Remi's Profile
Throughout everything that I did while I was not in control, the part that I regret the most is the moment I killed Vincent.
It's the moment that I, to this day, cannot stop thinking about. The moment that whenever I really think about, makes me want to just run away.
Run away from what? Well, I guess humanity. I want to get away from everyone so that I don't have to regret another innocent person's death. Another fatality by my sinful hands. Even though I haven't killed anyone innocent since that day, I still don't trust myself. I cannot forgive myself for that, no matter what.
It was also the moment that I finally realized something. Something very important. Something that I should have known for awhile now.
Vincent had never been just a Protector to me. I held him closer than anyone I have known.
&, yeah, technically have known that, but I never knew how close I held him. How tightly I held on to him. How desperately.
The first thing I really remember from that day was Vincent. I don't remember anything else prior to his death that day. I recall that I was in the air, looking down at him, & he was looking up, with all his blood surrounding him. It looked like an ocean, there was so much.
I don't remember anything that was said, or anything that I heard. All I remember is him looking me straight in the eye, with that painful, broken look on his face. It absolutely broke my heart, though I would never admit that to him.
I remember sinking slowly to the ground, but from what Kakashi told me was that I kind of fell straight down, hitting my knees hard. He said that I didn't even acknowledge the pain. I was looking straight at Vincent, who, by this time was out cold.
Also, what Kakashi told me was that I yelled out, "Ice!" a couple times & something about bandages. I don't remember that.
What I do remember of that moment was that I rushed to his side & that I rolled my sleeve up & bit my wrist, holding it up to his mouth after I put him on his back. I remembered that the fear I felt was so overpowering that I could barely think straight. Maybe it was just the thought of me killing my own Protector was so traumatic that I couldn't think properly.
Anyway, sometime between that small time period, Kakashi had gotten me bandages, but no ice. He said that they didn't carry ice with them. He later told me that I cursed pretty loudly at that piece of information. I can't remember that either.
I wrapped the bandages around Vincent's abdomen quickly after that, while still feeding Vincent as much blood as I could. I didn't know if it was helping or not, but I also had my healing powers working on him, too.
Time went by pretty fast, apparently. What I thought had only been two minutes had actually been about thirty. That was the first thing that I could comprehend that Kakashi was saying. I remember shaking my head & saying, "No. You're lying. It's only been three." I remember that I wouldn't stop shaking my head. Denial.
After another four minutes or so, a miracle happened. Vincent's eye's fluttered open, & everything seemed to unfreeze. I let out a surprised choke, & my healing powers stuttered slightly. I took my wrist away from Vincent's mouth.
"Vincent...?" I remember whispering quietly, & for the first time ever, I nearly started crying at his name.
Vincent's Profile
"Vincent...?"
Her voice was the sweetest thing I had ever heard. It felt like I hadn't heard it in so long, & I remember that I almost laughed at her voice, but I didn't. I couldn't, rather. All I could really do was turn my head & whisper a few words.
Now, I had a variety of things I could say to her. Virtually anything. I could say, 'Wasup?' for example. But that wouldn't really be appropriate for this kind of situation. So I decided to say one of the easiest, but most meaningful words I could probably ever say.
"Remi...?" I remember whispering quietly, & for the first time ever, I nearly started crying at her name.
