Chapter Twenty-Nine
Love

"Yes, I'm sure," Roxas said and his voice surprised him with it's strength. Axel sat up quickly and stood, reaching down and offering the blonde his hand. Roxas took it and was hoisted off the couch. Axel began walking in the direction of the blonde's room and Roxas' stomach was twisting constantly, his heart pounding in his temples as he forced his legs to move one after the other. They felt weak, and he couldn't wait till he could lay down. He didn't want to collapse and frighten Axel, it's just it felt like he was walking on clouds.

The punk released his hand when they were standing beside the bed and Roxas crawled onto it slowly, turning and facing the punk with wide eyes, his cheeks still burning. Axel shrugged the green Orgy 13 sweater Roxas had gotten him, off his shoulders, Roxas just realizing he had worn it, and he smiled reassuringly when the punk looked over at him. Roxas began to unbutton his black cardigan with shaking fingers; Axel smiled and crawled onto the bed.

"Here," he breathed softly and helped Roxas, the blonde swallowed thickly staring at Axel's exposed pale shoulders. He lifted his hands and touched the warm skin, trailing his fingers down the punk's thin arms and enjoying the soft feel of them. Axel pulled the cardigan from Roxas' shoulders and the boy tugged his arms out of them. The red head tossed it away and smiled softly at the blonde, making his heart jump and Roxas reached out, curling his fingers in the black fabric of Axel's undershirt. With one strong tug, he took it off the punk, and his heart jumped right into his throat at the sight of a smooth, pale chest. Axel's cheeks took on a pink tint and he leaned forward and began kissing Roxas again, slowly and passionately. Heat pooled under the boy's navel and he ran his hands down Axel's soft back, the pads of his spread fingers pressing into the boy's warm skin when the punk started to slowly unbutton his dress shirt. The cool air of the room touched the overheated skin of his chest and he blushed brightly, the realization of being naked in front of Axel finally sinking in.

Soon they were down to just their pants and Roxas stared at Axel's button with a look of deep concentration on his face. The punk didn't have any belts on and Axel sat on his knees, long fingers slowly unbuttoning his own pants while Roxas watched entranced. Axel chuckled and shimmed out of the tight material easily, leaving him in nothing but his black boxer-briefs. Roxas blushed, admiring the boy's long legs as the redhead scooted back and undid the button of Roxas' slacks.

"You still sure?" Axel asked as he gently tugged them from Roxas' legs, the boy stared down at him and realized just how gorgeous the punk was, not as if he had never seen it before, but it felt like he was seeing it again, it was like it was the first day of school all over again. His heart felt like it had stopped but in reality, it was pounding near a million miles per hour. Roxas nodded because words would simply fail him at this point and lifted his hips aiding in the removal of his pants. Once his legs were revealed he felt embarrassed and wanting nothing more than to hide under the covers but Axel quickly crawled back up, pressing their bare chests together and making Roxas dizzy as he kissed the air right out of his lungs. He forgot about his unclothed state and responded hungrily to the kiss, gasping when Axel pressed their arousals together.

The punk's large hands danced down the boy's bare sides and Roxas shivered as Axel gripped the waistband of his boxers, Roxas gripped the teen's shoulders and opened his eyes to find Axel looking at him. He smiled feeling the fabric of his boxers slide off his legs and he finished by kicking them off, making Axel grin as he tugged down his own.

They were pressed together, every inch of bare skin touching and Roxas' head was swimming, a choked moan escaped his lips when Axel kissed his neck, simultaneously wrapping his warm fingers around Roxas' member. "Still sure?" Axel breathed softly and Roxas simply nodded his head vigorously, wanting to keep that amazing feeling on his lower anatomy. Axel kissed his neck softly, trailing up towards his ear and when the punk reached his lobe, he kissed it softly, "You're beautiful Roxas," The boy shuddered as Axel squeezed him gently, the heat under his belly button exploded and spread through-out his body as he panted. There was that feeling again, like a coil being pressed down and tightened, feeling like it was about to break free. Roxas shut his eyes and arched off the bed slightly. Axel kissed back down his exposed neck, removing his hand and making Roxas flop back onto the bed. He tried to control his breathing and watched as Axel looked around the room and a soft scowl appeared on his face.

"W-what's wrong," Roxas panted and Axel smiled softly and looked over at him.

"You wouldn't happen to have…any lotion?" Axel asked and the bright blush that adored the punk's face surprised Roxas and he simply stared at the pink tint on the boy's cheeks. He looked so...adorable, Roxas had to smile and grabbed his face softly between his hands, Axel seemed slightly confused and Roxas licked his dry lips.

"You…you look…amazing," Roxas said, his voice not sounding very strong but it was filled with love. Axel's blush brightened, he looked down, his dark lashes resting in his red cheeks, and Roxas pulled him forward, pressing their lips together and kissing the punk slowly.

Axel pulled away and cleared his throat, still blushing and smiled gently at Roxas, caressing his sides and asking about the lotion again when it appeared that Roxas had completely forgotten. The blonde's eyes widened and he was about to ask why Axel needed hand lotion but again, Larxene's voice rang through his ears. The blonde blushed deeply, eyes slightly widening before he threw his arm out clumsily to the side and patted around the night stand. Axel chuckled and leaned down; unconsciously, his body pressing against Roxas' and the blonde could feel Axel's own arousal pressing against his stomach. The boy shuddered, biting his bottom lip as Axel found the lotion, and uncapped it.

"I'm going to ask again—" Roxas groaned and rolled his eyes as he gripped Axel's shoulders pulling the redhead down and silencing him by kissing him roughly, his tongue dancing inside the punk's mouth and Axel seemed shocked but responded quickly, making Roxas moan softly and the blonde broke the kiss with a smile. Axel was staring down at his face with concern, biting on his bottom lip and Roxas cupped the boy's face, his thumb tracing his lip and pulling it out from between his teeth. Roxas' gaze was soft and loving, showing the punk just with his eyes how much he wanted this and just how sure he was. "I love you," Roxas whispered and Axel grinned before coating his fingers and lowering them.

"Pull your legs to your chest," Axel said softly and Roxas complied, hooking his hands in the hollow behind his knees and pulling them back. He was blushing furiously, his heart pounding so hard he thought it was going to fly out of his chest. He was terrified, but he wouldn't let Axel know, he didn't want to ruin this moment by telling the punk he was scared. Axel might want to stop and Roxas didn't want to, he wanted this more than anything. So instead of voicing his fear, he smiled when Axel shot him a concerned glance. He was tired of being afraid, he was going to just…He gasped loudly when a long finger was inserted into his entrance, his body automatically clenching around the intrusion, all coherent thought completely forgotten.

"Hey, hey…relax," Axel's soft voice whispered into his ear and his body slowly did as it was told. Roxas wrapped his arms around the other boy's neck and feared he was suffocating him but Axel didn't seem bothered as he kissed Roxas softly. The finger moved around inside of Roxas and made him shudder, it felt so strange inside of him, yet it felt…nice.

It slid out and when it came back, another joined it with more cool lotion slicked on the fingers. A sharp sting shot through him and he shut his eyes tight, forcing his body to relax. He had felt things much more painful than this; he had re-aligned his own nose for crying out loud, this was nothing compared that that, he could handle this.

Roxas smiled against Axel's lips, relaxing fully as the punk took the two out and inserted a third finger after applying more lotion. This time, no matter how much Roxas tried to talk himself into relaxing he couldn't. It stung horribly and he shivered, a small, pained gasp escaping into Axel's mouth and the punk pulled away looking worried. Roxas opened his eyes and caressed the punk's cheek in a way he hoped was reassuring.

"I-I'm fine," he gasped out and Axel bit his bottom lip in worry, again Roxas pulled it out of his mouth and kissed it softly, nuzzling his nose into the punk's soft cheek. Axel kissed his temple, trying to help Roxas relax. Roxas shifted trying to ease the pain in his lower back, forgetting that the fingers still inside of him and with his movement they brushed something in him, the name of it escaped him at that moment in time, but he knew that he knew what it was.

His body spasmed and he tossed his head back, a soundless moan opening his mouth. "K-keep going, please," Roxas managed and felt Axel shift, the punk trailing gentle kisses down his neck and along his chest. The redhead began to move his fingers, the pain returning but every time it got too strong, Axel would brush that tiny bundle of nerves and Roxas' body would loosen, his small frame shivering in pleasure.

Axel pulled all the fingers out soon enough and reached for the lotion that lay thrown on the bed, Roxas sat up slightly, and reached for it. The punk handed it over, confusion creasing his brow and Roxas tried not to fumble with the slightly slippery bottle as he squeezed a portion into his hands. His eyes trailed down Axel's body, all the way to where his member was, and Roxas felt his throat drying as he reached for it tentatively. His fingers wrapped around it, the cool lotion contrasting with the scorching heat of Axel's skin. The punk hissed out a breath, the muscles in his thighs tensing and Roxas' heart pounding in his temples, his entire body buzzing with excitement. He lathered the lotion all over Axel, his face burning with a blush yet he enjoyed the way it felt in his hand, the smooth feel of the punk's skin and fluid movement. The boy could have continued if Axel wouldn't have stopped him.

"R-Rox…that's enough," The punk breathed and Roxas plopped back onto the bed, Axel following him and connecting their lips hungrily. "Shit…that felt so good Roxas," Axel smirked and Roxas blushed furiously, his arms shakily wrapping around Axel's chest as the boy shifted closer. The hot tip of his member pressed against Roxas' entrance and the boy jumped, a gasp slipping past his lips.

"Are you ready?" Axel asked and Roxas nodded his head, shutting his eyes as the redhead slowly began sliding into him. The amount of lotion made the action easier but it still stung, the sharp pain settling right in Roxas' lower back and spreading down his legs. It burned and his body wanted nothing more than to clench around the intrusion and stop it from going any further but Roxas forced himself to relax. Axel looked at him, his eyes laden with worry and he bit his bottom lip, Roxas would have pulled it out but his fingers were busy digging into the punk's shoulder blades. The redhead kissed Roxas' nose before speaking "Take deep breaths through your nose and let them out through your mouth…like pregnant women," The punk suggested and Roxas felt his body quivering, he didn't know whether to take the advice of laugh at it. He decided he could manage both. His laughter sounded choppy and Axel grinned as Roxas began breathing how he instructed. Once his breathing had a good pattern he opened his eyes.

Roxas was surprised to see the strained expression on the punk's face, sweat collecting over his brow and making stray red hairs, that had slipped from his pony tail, stick to his skin. Roxas realized he was sweating furiously too, and swallowed thickly, as he wiped a few hairs away from Axel's face gently. The punk smiled at him, and it warmed Roxas' insides. A smile told the boy how much the redhead loved him.

"Does…it hurt?" Axel breathed and Roxas shook his head, even if it felt like he was being torn in two. He didn't want Axel to feel bad or guilty. The pain was slowly subsiding the longer Axel stayed still and after a few minutes, Roxas motioned for Axel to continue. The punk began at once and Roxas squeezed him, his head pressing firmly into the pillows as he tried to stop the pained cry that was threatening to break free from his throat.

Finally Axel stilled, fully seated inside the small boy and Roxas noticed the boy's arms were quivering as he tried to hold himself up. Roxas hugged him tightly, trying to control his ragged breathing and he could hear Axel's panted breaths as well. "Whenever you're ready Roxas," Axel's voice sounded hoarse and the blonde nodded his head, forcing every muscle in his body to relax except for the ones that were holding Axel. The punk pulled out and slowly eased his way back in, Roxas shuddered, feeling filled to the very brim was something indescribable and he shakily wrapped his legs around Axel's waist, hooking them at the ankles as the punk found a steady rhythm.

Roxas found himself raising his hips to meet every thrust, wanting more contact, small moans escaping him and Axel was panting by his ear, the warm breath making him shiver as he dug his blunt fingernails into Axel's shoulder blades. He tried to press himself even closer, wanting to feel everything, every inch of skin and he did, the punk's body was burning, and Roxas was willing to bet his was just as hot. He could feel sweat rolling off himself and into his sheets, the redhead's sweat making their skin stick in certain places. Roxas groaned as Axel pushed deeper into him, his eyes rolling into the back of his head.

With a particular thrust, Axel hit that bundle of nerves again, white-hot pleasure bursting through Roxas and a loud, wanton moan escaped his lips, his head lolling to the side and Axel shifted, sitting up and gripping the headboard of the blonde's bed. It changed their angle slightly and ensured that the punk kept hitting the same spot repeatedly. Roxas' moans became frequent, his legs quivering as they squeezed the punk's waist, dragging Axel closer every time. That coil inside of him was being forced down more and more, he could feel it tightening and he knew it was ready to just release, nothing was going to hold it down.

"Ah ah, Axel," Roxas moaned and the punk slid his hands down the headboard, dropping them on either side of Roxas' head. The boy looked up and smiled, his hands coming to hold either side of the punk's sweaty face. Axel smiled around a soft moan of Roxas' name before he leaned down and pressed their forehead's together.

"I love you, Roxas," He gasped and the blond bit his lip, moaning out his love in return.

The coil sprung free then and Roxas released on their stomachs with a breathless cry of Axel's name. The punk followed soon after, thrusting a few more times into the spent body beneath him before he dropped beside Roxas. Their pants filled the room and the odd sensation of Axel's release made Roxas shudder as he shifted closer to the punk, who happily pulled the boy's body flush against his. Roxas smiled sleepily and kissed the redhead's chin.

"I love you so much," He whispered, his brain simply speaking for him without his consent but he found he didn't care. He would repeat it a million times if he had too. Axel smiled brightly, wrapping the boy up in a sticky hug.

They lay in silence for a short while and Roxas traced the fading cut on Axel's chest with his index finger, he couldn't believe the boy's life had been in danger because of him…the very thought still made his heart clench painfully. He looked up and saw that the gentle touch was lulling Axel to sleep but he knew they couldn't just fall asleep naked and covered in sweat…amongst other things.

"Axel," he whispered shaking the boy's shoulder. The older teen just grunted and opened his eyes, peering down at Roxas through his dark lashes.

"Let's shower," Roxas said with a smile, the punk sat up quickly, grinning happily before rolling off the bed, and walking to Roxas' side as the boy struggled to get up.

"Alright, lemme help you there," Axel said, picking the tiny blonde up bridal style, and earning an indignant squeak as he carried Roxas all the way to the bathroom.

Roxas smacked the boy's chest, laughing crazily as he was placed into the shower, Axel following him shortly after and turning on the water. Freezing water splashed them both, making them scurry away to the far end of the bath tub, away from the spray and Roxas nudged Axel. "Turn on the hot water," he whined with chattering teeth and Axel whirled around, staring at the boy with wide eyes.

"W-why do I have to go under the spray?" Axel's lips were turning a light shade of blue. The water was freezing and Roxas laughed through his teeth, rubbing his arms.

"Because I love you," Roxas responded and the punk had no choice but to force himself under the cold water.

Soon it was under control, they wrapped their arms around each other, both sharing the hot water and basking in the feeling of being in each other's arms. Roxas sighed, enjoying the feeling of hot water running along his body, undoing the knot that had settled in his lower back as it washed away the evidence of their actions and Axel hummed contently while stroking Roxas' back. The blonde felt at peace and everything was perfect.

"ROXAS, we're home!" The sound of Sora shouting however, was not enjoyable nor was it perfect.


A/N: LET'S KICK IT UP A NOTCH!
BAM!
SEX SCENE!
-more Emeril hand gestures-

Alright so, I'm terrible at writing love scenes when one of the partakers is an innocent, timid, little virgin.
It's hard because they are SO awkward...v___v

Atleast Roxas knew some stuff, so he was aware of how it all worked. (Thank you Larxene, shit, what would I do without you!)