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Morgana opened her eyes and was greeted by darkness and the faint smell of herbs tickled her nose. At once she knew that she was not in her own bed, but it was still a familiar place. She tried to sit up and was beset with a sharp pain in her side that caused her to gasp. The pain triggered the memory of the attack…she had been injured while stopping the kidnapping of her niece. Merlin had intervened with magic. She looked around the darkness and found that she was indeed in the physician's chambers in the bed she had been taken to at the beginning of her imprisonment. Only this time there was a form next to her sleeping. Merlin was snoring softly beside her; his hand was resting next to her form like he had been touching her before drifting off to sleep. He did come back for her and brought her here. At once a warm feeling started in her chest at his actions and after a moment she stamped them back down. The man was making things increasingly more complicated for her…as were everyone else treating her with kindness. It would be much easier to hate them if they treated her like a damned prisoner instead of a friend.
Morgana reached down with her hand and felt her side, probing it gently. The wound throbbed in pain and she felt bandages as well as the faint bumps of stitches. So the wound was deep enough for stitches. The sorceress tried to sit up again and the bed creaked. Merlin's eyes came open and landed on her. The blue orbs met her green ones and he instantly moved from his seat to kneel next to the bed. "You should stay still. You lost a lot of blood." He said softly.
"I'm fine."
"No you aren't, but I know you are going to be stubborn." Merlin whispered a spell and a light came to life atop his palm. He held the light close to Morgana's side and looked it over. She was still bleeding from the wound and the dark red stain did not worry Merlin overmuch. He knew that she would still be bleeding from the inside of the wound and he would need to keep an eye on it to make sure that infection did not set in.
"I'm not stubborn," At his look of 'oh really' she sighed, "Well I may be stubborn but I'm still fine. I want to go back to my room."
"Not until morning." He gently pushed her back down and she relented without much of a struggle, mostly because it hurt her to sit up.
"Is Ellie okay?"
"She's fine, if a little shaken. The girl had quite a full day, don't you think?"
Morgana smiled, "Good. I'm glad she is alright."
"You could have let them take her. Why didn't you?"
Morgana's brow furrowed as she tried to come up with an answer, but instead shrugged and instantly regretted it as the pain intensified in her side. "I don't know."
"I think you do. I think you care about her. I think you love her."
"No. It's not that. It's definitely not that. If anyone is going to kidnap and kill her it will be me, not some cut rate assassin." Morgana asserted, although it was indeed a lie.
Merlin just smiled and got up from the floor, "Whatever you say."
"Why did you save me then? Why not merely let him finish the job that he started?" she gestured to her side with a small wave of her hand.
Merlin shrugged his shoulders and turned away from her to reach another set of bandages. "It was the right thing to do." He turned back to her with the clean bandages in hand. "I'm going to brace your wound again and wrap you tighter. Are you able to sit up?"
Morgana lifted herself up despite the constant pain in her side so he could wrap her again. She tried not to think about the warmth and strength of his palms as he held her still and wrapped her again. "So morality? Keeping your hands clean of my blood? And here I thought what we shared a week ago was special." She teased him, but secretly she wanted to hear him admit to her what he thought about it.
Merlin blushed and finished wrapping her, "I wouldn't have called it special." He mumbled and shifted uncomfortably.
Morgana couldn't help the smirk that graced her features. He was embarrassed and that was adorable, "You're blushing."
"No I'm not." He argued, "You need your rest. You lost a lot of blood and it's making you see things." He added quickly and took a seat back on his chair while Morgana lowered herself back down.
"Sweet little Merlin is embarrassed by our playtime." She kept teasing him, thoroughly enjoying herself.
"Shhhh. Gaius is sleeping." He cast a worried look over at the physician who was still sleeping soundly.
"I have nothing to hide, Merlin." She told him, but lowered her voice. "You, on the other hand, do."
Merlin used his fingers and ran them through his hair, a habit that he had cultivated. "I just don't understand it."
"What?"
"This…lust…this crazy obsession that I have with you. I mean you were always beautiful, stunning even, kind and compassionate and I was attracted to you then. There weren't many men who weren't attracted to you. But it had never been like this. I have this urge to possess you and it's driving me mad." His voice had grown deeper as he spoke and it made her body start to tingle and grow hotter.
She, however, was in no position to give into her bodies' desire with her blood loss and weakness and especially her pain. And gods help her…she wanted to. "I don't know either." Her heartbeat was getting faster.
"I think you do. I think you did something to me….a long time ago." Merlin leaned closer to her while still in the chair.
"Maybe it's only a coincidence. Maybe you already felt this way about me and didn't know it." Morgana was loathe to tell him about the hovel and the formorrah.
"I don't think so. But what do you suggest?"
"I suggest that you kiss me and I will tell you whatever you think you want to know." She challenged him, confident that he would back down. He was getting closer and closer to her and her hormones were roaring to life.
"Deal." Much to both Merlin and Morgana's surprise he answered her. Morgana tried to sit up again and hissed in pain. Merlin's hands gently grasped her shoulders and exerted pressure to keep her still and nearly horizontal. He was leaning over her and looking at her with a curiously intense stare. "Don't hurt yourself."
There was that husky note in his voice that her body did not want to resist. They stared at each other for a few moments and Merlin leaned over Morgana and their lips inched closer and closed by the second until they were separated by a mere breath. Their hearts were beating in tandem and the rhythm had grown to a roar in their ears.
They stayed like that for much more time than she should have in Morgana's opinion and she was about to reach up and pull him down to her but then he brushed those lips of his gently against her and she relaxed her body while her lips sought more contact with his. Merlin had one palm still resting on her shoulder to keep her from moving while the teased them both with feather light caresses of his lips with hers.
Morgana tried to bring him closer but movement only mad her wound throb and sent sharp pains arcing through her side. But she was so preoccupied with that he was doing that it didn't really bother her. Merlin pulled back again, their lips a finger width apart, "Tell me, Morgana. We had a deal." Merlin knew that he was playing a game that he knew very little about.
The very fact that she was responding to him told him that she was craving him too. That this attraction was not one sided. Either that or she was action, but Merlin doubted that. Someone who had been raped did not act and feign attraction like this.
"What?" Morgana blinked and tried to focus on his features.
He brought his lips down and continued to tease her. "If you want it you have to tell me."
Morgana let out a frustrated noise and struggled in his grasp. She winced at the pain that shot through her side. Merlin saw the wince and decided not to do what he intended. He was going to try to seduce her into spilling her secrets to him, "Stop moving, Morgana, you will tear the stitches I put in, then you will be in even more pain."
Morgana stilled and opened her yes and hissed, "Well if you would just kiss me then I wouldn't have to."
Merlin chuckled softly at her tone and pulled back. His eyes landed on her bandaged side and his stomach twisted into a knot at the red stain that decorated the second set of bandages. He sighed and used a knife that was on the table next to the bed to cut the bandages. "It looks like you tore your stitches."
"Well if you would have just kissed me instead of trying to seduce me for information then you wouldn't have this problem now would you?" She snarled at him and arched her eyebrow at him.
Merlin groused, "Well if you tried to do it then why couldn't I?" her next reaction surprised him enough that he nearly cut into her skin again in shock.
She just started laughing, Morgana Pendragon laughed at him and winced when she took another breath.
"You aren't mad that I tried to do that to you?" Merlin was rather confused at this sudden turn of mood and hurriedly looked at Gaius to make sure that he was still sleeping.
Morgana smiled, "Oh, Merlin. Your attempt at seduction was cute and I am rather proud of you to try such underhanded methods to get what you wanted. Looks like I'm rubbing off on you."
Merlin blushed, "Well that wasn't what I was trying to do."
"Good, because subterfuge doesn't suit you at all. Stick to what you know." Merlin pulled the bandages back with a wet sound and she had in fact torn her skin in a few places. "Ouch." Morgana commented as she also examined the wound. Merlin sighed and tried to get up before Morgana put a hand on his shoulder to stop him. "Couldn't you heal this?"
"Oh…probably. I'm not that skilled at healing and if I did then there would be a lot of questions from the wrong kind of people don't you think?"
"Fine." Merlin used the needle and thread on her wound again and Morgana watched his hands silently, as if in deep thought. He wasn't nearly as nervous this time and Morgana barely winced with pain at the needle punctures. After he was done Merlin smeared an anti-infective paste on it and rebound the wound.
"No more moving." Merlin chided her.
"Kiss me now."
Merlin leaned over and his lips met hers in a chaste and quick kiss. "Does that please you, Mi'lady?"
"Quite."
"Now what were you going to tell me then?" He was still looking at her with amusement.
Morgana sighed and closed her eyes tightly before telling Merlin something that shocked him to his core, "When I took you into my hovel and woke you up I put a Formorrah in your neck. What you don't remember about it is that we had sex in my hovel that day as well." She rushed through the last sentence, trying to sound as neutral as possibly.
Merlin's smile faded and he blinked several times, quite speechless, "What?"
"I used the Formorrah to have sex with you in my hovel."
"No you didn't." The argument was reflexive. Merlin didn't remember having sex with her. He would have definitely remembered if they had.
"We did. A few times in fact."
"I would remember if we had sex, Morgana." He was still confused.
"The Formorrah can cause some memory loss. But we did."
Merlin was silent, images and thoughts running rampant in his head along with anger. So this was her fault. This obsession. She must have cast some sort of enchantment on him. "So it is your fault then." Revelation blanketed his tone.
"What is my fault exactly?"
"That you didn't have anything to do with our insane attraction because now it makes sense. You did something to me." The stirrings of anger flared to life beneath his breast.
"That's nonsense. I wouldn't have needed to. I took you and used you and I was done with you."
"Good to know." Merlin's anger was only getting hotter.
"Look, I'm not sorry for what I did to you but I didn't enchant you or seduce you or anything like that. I used you for a one time deal and that was it. Whatever you think I did to you, I didn't. I shouldn't have even told you about it. I was being nice. I won't let it happen again if you accuse me of something I didn't do."
"You've lied before."
"Alright then," she hissed, "Believe what you want. But answer me this. If I enchanted you then why is it that I also feel this pull towards you? I think you did something to me, made me weak for you." Merlin pulled back from her.
"So you had sex with me without my knowing then? You practically did to me what those soldiers and Sarrum did to you." After the words left his mouth he knew that he shouldn't have said them. She stiffened and glared at him with hate in her eyes.
"The Formorrah controls it's bearer but I assure you, your actions were all your own. Now get out. I don't want you here anymore." When Merlin didn't move she yelled at him, "GO!" And Gaius stirred in his bed while Merlin stalked back to his room and although he wanted to slam the door he shut it quietly but firmly. And he was just starting to trust her again. To like her and she had to tell him that. And then told him that she had nothing to do with his obsession. What if she didn't? It didn't matter. Or did it? Merlin stalked over to his bed and took off his clothes before getting under the covers. It would be a long time before sleep would calm him however, his confusion about Morgana only growing with each passing minute and he resisted the urge to go back to her and apologize for his words. She had to learn that her actions had consequences and going back to tell her that it was alright would send the wrong signals.
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Morgana was angry and wanted to hit something, Merlin's face to be exact. How dare he accuse her of rape. But you sort of did. I mean you had sex with him without his consent. He had enjoyed it. He had wanted it too. But maybe she shouldn't have told him anyway. He didn't really need to know but she didn't want that dragon to have one up on her. It was stupid regardless and she should have told him later when she could have run after him. As it was she was exhausted and weak and her head was pounding and her heart felt like it was racing out of her chest. Morgana tried to fight the sleep that was demanding her consciousness but lost the battle a few minutes after Merlin had gone into his room. What filled her head that night were not her usual nightmares but ones that were new but no less damning to her sanity. She dreamed of betrayal and blood and death.
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Merlin woke up to the light of the rising sun shining in his face. He felt even more tired than he had last night. All night he had tossed and turned and stewed over what Morgana had told him. The dreams that ran through his mind of her body were true…at least some of them. This was how he remembered what had happened. The timing and everything had made sense, but for some reason he couldn't summon more anger at the circumstance. She had lied to him and used him and continued to lie to him but she still saved Ellie at her own expense and talked with Gwen and even Arthur. Before his eyes she appeared to be changing, but only time would tell if it continued. Merlin rubbed his eyes and sat up in bed. Gaius would want him up soon.
Morgana would be out there…and he didn't know what to think about that. Now that he knew he felt awkward to be out there and he didn't know how he would face Arthur without giving it away. It was easy to hide what they had done a week ago…maybe he was making too much of it. No…he wasn't. He was still angry with her but the anger had time to cool and simmer. It wasn't a rage that he felt, more of a betrayal and confusion. He should be angrier that she did that to him…but even as he was upset it was sort of a relief to know that he hadn't been going mad dreaming of her. Even if she was telling the truth there was still some sort of magical connection between them. It had to be magical, because what else could it be? The dragon wouldn't answer him. He would have to find out for himself. He would try to dream of it consciously; maybe he could dream his hidden memories and find out what happened between them.
He sat up and swung his legs over the side of the bed. Merlin used the basin of fresh cold water to wash his face, neck and forearms. He pulled on his clothes and halted at the door. When he pressed his ear to the cool wood he heard muffled conversation from the other room. Here goes nothing. Merlin opened his door to see Gaius looking over Morgana's stitches in the light of the dawn. "You will have to stay here for another day before going back to your room. You lost a lot of blood and you look rather pale. I will make you something to replenish you. Ah. There's Merlin. I'm surprised you went back to you room."
"I told him to go, Gaius. I was fine."
"I heard you yell at him."
"What?" Merlin asked, suddenly terrified that Gaius had heard the entire conversation. He would never recover from the embarrassment.
"Morgana woke me up with her yelling. You both are always arguing about something or another. And you should know better than to upset a patient. It impedes their recovery. Now, Arthur wanted to see you in the dungeons in about 30 minutes."
"I'm sorry Gaius. I didn't mean to wake you. Did he say why?"
"No. But I think it has something to do with the prisoner that is down there. Morgana killed the other one."
"Ah."
"Hello, Merlin." Morgana ventured while Gaius was wrapping her torso with another fresh bandage.
"Morgana." The response was short and clipped and she knew that he was still upset but it would take a little bit of time for him to warm up to her again. Gaius finished the wrap and she lay back down.
"Now you rest here. And I will make you some blood soup. It will help you recover."
"Blood soup?" She questioned and looked over at Merlin for an answer and he looked away at that moment.
"Oh yes. It is good for those who have lost quite a bit of blood. Women after childbirth drink it, those who have had amputations, soldiers who have had major blood loss." Gaius was rummaging through the various potions he had in his stock.
Merlin listened with amusement. The one time he had tried blood soup he had nearly wretched into a chamber pot. It was disgusting and it made him less angry at her to have to suffer through it. Merlin took a couple pieces of cheese, an apple and a hunk of bread to the table while watching the exchange from the corner of his eye.
"But what is in it."
"Oh a little of this and a little of that. Foods that help with blood production."
Morgana eyed both of the men warily. "I don't think I want it."
"Well, unfortunately, Morgana you need it or else you might not recover as quickly as you should. It's not poison. So don't worry about that." Gaius started to mix several things in a bowl. Merlin knew from experience that beef liver, spinach, beetroot juice, beans, and oats were mixed and folded into a bowl with water and the thick soup that came out of it was utterly rank and he nearly lost the food in his mouth when he saw the wide eyed look on Morgana's face. Gaius put the mixture over the stove and set it to heat up. He finished his own breakfast and washed his hands and face again before sitting down at the table. Gaius was just finishing up the soup and he ladled it into a bowl. The stuff was a dark red and green and mush and when he brought it over to Morgana she eyed the bowl like it was going to spring up and attack her.
"What's in it?"
"Things to make you well. Now eat up." He put the bowl into Morgana's hands, "I think you can feed yourself can't you? If not I can…"
"No no no. I can do it." She put the mixture up to her nose and made a face. Merlin took this opportunity to start for the door so he didn't make a fool of himself in front of her. Merlin opened the door to the hall and had just started to close it when he heard several coughs and hacks, "THIS IS DISGUSTING!"
Merlin shut the door and just started laughing on the way to the dungeon. He should have waited to see her face. Gaius would make her eat it as a kind of revenge too. Maybe he had heard their conversation last night… Merlin would probably never really know.
The dungeon was even colder than the rest of the castle this time of year, which made sense as it was down the stairs and layered with stone but today the temperature was due to the cool rage of the King as he stared at the prisoner chained to the wall. Sven stared back with an equally cold stare as the two faced off. Merlin closed the door behind him and Arthur's eyes flickered over to his servant and friend who took up station behind his king. Sven looked at Merlin, "You are an awful scrawny thing to have done that to me, boy."
Arthur clasped his hands around his back, "I will ask you again. Who hired you?"
"You thinkin you will be getting me to talk do yeh? Not after what you did to me brother." Sven snarled out.
"I think you will. I think you will be begging me to let you tell me in the end. When you are starving and thirsty and in so much pain you will want to die. That is what I do to people who threaten my family and my kingdom." Arthur was his father's son in the way he protected the nation from threats and Uther's blood was hot in his son's veins today.
"I've heard of you, soft king. You don't have the will of your father in this. Someone who lets the likes of that bitch into his home. I hope I killed 'er."
"No such luck, I'm afraid. Your brother is dead and you are here alone with no hope of escape. If you cooperate your death will be swift, if you don't…" he let the threat hang in the air.
Sven smiled, the grin was ominous in the torchlight, "Do your worst, play king. Cause I ain't talkin'."
Arthur gestured for the guards who turned him around and chained him to the wall with his back facing them. Merlin knew Arthur was serious about this. He never reverted to his father's old methods of getting information. This was a side of his friend that he had never seen. Another man held a whip in his hand and looked to Arthur, who nodded but had moved his hands to cross over his chest. The king shifted his weight side to side as if uncomfortable with his role as torturer. He looked over to Merlin who nodded at him. "Begin." The whip rose and fell on the captive's skin. The sound was sharp and loud in the dungeon and Merlin watched on as 10 lashes were given.
"Play king. You will have to do better than that."
Arthur turned to the man with the whip, "Continue until he's willing to talk or night has fallen. Either way report back to me. Come on, Merlin." Merlin turned and winced as the whip cracked over skin. He opened the door and let Arthur through first then followed, the sound of whipping echoing through the small enclave.
"I don't like torture." Arthur told him as they started to walk.
"Neither do I. Why do it so early?"
"I want answers. Because if one assassin is sent there will likely be more. I kept trying to think of enemies that I had but they have been mostly defeated in one way or another. I have to keep my family safe. We have another baby on the way and if I can't keep one daughter safe then how will I keep another child safe, as well as Gwen?"
Merlin knew his friend's worries. He had the same worries when Ellie was born, "You don't have to do it alone. You have so many people who are as devoted to Gwen and Ellie as they are to you. We just have to be more careful."
"It's like I step on eggshells. Everything I do affects everyone else. Being a King is a difficult job. I don't just have my family to take care of. I have everyone in the realm to take care of. You, the knights, my soldiers, everyone. It's overwhelming sometimes."
"And that is why you have your advisors and Gwen."
Arthur looked at him and a grin tugged at his lips, "Sometimes I think you are wiser that you let on."
"Who, me?"
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Morgana choked down the last of the rotten concoction that Gaius had made her drink. She shivered disgust and nearly threw up the entire contents of her stomach. The only thing that stopped her was that her side would hurt if she did. The entire thing was mush that tasted like metal and grass with an oaty texture. She put the bowl down and took the water that Gaius offered and after she drank the entire thing it did nothing to erase the taste in her mouth. "That was vile. Do you actually make people drink that?"
"All the time. It should help your healing process greatly." Gaius took the bowl with a smile and there was a knock at the door. "Come in."
The door opened to reveal Gwen carrying Ellie on her hip. She smiled at Gaius and walked…or rather waddled to Morgana. The girl in her arms squealed and said, "'Gana!" Gwen put her down and she toddled a few steps to the side of Morgana's bed.
Morgana smiled down at the little girl and up at her friend, "What are you doing here?"
"Ellie missed you so we decided to come and see you. After all, you did save her life."
"I couldn't let her get hurt."
"I know." Gwen lowered herself down into the chair next to the bed. She saw the bowl on the table and visibly recoiled from the dark red paste that was left inside of it. "You fed her that vile stuff?"
"I fed it to you as well." Gaius reminded her as he sorted through his potions. "I will be back soon. I have to deliver these to my patients." Gaius picked up the basket and headed out the door to leave the two women alone.
"It was awful when I had it too." Gwen told her.
"I thought it was something he made up just for me."
Gwen laughed and looked at her with an intense gaze, "Last night you did something that few others would have done and succeeded. After Arthur is done with the prisoner in the basement I was going to talk to him about loosening the guard that we have on you, allow you more time to roam."
"But I didn't do enough to get this thing off my neck."
"I already know he won't budge on it."
"What if I told you that it is going to kill me."
"What do you mean?"
"The last person who had this collar on died within a year. They got progressively weaker until the collar killed them."
"I know that Arthur won't let it come to that but you know how he is. He is stubborn. I think it's passed down by blood. Ellie's got it, you've got it. I won't let it come to that. You know that, Morgana."
"I know." She did know that Gwen wouldn't want her dead. Even after everything she had done to her…and that seemed like eons ago.
"How do you feel right now?"
"Tired, in pain, weak, nauseous, but other than that I feel wonderful. I am so tired of not doing anything and last night was so very exciting."
"Well I wouldn't want it to happen again."
"No. Of course not." Morgana replied.
Gwen stared at her for a moment before asking, "Is something wrong?"
Morgana looked at her with surprise, "What do you mean?"
"You just look like something is bothering you. I don't know how to explain it."
"It's nothing. My own issues."
"Is it Merlin? Do I have to have a talk with him again?" Morgana laughed and winced at the pain it caused. She lifted Ellie up to the bed and placed her on Morgana's uninjuried side. The girl instantly went to cuddle with her aunt.
Morgana smiled down at the girl, "Yes and no."
"What happened?" Gwen leaned in closer.
"It's complicated." Complicated didn't even cover it.
"Tell me." Ellie had sat up and started to play with her aunt's hair.
Morgana took a deep breath, "I did something back when I was living in the forest. To Merlin."
"What was it?"
"You know when I sent him to Camelot with the Formorrah in his neck? Well before I sent him back we did things…"
"Things?" Gwen asked then her eyes got wide as she processed the information in her head and she looked at Morgana with surprise, "Those kind of things?" she asked quietly, "You two did that?!"
"He didn't remember."
"What were you thinking?"
"It seemed like a brilliant idea at the time…but now I think something has happened because of it. We have this insane attraction to each other now and I don't know if it is because of what we did or if it is a natural thing between us."
"Was he upset?"
"What do you think? Of course he was upset."
"I'm sorry, Morgana, I don't know quite what to say."
"I shouldn't have told him at all."
"Yes, you should have. He cares about you and telling him is best even though it might not seem like it now. The truth is always best."
"You haven't really changed at all, have you Gwen? Always so positive."
"It's not a bad thing you know, to be positive, to be nice and kind again while getting what you want."
"Perhaps." Morgana stroked Ellie's back and hair. The girl was murmuring in her baby language.
"I should leave you alone now to rest." Gwen leaned over a picked Ellie up from her seat, "You look pale still."
"I feel fine. You don't have to go." Morgana wouldn't ask her to stay, even if she wanted to.
Gwen looked at Morgana and a small smile tugged at her lip, "You need your rest. We will come and visit you later and maybe with some good news."
Ellie waved to Morgana as they left and Morgana waved back at the child. Ellie reminded her so much of her Aithusa. Did her little dragon know about her wound? Would she be allowed to see her? If nothing else they shared a sort of parentage with Aithusa and if Morgana asked, Merlin would have to talk to her about it. He hadn't seemed angry when she saw him this morning. Perhaps he wasn't as angry as she assumed about the entire situation. As dangerous as the thought was for her, she hoped that it was true.
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So…I ended it here although I did have plans to continue it. I think that next chapter will be super long. And also….I haven't ever talked about ending my story before and I haven't thought about it much but I have decided that my story will have 50-60 chapters in it. I won't do more than that. I really don't want it to end…ever. But that won't be for a while.
Anyway! Thank you for reading and reviewing and I will see you all next week!
