Author's Note: I'm sure most people have noticed that I've never been regular about updating this thing. I'm like this with everything I write and it's why I publish a lot of one and two shots because they're easy enough to hold my attention long enough to finish. Considering how passionate I was at one time about the theme and the source material, I really tried with this fic though, restricting myself so that I'd be more likely to get further.
After the series finale and being disenchanted with the final seasons I started to stray from the fic a little as there were very few characters currently living and regularly in the series that I didn't hate at that point and I already truly didn't like Sutter. However, I was initially drawn back even when I wasn't yet getting reviews because I was still truly passionate about my series OTP (Chibs/Fiona) and wanted to pretend that everything that had happened between him and Jarry had never happened, and I'd also (possibly surprisingly until you realize who my favorite actor is) wanted to continue with something that kept my favorite series villain/favorite TV villain period, Jimmy O., around a little longer. At one point I even had a sequel planned.
However, most of my fandom buddies drifted to other fandoms and I did too. However, by that time I'd actually started to get reviews on this thing so it was no longer only my child and I picked through my ruined feelings about the series the best I could, reminding myself that I still really loved Fiona Larkin and still got as excited about seeing SOA actors in movies in TV shows I watched. I tried to stick with my original planned vision for the fic and I thought I did that pretty well.
However, around the time I last updated I first devoted my time to coming up with a piece for a ship week for another fandom I mentioned a couple chapters back and then I discovered three new TV shows and decided to catch up on a couple I'd watched before. By that point I began to really loose my fic interest. I tried to mend this by adding an SOA rewatch to the mix. However, without the rose tinted fangirl glasses of my first watch, I didn't even get two or three episodes in before I began to notice lots of plot holes and realized I could no longer see any of the characters as the versions of them I once loved.
I'm not gonna say there's a 100% chance this fic will never be updated again or that I'll never write little one shots for Chibs and Fiona again, BUT I will state that there's more of a chance now that it could be a possibility. This fic won't be deleted since I know I'd probably come up with a streak of inspiration the moment I lost it forever, but I wanted to make sure readers were aware of the possibility of it being finished.
I also refuse to hand it off to other hands for finishing as I do actually have a vision in my mind of what I want to happen, just the inability to form the right words or truly get a feel for most of the characters again.
