
"Do you not feel any remorse trying to make her fall into temptation?" Sebastian asked.
"Oh trust me she already fell right into it. She has this thing-" Isabela started.
"Isabela shut up and throw it!" I interrupted. Before my eyes could catch her, Isabela threw her knife. I heard resounding crack and I got covered in beer.
"Ha! Pay up Varric!" Hawke held out her hand. He grumbled, giving Hawke a few silvers while I sputtered from the alcohol dripping down from my hair. I wiped my eyes, making sure it didn't fall in them or else I'll be with red eyes all day. I saw Sebastian get up from his seat and walking toward me.
"Here." Sebastian said, lending me his handkerchief.
"Thanks." I wiped up the beer from my face and dabbed at my hair.
"What was Isabela talking about earlier about you falling into temptation?" Sebastian innocently asked. Or not so innocent, I could never tell with him.
"Oh boy." I rolled my eyes.
"Tell him of your dastardly deeds Nia." Hawke said, throwing a few coins in the air.
"I had sex with Isabela and a friend when I was drunk." I shrugged. Sebastian's face got super red. "I don't count it. I barely remember what happened."
"Oh I remember perfectly clear. See she has these birthmarks on her-"
"Isabela!"
9:33 Solace 8th
"I blame you for this you know?" I pouted.
"It is your fault for wearing sizes bigger than what you are." Fenris rolled his eyes. I had to buy a few more tunics because our practice fights would ruin many. I wore something of an undershirt then a tunic that was a little roomy because I like the baggy feel. Unfortunately this meant that his reach from his greatsword wouldn't touch me but would rip into my tunic. I didn't wear anything too snug. It wasn't like I didn't like it but I preferred comfort.
"Well at least I'll have a few extra clothes here and-" As I turned into an alleyway that would have taken us into Hightown, a small body bumped into me and they fell down. I noticed the brown hair and the familiar pair of pale eyes. She frowned while dusting herself off. I felt that shame creep up into me and I looked away.
"Is something the matter?" Fenris asked.
"Oh just...she was one of my students." I cleared my throat.
"Was." Arinda crossed her arms. Fenris looked uncomfortable. He knew about the attack in the Alienage even if I didn't tell him personally. He also saw how much I cried after everything.
"I haven't seen you at all. I was worried that-"
"That I was dead? No. I'm still very much alive." Arinda interrupted and glared at me. For a small child, her eyes where filled with hatred. I felt the guilt come up again.
"I'm sorry Arinda." I finally said sincerely.
"My aunt and uncle died because of what happened. They are never coming back." Arinda snapped. Fenris put his hand on my shoulder protectively.
"You may be a child but that does not mean you should use such harsh words against her." Fenris glared.
"The only thing I had for parents are fucking dead because of her wanting to help! Look at every time in history when elves and humans help each other! Someone always dies and it is almost always the elves!" Arinda pointed. I sighed. Fenris scowled.
"I am truly sorry Arinda. I never meant for anything of that to happen, I swear." I confessed. Arinda frowned but her eyes became calculating.
"How sorry are you?" She asked.
"If I could do anything to make it up to you then I will." I blurted out. A devious smirk played on her lips.
"Help me find the people that killed them and then I'll forgive you." Arinda stated.
"Are you mad? The Guard Captain already detained them all." Fenris crossed his arms. I shook my head.
"Not all of them. A few managed to get away. I've been trying to keep track of them but they're deep in Darktown right now." I sighed.
"Then find them!" Arinda shouted.
"You cannot force her to find the ones that killed your parents." Fenris snapped.
"If she wants my forgiveness, then she has to work for it!" Arinda stuck her tongue out. I watched with mild amusement as Fenris and Arinda glared at each other.
"All right. I'll find them." I agreed. "Let's go Fenris and we'll see if Lirene and the refugees found anymore-"
"I want to go!" Arinda interrupted me.
"No." Fenris declined.
"That isn't for you to decide spiky!" Arinda snapped. Fenris has a moment to absorb the name.
"Spiky...?" Fenris growled and I had to stop myself from laughing. I cleared my throat but Fenris glared since I still had that grin on my face from Arinda calling him that.
"You can come but you have to make sure not to get in trouble." I chuckled.
"Deal." Arinda nodded.
"You cannot be serious." Fenris grumbled, shaking his head.
"It might not nab me the forgiveness of the entire Alienage but one person is enough for me." I smiled. Fenris scoffed while I led both Arinda and Fenris towards Lirene's Imports. The fighting between the refugees and the city elves were minor ones but they happened nonetheless, even after I begged them not to. It was those extremists that took it seriously that caused the fire in the first place which has only moved on to cause more fights.
We entered Lirene's Imports. There were a few refugees in here. The only thing that the summer months really caused was dehydration and more infected cuts than anything else. Anders was always busy during these times. A few greeted me here and there. Arinda stayed close, scowling at any that looked her way. Fenris didn't care as he accompanied me here a few times already.
"Hello your highness. To what I owe this pleasure?" Lirene asked, putting away some clean linens.
"Lirene." I nodded. "I came to see if you found any more information about the ones that got away." I said cryptically. You never know who was listening in. Lirene nodded and we went into a semi-private bunker that was empty at the moment.
"I was wondering when you would come by again. We recently found a few that have gotten drunk in the Hanged Man that bragged about their so called 'achievements' on putting the knife-ears where they belong." Lirene whispered. Arinda huffed and crossed her arms. "It's just what I heard. It seems they spend a lot of time in Darktown over by the abandoned mines near the paths that the slavers take." I nodded and took out a few silvers for Lirene. We got out and Arinda growled out, the air growing hotter around her.
"I can't wait to fucking meet them." Arinda said through clenched teeth. I stopped.
"What are you planning on doing?" I crossed my arms.
"Why the fuck does it matter?" Arinda snapped.
"I need to know." I stood firm. Arinda scoffed before taking a deep breath and calming down. Fenris glared at me. He recognized magic anywhere.
"Simple. A life for a life." Arinda said harshly. She glared up at me, her nails digging into her palm to the point where a few drops of blood hit the ground. I gave her a look of disappointment.
"This is not what you should be doing." Fenris sighed.
"Pot calling the kettle black Mr. I'm going to kill my master when I see him for everything he's done to me?" I raised my eyebrow.
"That is different." Fenris argued. I rolled my eyes.
"Fine. I'll take you to them. What do you afterward is up to you but I will tell you this:" I crouched down to get to her eye level. "A life is a great burden and when you kill with intent, that person's soul will weigh you down. Make sure that this is what you want to do." I ruffled her hair but she swatted my hand.
"What about the animals you kill and eat? The bugs you step on. Don't preach to me about the burden of killing when you only count humans, elves, and dwarves." Arinda went through the stairs to go into Darktown. I sighed and Fenris gave me a look.
"What?"
"Are you really letting a child walk into murder?" Fenris asked. I frowned.
"Let's make sure she doesn't hurt herself first." I mumbled.
"Nia." Fenris grabbed my arm.
"You trust me don't you?" I stared him down. Fenris sighed before letting go.
"Do not do anything you regret." He mumbled. I poked his face while he swatted my hand away. We followed Arinda to Darktown. There were shifty people around us and I made sure I was near Arinda at all times. She was a little girl on her way to vengeance. I grabbed her right before she walked into a few loose boards that were covering a man hole. Arinda grumbled a thank you while I took her wrist and led her the right way.
Fenris made sure to use his death glare and keep those who wanted to do us harm away. Arinda struggled against my grip before she came to terms that I wasn't going to let go. I found where Lirene told me and went into a hidden room near them. There were four of them, lounging around, making cat calls to every single woman that passed by, getting drunk off of the really cheap alcohol that was nothing more than literal poison.
"Hey did you hear about the fires?" One drawled out. They all laughed. Arinda's body grew warm again and she scratched at her arm to control herself. I flicked it and gave her a stare to stop it. She pouted away. They were all getting drunk and wasted.
"They are right in front of you." I crossed my arms and leaned against the wall.
"I know..." Arinda took a breath.
"What do you think will happen Fenris?" I asked nonchalantly.
"She will kill them with what little magic she knows, run rampant into the streets, and a Templar will force her into the Circle or kill her on site, screaming about abominations running amok." Fenris said sarcastically. Arinda gave him a death glare.
"No one asked you Spiky." Arinda grumbled. I swear I could see Fenris pop out an angry vein anime style.
"Well either that or someone could see an elf child killing more humans if she decides not to use magic. I mean, all they're doing is standing around, getting drunk, nearly pissing themselves at how wasted they are. Even a child could kill them." I shrugged my shoulders. Arinda clenched her fists.
"Be quiet." She whispered.
"I'm merely commentating on the things that might happen if you go through with it. Kill them with magic? Templars are going to come out and try to find you. Kill them yourself and have someone witness it? Well another elf killing another human. I already have problems trying to stop people from 'defending' me against the Alienage. You really think that people will take this event and not use it as an excuse to really tear down the Alienage?" I wondered. Arinda bit her lip. "Either way, kill them here or kill them later or not at all. It's your choice. I only brought you here." One of the men threw up and it had hints of blood in it. I saw Arinda deflate and the hot air around her dissipate.
"...We will never have peace. War, death, revenge. It will never be enough and it will never stop! We will always suffer." Arinda clenched her fist and her lips pulled back to show her teeth.
"They will get what's coming to them. I can tell you now, with the way they're drinking, they will probably be dead in two years in the worst pain imaginable." I assured Arinda.
"I want them to suffer..." Arinda whispered somberly. "Why did you bring me here when you know I wouldn't be able to do it? Were you mocking me? Showing me that I can never do anything for my family?" Arinda bit her lip. I sighed and patted her head. She actually didn't flinch or swat my hand away.
"To teach you a lesson. You kill them? Someone will see and then they will kill other elves. Then the elves will kill humans and so on and so forth. The cycle of hatred marches on. It's still going and it will keep going but you have the choice to break that cycle. Hate them all you'd like but are they really worth all those consequences?" I said as Arinda stared up at me. She shook her head. "You don't have to forgive them and I know you never will but you still have the choice to either be like them or rise above."
"...I think I want to go back." Arinda said softly. I gave her a small smile and nodded. We left the guys back in Darktown. Fenris gave me another discernible look. I didn't know what he could be thinking. We got back to Lowtown and Arinda stopped. She motioned me down to her and I crouched before she gave me a slap in the face.
"Ow!"
"I get it ok!? I shouldn't kill and I shouldn't even begin thinking on doing that but what do I do now!? Where do I go!?" Arinda clenched her fists and bit her lip. I rubbed my cheek while Fenris shook his head.
"You live and you move on. Make another life. Hard as it is for a child your age, you must learn to survive. There are many ways to rise. You can use that hatred you feel for them to make your life better." Fenris explained.
"And if you think you still can't do it, you can always count on me. I said I'll help you with anything as long as it will get you to forgive me." I chuckled. Arinda huffed.
"I already did...Thank you." Arinda said bashfully. I patted her head as I chuckled. Fenris smirked and shook his head. Arinda cocked her head to the side.
"Are you two lovers?" She asked. I gaped while Fenris snorted. I felt my face flush up to my ears.
"What!?"
"Where does she learn these things?" Fenris rolled his eyes.
"You two seem really close." Arinda said bluntly. I laughed.
"Look Fenris and I are just friends, nothing more ok?" The things that kids say.
"...That's what they all say."
Oh man so glad that this one was shorter than the last xD Many thanks to FearaNightmare for your help with Arinda and allowing me to use your character! 3
Shout out to angelbeets for favoriting!
Ariel: Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, usually comes when you're in intensive traumatic events which causes anxiety, panic attacks, depression, and other mental ailments. It's not pretty and you don't have to be in combat to even acquire it.
PinkStalker23: Morrigan can be very loving I believe and Eren was wrong in pushing everyone away. I am actually slightly proud that I was able to make you hate him weirdly enough but humans aren't perfect. I think Eren is a perfect example of a person being pushed too far and thinking that he doesn't have a way out.
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