Through My Eyes
Chapter 28
How did we become so broken? We fell in love, and at some point, the people we love forgot to love us back.
Flashback
"I know I've been distant emotionally and otherwise and that it is only the surface of what's been going with us. But I want to fix us Hales. I need you so much. This entire situation has brought to light how out of control I've become in all aspects of my life. And I have to fix things but more importantly I want our family back together. He said to her. As she got up distancing herself from him wiping her eyes as she started to speak.
"Do you have any idea how difficult it's been." She said tears welling up in her eyes. "I've been putting on this happy face in front of everyone." "I feel like I'm completely in alone in this marriage." "You don't talk to me." "You don't let me know what you're feeling or thinking." "Do you know what it feels like to have to ask other people what's going on with you.?" "I don't know if you've given any thought to how empty and drained. This leaves me. The only good bright spot in any of this is Debra. And I will not have her effected by who you have become. I love you Nathan. But I won't allow you to make me lose myself. She said looking at him one last time as she left the hospital.
"Hales!" Nathan says his head spinning. As his heart fell in his hands.
Present time
Taking a breath as he knocked on the door. Hearing voices on the other side. As the door opened quickly. The smile quickly disappearing. While they locked eyes.
"Nathan." Haley said gently. "Come in Debra is inside." Haley said opening the door wider as he walked in carefully. Looking around at the guests. As his eyes lock on Debra in her playpen. His heart unfolding the closer he gets. Once close enough he kneels down and picks her up. Holding her close to him. Taking notice of her features and general curiosity.
"I'm your daddy. I'm sorry that I haven't been around like I should have been. But that doesn't mean I ever stopped thinking about you or loving you. You have been the only good decent accomplishment that I've done and can say that I'm proud of. I love you so much Debra. I promise you. This will be one of many visits. Happy my birthday my beautiful Scott girl." Nathan said as he kissed her cheek and put her back in her playpen.
Walking around he noticed the gift area and decided to place his presents there. As he looked closely around. He saw pictures of Haley and Debra. Along with many others. He is a stranger to his own daughter. And that thought made him sick. No being able to stand looking around at the photos any longer. He attempted to leave the room. But then he felt a hand on his shoulder. And turned around.
"Lucas." Nathan said surprised.
"Nathan let's talk outside." Lucas suggested as he lead the way to the backyard. Nathan followed quickly behind him.
"You look a lot more put together than when I saw you last." Lucas said unsure of where to look.
"Yea thanks to my parents they have really held me together." "And helped me pick up the pieces." "It's day by day." "But it's working." Nathan said back him.
"How are you and Brooke.?" Nathan asked curious.
"We're amazing." Lucas said smiling. "We got married a couple of months ago. It was small and really beautiful. We're thinking about having another baby." Lucas said happily.
"Wow things have changed." Nathan said desperately trying to hide his heart. "I'm happy for you."
"Thanks." "I wanted to reach out to you." "But I just felt like with everything that happened." "I was probably the last person you wanted to hear from."
"I had no idea." "Actually I wished you would have kept trying." "I could have really used your support and advice or just being able to talk to my brother." "Would have helped me not feel so alone." Nathan said finishing his drink.
"It doesn't matter now." "You're here and I'm here." "Hopefully we can rebuild." Lucas said as he touched his shoulder and walked over to Brooke." As she leaned into him.
Needing to clear his head. Nathan decided to go for a walk. Nothing seemed to be happening much now anyway. He thought to himself. Taking a look around the walking trail as his mind started to wander.
Flashback
They all changed their numbers. Haley moved. I got fired. They said they couldn't handle me being on the team. I had become a liability. It can't get worse. Nathan thought to himself. As he downed his pain medication. Along with the alcohol he had bought. Feeling his eyes start to shut. As he blacked out.
In the morning
He woke up. with dry tears on his face. As he ran to the bathroom. It hadn't work he was still alive. He was relieved. But the pain only got darker.
Present time
I'm such a bitch! Haley said to herself as she refreshed up in the mirror. Shaking her head. I didn't actually think he would show up. I have to stop hiding. We are Debra's parents and something has to be figured out between us. But I can barely look at him. Haley thought to herself as she quickly reapplied her lipstick. And smiled at the text she had just received.
You are so bad. Make sure you come over when the party is over. She texted back. Smiling as bit her lip. And walked back out to everyone.
